In the early morning, the morning light once again kicked off the curtain of the day. But this time when he opened his eyes, he looked at them, and there was indeed no woman with a graceful figure and a smile to open the curtain for him. It's a bit of a gloom.

"You're awake, I made morning porridge, get up quickly." A gentle and elegant voice sounded, it was Wang Xian, he was already middle-aged, but he did not lose the spirit of the year, and he was still tall.

But after all, people are old, and they look a little older, but they have not lost half of their strength back then, and they are still raised with high eyebrows and blazing eyes. The figure is not as strong as before, but the outer contour still looks broad-shouldered and narrow-waisted, which makes it easy to think of what a handsome boy he was when he was young.

Bai Xiaolu's eyes were gloomy, and he said in a low voice: "Mr. Wang, since I am bent on death, why save me?" ”

Wang Xian glanced at him, his eyes were full of disdain, and sneered: "Asking for death? Scold! You laughed, it wasn't me who saved you, it was your obsession that saved you, and the obsession that left half of your head saved you. ”

At the dining table, Mr. Wang Xian watched him eat breakfast with a heavy heart and sighed deeply.

Wang Xian looked at Bai Xiaolu's lowered eyes, thinking of the gossip of his boss, and said on a whim: "You work for me!" Eat and live, pay 28,000, some dirty hands, you can't die anyway! I promise, you won't be responsible for when you die, and I'll bury you when the time comes, how about it? ”

He said this a little unreasonably funny, as if he would be responsible after working for him and dying? This made Bai Xiaolu feel unhappy. In his faltering years, most of them sought a way to die briskly, and once he was beaten by the wine, and when he was overwhelmed with grief, he chose the way to die a little more cruelly, and dug a big pit in a land that could hold him, and the tar lit a fire, and he went to bathe in the fire, the pain was unbearable, and he jumped up with all his might, and then slowly passed in a panic, and there was always palpitations in his heart.

Despite this heart-wrenching experience, curiosity still drove him to ask, "What is life?" ”

Wang Xian retracted his gaze, looked at the cup on the table, and said sharply: "Kill those evil animals that mutilate innocent people." ”

He glanced at the wrinkles at the corners of Wang Xian's eyes, it was really good to look at him, so he turned his eyes sideways and said, "Anyway, there is nothing to do, that's good." ”

Wang Xian said: "I have built a new house for you in your hometown, so you can go to send the spirit." ”

The two talked, but Bai Xiaolu avoided mentioning the old man's opinion. Wang Xian racked his brains and had no other way but to give up.

When he was about to leave, Wang Xian stopped him and said with a firm expression: "The way you use is more painful, and you can't die." ”

These words made Bai Xiaolu's eyes light up, and Wang Xian continued: "Your Aunt Liu told me the truth, your new human cells will age, but the new cells will grow extremely fast, and they will far exceed the aging rate, as long as you insist on not eating, it is estimated that you will die of old age in a few hundred years, but in the same way, hunger will accompany you for hundreds of years, just hold back." ”

Bai Xiaolu smiled and waved his hand. It's bitter and astringent.

As soon as he left the room, he turned his head and whispered, "Qinglian······ Okay? As soon as he finished speaking, he regretted it, so he pursed his lips and blushed.

Wang Xian smiled at the mention of Liu Qinglian, but his expression was gloomy, his eyes were vicissitudes, and he said: "After you left, she became an alcoholic, smoking and drinking, tattooing and watching movies, and she was proficient in everything, if she wasn't a new human being, I guess she would have been addicted to drugs!" She's ······ now It's not good, it's not good for anyone, and it's even more tortured to yourself, hey! The last sigh only made Bai Xiaolu's heart almost collapse, tears welled up, and he hurriedly walked out without saying a word.

He knew that he was sorry for Liu Qinglian, and he knew that he was actually a complete miscrete, and he didn't know what to do. His love for Liu Qinglian has always been buried in his heart, and he began to be angry, his joys, sorrows, loves, hatreds, and hatreds will not be expressed with his body or facial expressions and words. He began to drift away from the sunny boy.

