On the weekend, at the urging of Wang Wanruo, Zhuang Rui went home once, Yi Zhonghe went on a business trip, and Yi Jing did not come back because of something at school, so there were only mother and son at home.

From the moment she entered the door, Wang Wanruo's eyes never took her eyes off Zhuang Rui, "Tell me about you, I don't know if I came back to see my mother." ”

Zhuang Rui took the dishes to be washed from Wang Wanruo's hand, "Isn't this back?" ”

Wang Wanruo said, "If I don't call you, will you come back?" ”

Zhuang Rui will turn on the faucet and rinse the dishes, "I'm sorry, Mom, I will come back often to accompany you in the future." ”

Wang Wanruo smiled, "This is what you said, go home when you have time, do you know." ”

"Hmm."

"Mom knows that you will definitely go to accompany Xing'er whenever you have time now, but your mother also needs you to spend time with her, you know?"

Zhuang Rui lowered his head and washed the dishes seriously, Wang Wanruo didn't notice that when he said the word Xing'er, the movements of his hands paused for a second or two.

Wang Wanruo made all the dishes that Zhuang Rui loved to eat when he was a child, braised fish, tomato eggs, sweet and sour pork ribs, and bitter vegetable soup.

Looking at Wang Wanruo's busy figure, no longer like the light figure of her youth, what she does seems slow and heavy, Zhuang Rui realized that she has indeed not been with her for a long time, so many years, she probably spent most of her time alone in this luxurious cage, looking forward to someone coming back to talk to her, just such a small wish, but he knew that the person he was looking forward to was either busy with work or school, and the company of others became a luxury.

Wang Wanruo handed the rice to Zhuang Rui: "Eat it quickly." ”

"Okay."

For so many years, Wang Wanruo has always felt ashamed of Zhuang Rui, because of his own will, he was forced to live a life he didn't want.

Zhuang Rui felt guilty that he didn't accompany his mother well, so the mother and son felt guilty about each other.

Eating and eating, Wang Wanruo said, "By the way, next time you have time, you can bring apricots too, my mother likes that child very much, he looks beautiful, especially when he laughs, he is really good-looking." ”

Zhuang Rui put down the chopsticks, pondered for a while, and felt that it was better to tell Wang Wanruo, "Mom, I broke up with Xing'er." ”

"What?" Wang Wanruo's hand holding the chopsticks trembled, "No, son, what's the situation, why did you break up?" Wasn't it okay last time? ”

Zhuang Rui smiled bitterly, to be honest, he didn't know what the situation was, now that he thinks about it, she was the one who said he wanted to be with him, and now she is the one who gave an unknown reason to break up.

Wang Wanruo said, "You have been together for so many years, so you broke up and broke up." She was almost in tears, Zhuang Rui's temperament was very clear to her, he could accompany a person for so many years, it was enough to prove how much he liked and cared about that person, which maybe even Si Kouxing didn't know.

When Zhuang Rui saw Wang Wanruo's appearance, he was also anxious, and hurriedly comforted, "I'm fine, Mom, don't you think I'm fine?" ”

Wang Wanruo said, "Yes, it's okay, son, Mom believes that you will definitely find a better one." ”

Zhuang Rui smiled at Wang Wanruo, "Yes, okay, Mom, let's eat." ”

He picked up his chopsticks again and put a piece of fish meat in Wang Wanruo's bowl, "Eat it." ”

Wang Wanruo suddenly felt that the food was tasteless, but she still ate calmly, as if nothing had happened just now. Occasionally glanced at Zhuang Rui, he lowered his head, his appearance was still quiet and elegant, but if he looked closely, his face was a little pale, he probably hadn't had a good night's sleep in the past few days, right?

A few days ago, Zhang Han happily showed Zhang Huan the scandal between Si Kouxing and Fu Shi, "I came out of the club together at night, and I hugged and hugged him, saying that there is no leg, who believes it." ”

Zhang Huan stared at the blurry photo that looked like they were close together, and pushed his glasses, "You say, will they break up?" ”

Zhang Han said, "If I were Teacher Zhuang, I would definitely not be able to bear it." ”

When Zhuang Rui appeared in the office, several young colleagues looked at him with unexplained sympathy. Maybe some of them will be ridiculed and have nothing to do to have a girlfriend in the entertainment industry, now it's okay, the whole world is watching the green hat, and some people are really sympathetic, Mr. Zhuang is such a good person, so he found such a girlfriend, of course, there are also people like Zhang Huan who are secretly happy, such a high-quality man, is back to being single?

Zhuang Rui ignored the meaningless glances, walked to his place and sat down, turned on the computer, and corrected the homework handed in by the students.

In the afternoon, everyone in the office left one after another, and Zhang Han patted Zhang Huan's shoulder before leaving, "Come on." ”

After the office quieted down, Zhang Huan put down the book in his hand, carried his bag, and walked to Zhuang Rui's desk, "Isn't Mr. Zhuang still leaving?" ”

Zhuang Rui glanced up at her, Zhang Huan's gaze was also locked on his face, his face was a little paler than a few days ago, his slightly red lips were bloodless on weekdays, and his reaction was a little dull, "What?" ”

Zhang Huan said, "Teacher Zhuang, are you okay?" ”

Zhuang Rui shook his head: "It's okay." ”

Zhang Huan said, "I see that your face is not very good, has you not rested well recently." ”

Zhuang Rui said, "Well, I've been having a bit of insomnia lately. He smiled, "It's okay, maybe it'll be fine after a while." ”

Zhang Huan frowned, "Then what's the matter, you better go to the doctor, one of my classmates opened a psychological counseling center, or I will help you contact it." ”

Zhuang Rui pondered for a few seconds, "It's okay, that teacher, please help me contact me, I just don't have a class tomorrow afternoon, just tomorrow afternoon." ”

Zhang Huan nodded, "Okay, then I'll go first." I don't know why, being looked at by Zhuang Rui, she felt inexplicably nervous in her heart, as if she was running away, she hurried out of the office.

