On this day, Aoi came.

Listen from the sidelines.

I took out my inner journal and continued to tell her my story.

She looked at me earnestly as if she couldn't get tired of listening.

……

July 2017.

In July, the sky was clear blue, and the sun hung like a fireball, and the clouds seemed to be burned by the sun, and disappeared without a trace. The sun shines like a fireball on everyone, filling people's hearts with a wave of frenzy.

But for the children who have experienced the college entrance examination, this summer is like experiencing spring, summer, autumn and winter, sometimes loss is like a trough, sometimes joy is like a mountain, high or low, we all have to experience.

Summer is always a season full of stories.

The sun shone perfectly on my face without any obstruction, dazzling and shining.

I love it.

staring intently at the computer in front of him, accepting the judgment of the past few years.

Keep refreshing the computer page.,The tension hasn't left for a moment.,Although I've filled in the volunteer.,But I didn't see those three words.,It's still an unreal feeling.。

I was nervous.

Until the computer page appeared one after another, "To be admitted!" "Admission!" "Accepted!"

I was accepted!

"Yay~" jumped up happily and looked at his report card, although there were disappointments and troughs, but after all, the efforts of the past few years have not been in vain.

According to my family's tradition, if you don't get into college, it's a shame and a shame!

Next, I am about to marry a wife, this is the feudal thinking of contemporary China, I want to rebel, and I don't want to live my life forever to be dominated by others, which is also one of the reasons why I work hard.

Everyone has to work hard for the life they want!

Even if it will fail.

But instead of lingering, give it a try.

It turns out that hard work still works!

It's useful, after all, it's a glory for the family, even if it's not a prestigious school, it's actually still good.

Yes, I'm worthy of myself.

"You're great!" Aoi said to me, and she affirmed me.

……

September 2017.

In the carriage of the train, in the moving vehicles on the road, in the cabin flying in the sky, and in the pedestrians on the road.

Today, college students are the most numerous.

September 1 is a festival for college students, and it is also the hottest school season.

The streets, the roads, in short, everywhere you can see, are full.

With a casual and light step, some of the leaves on the trees around him have been dried up, and some have even just pulled out their buds.

Cicadas are chirping in the trees, and bees are buzzing in their ears. The cicada seems to be a natural singer, singing one beautiful song after another for nature.

Midsummer is the favorite season of the sunflower, which always faces the sun unreservedly, as if enjoying everything that nature has given it.

Confident and sunny.

In order to welcome the new students, the trees on campus also gave their green new clothes!

This time, it was my dad who sent us here, and in order to save some gas money, we chose the train, which was very inconvenient, but it was my favorite mode of transportation.

My sister and dad and I dragged our heavy suitcases to the Freshman Reporting Office, which was so secretive that we had to go around almost the entire campus to find it.

Tired.

This is just the beginning, and I'm already tired.

The floors here are also particularly artistic, with a sense of design, worthy of being an art school.

It was morning, but I was already sweating profusely.

The summer wind gently brushed the girl's slightly flushed cheeks, raised her light fingers and took out the neat admission letter, and politely handed it to the smiling seniors in front of her.

Of course, this is not me.

It's a female classmate in front of me, and compared to her, I really want to be a man, and it looks extraordinarily rough.

If you divide it into categories of small animals, I am definitely the one who is easy to feed, undeniably.

……

My sister and I are not from the same college, so we go to different reporting offices.

The design department is where I'm going.

There was also a banner upstairs, "The Department of Design welcomes new students." "I feel so kind at this time.

These words came into view, and I approached, and before I could speak, a senior sister asked enthusiastically: "It's from our design department, right?" Let's add a group first, and we'll notify you of anything in the group. ”

"Okay." I took out my mobile phone, and after adding various groups, I was forcibly arranged to follow an official account, which is the official account of the college.

In the reporting office, the seniors and seniors who sat in a whole row, the first reaction at that time, they all looked good, really!

So why am I like this?

Will it be like this when I go to college? What would that look like?

The seniors are particularly good-looking, and they are all thin.