When I returned to my hometown, it was already late at night, and it was pitch black in front of me, and I couldn't see the scenery, but the vast darkness could not hide the original dead silence here and the wreckage of the previous ruins. The mountains were not pure, wild beasts were rampant, their roaring cries made the branches tremble, the rivers seemed more turbulent, and the leaves fell one after another.

Between the two mountain ranges, there was a subtle light in the distance, like a cluster of precious lights flickering between the night and the mountains and rivers, which would go out at any time, but when he walked in, the lights slowly brightened, and that was where he lived. "Whew!" A cool breeze blew, and the dark clouds in the night sky obscured half of the moon, and the mountains and rivers seemed even darker.

When I arrived at the house, only the branches of the willow tree swayed gently in the dark night wind, like the green hair of a fair beauty, which was very attractive and dazzling.

He lay quietly on the bed, without any emotion on his face, looking cold, like a sculpture, sitting quietly on the bed, looking at the curtains swaying in the wind, suddenly remembered that a long time ago, there was a girl who was a head taller than himself would open the curtains every day when the pavilion pupils were open, just to welcome the first rays of the new day, in the sun, the halo that fell on her made the graceful and seductive body so beautiful, the old things were vivid, as if yesterday, thinking, couldn't help but twitch her nose, slowly got up and walked calmly in front of the window.

The wind was so cold at night.

He closed the window and drew the curtains to shield him from the darkness, for there was a girl who was afraid of the dark. He was very unaccustomed to this feeling, and he didn't like it, it would make him very lonely, very lonely, and he thought of the sadness of that girl, was she also lonely?

It's so cold, close the window, the cold room is still so cold, cold to the bones, as if the blood vessels are frozen, and the hot blood surging inside has become no longer hot.

He sat on the bed, picked up the mobile phone, erected trembling fingertips, felt a slight cold, and only when he clicked on the screen did he have a hint of smile and warmth, he clicked on the album, the mobile phone sent by Aunt Liu was full of him and her, at that time she was so young, just like the willows in early spring, the green hair fluttered in the wind, fluttering like a frightening Hong, the face was smiling, and the eyes were like a bow.

The next one, this is the scene when they were sitting on the bumper car when they were in the Beijing amusement park, the two collided together, the two laughed excitedly, this is the photo that Aunt Liu took for them, it was the side, he subconsciously tilted the mobile phone slightly, wanting to observe her other eye, at that time they were playing heartily, wanting to be happy, but he observed her so carefully, and after a while, he realized that this was a photo.

The next one, no, it's a video, he clicked on it without hesitation, and it was closed instantly, he went downstairs and took out the liquor from the cabinet, placed it neatly on the table, and clicked on the video, when it was at the zoo.

Liu Qinglian was taking pictures with a male lion, who would have thought that Bai Xiaolu would shoot a video, Liu Qinglian posed for a long time, looking very beautiful, she asked eagerly: "Is the shooting done?" ”

Bai Xiaolu's face was not red, and his heart was not beating and smiled: "This looks good, take a few more photos." "Who knew he just wanted to look at her like that.

After Liu Qinglian noticed that something was wrong, she walked over the fire and grabbed the phone, and found that he was actually shooting a video, and yelled: "Stand up, it's my turn to shoot you." ”

Bai Xiaolu stood over with a bitter smile, the lion still looked at him with disdain, snorting, with a rough air, which made Bai Xiaolu tremble in fright, if it weren't for the iron cage, the lion would probably come out and eat him, Liu Qinglian looked at him stupidly and cutely and laughed.

Bai Xiaolu, who watched the video, also laughed, and by the end of the video, his smile suddenly condensed into ice and shattered.

yes, it's just a video, and it's immersive, what am I doing······

But I really miss her, but there is no reason to look for her, if there should be a reason to release the suspicion now, how good and beautiful it would be.

He stared at his phone stupidly, his eyes were confused, then he smiled happily and fell asleep unconsciously. The night was quiet and cold, and he curled up unconsciously, and the corners of his eyes overflowed with water.

The next day, early in the morning.

The phone rang, it was Wang Xian calling, and he said: "There is a mission, a group of gunmen launched an attack from Mozhugongka County and rushed straight to Naqu. You have to go there and help fight and keep them out of Lhasa. That's right······" He choked as he spoke.

