Su Yan no longer knows how many cities he has been in, he can't remember the appearance of his biological parents, and his face has been forgotten, but what his parents did to him has always been deeply imprinted in his mind.

Su Yan was born in an extremely ordinary family, in a backward small county, Su Yan's birth was not favored by the family, although it is the 21st century, but it is still indispensable for the old man to prefer sons over daughters, the mother-in-law's cold face makes the mother feel pressure, but how to say that it is also his own child, Su Yan knew that his grandmother didn't like him at a very young age, and tried his best to please his grandmother but was disgusted, and at home it seemed that even breathing would be disliked, and he thought that his whole life would go on like this. But he didn't expect that his tragic fate had just begun. It was the time of the autumn season, Su Yan slept at home, it happened that the window opened a small slit, the wind of the change season was very strong, Su Yan still had a slight cold at first, but her grandmother was unwilling to send her to treatment, and in desperation, she used a cold towel at home to cool down, but the child also ate fruit as a thief, and her condition worsened in an instant. When he arrived at the hospital, he was already very ill, and he was lucky to be able to get his life back, but the retina was damaged, and Su Yan's eyes lost their light. Originally, the mother still loved her daughter very much, but a news that was equivalent to a catastrophe for Su Yan came, the mother was pregnant, and the grandmother took it to the fortune teller to see, this fetus is a good birth. The family was immersed in laughter and forgot that Su Yan had just come out of the ghost gate a few days ago, and the grandmother valued this child very much, and gradually the burden of life at home increased, and no one was willing to take care of poor Su Yan. I forgot to mention that Su Yan's father is really a mother, and he sprinkled fire on his wife and children after returning home cowardly. The day Su Yan was abandoned happened to be the day after his younger brother was born, and he was pulled out of the house by his grandmother and father on the pretense of going to the supermarket to buy snacks, and gave it to the old relatives in the mountains who couldn't be beaten as a child daughter-in-law.

Su Yan was already 20 years old under Wang Mang's subordinates, looking like a flower and jade, with curved willow leaves and thin eyebrows, and a red face on his fair face, which was frozen by the cold weather, but looked even more petite and lovely, and his thin lips were a little peeled by the winter climate, revealing a faint pink. The hair is worn up to the shoulders and tied in a ponytail casually. Although life is turbulent, the figure is thin, and although there is dust on the face, it can't hide the original charm. It was winter, and Su Yan was wearing a shabby cotton coat with a black sweater underneath, jeans and a pair of dirty snow boots that could not be seen, which was her warmest clothes in winter. Su Yan's previous life is reluctant to go into details, and he can generally imagine that life is very difficult and not easy, with large and small scars on his body, new and old injuries are intertwined, but they are all distributed under the cover of clothes, think about it, you can know how much Su Yan suffered in the process of growing up. Wang Mang would say a few words to Su Yan every day, Su Yan would only feel disgusting, but she was bullied, she had a cowardly psychology, and did not dare to resist, as long as the other party was not too excessive, she could endure it.

Every morning at five o'clock, Wang Mang's loud voice began to shout, kicking open the basement door, and then pulling the door back with his backhand, making a loud bang, Su Yan would be awakened every day. Then Wang Mang will take steamed buns or cakes that have been put for many days, occasionally he will bring some hot soup when he is in a good mood, sometimes Wang Mang is pulled to the van before the meal is finished, and then go to the shopping center to start a day of begging, Su Yan's eyes can only feel the time through the temperature, Su Yan's favorite time is noon, the warm sun shines on Su Yan's face, it feels very warm, maybe this is the only bit of sunshine in her cold life. When night fell, Su Yan had been hungry for a whole day, but there were Wang Mang's eyeliner everywhere. Su Yan once tried to escape, but was caught by Wang Mang's men and beaten by Wang Mang, huddled in a corner without eating for a day, and then Su Yan secretly decided that one day he must escape Wang Mang, but he tried and failed. "A girl who looks so good, why can't she see with her eyes, alas" "Poor girl" Su Yan listened to the evaluation of herself by passers-by, and couldn't help but feel sad in her heart. Gradually, there were fewer voices, and slowly there was no one on the road, the lights in the square dimmed, and Su Yan knew that he should go back to that cold place, and sure enough, Wang Mang's cry came from afar.

Su Yan slowly stood up and picked up his crutches, although his eyes couldn't see, but after a period of practice, Su Yan became familiar with the environment here, slowly walked in front of Wang Mang, and then handed over the money he earned a day to Wang Mang. Wang Mang took the dilapidated iron basin, then counted it, and patted Su Yan's shoulder. "Your income today is really much, nearly 400, not bad, it's good, sure enough, beautiful women are easy to attract sympathy" As he spoke, he reached out and wanted to touch Su Yan's face, Su Yan immediately dodged it, Wang Mang coughed a few times in embarrassment, and turned to look at the other beggars. "If you look at the money made by a few people, it's almost as much as Su Yan, it's really useless" Wang Mang scolded and mocked others, then threw the begging tools into the trunk and dragged a group of people back to the dilapidated residential building.

"You made a lot of money today, let's give you some corn paste" Wang Mang sent the rice to Su Yan, Su Yan smelled today's food, it was okay, so he shrank aside and ate slowly. Relatively speaking, the other rice is not as good as Su Yan's, cold steamed buns and pickles. Su Yan was shrinking in the corner and preparing to eat, when he felt that someone was approaching him, and he subconsciously put the food behind him, but was pushed away. The body received a violent impact, and Su Yan was suddenly pushed to the side of the bed. Several people went up and snatched Su Yan's rice, and then one of them took a sip of hot soup, and then stuffed half of the steamed bun in the empty bowl into Su Yan's hand. As soon as Su Yan recovered from the pain of being hit, his food was snatched away, this situation has happened many times, but what can be done, in this place, it is the law of the jungle, and if you don't have the ability, you can only be bullied. You can't let yourself starve to death, you still have to eat. Su Yan endured the cold and swallowed the steamed bun into his stomach, and then shrunk into the quilt.

It was late at night, and the cold wind was blowing against the dilapidated windows, which were so old that the wind could be poured in through the cracks, and the already wet and cold basement became even more cold to the bone. Su Yan shrank his body, approached the corner of the wall, and forced himself to sleep. Almost all of them were asleep, they were all making small noises. The people who were far away began to move closer together, and the basement began to have a little warmth, Su Yan felt that someone next to him came up, Su Yan subconsciously dodged, but found that the person was very warm, so he let down his guard, slowly moved closer to the warmth, and slowly fell asleep. The eyes on the side were fixed on Su Yan, and after seeing Su Yan fall asleep, he closed his eyes and rested.

Even in the darkest of lives, there will be light, and even in the abyss, there will be hope.