Sitting in a neat row, I began to sign countless names, as well as a bank card and a card, which were said to be very useful, so I quickly put them away.

"Xu Xiaokui?" The senior in front of me looked at my acceptance letter and asked.

"Yes!" I responded well-behaved, and I was very happy on the first day of reporting, but is my name strange? Why so confused.

Then, he handed her a sign, pointed to a place, and said, "This is your dormitory number, and then, go there to lead the training clothes, if you activate the card, go to the second floor on the opposite floor, and you can see it as soon as you go up." ”

I politely took the dormitory card and said, "721, okay, thank you, senior!" ”

"You're welcome!"

The first impression is that the seniors here are beautiful and warm, of course, it is just the first impression.

After I left, this was considered a successful registration, and these seniors seemed to be very kind, but they were not as good as the seniors of the sister, and they were even more different, and they were directly and enthusiastically ready to send her to the dormitory building.

Before going to the dormitory, you also need to buy clothing for military training.

Yes, it's time for military training again.

Full of rejection.

But, accept it too.

……

Residence halls.

The dormitory building was crowded with pedestrians, and there were more and more people and luggage everywhere.

It's a good thing we came early, otherwise we might have been stuck in the door.

Pick up the key to the dormitory from the dormitory manager and confirm your dormitory number.

I didn't know anyone in the dormitory, but I saw Xiaoyuan's name, and she was in the same class as me?!

At the time, I! Shocked!

It's just that it's not in the same dormitory, it's too coincidental, it's fate, and it's no wonder that when I first met her, I felt that she was very kind and we were very close.

It turns out that the fate between us is waiting here, and there is always a familiar person.

Happy.

It's a pity that I can't be in the same dormitory, but I'm already satisfied, very satisfied.

After getting the key to the dormitory, I started to go upstairs, but the reality was that there was no elevator.

"Huh~Huh~" Dad went to see my sister first, because my sister's luggage was very heavy, I carried my suitcase alone to the seventh floor in one breath, although I was very tired, but my appearance still did not change, in front of others is almost such a cold person, it seems that I have become accustomed to such a self.

Besides, there's no need to pretend to be weak, that's not my style.

It's no wonder that at first glance I think I'm a difficult person to get along with, but in fact, I personally think that I'm still a pretty good person to get along with, at least not so petty and easy to support.

Wander through the unobstructed corridors and scan each dormitory number.

Until the number "721" appeared in my sight, it was right here, I thought I was the first to arrive, but I didn't expect there to be a girl.

She must be my roommate.

"Hello, my name is Xu Xiaokui."

"Hello, my name is Gu Yue."

It's a very simple self-introduction, and she needs to say it many times later, and she has something to do when she finishes speaking.

It was a hurried encounter.

My feeling at the time was, wow~ She is so gentle! A person can be so gentle, we are very shy when we meet for the first time, so it is just a simple communication.

Gu Yue is my first roommate, and the four words describe it as warm as water.

……

I forgot that when I first entered the dormitory, I felt a strong smell, which seemed to be left over from the renovation, and then I walked to the window, opened it, and looked downstairs.

I couldn't help but sigh.

As the only higher art school in the city, the students here are very individual, and they like to express their characteristics at a glance.

As an ordinary art student, I always wore a high ponytail and a plain face with an unobstructed look, so I seemed to be easily drowned in the crowd here.

Again become a little transparent.

Looking at all kinds of people downstairs, these students are always accompanied by their parents, all kinds of booing and asking for warmth, what I see is that as a college student, I always rely on my parents for the transition, how to grow? But only my heart knows what to really see!

It's the kind of love that parents have for their children.

This kind of love is something I have never really experienced. Therefore, I don't know how to love others.

As a result, I am always rejecting people, and I am afraid of hurting others.

My parents are also very good, but they don't care too much about us, and it seems that they are just fulfilling their duties as parents, not true love.

It is said that growing up is the process of muting crying, but I don't like crying, I personally think that crying can't solve any problems, it's a manifestation of incompetence.

So, is it already considered growth?

