On August 15, the Mid-Autumn Festival, I returned late. I did it on purpose.

If I had dared to go home half an hour late before last year, Ah Wei would have been unrelenting, crying and making trouble, and I would not have stopped until I bowed three times and begged for forgiveness again and again. But since that incident, she has behaved stranger day by day, and I can't imagine how I would have treated her if I had been late today. To tell the truth, perhaps, I would rather her be so aggressive and domineering as she used to be, that she would be more real and more vivid and intimate to me.

In order to stall for time, I walked all the way home, and this year's moon was strange, although it was also a full moon, it was gloomy and bleak, with an indescribable misery and weirdness. I was secretly surprised that the lights on the doors and windows were dark. If it was before, maybe Ah Wei would punish me by running away from home, but since the accident, she hasn't left the house once, and she will tremble with fear even when she hears the sound of the car horn, if she goes out, where will she go?

I shouted Awei's name from the living room to the bedroom, and when I walked to the guest room, I seemed to hear a soft inhalation in the dark, and a pair of green cat eyes stared at me faintly, "Bao'er! I broke out in a cold sweat and turned on the light casually, only to see that it was Ah Wei in a black nightgown. I breathed a sigh of relief, and at this point I felt uncomfortable thinking about the black cat Bao'er who had been crushed to death by Avi. I walked over and squatted in front of Ah Wei: "Wei Wei, what's wrong?" ”

Ah Wei looked at me and didn't speak, silently wept, I sighed and bent over to pick her up, she was very light, her body was weak and boneless, and she lay softly in my arms. I carried her through the living room back to the bedroom, suddenly felt a burst of warmth and humidity on my hands, and looked down at Ah Wei, who was gently licking the back of my hand with the tip of her tongue, again and again, lingering and infinitely attached. I suddenly felt full of sorrow, and tears flowed sadly, and the tears dripped on Awei's black hair, and then gently slid down. Ah Wei's hair was black and soft, as if, as if 、、、、、、 me shook my head, unwilling to think about it anymore.

Ah Wei lay on the bed and fell asleep quickly, her whole body curled up in my arms, sleeping very soundly, and even snoring softly. This is also a big change for Ah Wei, she never snored before, her voice makes me can't help but think of Bao'er again, Ah Wei's hair sweeps my chin with a breath, itchy, always makes me suspect that Bao'er is back. In the past, every time I quarreled with Ah Wei, I would hide in the guest room alone to hug Bao'er, Bao'er curled up in my arms, snoring softly, and fluffily sweeping my chin, at that time I really felt that in fact, men don't have to marry wives, and a cat can also spend their lives together. Suddenly, I remembered Awei's words: "I'm not as good as a cat." ”

Ah Wei is the least fond of cats, she has been very unhappy since I held Bao'er, and Bao'er is also hostile to Ah Wei. Whenever I get off work, as soon as Ah Wei opens the door, I don't have time to say hello, Bao'er has already "rubbed" up, jumped up into my arms, and whined with me in every way of intimacy, then Ah Wei will be annoyed, angry and half-truthful and say: "Look, your cat is competing with me for favor, I am almost going to eat cat vinegar." ”

Since I had Bao'er, my daily kiss with Ah Wei when I entered the house disappeared, and was replaced by my caress and inquiry to Bao T'er: "Did Ah Wei bully you at home?" Bao'er naturally won't answer, but it will look at Ah Wei and meow repeatedly, as if she was complaining, so Ah Wei replied viciously: "Of course, you have to take it while you are not there, and see when I kill it to stew meat and eat it." "When Ah Wei said this, I didn't expect that one day she would actually kill Bao'er, and because of this, her child died.

Ah Wei was full of sunshine before she became pregnant, and I was attracted by her bright personality to pursue her madly. But a girl and a woman are two different things, and a girl with a strong personality is actually only suitable for admiration and not for being a wife. After getting married, Awei's love-hate personality became more and more unbearable for me, and she liked to argue with me in everything. In the past, I loved this frankness and angularity, but when this person becomes your pillow person, he still does his own thing, which is irritating. Our relationship grew strained day by day, and we rarely communicated, as if all the words were finished while we were in love. I thought, maybe I was wrong, what I really needed was a meek and simple, cat-like wife, dependent on me, submissive to me, and pleasing me, not a strong woman like Ah Wei.

