Chapter 32: Here I Am
Gou Shun gently put the box on the table, walked to the bedroom door, and pushed the door open.
In addition to Enron, there is also a man in the bedroom, Fu Yusen.
There were some clothes on the ground.
Gou Shun stared blankly and did not speak.
An Ran's eyes had a hint of indebtedness in his eyes, and he didn't speak.
Fu Yusen had a disdainful smile on his face, and he didn't speak.
Tears suddenly burst out of Gou Shun's eyes, and he ran out of the door like crazy, and he ran for a long time before slowing down, and the people on the road looked at him as if they had seen a madman.
He wanted to yell, but he couldn't, he felt a lot of tightness in his chest, and he began to feel a little sick to his stomach, he retched a few times, but didn't throw it up.
After that, Gou Shun didn't run anymore, his head was like chaos, and he even hoped that someone could help him split it with an axe.
He staggered down the street, tears streaming down the corners of his eyes, and pedestrians gave way to him, and I am afraid that this was the first time in his life that people would give way when they saw him.
The afterglow of the setting sun shone on Gou Shun's body, Gou Shun felt that the sunlight seemed to penetrate himself, he seemed to have become transparent, he couldn't feel his existence, he could only feel the indescribable sadness, which was more uncomfortable than death.
Qian Yan glanced at Gou Shun and found that he was already in tears at this moment, and the brainwave amplitude display on the helmet, the number on it was 4, Qian Yan knew that the normal range was 40-70.
"Aunt Bai, the brain wave amplitude shows that it is only 4."
"Huh? Wake him up quickly, if the amplitude is less than 10, his life will be in danger. ”
Aunt Bai said, walked quickly to Gou Shun's side, didn't bother to wake him up, and directly grabbed his shoulders and shook him.
After Gou Shun was shaken awake, he opened his eyes and remained motionless.
At this time, his eyes were full of sadness, loss, pain, and despair.
Tears dripped down his cheeks and onto his clothes.
Qian Yan didn't know what to say, and Aunt Bai didn't know what to say, the room was terrifyingly quiet.
After a full hour, Gou Shun still maintained the same appearance as when he was first woken up, but there were fewer tears in his eyes, I am afraid that he is about to dry up.
Qian Yan took a tissue, slowly stretched it out in front of Gou Shun, and gently wiped his tears.
Gou Shun was like a sculpture, and he didn't blink his eyes.
"Aunt Bai, is Gou Shun okay?" Qian Yan asked worriedly, so anxious that she was about to cry.
Aunt Bai sighed softly, and said with some self-reproach: "Heartbroken, I definitely can't react for a while, it's all my fault, I only paid attention to the image, forgot the amplitude, and almost let him die in a dream." ”
"So what now?"
"Wait, I'll change to a little more cheerful music." Aunt Bai said, walked to the button on the wall and pressed it.
The rhythm of the music was indeed much more cheerful, but Gou Shun still did not respond.
Qian Yan became more and more anxious, she walked to Gou Shun's side, slowly squatted down, pulled Gou Shun's right hand over, and held it tightly with her two hands.
She wanted Gou Shun to feel a trace of warmth, and she wanted Gou Shun to know that he was not alone.
Gou Shun's hands were very cold, and gradually, she covered them a little hot.
Suddenly, Gou Shun blinked, looked down at Qian Yan, and said in a desperate tone: "It's gone, it's gone, I have nothing, not even An Ran." ”
"No, you still have me, we're friends." Qian Yan said sincerely.
I saw Gou Shun suddenly show a desperate smile and said: "I had nothing, but An Ran just broke in, but I didn't expect that in the end, I still had nothing." ”
"Gou Shun, don't think about it anymore, okay? It was just a dream. ”
"No, that's not a dream, have you ever seen a dream like this?"
Qian Yan listened to it, and didn't know how to answer him.
I saw Gou Shun say with a desperate face: "I know why she did this, because of money, because she was going to operate on her father, and she called the number on that business card." But do you know why she called? ”
Qian Yan just held Gou Shun's hand tightly and didn't speak.
"Because I'm useless, because I'm a waste, hahahahaha......" Gou Shun said, and actually laughed, laughed and laughed, opened his mouth wide, and cried without making a sound.
"Gou Shun, you are only eighteen years old now, you are not married yet, An Ran is only a high school student, and her father is fine, all of this is fake, fake." Qian Yan shook Gou Shun's hand and said.
However, Gou Shun still opened his mouth and wept as if he hadn't heard Qian Yan speak.
Seeing this, Qian Yan stood up from the ground, walked to Lin Yao's side, and whispered a few words in his ear.
Lin Yao nodded and walked out of the room.
Gradually, Gou Shun finally stopped crying, but he still sat blankly, his eyes full of hollowness.
After about two hours, Lin Yao walked back into the house with a tablet in his hand.
"Are you alright?" Qian Yan asked a little impatiently.
"Hmm." Lin Yao said, clicked twice on the tablet, and handed it to Qian Yan.
Qian Yan took the tablet, walked to Gou Shun's side, stretched the tablet in front of Gou Shun, and said, "Gou Shun, look, it's Enron, it's Enron." ”
Hearing An Ran's name, Gou Shun turned his gaze to the screen of the tablet, only to see a short-haired girl on the screen, wearing a school uniform, looking at the screen and smiling, revealing a pair of crescent-like eyes, although this girl's face was a little immature, but Gou Shun knew that she was An Ran.
