Summer 2011

holiday

The holiday from elementary school to junior high school is beautiful and long. Because there is no holiday homework, daily life is to eat, sleep, and watch TV......

All of a sudden, I started to miss the time when I had homework, but it was very fulfilling!

August

During the summer vacation, a hit Qing piercing drama "Step by Step Shocking" was released, which was very popular at that time, and everyone felt very novel and concerned.

And, at this moment, I met my own goddess.

This drama was popular all over the country at that time and was a household name.

Since then, it has been remade by various countries, but classics are classics.

I've always been face blind, and it was only later that I watched a variety show to know that the original heroine of this drama had acted in many other TV series, and I liked every role very much, but I didn't know that they were all played by one person, one person played two roles, costume dramas, modern dramas, literary dramas, and even later filmed suspense dramas, the style has changed a lot, and any type of role can be held.

Inexplicably, I started chasing stars!

Sink deeper and deeper......

She is simple and kind, does not fight or grab, which deeply attracts me, and can be described as a clear stream in the entertainment industry.

"Out of the mud but not stained, clear ripples but not demons." That's the best way to describe it.

The appearance is naturally impeccable, with a delicate goose egg face, perfect facial features, and just the right figure......

Everything is so perfect, the main thing is that it is all "natural". It's very comfortable to look at, and I like it very much!

Every night I will guard in front of the TV, watch my goddess, at that time I just like it, if you have to ask me the reason, in my cognition there is no reason to like someone, in fact, even I don't know why I am fascinated by a girl.

We all need to rely on TV series to "continue our lives" without mobile phones, that drama was really popular at that time, and after watching it every day with solo satellite TV, I went through all the David TV, and most of them were replaying this drama, watching it back and forth countless times, and of course, other dramas starring goddesses also became popular one after another.

She is not only my goddess, but also my motivation to move forward, her smile always makes me happy when I am sad and I see hope when I am lost.

For me, stargazing is a kind of faith, a belief that supports my efforts......

……

There is also a big thing that comes to mind about this holiday.

Toilet.

"Ah~" I opened my eyes wide, looked at the blood stains on my nerves, and touched my slightly swollen lower abdomen, should I be......

Fortunately, I have the experience of my sister, otherwise I might have thought that I had some terminal illness.

So, I hurriedly ran to the bedroom to get a pack of tampons, fortunately I had been prepared for a surprise attack one day. After cleaning up, I sat on the stool nervously, and it was a strange feeling.

Is this cotton really that amazing?

Why do girls bleed?

Will it overflow?

And why come every month?

What's the use of coming?

……

At the moment, I have countless questions in my cerebellum.

Ten minutes later—

Ants in one's pants! I always felt that the blood was about to overflow, and as soon as I stood up, I felt a warm current, so I stood still and didn't move.

However, when I sat on the toilet, I found that everything was harmonious and did not look like it was about to overflow, but I still didn't feel at ease, so let's change it......

In this way, I went to see it every ten minutes, and I always felt panicked.

Back and forth, I'm really afraid that my blood will flow like a river......

Sure enough, with my unremitting efforts, I used up all the packs of tampons, and when my mother came back, I was scolded very badly!

In our family, everything depends on understanding, and your parents will not teach you anything, such as now......

So I'm very understanding now, so I'm also very sensitive!

When my sister first came, no one told her, and when I asked her, she said that she had read a book, a small diary written by a girl, which also mentioned these things, so she silently wrote it down, and then I also went to read the book, and I also understood a lot of things, does this prove that I am now a little adult!

……

In the hustle and bustle of the city, usher in a leisurely afternoon. The mood gradually emptied, and the sun also silently climbed up the window lattice. This tranquility is cosy and warm. Unscrupulous, the sun is just right, the breeze is not dry, and today, it is exceptionally comfortable.

I love the serenity and immersion......

"The heart is calm and naturally cool", that's right, sometimes the frenzy comes from your heart, giving yourself a light rain in the bottom of your heart, reminiscing about the smell of the earth after the rain and the fragrance in the air......

The most beautiful day is a rainy day*^_^*

……

Today, the family welcomed a good friend as a guest, with a tall figure, shoulder-length ponytail, and a perfect side face!

She, is the Run classmate we have experienced ups and downs together (Run is the pinyin of the last word of her name), is the female classmate who once transferred to the same school in a private elementary school, unexpectedly, we were assigned to the same new school, but not in the same class, we also frequented their house, because, ah, her mother opened a tailor shop, on the way to the school, every time we met, we would say hello.

This is the first time she has come to our house, and it should be a good hospitality, but she is very unlucky, the two of us are mopping the floor, and I don't know why my mother didn't buy a mop, but let us squat on the ground and wipe the floor little by little......

