Spring, everything is coming quietly.

Or the breeze is gentle, or the water waves are not rising, but at this moment it is still tacit. I think every dream with you must be very peaceful.

Daily, as always.

Weekend.

"Where did you go? I haven't seen it in days. "After a few days, I asked questions, and everyone was used to it, and no one cared about the details. Because of that, our family is naturally dissolute and loves freedom, always quietly running out to play, and not going home for several days.

What a bear kid.

Can...... It's been an unusually long time.

Get everyone's perfunctory answer, after lunch, because the weather is still very cold, I took away the school uniform jacket, a mind to embark on the road to find the dog, usually the heart of the left and right, after all, every time we all thought that the talent was lost, it itself ran back from the outside, one of which was out of the house for almost a month, when we all thought it was lost, it appeared.

Everyone was stunned, but when they looked at Caicai, they were dirty, as if they had just returned from an expedition.

Looking at it, I'm proud.

Cai Cai is very smart, whether it is in terms of words or actions, it seems to be able to understand, and actively responds to my every word. Even when you don't speak, it will silently crouch beside you and accompany you.

Sometimes, on the way to school, it is indispensable to run happily, running in front in a hurry, and looking back at me from time to time, as if to say "Hurry up!" Hurry up! ”

Then, mercilessly leaving its own "taste" in every corner or tree pit, as I later observed, this mark is also an important magic weapon to ensure that it can go home smoothly.

That's the first time I know, the dogs used to remember the road like this, perhaps, the old family was not much old, the big dogs and puppies in the family are native, every road is more familiar than me, under normal circumstances, it can't be lost, unless someone does it on purpose, so, never care about them can run away these problems.

It's different now, it's full of cars, and I've run into a rare dirt road, and I can get lost when I look at the endless crowds of people on the street, let alone a dog.

"Caicai?" After I casually searched the various places it frequented.

I started to panic.

This time it didn't seem to be so smooth, but before that, with a slight shout, it ran out of some unknown corner and ran towards my arms.

But, not this time.

Time passes bit by bit......

As a hint of coolness hit, the sky gradually darkened, and at this moment, I realized that the afternoon had passed like this, and I could only walk back silently after seeking no success. Sad, lost, hard to hide.

I'm expecting a miracle.

……

"Almost nine wins in a row! Alas! ”

"Tomorrow to continue."

"Good!"

The familiar voice came into my ears, my "dear" brother's milk voice, I can still hear it, take a closer look, sure enough, it's him, this little guy looks like he just came out of the Internet café, Internet addicted teenager, but so.

Until now, all he had in his head was games.

I ignored him, drowning in the loss of not finding the talent, but in my heart I kept telling myself, "It's okay, in a few days, it will come back on its own." ”

This kind of self-soothing will more or less give me some hope in my own heart, so let's go out to play! It really doesn't work, so it is understood that it is going to travel.

At this time, I am closest to Caicai, in such a cold home, only it is willing to listen to my suffering, although Caicai can't speak, but its existence at least makes me feel warm.

That's why I love animals! Not only because of their cuteness, but also because of their companionship, silent companionship. Even if you hit it and scold them when you're in a bad mood, they'll still stay with you, thinking you're just playing with it.

These are things that can never be done between people.

However, I always regret every time I lose my temper, the next second, they are just small animals, and there is no subjective consciousness of people, just silently accompanying, quietly looking up at you.

So, why lose your temper with them?

After thinking about it, every little animal that appears in my life, I will treat them as if they were myself, and a ham sausage will be given to them in half, as will any food. Because they are more affectionate and righteous than people, and they are more worthy of your kindness.

For a limited time.

After all, their lives are short.

……

It seems that the life of two points and one line has become a habit, but people cannot always live the same life.

Between gains and losses, no matter how you choose, you always have to give up one side. The difference is that today, it's raining......

The spring rains in March irrigated the trees, the grass was abundant, and it was thriving.

"Arbor Day is coming soon, and according to the usual practice, the board report is still published by Xu Xiaokui and a few of you." Teacher Civil looked at us kindly, as long as it wasn't during English class, she was still very amiable at other times, maybe it was my innate fear of English!

Actually, it's not so scary, even if she pronounces the wrong word, she won't scold me like an elementary school English teacher, and she will teach more patiently, repeating it over and over again.

"Okay, teacher." I nodded obediently and began to conceive in my head, at that time there was no mobile phone, and almost everyone had a small book on the board, which was a very small book, and we could all learn from the above examples, and students who were not inspired could also copy it all.

It was a great time!

I looked at the civil engineering teacher, and although she was very nice and kind, I still didn't dare to approach her, or even make eye contact with her.

The environmental impact of childhood is really important, and what kind of personality a person is now has a direct and necessary relationship with the environment in which she lives.

For example, my grandfather is a people's teacher, he is always very strict with me, rewards and punishments are clear, since I was a child, I feel very serious, especially in class, I originally thought that my grandfather was a Chinese teacher so he didn't have to memorize texts and homework, on the contrary, so that he would pay more attention to me, and every time I memorized texts, I must have it.

However, this has developed a good habit of memorizing quickly.

Therefore, now, when I face the teacher, I always have an innate sense of fear, I am afraid to look at each other, I am not good at talking, and I dare not approach ......

Actually, now that I think about it, teachers are not so terrible. However, majesty is necessary, otherwise, wouldn't these bear children in our class have to go to heaven?

……

As for why I was asked to come out of the blackboard newspaper at the back, it was actually because when the first year of junior high school started, just in time for Teacher's Day, the civil engineering teacher asked each of us to take out a blank piece of paper and write down our blessings to the teacher!

Well...... At that time, I didn't know much about teachers, so I had to write to the teachers who taught me in elementary school. Real emotions or something, there must be no such thing, you can only make it up, and you can write a paragraph very officially, and you really can't make it up.

