"Every day, will you marry me in the future". I was tired after the performance, and as soon as I opened the dialog box, I saw that Gege had sent such a message.

I froze, my fingers trying to hit something, but I didn't get a word. Tie the knot? Something I've never thought about or dared to think about.

Before I met Gege, I didn't even know that I would still say that I love you, and I would be shy about the computer with a red face, and I would miss someone in the dark, and this person was still an illusory existence, and now, this illusory person, my online girlfriend is asking me, will I marry her, I have been dating online for four months, and I don't know how to answer her question for the first time.

"Are you running away from me, but I won't force you to answer this question", he said, adding a smiling emoji. How do I look at it, this smile, too forced.

From Gege's words and the meaningful expression at the end, I know that she cares about this question very much, and she also cares about my answer, she is not wrong, I am evading, Chen Yitian, what are you running away from? That girl is good, isn't she? You think about it day and night, you dream of her, how much you hope that this person is the only one in your life, the heroine of the greatest love story in your heart, the purest love, the unexpected love, ah, I often talk to myself, and now I don't know myself.

"Gege, do you believe in verbal promises? Really, I want to say I will, but I'm not sure if I can do it, it's too easy to say, but I'm not the kind of person who can speak good and obedient, and I really don't know what will happen to us in the future, if we meet in reality one day, I don't know if we can be as happy as in the network, so suitable, so able to have endless words every day, you will sing to me, you will still think that I am the one who makes you laugh, that very second boyfriend, if you have to know my answer, Then that's my answer." After saying these words, I felt a lot more relaxed, at least, I let Gege know what I thought, which is the most important thing.

"It's okay, it's my words that are too abrupt, but I'm really afraid of losing, really, really too scared of losing." Hearing this, I seemed to see Gege holding his head with both hands, shouting heartbreakingly: Why did you leave me, why did you deceive me, I love you so much, ahhhhh And what can I do?

"Gege, don't think about it so much, no matter what, I won't take the initiative to leave you, let alone deceive you, at least emotionally." I hope my words can make Gege feel at ease, and his heart will not be so uneasy, but I, why don't I think too much, and I am not afraid of losing!

"I can't do it, because I have to think about you in my head, pretending to be you, how can I not think too much" Gege stuck out his tongue playfully after speaking. Wow, it would be great if you stuck your tongue out at me face to face in reality.

Gege's words made me feel a burst of warmth again, yes, when she said such a thing, there was really nothing she could do. In the end we ended the chat in a joyous atmosphere, maybe it was just on the surface, in fact, we both knew that reality is fucking cruel and we were all kidnapped by reality.

Our love is so pure, so pure that we don't have each other's phone numbers, left the network, none of us know anyone, no one can find anyone, in love is originally a boy who takes the initiative, and in our relationship, the initiative has always been Gege, I have always been like a fool, I think a lot, but I express so little, looking at our chat history, where the is the communication between lovers, it is clearly a pair of best friends, the way of communication between lovers is completely invisible to me, I even hate myself, will I die if I talk more about love, yes, it's been hard to say.

Since the last time, I haven't seen Sister Na for a few days, and I really want to talk to her about my online relationship, in fact, my online love story, except for Xia Zichen knows, I didn't tell anyone else, in my opinion, love is such a thing, even if it's online dating, it doesn't need that kind of attention, many people know, that love, is it not good to live in my heart?

Thinking of Xia Zichen, I also realized that I hadn't contacted him for a long time, although I have been a good buddy for many years, I still need to contact often to maintain my relationship, so I didn't think about it so much, no matter that it was the third watch in the middle of the night, I dialed the familiar number.

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What I thought about the most was the sentence, "Will you marry me, will you marry me", which has been surrounding my ears. What the fuck is love, I have always had a clear understanding, I don't know if it's right, now love, most of it is physiological needs, most of it is desire. So you can go to bed after knowing each other for a few days, and if you sleep well in the middle of the night, the girl next to your bed may shake you awake, "Oh, wake up, I want it, let's have a shot" You may feel very cool and exciting, but over time, you will find out, xi

G is just the same thing, there is no longing for it when you were young, when the girl is shaking you up in the middle of the night, and even takes the initiative to sway on you to find pleasure, you want to find all kinds of reasons to refuse, feel tired, will you feel, what are we together for, life or love? Or is it in the heat of battle? Is it up to the hall and the window? Especially the lovers of long-distance relationships, it is not easy to love, if it is okay to love each other, if the love is polished by distance and time, it is possible that she is calling you and shouting: Husband, you rest early, everything is fine with me, good night" Maybe she was riding while talking to you, and continued to indulge after the call, looking for excitement, bursts of sound floated in the room, and you, really fucking went to sleep alone. Isn't that embarrassing.

Thinking of this, my eyes unconsciously aimed at a dark green bag next to the sofa, a little familiar, I opened it and looked, Nima, isn't this the disc from last time, it was actually put here.

An incomprehensible text, a statement, and then the lights came on, and a room appeared, and there was a bed in it, and a woman walked in, said a few words to the camera, and then laughed, and at this time a man also walked in and said something to the girl, and the girl slowly began to show shyness, nervousness, fear, and slowly, the man put his arms around the girl, kissed, and the girl wanted to struggle, wanted to shout, and kept muttering a sentence Ya Zhi Butterfly, Ya Zhi Butterfly, Da Ba. The man doesn't care, the hand also began to move, the girl began to take the initiative to cooperate, the girl screamed out in pain, and slowly turned into enjoyment, "Yaba, Ya Butterfly" is this voice that stimulates the man's desire more and more, the next time, crazy writhing, crazy shouting, crazy picture sense stimulates me, in H City, in a residential building, a teenager is watching a sad movie.

Soon, the boy began to cry slowly.

Every time I see the goddess being ravaged by these lewd men, I can't help but burst into tears, (What can I do if my Gege is also bullied?) I can feel it, I can feel the gentle beating of her chest and heart across this screen, every time I am exhausted, I grit my teeth and persevere, just to not disappoint the fans and cooperate with my partner, at the end, my whole body is convulsed due to physical exhaustion, and sadness and grief are intertwined and come to my heart.. Every time she shoots due to a personal mistake, she will suffer from the disgusting eyes of her partner, and then readjust her posture, but she just bears it all silently every time, her eyes are full of self-blame and guilt, and who understands her pain, only me... And who is in her pain... is silently supporting her, only I .......

The heroines in the film are often young, beautiful and cute, and the male protagonists are often obscene and ugly, in the movie, the beautiful heroine is us in life, and the male protagonist in it represents the ugliness, dirtiness and all the bad things in life, although we want to do it out of the mud without staining, but in the face of the ugly life, we can't completely resist, so in the end we often compromise, we give up resistance, so the pure we are forced to explode by the dirty life, explode and explode, And the whole film revolves around this, starting from our resistance to life to understanding life, and finally the thorns on our bodies are smoothed out, and we begin to enjoy a cruel life instead, isn't this the true meaning of life, this is the greatest fucking life education film.

Ah, this is life, this is reality, the cry has been surrounding my ears, my tears are gushing out like a spring, Chen Yitian, what's wrong with you? Oh, I'm not crying for her, I'm crying for myself, I'm crazy, who will understand?

Gradually, I was anesthetized by the sound of this one after another, I didn't know whether it was a dream or a reality, and I slowly closed my eyes, as if I were listening to elegant classical music.