No, growth is still on the way.

……

Suddenly, "Peng! My thoughts were completely interrupted, and then I was greeted by a girl who was in a hurry, and I still remember her two huge red feather earrings, which were simply so representative.

Unforgettable to this day.

There is also an enthusiastic temperament, and when he saw me, he said directly: "Hi~ Hello, my name is Anne, what's your name?" ”

Why is it like asking a child?

"Xu Xiaokui." I replied, and then smiled at her, the interpersonal problems in the dormitory were what worried me the most.

However, my first reaction when I saw her was: it has nothing to do with me.

I don't think I should have anything to do with her, after all, a girl with such a personality shouldn't be able to talk to me, and besides, she gives me a bit like Zhao!

That's right, that's Zhao.

We are completely opposite personalities.

There was also a boy who came in with her, I think it should be her boyfriend, but it turned out to be not, just a male friend, and the difference is quite big.

I walked to the center, found my fifth bed, and prepared to start sorting my belongings.

Fortunately, the beds are divided in advance, otherwise, it will be an inevitable storm.

"Wow~ Go to bed and get off the table, and there is a big balcony." I saw her walking towards the balcony, is this sure that she is an art student, not an acting major? She's so exaggerated, I'm so confused, I never knew that a person could be so outgoing.

"Wow! You're so tall! With that, Anne turned to me again, and then came over to me and gestured to me.

This......

I do look so tall.

Then, he could only modestly answer: "It's okay, one meter seventy-two." ”

"One meter seventy-two? So high? She was very envious.

If I could, I could give her some, after all, I don't like this height.

Seeing such a beautiful dormitory, I couldn't help but take a photo and post a circle of friends, at this time, I still love to post moments.

"I'm out." I picked up my phone and said, I don't know why I said that, I probably wouldn't have had any initiative to communicate with anyone before.

Maybe it's been infected by Anne's extroverted nature.

"Uh-huh, bye~"

After I left, I could hear her praise for the dormitory, and the boy next to him, on the contrary, was very quiet and had no extra words.

It seems that in Anne's eyes, everything is new.

I left my dormitory and came to my sister's dormitory, there was only one girl in their dormitory, who was very enthusiastic, and almost regarded me as a roommate in their dormitory, and talked to me vigorously.

Is everyone so talkative?

This college life is completely different from what I imagined, there is no smell of gunpowder, there are no roommates like Zhao, and there are no strange people.

So far, I think it's all very good.

Very good.

It's just, thinking about Anne's enthusiasm just now, the enthusiasm is a little scary, and I can't bear her enthusiasm, and it seems that there is an endless amount of words.

The main reason is that I can't usually say a few words, so it's weird.

The next step is to buy things, such as washbasins, hangers, laundry detergent, towels, etc......

Many, much more.

Fortunately, my dad was here, otherwise, I would have to go and buy these things alone, pay out of my own pocket, and then, we went to the place where we received the quilt.

Back in the dormitory again, people are no longer the same.

Gu Yue and Anne have gone out, and they have a new roommate.

Just next door to me, very small, but the aura is not small, even very powerful, I quietly approached, only to see her holding a rag and began to wipe vigorously, as if there was something that could not be wiped endlessly, embarrassed to take the initiative to speak.

Then, she looked at me!

I smiled awkwardly at her, and she asked me in a dialect that I didn't understand at first, and then suddenly understood and answered her.

Then she said something again, and I didn't understand it, but it wasn't that I didn't understand the language, but that she was speaking too fast, and my brain couldn't keep up with the rhythm.

So, we had a strange exchange.

She didn't say her name, she didn't ask me, and then she stopped talking, and the scene was awkward for a while, maybe it was the embarrassment of my heart alone.

It's embarrassing.

I silently took out my mobile phone and glanced at the list of dormitories I took at the beginning, it turned out that her name was Yaoyao, a very special name, but there was a loss of coldness, and I felt that it would be very difficult to get along, which was my first feeling.

Immediately after that, another girl walked in, the roommate next door to my left, as if she was Mongolian, and I also looked at her name by the way: Dudu, which is also a very special name.