So, Run also joined our mopping team, as the saying goes, when you get home, you are a guest, how can there be a reason to let guests do housework.

But she insisted on joining us, and then picked up the rag and began to work quickly, and it was obvious that she was very skillful, and the three of them together quickly finished wiping.

In the end, my mother gave us two dollars each, and Run was going to learn dance in the afternoon, and we also joined in the fun. Then, I took the bus for one dollar and bought ice cream for one dollar......

……

Experimental Primary School

There is really no gap without comparison, this primary school can be said to be very complete, with a large independent bathroom, a complete exercise equipment area, and recreational facilities such as slides and seesaws.

At that time, I thought that the experimental elementary school was all about doing experiments every day, how boring it was. Later, it turned out that it was the name of a school and had no meaning.

As Run arrives at the classroom where she is studying dance, she waits for the teacher, and there are still dance students in their school, probably to cultivate the school's hobby.

The huge dance studio was surrounded by mirrors on all sides, and she changed into dancing clothes, a beautiful red dress, and black dancing shoes with a little heels.

"What kind of dance are you dancing?" I asked curiously and looked around again.

"Latin Dance." Run put on his shoes, stood up and put his legs on the wooden railing, and began to press his legs before dancing.

"Wow-" We looked at her in amazement, for me, dancing has never been included in my life plan, although I can't choose my own life, but there is always an idea!

As a result, my limbs are very uncoordinated now......

"Can we watch you dance here?" My sister asked.

"I should be able to, I'll ask the teacher then." After saying that, there was another split, a move that I would never be able to do.

"Wow-" exclaimed.

These seem to be trivial in her eyes: "We have to lower our waists before each class, and we have to improve each time, otherwise we will get special attention from the teacher." ”

"It's so hard, so why did you learn Latin dance?"

"I like it~"

Like? So far, I don't seem to have any special favorite things of my own, but when I was a child, I used to draw, holding the chalk from school, and drawing all over the world, but I don't know if this is a hobby, or a hobby, but I haven't really understood it deeply......

I envy those who have dreams and chase them, they are all great, and the people on the road to chasing dreams are the most dazzling!

And what is my dream?

……

After a while—

The children who were learning dance came one after another, and when they saw that my sister and I thought they were new dance students, they all cast enthusiastic eyes, which shows that maybe every child who learns dance is very lively and cheerful.

When the teacher came, she said we could watch from the sidelines, so we both stood there against the wall, and when we were tired, we squatted down, and by this time, they had learned to perform in pairs, a boy and a girl did it together, and they were not doing much, but my eyes were full of embarrassment.

After all, I was still young at the time, and I had never had such close contact with boys.

Skinny people dance Latin very good-looking and beautiful, but what if it's a fat person? It's like a "big bug" with teeth and claws!

Personal opinion, don't spray.

……

After watching it for a while, I didn't understand, and looking at the change in the teacher's expression, I wondered if she didn't want us to stay inside, after all, the two of us didn't pay the tuition, and it was a little inappropriate to stay here all the time......

While they were dancing happily, my sister and I signaled to Run, and then quietly opened the door and "slipped out" so as not to disturb everyone.

When I came outside, it was still early, so I came to the amusement facilities area and played one by one.

Refreshing!

The exercise equipment in the community next door to the house is either too old or can't be grabbed, after all, this is also a hobby of the elderly, of course, it is also to respect the old and love the young~

……

We walked out of the school gate and came to the street next to it, this is the city center, there are naturally many places to sell things, we visited all the shops here, we didn't get any money, naturally we didn't buy anything, just just shopping.

Gradually—

It was getting late and Run's dance class was over, so she went to the bathroom to change into her casual clothes, so we walked back together, talking and laughing all the way......

Life must be full of joy.

Isn't this the best state of life right now?

……

Our vacation is very leisurely, but my younger brother is different, he follows the two of us to watch TV dramas every day with nothing to do, and his homework is still left behind.

So, we have been charged with "bringing my brother badly".

In this way, his homework was packed by the two of us, and I don't know what their teacher thought that the holiday homework turned out to be ten "board newspapers", is it to exercise their drawing ability?

Indissoluble......

Then, I drew his board newspaper, and my sister supervised him to write other assignments.

……

One day

At lunchtime –

Mom came home from work to cook, and then, the family sat around the dinner table, and the five of them each ate their own bowls of rice with their own thoughts, just wanting to end this embarrassing lunch quickly......

Be accustomed to something......

I saw me gulping in and stuffing rice, and my parents suddenly discussed the matter of my uncle's house, which is a public bath, and the three of us will go to his place to take a bath almost every week, I still think that my uncle is my mother's younger brother, they are all a family, shouldn't it be normal to take a bath? At that time, I didn't know what kind of human feelings were sophisticated.

