Secrets, in general, cannot be shared with others.

Because it's a secret.

So keep it in your heart.

And my secret, no one knows, the surge hidden in the bottom of my heart is my mood.

Everyone will have some little secrets to a greater or lesser extent, or choose to share them with their friends, or hide their secrets alone, it is their own choice, and we have the right to choose.

I will keep my secrets in my heart, because good friends will have good friends, and good friends cannot be static or long-lasting.

There is only oneself in the world who will not betray oneself.

In fact, there is no need to tell everyone around you about these things, just keep them in your heart, and occasionally, take them out to remember the past, and think about how naïve and pure you used to be.

I like it carefully, and I care about it.

Although, no relationship is successful, but every relationship is worth cherishing.

Cherish the people in front of you.

At least I don't regret it.

You don't have to make yourself too sad, because what you have experienced, many people have experienced, life is nothing more than these trivial little things, and life is also composed of these little things one after another, which make up the current life.

Or how to choose, after all, it is your own life, you have to be responsible for yourself, cherish everyone you meet, after all, the world is so big, we can meet, this is a kind of fate, isn't it?

Maybe they didn't notice each other when they met each other for the first time, but if there is fate, God will definitely arrange the next encounter, and the next time they will know each other very well after all, because in the dark, there is a providence.

We became friends, wasn't that? I don't know your attitude, but I know my own attitude, and my attitude towards you, that's it.

It's such a trance.

……

On this day, during the big recess.

I was asleep in a daze, and as soon as I looked up, I saw a familiar figure standing in the doorway, yes, he was back.

Student B is still the same as before, with a familiar smile and a kind face, as if he is waving to me, but as if he is not.

I quickly took out my glasses, and when I turned sideways, I saw the arm waving at the tablemate, and looked at the door again, and he was already far away.

Didn't you say hello to me again?

It's really too much to think about.

Thinking too much again.

I'm always like that, misunderstanding after misunderstanding.

After all, in the past six months, we have not had the slightest contact.

This unexpected encounter was very sudden.

The surprise and excitement at that moment, I completely saw my heart, I cared, and I was happy all day today because I saw him.

He's back.

However, all this is still so unreal and ridiculous.

It's like it's my own business, and it has nothing to do with him. is like a scene often played in TV dramas, when a domineering male protagonist pursues the heroine, he will say: "I like you, it has nothing to do with you." ”

The difference is that in the TV series, I will say it directly and domineeringly, but I won't.

I'm just careful about self-preservation.

……

Later, when all the people came back, our entire 19th class was going to be divided, some in the 17th class, some in the 18th class, and I was assigned to the 18th class, and before leaving, the head teacher of the 17th class said to me, "If you don't want to leave, you can stay." ”

I thought, what else can it be?

However, I still followed the army to see the eighteenth class, not that I didn't want to stay, I wanted to experience it on both sides, and then make a choice, and when I arrived at the eighteenth class, most of them were unfamiliar and unfamiliar faces, and there was a strict head teacher.

It's the female head teacher who used to be very fierce.

Going around in circles, who should I go with? It's embarrassing.,I didn't come here if I knew it.,Almost all of them don't know.,Looking back.,I saw a glimmer of hope.,It's Ahri's classmate.。

So, the two of us became table members.

Everything is extraordinarily natural, but his eyes are still full of tenderness, still the same boy from before, sincere eyes, warm everything, I am a little embarrassed to look at him, it is a sense of guilt.

Guilt for him.

After all, I had hurt him so much, this is a fact, I have to admit it, and I don't want to admit it.

I owe him an apology after all.

However, it is amazing that there seems to be no so-called estrangement between us, but it is much more natural, time? Time forgets everything, and time is healing after all.

We can also help each other in our studies, for example, he is good at math and I am good at English.

I'm looking at the question, he's ......

Also looking at the question.

However, the good times were short-lived.

A few days later, the head teacher of class 18 was ready to rearrange his seats, looking at the unfamiliar faces of the whole class, it was awkward to sit with anyone, after all, I didn't know them, they didn't know me, unlike Ahri, there were former classmates in this class.

To go or to stay, I'm already starting to struggle.

On this day, Alin came back after the school exams in the past few days, and I seemed to see a glimmer of hope, but it was shattered in an instant.

Although she is back, she is leaving again to study at a cultural institution.

I don't understand why they didn't come to school, but they had to go there, and the training camp hadn't squeezed out the families who weren't wealthy? Alin was always crying to me, but her pockets were full of big-name lipsticks.

So there is money to buy these, but there is no money to pay them back.

I didn't care, I didn't seem to expect her to pay me back, after all, she didn't mean that either, so be it.

You can't just ask for it, after all, talking about money hurts feelings.

After Alin left, I was even more convinced of my choice.

"I'm leaving." I told Ahri that now our relationship is more like good friends, which is good.