Zhuang Rui looked at Zhang Huan's back as he hurriedly walked out of the office, was there something urgent?

After class the next day, Zhang Huan sent the address of the consultation center to Zhuang Rui, and after sending it, she repeatedly typed and deleted this sentence in the dialog box, whether she needed to accompany her, and finally, she deleted it, just to see a psychiatrist, what is she going to do?

The consultation center is located in the suburbs not far from the city, and the whole suburb is lined with houses of different heights and lush trees. Zhuang Rui found a consultation office according to the address given by Zhang Huan, a single house, not particularly large, giving people a sense of quiet and far-reaching belonging.

Walking in, the receptionist facing the door asked, "Did you make an appointment with Ms. Zhang?" ”

Zhuang Rui said, "Yes. ”

The front desk said, "Please come with me." ”

The consultation room was in the innermost, and the reception knocked on the door, "Dr. Zhao, Mr. Zhang's friend has arrived." ”

The young woman in the white coat said, "Please come in." ”

Zhuang Rui politely said to the reception: "Thank you." ”

The receptionist smiled and nodded, and went down.

Zhuang Rui walked in, closed the door, and sat down across from the young woman, separated by a desk.

Dr. Zhao said, "You are Zhuang Rui." ”

Zhuang Rui said, "Yes. ”

"I heard you mentioned."

"Really?" Zhuang Rui smiled politely.

Doctor Zhao looked at Zhuang Rui's face, and then looked at his demeanor, except for his pale face, there was nothing abnormal, and she could see at a glance that he was hiding and suppressing some of his emotions.

"Ahh Whether it's too much pressure at work, or it's an emotional problem. ”

"I'm actually out of love, and I always think that I'll be fine after a while, but insomnia seems to be getting worse and worse."

"You can't let her go?"

"Well, we've been together for eight years, and it's not so easy to let go."

"You don't want your loved ones to worry, you don't want your friends to worry?"

Zhuang Rui thought about it for a while, right, he didn't want Yi Jing to worry, let alone Wang Wanruo.

"Are you afraid that others will see your lost emotions?"

Zhuang Rui didn't speak, his tense nerves gradually relaxed, the lost emotions on his face slowly came out, and his eyes turned red.

"Actually, you don't have to pretend that you're fine, it's normal to fall out of love, and it's normal to want to cry and vent after falling out of love. You can't hide your emotions, it needs to be released. ”

Zhuang Rui's tears flowed out, but he still didn't make a sound. His eyes sparkled in the mild light of the consultation room.

Dr. Zhao continued, "I'll give you an order to treat insomnia, if you still can't sleep, take it once before going to bed, and use as little as you can." But medicine is not the key, you have to come out of the broken love by yourself, and the most important thing is not to suppress your emotions, vent and confide out, you will feel better. ”

Zhuang Rui raised his eyes and glanced at Dr. Zhao, "Thank you." ”

After Zhuang Rui left, Dr. Zhao called Zhang Huan, "That colleague of yours just left." ”

Zhang Huan asked worriedly, "How is it?"

"It's nothing, it's just that I'm out of love, and I keep this matter too much in my heart, and when he comes out, it's fine."

Zhang Huan sighed, "I don't know when he will be able to come out." ”

"Perhaps, there is a new relationship" Dr. Zhao's words are specifically to tease Zhang Huan, Zhang Huan before because Zhuang Rui even felt that he was psychologically abnormal, Dr. Zhao specially gave her psychological counseling, and finally summed up, she just liked Zhuang Rui, but because he had a girlfriend and was younger than himself, Zhang Huan has always had a hurdle in his heart, once denied it but was deeply involved, and finally, to the point of last resort, he asked Dr. Zhao to give him psychological counseling.

"But then again, I only knew when I saw me today, no wonder our teacher Zhang thinks about people day and night, it turns out that he is such an immortal-like person."

On the other side of the phone, Zhang Huan's face turned unnaturally red, "Okay, don't talk about it, I still have to prepare for class." ”

"Okay, you can get busy."

Zhuang Rui sat in the room, thinking about what Dr. Zhao said, he had been suppressing his emotions and telling the people around him that he was fine, but was it really okay? He was about to break down.

From the breakup to the present, he has been forcing himself not to think about Si Kouxing, as if if he didn't think about her, he would really be fine.

All his thoughts poured out, the way she laughed, the way she messed with him, the way she cried because she couldn't bear him, the way she hugged him, the way she kissed him, frame by frame in his mind.

The girl who said that she would not like anyone but him was still standing in front of him with a smile on her face. She didn't want him like that.

Tears welled up in his eyes, was she really with the man he had a relationship with? Was that man nice to her? is not better than him, so she will not hesitate to let go of him and choose to be with that man.

By the way, after being with her for so many years, he only remembered now, and he didn't seem to have said a word to her, I like you.

I must have agreed to be with you because I liked you.

Tears ran across the bridge of his nose, across the corners of his mouth, even soaking his shirt, and to the end, he let out a low sob, in a voice he had never heard before.

He hadn't cried like this in a long time, and the last time it was when his father died, his voice was still very young and thin.

Tired of crying, Zhuang Rui lay on the bed and fell asleep. There were still tiny teardrops on his eyelashes, and the white skin under his eyelashes lined the eyelashes with long and thick eyelashes.