It's been more than 6 months since Jiaying left, and the leaves in front of my window have almost fallen, and there is still some dust on my hands when I touch the only remaining leaves, and I will water it every day when Jiaying is there, but now I just want it to die quickly.

Looking back at it, I remembered the meeting four months ago, and I still feel it deeply, and I thought about it as I stroked the watch in my hand and wore it on my hand like a baby, no! It's my baby.

Back in time four months ago...

Every day after Jiaying left I felt meaningless, the days are now for me, sometimes I wish that time could pass faster, when the night falls I can cry well, after all, the day is too dazzling.

Many times I look down on myself for being so useless, just for a woman... But I told myself over and over again that I really loved, what's wrong with crying, can't I cry? I've only seen one star of her in my life, and when I met someone I like so much at the right age, let me vent and indulge as much as I want.

Two months ago, I browsed her QQ space, I found a person named "Xiao Xiaoxing" screen name, he appeared a lot, I opened through a yellow diamond to browse his space, although I don't know much, but I already know that he is a man, which makes me faintly uneasy, just like Jiaying said mine, I am a jealous person, at that time my relationship with Jiaying has reached the verge of collapse, I silently wrote down his QQ number, for later backup.

Soon after, the misunderstanding broke out, I contacted him, and I met him online for a small reason, and I told him that we were mutual friends, and I explained the situation to him, fortunately! He can understand.

It's 3:20 p.m., and I've just finished discussing where to meet him on my computer, and I've been talking to him for a long time.

I'm going to get my diploma at 10 o'clock tomorrow, so it just coincides with his time, but I don't know if I can see her again...

Yes! I tapped myself on the head and cursed, "I'm betting on all the odds..."All I can do now is wait, it doesn't matter what bad news is now, there's nothing worse for me anymore.

After dinner, I lay down on the bed, like a patient recovering from a serious illness, I didn't want to say a word, but as soon as I closed my eyes, my mind was still thinking of her, and I asked myself in frustration why I tortured myself, and my thoughts wandered, as if lying on a boat without sails, drifting with the waves into the distance, with no destination anywhere.

Soon the silence around me was like death, the dim room was airtight, I really couldn't hold back in such an environment, a tear flowed from the corner of my eye to the ear pillow, I was already able to restrain my emotions, but I still...

I don't know how long it took, I got out of bed, sat on the chair and lit the lamp on the desk, it was very dazzling, but I quickly adapted, tore a blank piece of paper from the sketchbook, and then tore it into a note, I thought for a long time, I wrote majestically: "You are the south wall that I hit without hesitation, and it is also my dream of joy, in fact, what I want to say is, I'm sorry." ”

I was stupid and couldn't think of any heart-wrenching words, so I adapted a line from Mr. Miyazaki's anime, and thought it was okay, so I folded the note and put it in my pants pocket in advance.

When you're done, turn off the lights, lie down and go to bed, trying not to think about anything else, and that's how the night's night passes.

I woke up early in the morning, the air was filled with the smell of book companies, for many people today is another busy day, I looked in the bathroom mirror, today I had a rare smile, looking at the dim brilliance in my eyes, I tried to make myself happy.

There are still a lot of acne on my face, red, I feel a little red and swollen when I touch it, I sigh, God doesn't give me face when I need it most!

After everything was ready, I put on a mask and hat and went out, and I could get my graduation certificate at about 8.20, and then I went to meet him at the king of the land.

After a 20-minute ride, I came to the school, and everything around the school gate was so familiar, how many people's youth were left here! After taking a cold breath, I went to the teacher's office, and after getting my graduation certificate and various student registration materials, I carefully put them in a bag, but after going downstairs, I suddenly wanted to go to the old runway to have a look, and Jiaying kissed there, I was still quite sad when I went, but I was even more sad if I didn't go.

I slowly walked into the entrance of the playground, there are not many people, everything before is still so familiar, I stepped on the plastic runway to the front of a few big trees, this is a few ordinary can no longer be ordinary trees, the leaves are sprinkled all over the ground, there are a few cement slabs around, every 10 o'clock in the evening at this time there will always be many couples to come to this tryst, Jiaying is no exception, but now I see this, it is already a long love, things are not people,

I was a little sad to see, I took out my mobile phone and took a few photos before I left, continued to ride my shared motorcycle and drove home, panting and climbing upstairs to put the graduation certificate and so on, I called a car and went to the king of the land.