"Where?" He asked, confused.

"Class Seventeen." Everything I say is sincere, not joking, and for me, it is most important to study in a comfortable environment.

Just go.

Just arrived on Sunday, one day off, I moved my things back to Class 17, but I lost my original good position, and I had to sit in the back row, but it didn't matter, I would always reverse the seat.

After I left, I saw Ahri again, but he looked depressed, he thought I was joking at that time, but I didn't have the slightest intention to joke, every sentence is true, how sincere and sincere, didn't he see it?

It's not an abandonment, after all, he's going to change seats.

Later, they all just passed by, and there was no communication.

All the fate between us, this is the end, thanks to Mr. Ahri, although they have not really been together, but the likes at that time are real, not a little false, maybe it's just not appropriate.

If it is not suitable, it cannot be forced, and forcing it will not lead to results, and the journey between us should be stopped.

A simple and pure boy like Ahri is really rare, and I hope he can meet her who is more suitable.

Bless him.

I've been wondering, am I a little preoccupied?

Feelings of confusion, strange encounters, inexplicable everything.

……

When I returned to Class 17, I felt different, the familiar teachers already knew me completely, because I was the only one who was assigned to Class 17 to listen to the class, and the other students were nothing more than to mess around, to put it bluntly, just to get a graduation certificate.

After all, everyone has their own aspirations.

You can't put your thoughts on others.

The teachers in their class were very kind to me, and they already treated me as a student in their own class.

……

A major physical examination is required before the college entrance examination.

Check all aspects of your body, and then, to make a record, although you don't know what the purpose is, but still have to cooperate fully. The strange thing is that the college entrance examination is not a sports event, does it still need to look at the physical fitness of the individual?

I don't know, I don't understand, I do it.

Of course, there is also the blood drawing area that makes the students panic, everyone avoids it, and the wailing of the girls, it is easy to make people feel pity, but I won't, I am like a man, go directly to the blood drawing area, put my arm directly on it, and then feel the prickly feeling of the needle, and I can't help but chuckle in my heart, but there is no big reaction on the surface.

Pretend to be calm.

After all, it's not my style to show weakness, and I wish I was strong when others saw me, so that I wouldn't be despised and slighted.

These performances are nothing more than to prove that I am not a weak existence, nor an existence that anyone can bully, I am a person with flesh and blood and soul, an independent individual, with dignity and ideas.

It will not be slaughtered.

They won't be bullied indiscriminately.

……

At noon, Alin suddenly asked me out to eat together, and I, her, and Xin came to a small hot pot restaurant together.

Tell the excitement of not seeing you for a long time, especially Xin, and her, it's really been a long time, I remember that she was my last table mate before the training camp.

At the same time, I asked Xin a question, that is, I was blocked at the time, I asked her why?

She looked confused, saying that she had set it up wrong.

But fortunately, Xin wasn't angry, and I thought she would be angry about such a brainless question.

It's been so long, I'm still like this, I haven't made any progress, and I still can't talk with my brain, and if Xin gets angry today, I don't know what to do.

It turned out that these were all misunderstandings, and the friendship between us was still there, and the rain suddenly cleared up, and the mood also improved.

Unlike Alin, Xin is in another cultural training class, which is not far from the school, but it is not easy to meet each other.

Later, Alin's intensive training class created a new model, that is, to use the evening self-study time for tutoring, and at this time, we all went.

It's a good method, and you can learn a lot of things, after all, it's much better than the usual learning for the purpose of strolling in the class, this is not a public welfare nature, and the fee is inevitable, but we go there, but also with the consent of our parents, otherwise how can we have the conditions to go.

I actually have a little selfishness when I go there to tutor, because there are people I want to meet, and student B is also there for cultural training, he is long-term, and I am short-term.

It was my deliberate chance encounter every night when I was studying.

Many students in Class 17 went there, and the teacher was still our teacher during class, which was equivalent to extracurricular tutoring, which was more or less useful to consolidate the knowledge in class.

Otherwise, what this small class has created will not be meaningful.

In a month of study, I met with classmate B several times, and each time it was face-to-face, and then he patted me on the shoulder, and I smiled at him, like the feeling of the eldest brother and the younger brother.

It's a very comfortable feeling.

Later, student B's school exam results came out, and he was admitted to one of the eight major art academies, which made me feel even inferior, he was very good.

His excellence made me sad and wanted to stay away silently.

Later, I didn't go to this cram school because I was approaching the college entrance examination, and my inferiority complex made me want to give up.

It was during this period that Xu went online, and he asked me again, and it was the same question as before.

My reason at the time was to wait for the JAE to finish, and I didn't want to be distracted at that time.

Now, the joint entrance examination will be completed soon.

