I can't deceive myself anymore, I think I've forgotten about her, I've changed, I've become mature and unchildish, however, when the word Gege reappears in front of my eyes, everything becomes fragile, all the pieces are automatically connected, all the past automatically replays for me, I hate you, Creator, why did you construct the human species, or the way I was constructed? It is better to lead me into complete darkness, an endless abyss! It's better that I was never created!

I took out my cigarette, smoked one by one, looked at the half-moon that had been revealed in a daze, looked at this line of words, my hand didn't know where to put it, should I go back to her, who is she? Friends, lovers or loved ones? I don't know, so I'll just think she's the most familiar stranger!

"The exam is over".

"Then you're on vacation now, you have a lot of time, will you come to F City to play with me"!

"Bingtong, on the road"! When I saw these messages, I immediately put my phone in my pocket and yelled at him.

He was so frightened by this sudden roar that he hit his head on the trunk of a tree, covered his head and said angrily, "What are you doing, people are scared and scared to death, you know."

"Don't talk nonsense, it's going to be dark soon, let's get on the road quickly" After speaking, I picked up the bicycle, and the person sat on it, waiting for Bingtong.

He stared at me blankly, standing still.

"What the are you doing, get in the car, go to City C".

But your car ......

What, what about a flat tire, what is this little thing?

He got on the bike in a state of confusion and we continued our journey.

I rode the bike, listening to the sound of the tires rubbing against the ground, I didn't feel tired, why, I don't know.

"How does it feel to ride on a steel rim?" asked Bingtong.

"It's the same as not having a flat tire, don't believe you try"?

"When I didn't ask".

I don't know how many words Bingtong said to me during this period, and I don't know if Gege sent me a few more messages and her iconic expression pictures, I didn't even care, my thoughts at the moment already don't know where to fly, at the moment I am a shell, no soul, no thoughts, only a breath, am I riding, why don't I feel tired.

"Hey, there seems to be a village there, let's see if we can fix the car." Bingtong suddenly shouted.

Sure enough, there was a village, and I also came to the spirit, and finally saw the familiar lights, instead of relying on the flash of the mobile phone, and at this moment I suddenly felt that I was back in a normal society.

But looking at the village, I hesitated to enter, because I know too much about some customs in the south, the people in this area have a strong sense of clan, and are generally xenophobic, if you rush in, I am really afraid of being beaten out, but I thought about it again, as an 18-year-old adult, am I still afraid of this, enter the village!

At this moment, it is dark, if there are no these lights, only the stars and moon in the sky will chirp, and the village can still vaguely see some people passing by, for us, they cast strange eyes, and even a few old women are pointing behind our backs, I have reason to believe that they suspect that the two of us uninvited guests will definitely not be good people, ready to call people at any time.

I was a little disappointed that almost all the doors were closed, and the TV in my house was already talking, and we were going to knock on the door and tell them if they had any tools to fix the car, and it would be better if they could give us a good meal. I feel like I'm dreaming, and now I'm getting more and more tired, I keep yawning, looking at my watch, it's not even ten o'clock, when was the last time I Chen Yitian yawned at ten o'clock in the evening? Did I yawn at ten o'clock?

But we were lucky, an old man saw us, asked about the situation, we also told him the truth about our predicament, the old man didn't say a word, pointed to a bicycle lane not far away, "Young man, I admire your courage, but I am afraid that it will not work without a good car, this car is my fund for you, take it."

Bingtong and I widened our eyes, uncle is so arrogant, I looked at the car, no matter what, it was definitely much better than this broken car, but we discussed it, or decided that it was not acceptable, and finally, we removed the inner tube of the car and repaired it in my car, which happened to be the same size.

We left the village safe and sound, unexpectedly happy.

However, the biggest problem we are facing now is that we can't always ride without resting, but in the wilderness everywhere, the mobile phone battery is insufficient, just when it is difficult, Bingtong said, "No accident, in front of us is the lychee forest in a while, that is where we live tonight."

Sure enough, soon I saw the lychee forest, but, how the is this sleeping, what about mosquitoes, what about snakes, I suddenly feel hairy.

"Bingtong, tell me, how do you sleep here?

"Just lie down"

"What if there is a snake,".

"If you close your eyes, you won't be able to see."

I...... This is true divine logic.

Seeing Bingtong lying peacefully under the lychee forest, closing his eyes and curling his body to the side, really, really fucking fell asleep...... It's so simple and straightforward.

I had to follow his example, not to mention, it was really cool and comfortable, at least now I didn't have to kick my legs under the scorching sun.

I'm going to take a good rest and close my eyes, but years of good habits will eventually hurt me, and every time I feel sleepy, I will remember what happened that day, what I said and did, what great things I did today, and the pictures rolled in my mind.

"Why don't you reply to my message" She! I opened my eyes suddenly, looked around, it was pitch black, was I dreaming, I was sleeping? Am I asleep? How long did I sleep? There was no answer to his own three questions.

I immediately took out my mobile phone, 15% of the battery was eye-catching, then I suddenly woke up, in the afternoon she sent me a message, suddenly felt nervous, opened WeChat, sure enough, her last message was 23:15, but now it is half past three in the morning, that is to say, I fell asleep, and there were auditory hallucinations.

Looking at the five or six messages she sent, I was still a little numb, I felt extremely unreal, this person appeared again, but I also brain-dead back to her before, and now I feel redundant, I have changed, not the self-righteous infatuated man, I have almost forgotten you, soon, I am about to forget you, why did you appear in my world again, I really want to say these words to her.

Fortunately, I am an evader, I am a coward, and with a slight stroke of my finger, I casually replied to a picture, but what I didn't expect was that she immediately replied to a picture after a few seconds.

I know we're all in the same moment again, we're all awake, we're all looking at the screen, we're all thinking about the next sentence, but, is this the result I want?

"Chen Yitian, Chen Yitian, are you really a cheap bone, are you really a dog" The voice that had disappeared for a long time laughed at me in my head again.

I got up, walked out of the lychee forest, looked at the stars in the sky, the stars seemed to bring me to the Creator, I wanted to kneel down and ask the Creator, you take me away, just like the star, away from the crowd, only appear at night, leaving a vague figure, looking at those pathetic human beings like ants in the distance, I can laugh at them loudly, I can scold them, I can reveal my heart to them loudly, I can even turn into a meteor at the end of my life, piercing the sky, Leave me one last of my form for the people I care about, and they'll probably cheer, wow, what a pretty shooting star.

That's enough, that's what I want me to exist for, that's all, okay?

"Self-deception, I am the Creator, the Creator is you, everyone is their own Creator, this is the last time I appeared, so I can do it myself, my shell".

Is this providential?