Bai Xiaolu said with anxiety and suspicion in his heart: "If it's nothing, I'm leaving." With that, he hung up the phone.

Wang Xian put down his phone, looked out the window, and thought: Actually, it's good not to tell you.

Two days later, Bai Xiaolu arrived west of Zaduo County in Yushu Tibetan Autonomous Prefecture.

Bai Xiaolu felt that he had been fooled, the family here was prosperous, the people were simple and innocent, and they warmly entertained him, an outsider. Before he came, he was still a little excited, and when a woman offered to help him carry his bag, he looked in a trance for a while, and hurriedly thanked him.

If the people here knew that he had a gun and a knife in his bag, he would really jump into the Yellow River and not be able to wash it.

He and others gathered around the kang, and a man who spoke Mandarin better said: "Two days ago, two people from Beijing came to Didi, and they set up tents near here!" You said that if you were in Beijing before, you might have known them. ”

Hearing him speak, Bai Xiaolu's pupils widened, and it seemed that the rolling clouds in the sky were also pointing him in the direction. Because he remembered Wang Xian's apprehension about speaking to him, he was a little cautious, but he pretended to be solemn, and he was like an initiation.

It would not be good if Wang Xian used this to fool him into coming here to find Liu Qinglian.

He began to be afraid, his white eyes seemed to have ripples of blue waves, and he suddenly waved someone's figure, and when he saw her look back, he smiled brightly, so he was a little excited.

He didn't dare to think about it anymore, he was afraid that he couldn't contain it, he was afraid that the person who haunted him day and night was here. He began to get excited, tremble, and then flattened. The surging tide just now suddenly turned into stagnant water, as if it could no longer make ripples.

He began to feel inferior and began to be afraid.

How can I have a face, how can I go to see her?

Bai Xiaolu slowly returned to the arranged tent, tossing and turning, closing his eyes, the darkness was full of her, and when he opened his eyes, the person loomed.

His heart was like a battle between heaven and man, and he was extremely uncomfortable, and his tears were squeezed out. Suddenly, I felt useless. But he couldn't help it, he wanted to see her, even if he was dead-skinned, even if he was scolded bloody, he wanted it.

He unzipped it and looked out of the tent, it was already night, and he had been fighting for a long time with the evil beast that had grown in his heart. There was a sudden enlightenment in front of me. He said hello to others and rode his bicycle to find it.

When I found a place, there was a little light in front of me, and there seemed to be a faint afterimage moving, which made people curious. So Bai Xiaolu got out of the car a hundred meters away and walked over cautiously. Each step is so heavy, like a deep quagmire, and every step must be concentrated, and I am afraid that the next step will fall in.

The starry sky is dim, the surroundings are vast, and at a glance there is no boundary, it looks gloomy and frightening. The grass is all over the place, and the green ones are sparse, but there are many yellow weeds. This gloomy style makes people's emotions spontaneous, Bai Xiaolu thinks of a person, she is so beautiful, with a tight and soft figure, she seems to be dancing under the waning moon, but she disappears in a blink of an eye.

He began to panic again.

What should I say when I see her?

"Hmm······ Hello! Wrong. That, I'm just passing by, what is this?! Think again, me? ”

When he was thinking about it, he did not forget to walk towards the stars with obscene and cautious steps.

"Qinglian, I'm here, I'm sorry! I knew it was wrong, and I didn't dare anymore. Please, forgive me for not saying goodbye. He muttered to himself with all his eyebrows raised, "No! This ······ It's too numb, but if she likes it, it doesn't seem impossible. I can give it a hard try. He fell into deep thought again, and with every step he took, his heart was shaken by the night breeze.

One-step, two-step, three-step······

One, two, three······

Finally, he couldn't help but complain: "Damn, I can't stand it." ”

He quickened his pace a little, and the waves in his heart rose and fell one after another, and he was nervous, and he walked lightly and briskly for a long time before finally arrived.

But his pupils widened suddenly, like two glittering brass bells. He saw that there was only one tent in the thousand-metered place where the weeds were rampant, and the lights were splashing. There was an afterimage of the two people inside the tent, one of them leaned down and bowed his head, his rich eyelashes were stirring, the two hugged each other, one up and down, and from the figure of the two of them were big men.

