One night in the winter four months ago, my girlfriend and I were walking on Huaihai Road, and someone set up a stall selling puppies on the side of the road, and a few shivering puppies aroused my girlfriend's sympathy, and she looked up at me with a clear look in her eyes, begging me to keep these dogs in charge. I really want to remind her that I have raised her as a woman who has no income and can't do housework, she will die if she doesn't watch idol dramas during the day and doesn't play games at night, and occasionally asks me to take her out to travel after being in a good mood and keeping warm with me, and occasionally a bad mood is the reason for refusing to warm up with me, and then light a cigarette, spit out a slow smoke ring, and say: "Let's go out to travel and relax, I've been in a bad mood lately, and I'm not in the mood to do that kind of thing." ”

I don't usually refuse any of her requests, but this time I was a bit of a hot one, having just had a big meal with her and had to buy a pet. Seeing that I was silent, her voice rose instead: "Fuck! Do you have no love! Immediately someone stopped on the side of the road to watch the excitement, with different levels of anticipation on their faces. I immediately pulled out my wallet: "Give me a dog." The dog seller also laughed, put a dog in a simple straw basket, and said, "300 pieces." I wanted to bargain, but my girlfriend snorted coldly next to me, and I paid the money immediately. The puppy lay motionless in the basket and looked very well-behaved.

We stood up, and I walked in the direction of the subway with the basket, and she pulled me lightly: "I'm going to fight." ”

When I stopped the taxi, I thought, "One day I'm going to kill you and feed the dog." ”

My girlfriend played with the dog for a week and got tired of it, so she gave me a task to dispose of the dog. She took care of the dog this week, I didn't care much, and when I saw it again, I was shocked, how did it grow so big? A week ago, it was like a mouse, but now it has the size of a cat, and can walk slowly, and its eyes are open. Its eyes are pure black, with a hint of green, like fine black agate, which is very beautiful. I asked my girlfriend, "Why does the dog grow up so fast?" Don't you say it's a small dog? My girlfriend was playing a game, and I saw her typing out the word "husband" to an extremely ugly character, and she didn't reply, saying: "Skewers, what do you believe in what the dog seller says, are you an idiot, are you an idiot!" "She speaks very interestingly, likes to use repetitive sentences and tones, when I first met her, I thought she was very cute, and now when I hear her talk like this, I want to grab her hair and ask her to slap her, of course, just to think about it." So I threw it out? "I picked up the puppy, and the dog seemed to realize something, opened its mouth, and I smelled a fishy smell." Lost, lost. She still didn't turn her head. I opened the door with the dog, and she added, "Throw it farther away, so it won't run back." ”

I left my dog in a park near my house, where I used to go for a walk when I was not inspired to hand in a manuscript, where there were quite a few stray cats and some well-wishers would buy some cat food to feed. If cats can survive, dogs should also survive. I put the dog under a stone bench, and it seems to be raining tonight, and if it doesn't move here, it won't get rain, at least not tonight. I got up and walked out of the park, and I thought about it, and bought two sausages at the supermarket next door and went back, where it was still squatting quietly. A cat with black bodies and eyeballs, I don't have much research on dogs, but I still think it's a pretty good-looking dog. I peeled the sausage, not knowing if a dog of his age could eat solid food, hesitated to shake it in front of it, but it suddenly stretched out its neck and startled me, and when I came back to my senses, I found that only half of the sausage was left. "What a monster!" I swore and stood up and threw the rest of the sausage to it, secretly happy to myself, thinking that if it was lucky enough to survive, I would bring something for it every time I came to the park for a walk. By the way, seeing that it looks like a bear, I named it "Shape Man." "I hope it grows into a mighty dog.

My house is bought in the suburbs, the transportation to the city is not convenient, in short, it takes more than an hour to exchange the subway, the park is inaccessible, occasionally some elderly people go to the morning exercise, they will bring the leftovers at home to feed the cats, I don't have many idlers who go to walk in the past, and leave the man there, there should be no chengguan dog team to find. I plan to go over to see the man regularly, after all, it's a life, and I can't just throw it away.

Back home, my girlfriend was still playing games, and her hands were crackling on the keyboard. I suppressed my anger and said to her, "Xiaoling, it's time for you to go to sleep." ”

"No, it'll be fine tomorrow."