Ah Wei meets all the characteristics of modern women, she is independent, she is a workaholic, her enthusiasm for work is the most unbearable for me, I have repeatedly warned her that she is married to me and not her company, but she still puts a lot of energy and effort into her work every day, and takes victory and failure very seriously. Although men and women are equal, in fact, we all know that men and women cannot be equal, and most of the unit leaders are men, which has reflected the subordinate status of women in their work. No matter how good a woman is, she can't escape her feminine nature, they will have menopause, they will become more and more eccentric and irrational as they get older, and their sensibilities will make them make wrong judgments. So no matter how hard Ah Wei tries, her grades are always not 100% affirmed, and there is no chance of promotion. Ah Wei was deeply tired. I persuaded her: "It's better not to do it, I'll support you when you go home, isn't it good to be a wife?" ”

Ah Wei sighed: "Maybe it's better to be a cat, you don't have to put in any effort to get the owner's favor, no responsibility, no obligation, how easy it is to live." ”

When I think of Ah Wei's words, I feel strange, and I feel a little frightened in my heart: When and when did Ah Wei often put the emotion of 'It's better to be a cat' on her lips? Her heart must be tired, is she crying out for help from me? However, I neglected that, instead of encouraging her when she was down, I was dissatisfied with her competitiveness and proposed to separate to snub her. When I left her with Bao'er in my arms, she must have been disappointed in me, right? I seemed to see Avi sleepless all night, muttering in the dark, 'If only I were a cat.' ’”

But Ah Wei really doesn't like cats, maybe she said that because she wanted me to treat her as gently as I did to Bao'er, to bow down to her. She became more and more bad for Bao'er, knowing that Bao'er loved fish the most, and deliberately mixed the fish meat with sand, so that Bao'er couldn't eat it if she wanted to, and she was hungry if she didn't eat it. Here, it proves that even a strong woman has a little girl's side, and the delicate and despicable little tricks are vividly played. Bao'er didn't show weakness either, and began to think of tricking Ah Wei, either rolling her yarn as a ball and making a mess, or hiding her purse, which made her very angry. One person and one cat fight back and forth, and it seems that the cat has a slight upper hand, because Ah Wei is always angry, and the cat always maintains a smiling face. Every time she gets angry with a cat and can't get my help, Ah Wei will say angrily, "I'm not as good as a cat!" ”

Both of us are clearly aware of the crisis of marriage, maybe neither of us wants to break up, but we are too lazy to remedy it, so we still make do with it, and at this time, Ah Wei is pregnant.

I remember when Ah Wei told me that she already had it, her attitude was very strange, she was not happy or annoyed, but she looked dazed and helpless, and asked me, "Shall I resign?" Is it good to have children at home? Of course I said yes, and when I thought she was just talking, I said, "Don't regret your resignation, and then complain that I keep you as a cat, in fact, if you really want to stay at home and be a cat, I am very willing." ”

How did I know that one day, Ah Wei would really become a cat.

After Ah Wei resigned, her mood was very unstable, she wanted to be quiet, but she didn't adapt to a too ordinary life, maybe it was not a good thing to stay alone, not to mention an extroverted person like her, it was no different from a black house, her temper was getting more and more irritable, her friends all went to work, and there was no one who could accompany her to talk to her, her temper was so bad, I also knew that it had something to do with pregnancy, and the mood of pregnant women was sometimes good and sometimes bad.

On the day of the incident, I was at work as usual, I don't know where Bao'er offended Ah Wei, she chased Bao'er all the way, accidentally stepped on Bao'er's tail, pounced suddenly, pressed Bao'er under her, and immediately blood flowed out, Yin Hong was thick, there were Bao'er's, there were Ah Wei's, or there were unborn children.

When I got home that day, I opened the door and smelled the blood, the blood that condensed the resentment, and I was so frightened that I froze there.

In the hospital, the first thing Ah Wei said when she woke up was: "Which one do you feel sorry for losing Bao'er and your child?" And looked at me expectantly.

I suddenly remembered that Ah Wei had changed since then, becoming more and more silent, more and more submissive, and after her body recovered, she never mentioned her work, but stayed at home and depended on me to provide for her, and she was obedient to me, and she was reluctant to leave for almost a minute. Every morning I had to work hard to break her hand around my neck and coax her to let me go to work, and when I got home in the evening I had to put my arms around her, caress her, and linger for half a day before rushing to cook. She's like a little baby, no! It's like a cat, a cat who has nothing to do, pleasing me is all about life, and doing nothing else. I was so busy at work and taking care of my family that I had to hire a part-time worker to take care of my family. But Ah Wei resented any woman who appeared in front of me, so within a few days I fired my part-time job again, preferring to call the restaurant every day to order a boxed lunch. Now, I dare say that I have never seen a cat-like woman in my life more lazy, incompetent and effeminate than my wife. I don't know if it's a blessing or a sorrow for me, but I really miss the old Awei.

I often caught Bao'er's green eyes, and the moment I came back from work to open the door, in the dark room with no lights, I blinked and disappeared, and then Ah Wei would pounce on me and gently entangle me.

I seemed to understand something, Ah Wei may have died a long time ago, it was the cat's soul that drove her body, from the day of the hospital, that expectant look, how it hoped that I would answer: "Of course I feel sorry for Bao'er." ”