Suddenly, there was a thunderclap in the clear sky

I realized that I had been thinking highly of myself in the past

Once upon a time, everyone went hand in hand

It is only now that it is clear that everything is just an illusion

What to say, the future is bright

But the more I looked at it, the more I felt that it was out of reach

Think about it

I seem to be a little out of place in this circle

Especially after discovering that you are far from the people closest to you

Suddenly I will be afraid of myself

One day in the future, they will not be able to keep up with them completely

It's kind of ridiculous

Obviously such a proud person

Never bow your head easily

There are times when you question your own abilities

Maybe all the good things are a dream after all

Only when you really stand at the top of your own can you hold your head high"

After eating, Bai Ye hurried back to the dormitory, Chen Xiaodi also returned to the dormitory after walking around the school alone, even if there was more unwillingness, the experiments that should be done still had to be done, and the books that should be read could not be left behind.

A few days later, the National Day holiday began, and Chen Xiaodi, who needed to go home for review, carried a few handy books and question books on his back and got on the train home.

At this time, it was half past eight in the evening, Chen Xiaodi looked out the window, her appearance was reflected in the car window, there was no smile, and her bright eyes looked at the dark and deep night sky, without a little wave.

After a long time, Chen Xiaodi turned his head and suddenly found that the girl sitting diagonally opposite him was holding a small booklet and looking at it seriously. Chen Xiaodi recognized the booklet at a glance, it was one of the review materials for the graduate school entrance examination, and she also had an identical one.

Maybe this is the gap, Chen Xiaodi thought, others will always use all the available time to learn, even if they can't see much in those trivial times, but there will be great progress after accumulation.

Chen Xiaodi suddenly thought of Bai Ye, he is also such a person, he can use twenty-four hours to achieve the efficiency of forty-eight hours. In the past, Chen Xiaodi could also do this, but now both physical and psychological have greatly reduced this efficiency, but she also understands that the main reason is that her determination and will are not strong enough.

The train soon arrived at Chen Xiaodi's station, and before getting off the train, Chen Xiaodi looked back at the girl, she was still looking at the book in her hand intently, and the crowd and hustle and bustle around her seemed to have nothing to do with her.

When he got home, Chen Xiaodi lay down early, and coincidentally, Bai Ye's message today was much earlier than usual, and he wrote a longer paragraph than usual, he could always know what Chen Xiaodi was thinking.

"I know it's hard to calm yourself down when you're upset, and I know you prefer to be quiet when it's like this. It's just that today is a special day, and now you are also looking at the moon? You've been feeling a little depressed lately, and you haven't been able to say a lot of things. ”

"I don't know if it's my delusion, I always feel that you have changed a lot since you were sick last time, although you are not as bold and resolute as before, but you are more cautious and gentle than before, which makes me miss the little girl who held a book and slapped the boys in the class all over the school building when I was a child."

"Perhaps, as you said, as you grow up, you have been worn away by time and illness, and you are no longer as sharp as before, so you have unconsciously lost a lot of courage. But in my opinion, you are far braver than you used to be, and you are no longer the child who always hides behind the adults. ”

"If you think about it, you have never been the kind of girl who can be spoiled, and you will not shed tears easily, in this world, it seems that nothing can make you completely bow your head. But lately you always seem to be a little discouraged, painfully clinging to some things, isn't it like you are silently enduring the pain? ”

"Although you shouldn't say that at this time, maybe you should really take a break, a string that is too tight will eventually break, and many things don't necessarily have to be put together. I hope you can still be the happy you, I believe that everything complicated will have a better solution in the future, and I hope we can always walk together. ”

Chen Xiaodi read these passages several times, although Bai Ye is the kind of boy who looks quiet and artistic, but he almost does not know the sensationalism of crepe, so Chen Xiaodi was indeed a little surprised when he saw this dense word.

"I've read your paper, why are you interested in writing so much today?"

The message that was originally a little emotional was instantly relieved by Chen Xiaodi's words, and the haze in her heart seemed to dissipate a little.

"Mochizuki thinks about people, and suddenly there are a lot of emotions."

"I really didn't expect that Bai Ye, who cherishes time like gold, is still in the mood to look at the moon at this time."

"What about you at halftime? What are you doing? ”

"Wrapped in a quilt and chatting with you."

"Already rested?"

"It's brewing."

"Xiaodi, when you go back to school, let's go to the study room together."

"Didn't you say you would review each of them before?"

"I didn't want to talk about how to revise for public classes, but I think it's very motivating to study in the atmosphere of the study hall."

"If you want to supervise my study, just say it, it's not tiring to go around in such a big circle."

"Where is the overseer, what you said about common progress and going ashore hand in hand."

Talking about this, Chen Xiaodi suddenly remembered the last time she went to the library to review, it was at the beginning of September, when the school had just started, and her newly found professional course materials had just arrived, and after lunch, she went to the mountain library where she often liked to go with heavy books on her back.

The mountain library, which is closer to the dormitory, has long been attacked by the graduate school entrance examination party, and the people living on the mountain are all junior students, and the library is not so crowded, which makes Chen Xiaodi feel more suitable.

That day, she chose a window position, and in the afternoon a girl came across from her, and she also held two books of materials for the postgraduate entrance examination, but she didn't stay long, and left after doing two sets of questions.

Chen Xiaodi thought of herself again, until now, she has not done a few good readings in English, and the printed dozens of pages of past year's real questions are almost new, and the political multiple-choice questions have just begun, and many knowledge points are still the same as the book from heaven.

As for Bai Ye, it's only been two months, and most of the professional courses have been reviewed, and according to his plan, he can start to focus on the second review of the easy test center next month. In terms of public courses, the past papers have been passed once, and he is about to start the second time to check and fill in the gaps, although he is nearly half a year later than others, but his current progress has already caught up with many people.

It's really out of reach......

"Why don't you speak? Slept? ”

Seeing that Chen Xiaodi didn't reply for a long time, Bai Ye asked.

"No, I just thought of something else."

"You haven't answered me yet."

"Let's review separately, I don't want to bother you, and...... Maybe you'll be disappointed. ”

"How so......"

"This time...... I'm probably going to be a joke in their eyes. ”