What the fuck is going on with you, I couldn't help cursing in my heart, and patiently continued, "Can you use a computer for me?" My manuscript is still in it, and I will hand it in tomorrow, so I will buy you clothes with the manuscript fee. ”

"What about your manuscript fee? I don't even have enough money to buy equipment. She finally turned around, with disdain and unhappiness on her face, "If I had relied on your money, I would have starved to death." ”

I felt my temples throb hard, and then the blood poured all over her head, and her contemptuous face suddenly became confused, even a little shaky, and there was a faint rust in her throat, and the smell gradually spread.

"Okay, okay, you can play."

I quickly turned around and ran into the toilet, retching with my head against the toilet for a long time, only to realize that I didn't want to vomit. I straightened up, washed my face, and looked in the mirror at my terrible and haggard look.

"Oops, husband!" I heard her calling me, and I was about to say yes, only then did I realize that she never called me husband, so she should be on video with someone, right?

"Okay, okay, let's go to the Dream Dragon's shop."

"You're dead! What are you doing! ”

"Am I worse than her?"

Her voice grew louder and louder, and I felt my temples jump again.

Half a month later, when I was writing a boring proposition interview essay at home, I suddenly heard a lot of noise downstairs, I opened the window, and several old aunts in thick pajamas gathered together to talk nonsense, and the sound was so loud that the window couldn't be separated. Of course, I didn't have the courage to yell at the people below and tell them to shut up, so I simply changed into my tracksuit and wanted to go out for a run. My girlfriend played an all-night game again yesterday, and now it's 10 o'clock, and she sleeps like a dead pig.

Walking down the stairs, I saw those old aunts, and they greeted me politely: "Xiao Yang, go out to exercise?" ”

"yes, yes." I also spoke politely and began to jog as I began. That's how I don't fight.

"Xiao Yang, it's not easy to go to Fairview Park, a lot of cats have died over there recently, and they stink to death." An aunt who was more familiar with me kindly reminded me.

"Fairview Park?" I didn't turn a corner in my mind for a moment, and then I remembered that it was a place where I often went for walks, so I might as well go and see it now. By the way, the man should still be there. Thinking of this, I quickened my pace and ran out of the community.

When people are too focused on one thing, the brain probably automatically filters some information that they don't pay attention to, for example, if I want to see a man today, I ignore the old aunt's sentence "There are a lot of dead cats".

I ran to the park, already out of breath, and went to the supermarket to buy two sausages, and when I was paying, I found that the cashier had changed from an old aunt to a fairly delicate little girl, and she smiled politely at me and said, "Welcome." My face was a little hot, and I quickly handed the sausage over to her to scan the code, and the little girl said enthusiastically: "Sir, this kind of ham sausage actually doesn't taste very good, and it has been on the shelves for a while, do you want to change the taste?" ”

What a good girl, my face was even hotter, and I incoherently rejected her kind advice: "No, no, I'm a dog anyway." She smiled and settled the change for me, and I ran out of the supermarket with her "welcome next time" farewell, a little embarrassed.

For some reason, I'm in a better mood.

I usually write columns for a few decent petty bourgeois magazines, which seems to be a promising career, but my income is very unstable, and I have to be delayed at any time, often before the manuscript fee has come down, and the money for the editor's meal has been overdrawn. My current girlfriend Ling, who wants to be a graphic model, in order to catch up with her, I asked the editor and photographer of a magazine to go to the club several times, and Ling got her wish, and I also got my wish to catch up with her, I thought that she and I would have a good future from now on, the reality is that she has been on and only on that issue of the magazine, and my relationship with her has been frequently red since the third month, and the reason why it can be maintained until now is entirely because of my good temper and her mother's satisfaction with my suburban house.

As I ran, I was thinking about the girl in my mind, and before I knew it, I was close to the park. The weather was bad today and the clouds were hazy, so it didn't seem like there was anyone else in the park but me. I walked into the park and looked around, but I didn't see a man, and I couldn't whistle and see the pets that were coming to me like in the movies. Nerve-wracking, I peeled off the sausage, and then ran along the park path like a relay athlete with the sausage, saying that the dog's nose was very smart, and I hoped that the man would be able to smell the fragrance and run out.

I stopped in front of a green belt, and although my nose was certainly not as good as that of a dog, I still smelled a foul smell. It's a rotten breath. I was a little nervous, got closer, and then deliberately stomped my foot hard to peek at the reaction, but found nothing.

