After so long, my story with her will officially start in the next chapter, and I have to do a good job of foreshadowing before that, after all, it is too tiring to remember this event.

Just last night I brought out a stack of pokers, ten of them, and I wrote "Hold on" on the inside of each card, and I wrote "Give Up" on only one card, and I knew the chances of drawing "Give Up" were slim, but I was already pushing myself. Coincidentally, I just won the "give up" card in these 10 cards, and I smiled bitterly for a long time, secretly scolding myself for not being so good at multiple-choice questions, but there is no way I believe in providence, and I also believe that it is not accidental, so... Yes! I gave up.

When I look back, there are bitter and sweet things, life is like a vast ocean, with beautiful coral reefs, dreamy mermaids, and also strong winds and torrential rains. I vaguely remember the first time I saw Jiaying, pure and pitiful, my heart was captured by her for three years, in these three years I have not found a girlfriend, let alone with a girl too much ambiguity, I always look up at the stars in the sky from time to time, a twinkle is simply beautiful to the extreme, there are countless stars in the sky, each star represents an interesting soul, I believe that one day Jiaying can find the star that belongs to her again.

It's just that her star is so far away, as if it is not in this universe, even if it spans hundreds of millions of light years, there is not a single star with her, has it been fallen in some corner of the darkness...

Suddenly it was raining heavily, I looked at my watch and it was already 20:30, and unconsciously stayed in the snack bar of this mall for a few hours, rubbed my eyes and thought that I couldn't go back for the time being, the waiter handed me a glass of juice and smiled: "Please use it slowly." ”

"Thank you." I echoed.

Fruit juice drinks or something, I'm the most favorite to drink, Jiaying... Well, she probably didn't even know that I liked Chinese and Western food, and I still remember that she liked cake and chocolate... This woman is always a dead brain, and the long-term petty citizen thinking has a deep-rooted influence on her, and she will not accept it or think about it in the long run.

But... I took a sip of the juice and mused, "It's not surprising that at her age, in this environment, in this kind of character, she has this kind of thinking. ”

I was the only one and three other clerks at the snack bar, so I got up from my chair and looked at the heavy rain outside the floor-to-ceiling windows, the cars speeding by from time to time, and the rainy night that I also loved before I knew it, the city always changed the weather according to my psychological condition, it was really magical.

Like a person and want to understand her, although human nature is complex, but they all have a few things in common, if you follow these points to explore, then you can also know a thing or two, in Huang Jiaying's case she is a very ordinary girl, with normal changes in thought, three years ago she was a very quiet girl, at least on the surface, very good to people, have a vision of love, but there are always life scars in the heart, in school she actively joined the club and volunteer team, met a lot of people and increased a lot of knowledge, Subtly, she also slowly changed her mentality, no longer limited to the image of a good girl in the past, began to pursue individuality, and had someone she liked, but soon after the dream of love was shattered, she grew up quickly, and she experienced one of the most uncomfortable things in the world like me. This had a great impact on her, she was very strong and did not give up her dignity to find him, but she was alone in her heart, this perseverance is related to her personality environment and situation, it is a pity that she lost the persistence and longing for love at the beginning, but... Who can be alone in her environment...

Human nature has glorious moments, but there are also corrupt and foul roots, but there are no saints in this world, it can only depend on how much we can accept, people are selfish, you and I can not escape, some people are self-centered to protect themselves, some people are other-centered to please others to protect themselves, all the purpose is for their own interests, this is not wrong, just a choice.

Many people's personalities will not be as simple as they appear on the surface, people who love to talk often like to be alone, people who don't like to talk often want to stay with friends for a while, people who look sunny on the outside may not be sunny in their hearts, but it is not dark, in fact, many people around us are pretending, including myself, but we get used to it over time, remember ourselves when we were children, that is the most real side of ourselves, there is a saying that is good, the mask will hurt the muscles and bones after a long time, and it will be difficult to take it off, Only the person you really like, the person you really trust, will take it off, but once that person betrays you and hurts you, then you have to sew the mask you worked so hard to take off on your face again, and no longer trust anyone.

