Until the bell rang, Ying'er whispered beside me, "Get up, Yan'er get up." I have to go to eat, or I won't be able to eat for a while. He pushed me again, and I woke up in a trance. Ying'er saw that I had woken up, so she smiled beside me.

It didn't seem to be long since I last saw her, and I saw her before the reincarnation. But seeing her now is still comfortable and relaxed.

If I say that I am particularly relieved of the person, except for my senior brother and master, it is Ying'er. If I could, I would like her to be so simple and carefree for the rest of her life.

I always go through these things over and over again, and I always subconsciously calculate: how long can I rest, how long will I go out, what should I do. In fact, my spirit has long been very tired, and I can only relax briefly when I am surrounded by people I am familiar with. It's just that once you relax, you can hear their calls from far away.

Perhaps it is precisely because of this that in yesterday's dream, there was nothing but barrenness.

"Ying'er." I whispered to her, smiling at her in a daze, watching her tie her hair with a hair tie in her mouth.

Ying'er looked at me inexplicably, she naturally didn't understand what I was thinking, she just urged, "Hurry up, hurry up, they eat very fast, and they won't have anything to eat for a while." ”

When I woke up early in the morning, the window had been opened, and I secretly looked out the window while Ying'er wasn't paying attention. Today's weather is also good, it's still early, but I can already see the sun coming out, it should be a sunny day. It doesn't feel hot, there has been a wind "hulahula", and the weather is relatively cool.

Ying'er kept urging, and after I was freshened up, she took me by the hand and led me to the dining hall. Along the way, he muttered, "Bless and bless, there must be porridge left." "Fortunately, there is.

She looked at the porridge bowl and immediately laughed, and secretly said, "I thought there was no porridge, but I didn't expect it to be there!" He said to the senior brother who was cooking, "Thank you, senior brother!" "The one who cooks is a brother who looks older than us, and that's obviously his next task: to prepare food for us in the cafeteria.

Ying'er and I ate free food in the canteen, and breakfast was two steamed buns and a bowl of porridge. I heard her say, "I have a task in the afternoon, I'm going to clean up in the square." Yan'er will come with me in the afternoon, right? I'll take you to Elder Yun. Although you have only just come to the sect, you can always do simple cleaning tasks, and you are in a special situation, so it is always good to save some money. In case we don't have this free meal one day, we can only buy it ourselves. ”

I smiled and nodded in agreement, and then told her, "I'm still going to learn the 'Love Sword'." ”

I don't remember why I wanted to learn the 'Love Sword' in the first place. Maybe it's just that I watched the master save me with the powerful 'love sword', and I felt amazing, I felt worship, and I wanted to learn, when I said this to Ying'er, my eyes must still be shining, and I told my worship with my eyes.

And now, after so many years, I have tried again and again, how can I be as strong as my senior brother? Or maybe I just want to know what he lost when he saved me. The more reincarnation you have, the more attachment and suffering you become.

I have never been able to reach the height of my senior brother, and I may have never understood him from beginning to end. The more I think about it, the more sad I become.

Ying'er didn't persuade me much, just said, "I think 'Love Sword' is also good, if you like it." After all, it's your own business, you just have to decide. ”

Soon, Ying'er had to go and practice swords with them, and I had just arrived, and even just got my own sword, Ying'er took me to meet my senior brother first.

I told him, "I want to learn the 'Love Sword'." I've thought about it, and I won't regret it. ”

The senior brother said, "If you have made up your mind, then go to the back mountain, the master usually drinks in the pavilion in the back mountain." Just go up the road to the cafeteria, and you will soon be able to see it, as long as he agrees. ”

I looked closely into his eyes and there was nothing I wanted to see.

When I found Master, Master was sitting and drinking in a dilapidated pavilion in the back mountain. The clothes were tattered, and even the lid of the wine gourd was not properly covered, so it was placed next to it, and I didn't know what I was thinking, and I hummed a few words from time to time. I always felt like he was sad.

Master closed his eyes until I approached him step by step and walked in front of him, and I finally saw him open his eyes. He didn't ask me if I had thought it through, but said, "Hanfeng should have said that you are not actually suitable for learning the 'Love Sword', why do you need to learn it."

At that time, it was said, "Because I want to learn." ”

There was no other reason back then, I just wanted to. If you can answer it now, there are many reasons. Because of the obsession of reincarnation so many times, because of the regret that I have been having for so long, because of the person I have been trying to understand for so many years.

I just can't quite forgive myself.

The master nodded, took another sip of wine from the wine gourd, and burped a little. There was a gust of wind, and the master seemed to disappear directly into the wind, and he was gone all of a sudden. I could only see his voice still ringing in my ears: "You go to the square to find the cold wind, you said I agreed." ”

I used to be pleasantly surprised: I could learn the 'Love Sword' and I got Master's permission. Now it feels like there are a lot more things, and Master doesn't seem to be looking at me, but seeing others through me.

I quickly ran to the square to see that my brother was still practicing his sword against the tree last night.

The Sword Sect is on the top of the mountain, there are clouds and mist, and the senior brother is in the middle of the clouds. Sword by sword, the same action is done over and over again. The sun slowly rose, and the clouds began to slowly disperse, gently shining on his face.

Although the senior brother was not very old, he had deep internal strength, and soon found that I was standing not far away, so he walked over, and before I could say "Master has agreed," he said, "You are here." Except for me, you are the only one who learns the 'Love Sword', so you can just call me Senior Brother. Master actually rarely stays in the sect on weekdays, so you can come to me if you have anything. I'll teach you the 'Love Sword' too. ”

"But today, I will take you ten laps around the sect first. After all, you need to exercise well first, and wait until you are suitable for studying. ”

He said that and turned and ran, and I followed him. The people of the sect came and went, each with their own things, and no one noticed my expression when I lowered my head. I miss it so much, the days that followed him, I miss it too much.