I saw Qian Yan click on the screen, the picture moved, and the girl began to speak: "Hello, Gou Shun, I am An Ran, I heard that you dreamed of me, it's really magical, I know that you are a little unwell now, but, you must be happy, there is no difficulty that cannot be solved, just like the poem said, Wan Muchun in front of the sick tree, I believe you will get better, it is now the third year of high school, the study task is very heavy, I can't tell you too much, however, I really hope to see you in the future, Okay, let's not talk about it, I'm going to class, remember to have fun! ”
An Ran said, and pressed his two index fingers on his face, making a cute expression.
The picture stopped, but Gou Shun didn't seem to have seen enough.
"Can I watch it again?"
Gou Shun watched the video more than a dozen times, and the sadness on his face dissipated a little.
"Did you tell her about it?" Gou Shun suddenly asked.
Qian Yan shook her head and said: "No, we haven't figured out what your dream is all about, we don't know how to tell her, and besides, such a bizarre thing, even if you tell her, she can't understand it, but it may affect her learning, I just asked Lin Yao to tell her, you are sick, and you dream of a girl who looks like her, let her bless you, you won't blame me, right?" ”
"No, thank you, don't affect her best, don't let her get hurt." Gou Shun said thoughtfully.
"Okay, I don't want to, I'll send you back to rest."
"Oh." Gou Shun stood up, followed behind Qian Yan like a walking corpse, and when he returned to the house, he sat on the bed.
Qian Yan saw that Gou Shun was still full of sadness, so she comforted: "Gou Shun, you also saw An Ran just now, she is still young, so the one in your mind is just a dream." ”
"I knew it was a dream, but the feeling was real. I know that Gou Shun in front of you is still a child who has never been in love, but he has experienced a broken heart, you always tell me the reality, but why is it not another life in the dream? Gou Shun's tone was a little excited.
Seeing this, Qian Yan said in a gentle tone: "Gou Shun, I don't object to you taking the things in your dreams as a kind of life, but I hope you have a focus, I hope you can take reality a little more seriously, okay?" ”
"In my dreams, I have peace and a home, but in reality, what do I have? I'm just a thing that you've locked up for research. ”
"Gou Shun, you still have me in reality!"
"You? What is our relationship? It is nothing more than the relationship between the researcher and the studied. ”
"Gou Shun, we are friends, I am your friend, you make me really sad when you say this." Listening to Gou Shun's words, Qian Yan was very sad.
Gou Shun listened, but did not speak.
I saw Qian Yan continue to say: "An Ran hurt you in my dream, whether it was out of helplessness or what, but think about it, you have been coming to the research center for a month, have I ever done something to hurt you, have I ever said a word that hurt you?" I'm afraid you'll be lonely, I'm afraid you'll be sad, I'm afraid you'll be cranky, I'm even thinking about you when I'm eating and sleeping, yes, I'm not your friend, I'm just a researcher, I could have been like Lin Yao, just messing around every day, ignoring you. ”
Qian Yan said, wiping her eyes a little aggrieved.
"Yes, I'm sorry." Gou Shun also felt that what he said might have gone too far.
"You don't have to tell me I'm sorry, I just want you to understand why you're here. I don't know what he wants you to do, but do you think it's better for you to fall into their hands than here? ”
Seeing that Gou Shun lowered his head and didn't speak, Qian Yan continued: "Gou Shun, have you ever thought that even if we don't hypnotize you, as long as you sleep, you will still dream about those, and if you dream about those outside, what will you do?" Can you control yourself? If you can't control it, who will help you? At least there's me here, and I can comfort you, trust me, and I'll help you solve this mystery, okay? ”
"But, I feel like I can't control my emotions a little bit now." Gou Shun seemed to notice a change in himself.
Qian Yan listened, nodded, and said: "Yes, although you did something that caused a sensation in the city outside, but it was only you who were passively guided, when you first came here, there was only cowardice and obedience in your character, but now, you seem to know dissatisfaction, responsibility and anger, you will be dissatisfied with yourself in your dreams, you will feel that everything in your dreams is your responsibility, and you will also feel excited and even angry about the things in your dreams, I admit, you have changed." So, you should be here now, not to mention that you have very powerful martial arts now, and if you can't control yourself outside, you may do some unbelievable things. ”
"Am I going to be here for the rest of my life?"
"No, I think you'll come back to your senses when we figure out what happened."
Gou Shun listened, thought about it, and asked again: "Then can I see Enron in the future?" ”
"I think it should be possible, if you really have fate."
I saw Gou Shun sigh and said: "Actually, I don't think it's good, I'm afraid it will bring her misfortune again like in a dream." ”
"Okay, Gou Shun, who knows what the future holds, don't think so much."
"Oh, then you go get busy."
"Okay, then you must call me if you have something."
After Qian Yan left, Gou Shun tried hard to tell himself not to think about the things in his dreams, but the more he told himself, the more he would think about it.
He took the Rubik's Cube, hoping to distract himself.
But his hand was spinning faster and faster, and it was getting more and more chaotic.
With a "bang", the Rubik's Cube was scattered all over the ground.