In the face of his questioning again, I couldn't bear to hurt him, but I couldn't say it, wait until the college entrance examination is over, and if I refuse it then, I may become a scumbag, and I always feel like I'm walking others, which is not a good feeling.

I don't like it either.

Then, I indirectly explained the existence of student B in my heart, and he also understood.

After that, we lost contact and broke off our original sin.

That's fine, he doesn't seem to be so sad and sad, and he is relieved all of a sudden, hoping that I am not the villain, and I hope he will not be distracted by this matter.

My choice is destined to be nothing.

However, it also happens to respond to the non-mainstream saying: "Rather lack than excess", they are all good, but we are not suitable.

And I am about to face the college entrance examination, the most important exam in my life, and I must not be distracted.

After all, the greater the expectation, the greater the disappointment, and it is better to make it clear earlier.

……

The results of the model are out.

The ranking is above average in the 17th class, which is okay, but it is not enough, I want more, so I have to study harder.

During this period of time I have forgotten how I spent my time, in short, it was a complete immersion, I really couldn't imagine anything else every day except studying, and I didn't leave any room for relaxation.

Looking at the countdown in the upper right corner of the blackboard, I count down every day, and after each day, I feel nervous.

Watch the numbers change, day after day.

However, with less than a month left before the college entrance examination, I discovered another skill of mine, which I have only discovered now, thanks to the enlightenment of my Chinese teacher.

That's composition.

My essay score was above 40 every time because it was a perfect score of 50.

So, on this day, the Chinese teacher asked me to get up and read the composition, this is the first time I read the composition I wrote in front of so many classmates, I always feel very embarrassed, and I can clearly feel the flush on my cheeks, which is even more embarrassing.

I knew that the teacher approved of me and let me read it.

With one hand, it is an uncontrollable embarrassment.

Continued spread......

I was like an emotionless reading machine, my brain was in a mess, I didn't know what I was reading, and I was always talking, but I quickly finished reading the 800-word essay, and the last sentence: "Do it and cherish it!" ”

I still remember it vividly.

It was also a very popular Internet phrase at that time, I wrote this sentence into my composition, and the puzzled voices of my classmates sounded, is this strange?

The teacher didn't think it was strange, Chinese culture is broad and profound, and every sentence has a different meaning in different places, so there is no need to be shocked.

People can't always be fixed by thinking.

I can't question myself, I have to be confident, I have to be worthy of the teacher's recognition, otherwise why wouldn't the Chinese teacher let other students read it?

Right?

Yes.

This has greatly improved my self-confidence in writing, and my dream has already been transformed from a painter to a writer during the intensive training, which is a kind of immature transformation, and I prefer to put my feelings and thoughts into words rather than saying something.

The channeling effect of words is very important to me.

All the good and bad things can be said to it, which is both a release and a realm.

Thank you to my Bo Lè, Chinese teacher.

The Chinese teacher's way of teaching is also very good, she will not blindly explain boringly, she will occasionally tell us a story or watch an inspirational movie, in short, her class, we all like it very much.

Looking forward to Chinese classes has become a daily routine.

Except, of course, the moment of memorizing ancient poems.

……

After today's class, my opinion of the Chinese teacher has changed.

The results of the three models came out, and the moment I got the Chinese test paper, I was shocked, although the other general knowledge and ancient poetry questions were very bleak, but the score of the composition was very high, almost a full score, after the surprise, I casually put away the test paper.

Later, it was not found.

I really couldn't find it, I searched everywhere, and I couldn't find it, and then, the Chinese class came, and the time period for reading the composition.

The Chinese teacher suddenly cued me, I guessed, but ......

Some embarrassed words: "I can't find my test paper......"

The corners of the Chinese teacher's mouth twitched, obviously disbelieving, and said: "I don't believe it, reading the composition is to share with the students, you can't make excuses like this, okay, the next classmate." ”

I sat down in frustration, it was not that I didn't want to read or share, but no one wanted to believe me.

I don't like the Chinese teacher anymore.

That's what I thought at that time.

Later, every time I saw the eyes of the Chinese teacher, I would avoid them, and she seemed to find out about the incident, but instead of guiding me, she ignored me in the same way.

A few days later, when I was in geography class, I took out my workbook and found that my Chinese test paper was sandwiched here, and I seemed to remember why.

But when the exam papers were handed out, I had just finished the geography class, and I probably had it right......

Hey, it's better to come late, otherwise it won't be misunderstood.

It won't be like this with the Chinese teacher, but since the matter has happened, there is still room for retreat, so be it, after all, there will be no contact with the teachers in the future.

Just right, this time the school was cleared.

The college entrance examination is coming, all the candidates in the third year of high school left the school early and went home to prepare for the exam, this year is our graduation, so we did not tear up the books and throw them on campus, the school leaders must also sigh, there is no need to bother to clean the campus.

Witnessed so many graduates and college entrance examination candidates.

This time, it was finally our turn.