He whispered close to his ear.

"Don't be so fast, slow down, slow down! Do you understand? The voice is hoarse and low, mature, and steady, but the tone does not match the content, and the tone of the feigned anger is very seductive, and it can't help but reveal a hint of cuteness. He tilted his head sideways, raised his chin slightly, and closed his eyes tightly, as if unwilling to see the man doing such humiliating things to his naked body. It is also full of redness, and the breath of the mouth and nose is low and hot.

"Good! Good! It's all up to you, here! The person above said, a very pure juvenile voice, very gentle, but the breath is very vicissitudes, making people silent.

Bai Xiaolu listened to this voice, his bright eyes swelled with tide, filling his eyes, and the eyelashes were lightly fanned, fanning out the scene of a few people sitting around the table and joking a long time ago, it was a happy time with a little regret.

So they began to rely on each other, and the low cry made people feel that an electric current rushed from the back of the head to the tail vertebrae, and they spasmed and convulsed, and goosebumps fell to the ground.

The two males are lustful, and they are surrounded by Aiqing.

Bai Xiaolu was numb, his throat rolled, and he pursed his lips and swallowed his saliva. remembered the scene when Liu Qinglian unconsciously pressed on herself after falling asleep, and the emotions on her face changed with the flowing clouds, and finally froze in surprise.

Can you do a man in a dilemma?

Bai Xiaolu's face turned pale in shock, this voice was too familiar, too sinful. I think of the person who had a hearty time with me when I was full of vitality, but I had to think about it, this was just a faint afterimage. He couldn't believe it, so he simply didn't believe it.

But he still never imagined that the two men could still be on the same bed, Wu Yun Chu Yu, and they were in love with each other. The oppression of males is fully revealed.

Finally, the sky turned white, and a silver light splashed high in the sky, piercing the night. The two of them turned over the clouds and rain for a night, and I don't know how many times they came, Bai Xiaolu even had a feeling of numbness outside.

Suddenly, he finally heard normal words, and remembered in a mature and steady voice: "I want to go out and take a breath." ”

"Okay." Boyin remembered. This "good" Bai Xiaolu can be heard as well, the kind of tenderness is like water, and the gentle and coquettish atmosphere makes people hairy, and goosebumps fall to the ground. Bai Xiaolu couldn't help but tremble.

The zipper opened, and the two of them suddenly widened their pupils, which were rounder than copper bells, and their faces were dark, very embarrassed. Bai Xiaolu's mind had an eyebrow in his mind as early as when the two of them were talking, he guessed correctly, the two people in front of him who were panicked and frightened, and whose faces were pale were Dai Yue and Li Yanhai.

I didn't expect that Dai Yue's joke back then has now become a reality, and now that I think about it, it really feels like a world away. It's just that sometimes, after thousands of mountains and rivers, I really went through the sea of swords, mountains and fires, but I found that I had already changed beyond recognition.

The clouds on the horizon are still rolling for a long time, but sometimes the wind rolls up the waves, the wind and clouds surge, everything has long been a matter of people, things are the same, and people are the same. But the obsession in my heart has a faint afterimage, a little brighter, and the afterimage will suddenly expand until it is perfectly displayed in front of you.

Bai Xiaolu looked at them, although he raised his chin slightly, his eyes were disdainful, but in the depths of his pupils, he carried out the old things that would never linger in his heart, and the tide in his heart was tumbling and turbulent.

The two looked at Bai Xiaolu in amazement, looking at each other a few times, looking at each other at a loss.

Bai Xiaolu was the first to break the calm, and he said to Dai Yue expressionlessly: "So you put him on it?" They were both astonished, their faces turned blue, and they did not know what to do to remedy the awkward scene, for they could never have imagined that he could describe such a shameful thing so lightly.

And there is no room for blood.

But Bai Xiaolu thought that this would make the two not embarrassed.

Well, I made a mistake.

He thought so.

Dai Yue blushed and lowered his head in embarrassment and did not speak. Li Yanhai was lying there, his face was red, and the air around him was hot.