It's all good.

It's not as if, it's the Mongols, who can be distinguished by their language, and unlike us, she brought the biggest battle, a lot of people, and the dormitory was filled in an instant, and it seemed that the parents of the family had come.

"What's your name?" I thought she was pretty good, so I took the initiative to ask for her name, but I asked the wrong person.

This person is Dudu's sister, maybe she is too young, she was embarrassed for a while, and she was fine.

Dudu seems to be a little shy, very shy, always smiling, and at a glance he knows that he is Mongolian, and he is very cute.

These roommates of mine really have their own characteristics.

After almost all of them were met, there was only room mate No. 1 left, her name is Jin Rong, isn't this name very rich?!

Perhaps.

The three of us on our side have arrived, and we began to choose the direction of the bed, and I don't know how to get along with Yaoyao, so I chose Dudu's side.

Actually, it wasn't entirely my own choice, it was a very casual consideration by the three of us, making the bed, and helping Dudu by the way to show my enthusiasm.

After staying in the dormitory for a while, I left again, went to apply for cards, all kinds of activation cards, and got a whole afternoon, and the trouble now is for the convenience of the future.

When activating the bank card issued by the school, I saw Dudu, but she didn't pay attention to me, she had forgotten me, so sad, I must have been not enthusiastic enough.

Come on, Aoi-chan.

……

Suddenly, a notice was posted in the WeChat group, at seven o'clock in the evening, gathered in the college square, I looked at the time, just after six o'clock, I did not go back to the dormitory, directly in the square.

However, now I have forgotten what my roommates look like, and then I found Xiaoyuan and stood with her, thinking at the time, how nice it would be if I shared a dormitory with Xiaoyuan.

It's a pity that fate makes people.

However, it is good to be in one class.

After running around all day, I was very worried about one thing, that is, if I was not in the dormitory, I would not be able to make good friends, so that I would have to be alone everywhere in the future, I didn't want to be like that, I was afraid of feeling like that.

In this life, I don't want to experience it again.

I am very eager to have good friends, even if there is only one, not too much, to come to this new school, the new environment, is to be ready to start again.

Start a different life again.

"According to the height, they are all standing, now please invite your senior sister to speak, everyone is welcome!"

After we applauded, we began to regroup the team, Xiaoyuan is very petite, and she also left me, okay, I am the only one left, and I feel that the classmates around me have known each other, is everyone making friends so quickly?

It's just me, out of place.

The evening breeze is the same as the senior sister, extraordinarily gentle, blowing gently, I think, this is the gentlest wind.

Especially, this campus full of curiosities.

What is it all about?

Eyes full of curiosity, waiting to explore.

At this moment, the team in front of me seems to be all classmates from our department, so many people?

Fill it up and leave no gaps.

"Who is in the same dormitory as Dudu? Where did she go? "We saw Anne in front of her raise her hand, but we didn't know where she had gone.

After all, I only saw ...... for the first time today.

In this way, Dudu was scolded on the first day of coming.

Then, after waiting for everyone to arrive, we began to group them for military training, according to the boys and girls, and the height of the group, I was in the middle height group, which was the last row.

The senior sister who manages our platoon is very beautiful, and she is also the only gentle senior sister, who is thin and tall, which is what I envy, and there is also a senior sister, this one is a bit fierce and terrible.

After all the talk, we went back to the dormitory, which was the first time that all the dormitory people gathered.

It's rare, after all, everyone is running around all day today.

I saw a golden face, short hair, not fat or thin, just right, characterized by her big red lips, I remember that I could only live on her lips at that time, because it was very distinctive, as for the character......

I haven't seen it too much yet.

Moreover, when I heard her and Yao Yao on the phone at that time, I learned that they had known each other for a long time.

I only have one thought at the moment, and that is to make friends and not be alone.

Therefore, Yao Yao and Jin Rong went out directly, and the two of them were already friends, so much so that I didn't take the initiative to talk to her when I saw Jin Rong.