There is no such thing as a "handout" that is free forever.

My aunt was very dissatisfied, and she targeted us openly and secretly, and asked her parents to give them bath money, and I heard my parents say that when they opened, we also sponsored them for tens of thousands of yuan.

But it really shouldn't always be washed in vain, after all, there is no free lunch in the world, and brothers have to settle accounts.

……

Dad took out his wallet at this time, and was about to let us go and give money to my uncle, but when he took out the money, he found that there was a hundred dollars missing, and his first reaction was to say to the three of us, "Who will take the 100 yuan in my wallet?" ”

There is no trust.

We stared at each other, anyway, I didn't take it, and I don't know if the two of them took it, so it shouldn't be, after all, they don't have that guts, maybe they fell in some corner?

At that time, my father interrogated the younger brother first, and the younger brother looked at us aggrievedly before he could say a word, saying that he didn't take it, which means that the two of us took it.

He was still young at the time, and of course his parents believed everything. And the sentence I heard the most from when I came here was, "You two are old, he is still young, let your brother have something, you know?" ”

……

Men are inferior to women, patriarchal is preferred, and the big ones must give way to the small ones...... All the "Chinese-style" education is vividly withdrawn from me.

Everything I didn't like happened to me without accident......

I don't like such families!

The crow was silent, only Dad was there talking alone, we said we didn't take it, he just didn't believe it, so what can we do? We don't have a hundred dollars to give him.

……

At the time, I was young and vigorous.

has been suppressing the anger in his heart, but the more he listens to his father's voice, the more irritable he becomes, his first reaction when he sees the lack of money is to suspect that we are taking, is this a suspicion that should exist between family members?

Now the trial of a prisoner still pays attention to evidence!

However, we didn't get along like family, but like a few people who didn't know each other forcibly, and we couldn't say a few words a day.

"If you don't take it, you don't take it, how can you ...... so many things" That's right, I still couldn't hold back, I vented my dissatisfaction, I was always so impulsive, but I just lowered my head and muttered, and I didn't dare to speak out loud at that time.

This made the father on the other side even more popular.

"Smack!" With a bang, the chopsticks in my hand formed a parabola and lay on the cold ground.

I've been beaten!

Yes, just like in the TV series, there was a "snap", and a slap was slapped in the face without paying attention, the face was hot, but the heart was dripping blood, and no one stopped him.

It wasn't the first time I've been beaten, but it's the most memorable.

"What are you muttering, are you still reasonable? Who told you to talk at dinner? Dad blushed and yelled angrily, "Kneel! ”

I glared at him, obviously he slapped me in the face, as if it had become a big mistake that I had done wrong, although it had not yet reached the rebellious period, but the rebellious heart could not be stopped, and if we made a little mistake in our family, let me kneel, now is not the feudal society before.

"Bang Bang!" With a bang, I kicked the bench away and ran into the room with tears in my eyes.

Oh, yes! The education in our hometown is to be disobedient and directly start fighting, although I was beaten by my grandmother a few times when I was a child, but she was very powerful, and it didn't hurt at all.

But this time......

Lying on the bed, covered with a quilt, with tears in his eyes, touching his flushed cheeks, he found that there was a grain of rice stuck to the corner of his mouth......

At that time, the young mind was greatly hurt.

When I was a child, I had a high fever that did not go away, and I was very young at that time, just in time for my parents to go back to my hometown to visit relatives, and my father took advantage of my sleep and hugged me under the quilt.

For a long time - I was sweating profusely, and the tenacious high fever was completely subsided at this moment.

It worked better than taking medicine, and I was very happy at the time.

But why is this happening now?

……

After that, every time before eating, I would go to the kitchen to fill a bowl of rice and bring it to my sister and me's room, eat it on the table, and then bring it back again, and so on......

Even when I ate at one table, I ate as fast as I could, without saying a word or an expression the whole time.

Maybe my father is in the way of saving face, but I was born to them, of course, like him, I also want to save face.

According to the spread of my mother's big mouth, from then on, I was a super disobedient child who always talked back to them in the eyes of my relatives, and I was a representative of failure.

I became what my relatives called someone else's child, but it was a negative textbook.

Soon the hundred dollars that Dad had lost were found in the crack in the floor behind the closet, and it would be impossible for Dad to realize his mistake by this, he would only think that we had secretly thrown the money behind the closet.

It's not a stalemate, and even if we don't usually say a few words, one of the things I often say to myself is "just get used to it." ”

If you get used to it, you don't care about anything, and accept the reality. If reality slaps you in the face, you can't go back......

There is no hurdle that I can't get over, and I gradually forget it, but when I think about it again, I was still too impulsive at the time, and I always can't control my emotions like this, and I always make the people around me angry if I don't pay attention.

Perhaps, in the future, I will change!