Chapter 390: The Meaning of Life
"So that's why you're so supportive of Mr. G, not just because he's your fiancΓ©, or to repay him for saving you, but also because you want to rely on him to change the fate of the clones." Zhang Hengdao.
"That's right." Miss F nodded and admitted very dryly, "As you can see, even if I try my best, it will be nothing more than opening a few more such nursing homes, so in a sense, you are not bad, I can't really change the fate of our entire population, so I need him, Mr. G is one of the few people who is willing to treat clones and ordinary humans equally, and he promised me that in the new world he created, there will be no locators, memory coders, or codes on the back of the neck, A world where clones can enjoy the same rights as ordinary people. β
"And you believe him?"
"I believe in everything worth believing in." Miss F said, "It's you, I don't know what you believe so far, I used to be very worried about you, especially when you first woke up, I know what it feels like, because I've been through this before, I know what trouble is going to happen next, but you don't look like a person who is in trouble at all." β
"I'm in a special situation."
"Well, that's what you've been saying, I may have had doubts before, but now I choose to believe it, because ordinary clones can't complete Mr. G's previous test, and they can't defeat the emergency response team and get the memory encoder from their hands, don't get me wrong, I don't want to get to the bottom of you, and I don't want to explore the secrets behind you, I just hope you can find your way."
Zhang Heng listened quietly to Miss F's words.
"You're the most powerful clone I've ever seen, and unlike me, you've broken free from the shackles around your neck through your own efforts, breaking the tragic cycle of clone fate and gaining almost impossible freedom, at least part of it, but what's next, what are you going to do after you're free?"
"I'm going to focus on collecting shellac records."
"I'm not talking about your new hobby." Miss F said, "I'm asking the ultimate question about your life, what is the meaning of your existence, what kind of goals you want to accomplish with the rest of your life, not the goals you were written in when you were a clone, but what you really want to do." β
"You want me to help you free the other clones?" Zhang Heng raised his eyebrows.
If that's the case, then this trip makes sense, before Mr. G was showing him the power of ideals, trying to inspire him through the collective contagion shown at the bottom, and the last stop was Miss F's persuasion from the perspective of the same kind.
Even Zhang Heng had to admit that such a method was indeed very effective, if he was really a clone, coupled with his relationship with Miss F, it would be difficult to ignore his own race, but what Zhang Heng didn't expect was that Miss F on the other side shook her head when she heard this.
"No, I did think that before, but I've given up now."
"Why? Is it because you find that I am not easy to be convinced? β
"No, it's because I don't want to be like those guys."
"Which guys?"
"The ones who write the memories for us," said Miss F., "what I've been trying to do is to free my fellow citizens from false goals in life that don't belong to them, so I'm not going to instill in you any other purpose and tell you what to do." β
"Doesn't it seem a bit contradictory that you encourage me to do what I really want to do, but that you yourself have to carry the burden of liberating the whole population?"
"I'm different from you, and it's really my goal in life to liberate our kind, oh...... The expression on your face, I know what you're thinking, you must think that I am also one of Mr. G's fanatical believers, and I was influenced by him to devote myself to my current career, but this time you were wrong, and my choice of this path has nothing to do with him.
"After being rescued by Mr. G, I also experienced a period of confusion for a long time, and to be honest, I didn't think I would survive until I opened my eyes, especially after I found out that those wishes and memories were false, and I lost an arm, and I once doubted whether I still had enough courage to live.
"For a while, I even suspected that I hadn't escaped that nightmare at all, that I had run out of that manor, but was soon found by the company's people, who rewrote the memories in my mind and made me feel like I had escaped their control and been free, and then, just when I gave up my vigilance, their people would suddenly appear in front of me again, admiring the desperate look on my face and amusing themselves.
"It makes sense, because they're good at this kind of thing. In that manor, this happened again and again, only because some accident got out of hand that night. I lived in fear every day, and this torture was about to drive me crazy, until I began to consciously reach out to our own kind in my life. β
"Why?"
"At first, it was just to make sure that there were people who had a similar story template to me, so as to speculate on when my nightmare would come again, but once I got to know them, the desire to do something for them became stronger, and even overshadowed my fear of the future, I didn't have a family, and I didn't know who my parents were, but I could feel a sense of family in them, and my emotions were stable.
"Because of this, Mr. G bought this nursing home that was on the verge of collapse and gave it to me, so that I could use it as a pretext to contact clones frequently, and I transformed it into what it is today, making it a paradise for clones, and in the process I finally found my purpose in life, I want to do more for them and give them freedom. It is this belief that has brought me to this day and gained the strength I have today. Miss F said as she moved her robotic hand.
"But this is my goal in life, not yours, you need to find the meaning of your existence, which may be difficult, especially for clones, but it is definitely worth trying."