It's not that it's annoying, it's just that I don't think it's necessary.

Haha, my thoughts are so realistic and naïve.

Then look at Gu Yue, she and a girl in Xiaoyuan's dormitory are best friends who have a better relationship, and there is no drama.

The next one, Anne, seems to have subconsciously belonged to the trio of Yao Yao and Jin Rong, because the three of them came together during the small meeting in the square today.

It can only be pasted down.

The last Dudu, she seems to be alone, so let's focus on her, maybe we can.

"Huh? Let's add a WeChat and build a dormitory group to pull the two of you in. Anne took out her phone and walked over and said, to me and Dudu.

Have you built a dormitory complex?

Suddenly, I felt a little strange about these cards, and I felt that I had missed a lot, and I was even lonely.

Ay!

After entering the dormitory group, the dormitory fell silent again, extremely quiet, and everyone was busy with their own things in their seats.

Maybe I'm the only one who feels embarrassed, because they all look natural.

Even if no one spoke.

"Huh? How are we going to fetch water? "Yes, it's Anne again, if the whole dorm is a girl group, she's definitely in charge of the atmosphere.

"I got a water card today, and I can play." I said, and pulled out my water card.

"Then you give us a use, and I'll send you the money later."

"Uh-huh."

I went to the water room with Anne and Yaoyao Jinrong to fetch water, and they were very curious, there was still a water card, and I even got a card, which was even more amazing.

I actually want to tell them that I not only have a water card, but even a laundry card, otherwise what would I be doing all day today? Could it be that you are appreciating the campus?

That designation is not possible.

After fetching water, I returned to the dormitory, and it was silent again.

It's surprisingly quiet.

Then, a crow-like voice broke the silence, "Remember to clean up today!" I will give you two days today and tomorrow, and I will check the hygiene at this time tomorrow night, and if I don't meet the standards, I will clean it all the time, and I will clean it all night. ”

Do you hate it so much when you come up?

It's just the beginning of school.

So, we started cleaning, which seemed better, at least not so awkward, so let's clean up.

Then a group of senior sisters came in, holding a notebook and asking, "If you are the head of the dormitory, register it." ”

Five people asked.

It seems that there is no one.

"Do you want to be the head of the house? Be proactive. Then, I asked again.

Still no one spoke.

Unexpected Anne, I thought she would want to be the head of the house, I wasn't interested.

As a result, Jin Rong became the head of the house, in fact, I felt that the position of head of the house was a nominal position, and it had no practical effect, and as a result, she began to command.

You know, I hate being ordered by others the most, not to mention people of the same rank as us, I think, no one likes to be commanded by others, so let's command.

And I'm not disliked, it's very annoying.

And Jin Rong always orders me, as if aimed at me, am I really born to look like a bully?

If that's the case, I'm resigned.

However, I don't want to.

When we think it's just a simple cleaning, it's not.

Not really.

The reality is much harder than we think, but it hasn't fully manifested itself at this point.

Today was a peaceful day.

The real cruelty starts tomorrow.

Today, after Dad saw us off, and then finished shopping, he went back, and he didn't buy a train ticket, so he took the bus back.

Thank you to him, really hard work!

……

In the middle of the night after the lights go out.

The dormitory seems unusually quiet, each lying on his bed with his own thoughts, however, quietness seems to have become the standard configuration of our entire dormitory, in this dormitory, the most important thing is quiet.

We are all representatives of quietness.

The first night of college is always tough.

Maybe everyone was homesick, after all, it was their first night away from home, or maybe it was because we didn't know each other yet.

It may not be the same when cooked.

After all, no one here is self-cooked except Anne.

The whole world is quiet as if it were still, and people always turn and turn when they think about something.

The night got darker.

And I silently encouraged myself in my heart, "Xu Xiaokui, come on!" Tomorrow everything will be on your own, no one will help you, interpersonal communication is also a kind of learning, keep up the good work. ”

Although my heart is very fragile, I always have to act very strong, because this is the only way to protect myself and not to be bullied.

I don't want to be weak.

I don't want to be the one who is bullied.