I got closer, the stench became stronger, I took my foot to push the branches of the green belt, and vaguely saw that there was a hair-like thing, as if it was an animal carcass, I knew that it was not a man, and then I remembered the old aunt's warning, it must be a dead cat. A few flies circled around it, but my ears were filled with the buzzing of a swarm of flies, which came from the front, and I pulled open the low-hanging branches, leaned over, and the scene in front of me almost made me vomit, maggots, a large swarm of maggots wriggling, competing with the flies for food, and the food, a dead cat, rotting and not decent. My scalp was numb, and half of the ham sausage suddenly fell to the ground, and my hand involuntarily tightened and pinched it, and by this time there were already flies surrounding me, and the sausage must smell better than a dead cat. I grabbed myself by the throat and quickly exited.

I heard that some perverts like to abuse and kill stray cats, and make videos and post them on the Internet, is there such a dangerous person in our area? I was trembling, I couldn't tell whether I was scared or angry, I took out my phone and hesitated to call the police. A breath sounded in my ears and I remembered, "dark", like some kind of large animal, and there was a smell erupting, I turned my head in a panic and looked at a pair of pure black eyes, it was a man! But I didn't feel relaxed at all, but half a month, it has grown into the size of a medium-sized dog, well-developed canine teeth are exposed, a big mouthful of fishy stench spits out of its mouth, the black hair on the body is oily and slippery, and the forelimbs supported on the ground are very developed, if it raises its paws to me at this time, I will immediately bleed all over the ground.

、、、、、、I turned around slowly, remembering that I still had a sausage in my hand, I handed it over with a gesture of goodwill, and the man sniffed, opened his big mouth and swallowed it, and swallowed it with his neck tilted, without chewing.

"Man, I didn't expect you to look so tall, the name is right for you." I say.

The man got under the tree where there was a dead cat, and after a sound of soo, he withdrew again, and sat down beside me, biting something like a cat's tail in his mouth.

I finally couldn't stop vomiting. Watching the man swallow the cat's tail one by one, I wiped the saliva from my mouth, slowly stood up, it seemed to be unsatisfied, and got under the tree, dragged out a smaller cat, shook off the maggots on it, tore and swallowed it, the cat's bones made a "click" sound under its strong bite、、、、、、 and finally its stomach showed a more saturated state, and the eyes looking at me were not so sharp.

"Hey, man, you remember me, right?" I made a friendly gesture and shook my hand in front of it, afraid that it would bite off half of my finger.

But the man only stuck out his tongue and licked me, and it was rare that its tail still wagged, and I was finally relieved. Look at that pile of cat corpses, I can't imagine that the type man eats so much, what breed of dog is it? I picked up another sausage on the ground and stuffed it into the man's mouth, the man didn't refuse this dessert after dinner, after eating, it became more docile, and I even began to wonder if I should take it back to Xiaoling to see, but as soon as my eyes touched the pile of cat corpses, I immediately dispelled the thought: Forget it, it's just not hungry now.

I spent a whole afternoon in that deserted park, running and resting with the man, and then went back to the small supermarket to buy a chicken wing lunch box and water back to the park, and ate with the man, it was more familiar with me, I felt very happy, like a tamed beast of prey, the sense of accomplishment filled my limbs, brought me infinite energy.

When he left the park, he didn't send me, he just let out a whimper, ran like a shadow towards the green belt, and then seeped into a place I couldn't see like a shadow.

"I'll come back another day." I looked up at the sky, and it was almost dark.

When I got home, I bumped into the beautifully dressed spirit at the door, and she was about to leave the house.

"Dinner at home?" I held up the cooked food I bought from the supermarket, and she looked at me and made no secret of her disgust.

"No more! I don't eat it! You're not annoyed! You're not annoyed! ”

She scolded like a cannon while wearing high heels: "I have dinner at night and won't come back." ”

I hurriedly took out a few hundred yuan and stuffed it into her hand, with a concerned expression on my face: "Let's come back, take a taxi back." ”

It took her half a day to reply in a mosquito-like voice: "It depends." ”

Then he slammed the door and left, *sub, *sub, *sub.