Looking back, she is such a simple person! Ordinary, kind, and petty, she has both the brilliance and the bad roots of human nature. If you want to understand yourself, you have to ruthlessly dissect yourself and then make multiple-choice questions on yourself.

I breathed a sigh of relief, the juice was drunk, the rain outside the window gradually became smaller, the time came to 21 o'clock, I walked out of the mall gate after settling the bill, looking at the misty drizzle floating outside the gate, I actually liked this feeling, straight out of the door I smelled the moist air on the street, slowly entered the lungs, suddenly felt refreshed, and the thoughts became more and more thick, now I think about the fact that I have been very lucky to get along with the person I like, I have at least known your name, heard your voice, chatted closely, I'm lucky to see your eyes, even if I'm sad...

This world is always very bitter, we are often used to wiping away tears by ourselves, but when someone gives you a piece of paper, you always can't help but cry again, but if one day you find that the person who sent you the paper is gone, you don't want to let the tears flow again, this is growth! Even if it hurts, I won't send her a message, let alone take the initiative to find her, I hold back tears, and the relationship has a beginning and an end.

As the saying goes, the best way to take revenge on the other party is to make yourself better and make others regret it, but I don't want her to regret it or anything, I just want to make myself better, people who like a flower will pluck it, and people who love a flower will water it, in contrast to the latter, I still choose the latter.

There is a sentence in Douyin: "Is it the person who sends you messages and peesters you every once in a while after the breakup loves you, or the person who has no news after the breakup loves you." "I haven't really been in love, but I don't think these two sentences are contradictory in themselves, pestering you every now and then Generally speaking, he really likes you, he understands all the truths, and he understands that it's not right, it will make her hateful, but we should also think about it, a man who gives up his dignity to redeem himself is already full of courage, from this point of view alone, you can be sure that he does like you (except for a few people who are super thick-skinned), he wants to bet on your soft-heartedness, he may really change, I just want you to give him another chance, but his method is wrong, but it is understandable that not many people can control their emotions in that situation! There is also a kind of anger and extreme unwillingness, he doesn't love her so much, he just treats her as his own private property, and when he thinks that the private property does not belong to him, he will obstruct it in every possible way, and he wants to take you back unconvinced! And the person who broke up and didn't hear from you doesn't love you more, it's just that this kind of person is very sensible, and he will endure it when he is hurt, and he will still be a little nostalgic in retrospect for many years, including the person who broke up with him, no matter what, they have experienced a lot together! But there is also a deformity that has never been in love with her after the breakup, but the person who has been broken up has always been deeply nostalgic, and the person who has been pestering her, she is very annoying and annoying, even if that person really likes her, even if she likes him.

It's a very strange logic, don't bother but she will be nostalgic for him for a period of time, and once entangled she won't mention you for a few years, I use my attitude to you, but you are angry, this is a person "cheap" word in trouble, after the breakup both parties leave decently, your status in her heart is equal, even if she doesn't love you so much, you will still cherish this memory, but if you once entangle her, then you and her psychological status is different, she will think you are very annoying, There will even be a kind of arrogant psychology, "How could I have fallen in love with you in the first place, you are only worthy of me like this...", but she completely forgot that she had also paid for this relationship, you really like her, she didn't deal with it in the right way, but instead single-mindedly didn't love her ex-boyfriend, this is people's "cheapness." ”

Many people understand this truth, but few people can explore themselves, and anyone can talk about it, but it is difficult to do, once people get angry and their IQ plummets, they will forget their own standards, including me.

I was tired after walking for a long time, it was already very close to home, I stopped and rested for a while, there were still many cars on the bridge, but it was not noisy, the bright moonlight printed on my face, looking at the sparkling lake under the bridge, my heart fell silent, I didn't think about anything in my head, I was in a quiet daze, at that moment it seemed that time stopped again, only the lake surface that rippled from time to time, "Once upon a time... I'm so happy! I said with some sadness, bowed my head and fell silent again, the dark night sky did not carry any sound of dawn, and this moment of loneliness enveloped my whole body.

Slowly, I raised my head and walked home slowly.