The civil engineering teacher then added, "You can play freely, poetry, painting, you can do it." ”

When I heard the painting, my eyes lit up, and I could say that this was the intention. Ha ha.

I drew a bouquet of flowers in the blank space at the end, meaning flowers for the teachers, and the whole paper was full.

As for the skill of drawing, no one taught it, and I figured it out by myself.

After all, I used to be a little "soul painter" with nature as the background, painting a lot of walls, there may be some immoral, but in my hometown, which is always patronized by heavy rain, everything is just right!

After being washed by a heavy rain, the walls are as clean and tidy as ever, and the chalk washed away is buried deep in the ground, and no one knows.

So, I started a new round of creation.

When I was a kid, I really loved drawing.

The most important thing is that you really like it, if you turn your hobby into a profession or your profession, you may not really like it, you know, like it from the heart, once forced, you will start to get bored slowly.

And so it is for me.

When we turned in this little homework, the civil engineering teacher also taught us a common sense: "You must use both hands when you hand things to others, and the same is true when you receive things, especially the elders." ”

I said I learned again.

It's also very useful when observing others, and when you hand things to others, it's a subconscious reaction, a matter of seconds, so it's really practical.

The hands show a kind of respect for people, and the words of one hand are very unruly.

After teaching, the civil engineering teacher carefully flipped through it, and we were also seriously writing our homework, and suddenly, we heard a sentence "Xu Xiaokui, the handwriting is good, and the drawing is also very good, raise your hand to let the teacher take a look." ”

I silently raised my right hand, and then silently put it down, and the civil engineering teacher nodded on WeChat, indicating that I understood.

Then he silently lowered his head, afraid of being the focus.

Maybe it's because of the family, in my family, no matter which family, girls are very unvalued, and over time, I will give myself a definition in my own heart, and press a "little transparent" label.

I've wondered countless times that if I'm really a little transparent, no one will be able to see me.

If I can't speak, I'm dumb, don't I have to speak?

If......

Unfortunately, the answer to these questions is impossible!

That's already the case, so take your time and accept it! Because you are the only one who can change the status quo.

At this time, I was not particularly fluent in dialects, and I knew that the shortcut to learning a language well was to speak and listen more. Can...... I was really poor at learning.

The civil engineering teacher "pampered" me again, and said kindly, "In the future, the three of you will be responsible for the later board report, so let's start today." ”

The three of us stood up and walked to the back, facing the blackboard. Even though we were facing away from our classmates, we had become the focus of the class, and I was uncomfortable standing there, which may be a sign of lack of self-confidence.

At the request of the civil engineering teacher, I added the bouquet of flowers I drew on the paper, and the whole feeling of the board was ...... It's hard to put into words.

However, at the time, I thought it was good, and I wanted to look back from time to time.

I was silently proud in my heart.

……

On this Arbor Day, the civil engineering teacher once again entrusted us with this task, which is a great honor! When I picked up the chalk and drew a big green tree, I felt like I had a dream at the moment, I wanted to be a painter!

Yes, painters.

At that time, I was young and ignorant, and I really said whatever I thought, but in fact, I didn't know about these industries at all, just because I liked it.

Soon, summer arrived.

Playing water fights has become one of everyone's fun, in the middle of summer light years, everyone holds a large bag of water balloons, go to the water room, so, many water balloons are freshly baked, watching the classmates in the class have fun, my landlubber is not only a little resistant, I am afraid that they will accidentally hit my body, or hide away, just like you chase me, the whole class looks extremely moist, just like just after the hydrating mask, moist Q bomb......

However, in the afternoon, because it is an open-air teaching building, many students lie on the fence, ready to wait for the rabbit. Holding several water balloons in their hands, the bear children threw down the water balloons in their hands whenever someone passed by.

If the students below hide quickly, they will be spared, and if they react too slowly, they will suffer!

I came to the front of the building and looked at the students holding water balloons, their smug faces, not only a little panicked, because, our class is on the first floor, so we must have entered there, and it is really naïve, but ...... Isn't this youth?

When you were in junior high school, if you ran to the teacher to complain about the slightest thing, it was really naïve, and you would be ostracized by the whole class.

I wanted to take a detour, and when I looked up, there were people everywhere, and there was nowhere to hide, and none of the students who walked downstairs were spared.

So, I plucked up the courage and ran to the door of the classroom at a speed of 100 meters, and as a water balloon burst on the ground, my school uniform was also wet, but fortunately, there was only a little bit of water behind me, and it dried out in a short time in such a hot summer.

Very angry, but also helpless.

……

Recess.

Running drills.

Around this school building, looking at the unfinished playground that is out of reach, my school always has to build everything after I graduate, or improve it.

Stand in line, and after the last few runs, you will be liberated, and the school will inform you that you will run and drill in the winter semester, and you will change to radio gymnastics in the summer semester.

The school is still very considerate of us.

However, today, it is a shadow of my life.

At the beginning of the run, as always, there was intense music, supervising teachers, and sports committee members shouting slogans......

When I thought it was almost over, I ran to the corner of the school building, and suddenly I felt something strangled around my neck, and when I looked back, I saw two ruffian boys behind me, holding a wire to strangle me.

I was confused......

I only remember that there was a righteous girl at that time, and she was also a very "strong" girl, who drove those two boys away a few times and fought for me.

However, I still didn't escape from being bullied when I came here.

Later, when the teacher asked again, I didn't want to make a big deal out of it, and besides, I didn't remember the two boys at all. I was ashamed to live up to the righteousness of the girl who fought for me.

I may be such a person who has no responsibility and no opinion!

There will always be people who hate me silently......

There is no reason.