Today is not a weekend, there are fewer pedestrians, I went to the third floor of a shopping mall to order a cup of milk tea and wait for him, it was already past 11 o'clock, I sent him my location and attached a lot of pictures to make sure he could find me.

Finally I told him to come early and invited him to dinner, and soon he found me, I already knew in advance how tall he was, and when I met him today, I realized that he was even taller than I thought, worthy of 180 height, he had short hair, wore white clothes, and looked quite cheerful.

He sat across from me, I asked him what kind of milk tea he liked to drink, he politely refused, only ordered a dry mixed noodles, I also ordered the same set meal with him, he talked to me warmly on the way to eat, I still like to be friends with cheerful people.

"Zhisheng, what changes have she made in the past three years?" I asked politely.

"She, uh... I don't know what to say,"

The person I want to see is called Zhong Zhisheng, a good friend of Jiaying, a male best friend, a bit of a good Longyang, and he is at a loss to answer my question at this time.

I didn't feel very happy to hear this, after all, we had made an appointment with him a long time ago to tell me about the changes in Jiaying in the past three years, and I also wanted to meet him with this curiosity, but this answer was not satisfactory to me.

In the end, I gave up after asking a few times and didn't get anything, and began to concentrate on eating mixed noodles, during which I saw Zhisheng playing with his mobile phone, I wanted him to show me the news of Jiaying, he smiled and said, "You shouldn't have heard her voice for a long time." I also smiled, in fact, I can hear it every day, but I am very tired, I didn't answer him, but turned to Jiaying's chat history, Zhisheng also shared his daily life with Jiaying like me, including what he ate and what he did, and Jiaying just replied: "Don't send me these in the future." ”

I smiled in my heart, I didn't check much with the way to reply to me, and she didn't like to receive WeChat very much.

After eating, I talked to him a lot, he asked Jiaying through WeChat if she was still in the fried chicken restaurant, there was no reply at first, after more than 1 hour, Jiaying finally sent a message, indicating her location, of course I know where her shop is, but I am not sure where she is.

Let's talk about this person first, Zhisheng and Jiaying met in the school club, both in the animation club, and interestingly, I used to be in the animation club, but I never met them, maybe it was a different year to join, or it could be because I haven't been to the meeting for a long time.

After thinking about it, if I had been more active in participating in the activities of the animation club, maybe I could have met Jiaying earlier, so that the whole school would not be her shadow and no one with her.

Zhisheng calls Jiaying his sister, Jiaying calls him brother, it seems that many people above the friendship under lovers like to use this kind of relationship, I look at him, he looks quite down-to-earth, and I also feel a little comfort for Jiaying's clean circle, at least I love someone I deserve to love.

For example, when he saw that I was talking to him with a mask all the time, he smiled and asked me why I was wearing a mask all the time, and I took off the mask to reveal my acne-ridden face, and he smiled awkwardly and said, "Then you should wear it." I only had a moment of emmmmm in my heart at the time, this short meeting left a lot of deep impressions on me, I also know a lot of things about Jiaying, he seriously told me that in fact, Jiaying will often cry secretly at night, when he said this, he immediately smiled and noted to me: "But it's not because of you, ha." ”

I felt a little awkward after hearing this, I guess I don't have that much face, they don't like a person, I'm old. I also told him that once I had a dream one night, in which I dreamed that she was crying, and my heart ached, and I woke up! That night I didn't close the window, and a cold breeze blew in the room, and I recalled the dream, and I fell asleep again.

He thought for a moment and nodded. I gave him a note and said, "Show her this note, and this lollipop." Zhisheng took the note and said, "I'll take a look." I said there was no problem, and he looked at it and said, "Wow, that's a really good handwriting." I smiled, after all, I like to practice calligraphy, as for why I gave a lollipop, I explained it to Zhisheng like this, "She said that she was very coaxing, as long as she gave her candy, she would be in a better mood." ”

Zhisheng nodded after hearing this, and put these into the bag he carried, after a few months of online chatting and today's meeting, I know that Zhisheng has the innocence and liveliness of a child, and he is still upright, not to mention how good it is, it is still okay to be a friend, I hope I can find more advantages in him.

"Alright, let's go over." I got up and left my seat, Zhisheng also stood up, and the two walked out of the mall together.

(I'm jealous of everyone around you who is related or unrelated, at least they can meet the person of my dreams at will, so I will treat everyone well, because everyone I meet is probably the person that everyone else dreams of meeting will be.) )