After half a ring, Li Yanhai roared angrily: "Dead fat cat! Who's on whom!? It's obviously me on him, hey, what you're saying, do I look a lot like the guy who was crushed underneath? "It's almost gnashing of teeth. It is a world of difference from the people who were sensible and knowledgeable back then. The kind of abstinence revealed from the bones is now gone, and there is only the wetness of the hot desire left on the body after a storm and the breath of being carried out by that person to the end.

After finishing speaking, he still felt that he was reasonable, and waited to see that Bai Xiaolu couldn't say it.

But now it's okay, Bai Xiaolu felt that kind of impossible thing in a trance, and now they can't wash it away when they jump into the Yellow River. Until Dai Yue pinched his fingers and muttered, "Don't say it." ”

Before the end of the note, Bai Xiaolu said: "Don't say it, besides, the whole world knows that you are a polite and polite person, and the cold male god of Bingqing Yujie scolded because he was recognized by others and broke the ring with a man." There was mockery in his calm tone.

Li Yanhai suddenly came back to his senses. Almost furious, he roared, "Bastard! Lao Tzu didn't, Lao Tzu was him. He didn't restrain himself, but he was even more ferocious, eager to roar like a wild beast.

Because, he knows that the person in front of him is the brother he has been seeking for many years, and the sincere and true good and bad feelings are as good as yesterday, remembered in his heart, that day Bai Xiaolu killed people to the pavilion pupils, that day was shocking, that day of breakup and sadomasochism, he still remembers it vividly.

Because it is a brother who has a peaceful life to save him, that love, that love, how can he forget. So he just wants to vent, just to yell at him, and to scold him.

He continued to roar: "Uncle, are you brainless? I don't know if my wife and I are going to come out to breathe? At this time, I just ······" The sudden choking made the two of them rejuvenate their true feelings and burst into tears.

He hugged Bai Xiaolu tightly, even if Bai Xiaolu was stoic, his eyes couldn't help but turn around the clear spring, and the corners of his eyes overflowed with red and hot wetness. Seeing him sobbing and muttering, like a crying heart-rending child, he said, "Where have you been all these years?" This sentence collapsed Li Yanhai's own heart, tears flowed and flowed down.

Dai Yue watched the two hug each other tightly and was not jealous, just smiled lightly, slowly put on a shirt for his shirtless lover, and then gently hugged the two, like an old father.

After a long time, several people sat down around a meadow, and Bai Xiaolu asked, "Why do you think about traveling here?" ”

Dai Yue smiled: "It's not that old guy to blame, lie to the two of us that there are gangsters attacking here!" But now that I think about it, it's not a loss. ”

Li Yanhai rubbed some stinging tears and said, "It's really not a loss." ”

Bai Xiaolu said: "I was also deceived, it's really ······"

He was stunned when he said that, what is it? He couldn't tell that he had chosen to leave in the first place, and now he would want to keep this short time. What the hell is he doing? In the past few years, nothing has been accomplished, and I just think about the time when I had fun with that person in my mind.

When I saw them, I couldn't help but feel a little disappointed, because the person who was haunted by my dreams didn't come after all.

At night, they built a bonfire, and the three of them surrounded the bonfire, ate dry food, and sang songs: "Back to the original starting point, remember your green face ······"

“······ The heavy rain that was missed in those years, the love that was missed in those years ······" The song resounded in the sky, mighty, but after vicissitudes.

Yun Xuan in the night sky was also touched by this sincere emotion, and dropped a teardrop, it was bright in the sky, surrounded by thousands of stars, the stars flowed backwards on the tent with the bonfire, and the sparks swayed, shining on the faces of several people, with clear outlines and exquisite facial features. Every trembling of the gloomy and thick eyes was carved with incomparable clarity on the curtain of the tent planted with thousands of stars.

Soon it was late at night, Li Yanhai pretended to be sleepy and stretched lazily, strolling towards the tent, very calm, and his expression did not fluctuate, as if nothing could cause ripples in his heart. Dai Yue sighed lightly, patted Bai Xiaolu's shoulder and went in.

After half a ring, Bai Xiaolu heard the mature and steady voice inside and began to scold again.

"Let him go, get out of the way for Lao Tzu, Lao Tzu won't wait! I've seen all the biases, why ······ it?" He choked, he didn't dare to say any more, he was afraid that he couldn't help it, he was still in tears at this time, but it was silent, Dai Yue was still comforting him.