I closed the door, fist swinging into the air and beating the non-existent spirit with a thump, knowing that I realized what a useless move it was. I gasped back to the room, the computer was not turned off, and I had to deliver the manuscript tomorrow, and I played with the man for an afternoon today, and the time was running out, I cheered up and moved the mouse, and then I found that Ling's WeChat was in the login state, and it seemed that she was in a hurry to go out and forgot to quit, so this is a good opportunity? I looked back at the door of the living room, confirmed that she would not come back, clicked on her WeChat, checked the chat history, I think I will definitely gain something, she has never been a delicate woman, work is also, life is also, ** also, with me, she unabashedly shows her ugliest side, because she knows that a man like me can find a woman like her who will not give up easily.

After a few minutes, I almost couldn't even feel my breathing, I clicked on the first person on the chat page, and found that it was full of unsightly words, photos of her wearing only underwear, and then videos. That man was still a high school student、、、、、、 my imagination was limited, but the degree of her shamelessness was unlimited. Her chat history with all kinds of ** men is simply my history of humiliation with a cuckold.

I was so disillusioned that there was only one voice in my head, "Kill her!" ”

I opened the fridge and pulled out a can of beer – it was her exclusive drink, I didn't like it, and a few degrees of alcohol stimulation was enough to make my face red and my blood boiling. I acted in my mind a thousand times for a while and when she came back, how would I question her, if she still mocked me like that, I would definitely roar, I would beat her, if she still resisted and insulted me, then I 、、、、、、

I picked up a fruit knife on top of the coffee table and fantasized about me stabbing her in the thigh, then spinning the hilt、、、、、、 I imagined how her big eyes, which had always been contemptuous and disgusted only at me, would appear in disbelief and horror, how those warm blood spots would spurt out of my face, and then she would beg for mercy, begging me to spare her life, and I even fantasized about her struggling to crawl up to me and pull off my pants to please me. But I was still angry, and I grabbed her by the hair and stabbed her in the neck with a knife, once, twice、、、、、、

I felt a little bloated, probably because I had just been stimulated by the addition of * elements that had just fallen into a hallucination. Maybe I woke up from drinking, maybe I wanted to be tired, I sat down on the sofa, and suddenly felt a sense of emptiness, and those ethereal cruelty and cruelty left me at once, and I became the green turtle who had no interest and would only be treated as an ATM and a gas bag by my girlfriend.

"She's still young, so she probably just wants to have fun." I seemed to be patiently explaining to another me, "When you get older, you will take care of yourself, and when you have children, you will take care of your family." ”

I turned off the computer in frustration, cleaned up the messy home, and began to think in my heart about whether to buy an engagement ring tomorrow, and formally propose to her、、、、、、

I can't kill, I can't pay for my life. Lingwan didn't come back until four o'clock in the morning, and when she saw that I was still waiting for her, she was not moved at all, and walked to the bedroom with a "hum". I followed her with a flattering smile on my face: "Have fun?" ”

"It's okay, He Xin has a boyfriend again, who is a real estate worker, and gave her a house, and I will do it there today

ty, this blank is not pretentious, and he knows how to change men all day long. Ling took off his coat and walked into the bathroom wearing only his underwear, and I chased after him, saying, "Don't go if you're not having fun, it's fine at home." ”

"Really?" She was brushing her teeth, her voice muffled, "I don't see it." ”

I felt my temples jump suddenly, so I quickly took a deep breath and changed to a more flattering face, "Ling, I want you to accompany me to Jingxi Road when the moon is full tomorrow." ”

"What are you doing?"

I was a little embarrassed and hesitated, "We've been together for two years, and I want to go see the ring tomorrow." I paused, "Shall we get married?" "I think I look like a big girl at this point.

The spirit's movements stopped, and she looked at me with disbelief in her eyes.

"Married?"

"yes."

Under Ling's thick makeup, I couldn't tell if she was crying or laughing, but I could feel that she was a little moved.

"Yang, you're not kidding, are you?" Ling threw down his mouthwash glass and toothbrush and ran to hug me and kissed me with a foamy mouth: "Oh my God! I'm getting married. ”

I was half moved and half rejoiced, moved that I won back my soul with tolerance, and glad that I didn't really make this irretrievable relationship a complete tragedy as I imagined.

It's just that

Tragedy is tragedy from the beginning, and the comedic interlude in the middle is just a foreshadowing of more misfortunes.