Even though Bai Xiaolu couldn't bear it, he still stubbornly stood up and smiled at the people in the tent: "Then I'll get out." ”

When he left, Li Yanhai quickly opened the zipper and ran out to look at his back as he walked away, feeling very uncomfortable.

"It's all here, why ······" He muttered alone.

Looking at the background, he was waving, waving towards the sun, and a distant and whispering voice: "I'm out!" "It's amazing······ It's sad.

Li Yanhai fell into Dai Yue's arms and didn't say anything.

Sometimes people are like this, they are stubborn and arrogant, and they are bent on taking a single-plank bridge. I didn't want to, but I pretended to be helpless, and I gradually distanced myself from my original self.

I just don't know how long it will be when I say goodbye.

It is also possible that in the future, no matter whether the winter snow is lonely, or the autumn breeze is bleak, or the flowers are in full bloom in winter and summer, no matter the wind and clouds, to the sea and rocks, we will not see each other.

Bai Xiaolu returned to Yinshan again, and continued to measure this world in the vast mountains, spending spring and autumn alone. From time to time, he held a photo of Liu Qinglian with himself and pondered. He thought of the face that was like a hibiscus, and he thought about the eyebrows of the willows. How could she be so perfect, but now, what the hell is she doing?

Are you still drinking or smoking? Thinking about the worst, is it difficult to do it with others······

I was shocked when I thought of this: how could I think that? What did Qinglian take for me, it was really a little heart that was blind to Huo Huo every day.

On the second day, as soon as the sky was bright, Bai Xiaolu was woken up by a call from Wang Xian. He picked up the phone, half-kowtowed, and his eyes were in a hazy trance. He said lazily: "Mr. Wang, don't lie to me again?" The tone was contemptuous of everything, as if he had seen Wang Xian through. This made Wang Xian very unhappy.

But Wang Xian just sighed as always, and then said: "It's at Xiaoqikong, Guizhou, and I want you to be a mother and daughter." ”

"No, si

！ I only kill people, who wants to save people, besides, this baby is very busy. ”

Before the end of the note, Wang Xian roared angrily: "Busy? Busy with you, I'm telling you, you just have to be saved, or you don't want to get paid this month! After saying that, he hung up the phone fiercely and was depressed for a long time.

Bai Xiaolu couldn't help it, wearing breeches, slippers, an open coat draped over his shoulders, and a steel knife at his waist, and went out. The more he thought about it along the way, the more angry he became, and he became angry with himself: "I will resign after saving people, you must be responsible for the bosses, I won't serve anymore!" Hum! ”

The journey from the foot of Yin Mountain to Xiaoqikong is not too far, and it will arrive soon, exactly ten in the afternoon. He walked slowly on the bridge, the river rippling, and the white geese stirred up ripples, kneading the scattered piles of leaves, and then the leaves were swept away by a boat. He looked at the green water and green mountains, and looked at the thousands of leaves that drifted with the waves. Xindao will come here often in the future, and it is best to come every day.

Pour a pot of wine, shake an ink, play a long blade, hearty, happy and wanton, like idle clouds and wild cranes, wandering in the fairyland of the world, isn't it wonderful?

It's not just wonderful, it's beautiful. It's just wonderful!

But in the blink of an eye, he withdrew his gaze, and he began to be depressed, because he had come here to work. Only by working can you get money, and only when you have money can you come here, and there is a steady stream. He turned his pupils wide, his phoenix eyes were full of nervousness and surprise, and he was a little dazed, he muttered: "Whoever comes back here to arrest people has nothing to do, it must be that guy who deceived me, and then tricked me into this kind of place that can be called a fairyland on earth." Could it be that he called Qinglian here! "The more I think about it, the more exciting it becomes, the more I look forward to it, and the more I think about it, the more excited I become. He began to rub his hands and began to be apprehensive, and after a long time, his frowning eyebrows were flattened by the blue waves, and he began to be confused.

But I looked at one place and thought: beautiful women appear at the best time, I have to sort it out.

An hour later, he sat alone on the bridge rock, withdrew his gaze, looked at his fingers, and pouted, "Liar." The tone is very arrogant.