Ming Cui stood in front of the door, and it was quiet for a while, and then the door "creaked" and was gently opened, revealing Lan Xin's haggard face inside.

She hasn't rested well in the past few days, although the lord and the lady have forgiven her, but the eldest lady is not aware of this matter, Lan Xin doesn't know what the eldest lady will think if she knows in the future, maybe she will be disappointed in herself, maybe she will be angry, maybe she will be sad.

All kinds of emotions surround Lan Xin's heart, she can only fall asleep late these days, not at all like before, she is heartless and lungsless, and she falls asleep on the pillow. Therefore, in the past few days, although because of his young age, only the dark circles under his eyes are a little heavier, it seems that he has finally lost his previous youth and vitality, and there is a sadness between his eyebrows, just like the dark clouds in the sky a few days ago, lingering.

Ming Cui looked at Lan Xin's obvious melancholy, was silent for a while, and finally said, "The eldest lady is waiting for you, Lan Xin, go over quickly." ”

Lan Xin was silent for a long time, and then said, "Miss, she...... What can you say? ”

Ming Cui shook her head slightly, and then seemed to remember something, and there was an apology on her face.

"Lan Xin, in fact, I brought up this matter first, I think you will have to face the eldest lady sooner or later, so when the eldest lady asked about you, I told the eldest lady about you, I hope you don't blame me for talking too much."

Lan Xin was slightly stunned when she heard this, but there was no trace of annoyance in her eyes, she just shook her head calmly, sighed softly, and then said: "This matter was originally blamed on me, and it has nothing to do with you." You're right, I'll have to face the eldest lady sooner or later, it's just a matter of time, but now the eldest lady's body is better? ”

Mingcui heard Lan Xin ask about Li Qinghuan's body, so she told her the truth.

"The eldest lady's body is almost better, and I originally planned to go out for a walk today, but when I mentioned you, she said that she wanted to see you first, and she was in the room at this time, so you should go first."

After Ming Cui finished speaking, he added: "Lan Xin, I know that you feel very uncomfortable, and you may not have figured out how to face the eldest lady, but the past has become a thing of the past after all, and now you can't mind, it's all in the past." The current you are the real you, I hope that you will not be stumped by the past you and the things you experienced in the past, after all, you are meeting the eldest lady now, as well as the kind lord and lady. Since nothing has gone wrong now, you shouldn't blame yourself too much. ”

Ming Cui's gentle voice echoed in Lan Xin's ears, and until she walked to the door of the eldest lady, she was still in a trance, and she had not yet recovered from what Ming Cui said.

What Ming Cui said did make a little wave in Lan Xin's heart, what she said was not wrong, maybe she had always been bound by the past, otherwise she would not have been carefully covering up her secrets all these years.

In Lan Xin's view, the former self was unbearable, disgusted and spurned, if the eldest lady now knows, Lan Xin is not sure in her heart, they can fully accept their past selves.

What she is most worried about is that after the eldest lady knows the truth, she will look at herself differently. At that time, how should she deal with herself?

The eyes of the people around her back then, once Lan Xin remembered it, she couldn't restrain the fear in her heart, she didn't have enough courage to face the contempt and spurning in those eyes, as if she had done something heinous, but it was clear that she was just forced by life.

Lan Xin didn't expect those people to forgive her, but she was not strong enough to turn a blind eye to those gazes. After all, at that time, she was only eight or nine years old.

Encountering such a thing at a very sensitive age for a girl, no matter who it is, I'm afraid it will be difficult to overcome this hurdle.

At least Lan Xin felt that she would remember this incident for the rest of her life, but she would not be able to face up to that past and experience for the rest of her life. Because every time she thinks about it, she is a little frightened in her heart, and those eyes are really frightening.

Lan Xin stood in front of the door and hadn't moved yet, but Li Qinghuan, who was sitting inside reading a book, had sharp ears and had already noticed that there was someone outside the door.

She closed the poetry book in her hand, raised her head to look out the window, and said tentatively: "Lan Xin, are you standing outside?" ”

Lan Xin heard Li Qinghuan's voice, pulled out of his own world, suddenly came back to his senses, and subconsciously responded: "Miss, it's Lan Xin." ”

Li Qinghuan, who was sitting in the room, casually put the book back on the desk and shouted outside the door: "Since you have already come, why don't you come in, do you still want to wait for Miss Ben to invite you in?" ”

Li Qinghuan's tone was full of usual lightness, mixed with a hint of joking.

If it were usual, Lan Xin would have already opened the door and entered, and in addition to being helpless about Li Qinghuan's teasing, he would probably fight back: "Lan Xin doesn't dare to let the delicate eldest lady wait." ”

But now, Lan Xin has something on her mind and a secret, facing this door, she suddenly feels that what separates her and the eldest lady seems to be more than just a door, maybe there are more things that stand in the way between them. And at this time, I may want to break through all this and reveal the truth.

She didn't even know that doing so would bring them closer and closer, or farther and farther apart.

At least at this moment, for Lan Xin, to step through this door, for her, it takes courage. Instead of on weekdays, it was easy to push it away.

She felt that she might have some difficulty raising her hand.

In the face of Li Qinghuan's jokes, Lan Xin didn't speak for a while, she didn't know how to face the eldest lady, on the way here, she remembered the previous things over and over again, how the eldest lady treated her kindly, how to make friends with her, but she did such a thing, she really didn't know how to face Li Qinghuan.

These things added up to make Lan Xin's heart sink to the bottom, although she came here, but in fact, she didn't think anything clearly.

Although Madame had already comforted her, Madame already knew the truth, so she understood her compulsion and involuntariness, but the eldest lady didn't know anything, she was innocent!

Lan Xin missed the opportunity to respond to Li Qinghuan, and now she continued to speak, but it seemed a little deliberate, she hesitated, but she still didn't speak. At the same time, the footsteps standing in front of the door were also hesitating to move forward.

Just when Lan Xin was thinking about what to say in the first sentence after entering the door, the reddish-brown wooden door suddenly "creaked" and opened in front of him.

Li Qinghuan's somewhat emaciated face appeared in front of Lan Xin, she was dressed in new clothes, her hairpin was neatly pulled, and her face was wiped with a little rouge, and she looked a lot better.

But Lan Xin has always been serving in front of Li Qinghuan, so she can naturally see at a glance that Li Qinghuan has lost some weight. Although she didn't suffer much damage this time, there were still several skin injuries, and her body was already a little weak, so how could it really not affect it at all?

And all this was caused by himself, as Li Qinghuan's personal maid, Lan Xin's heart was full of self-blame and bitterness.

"It seems that you really want Miss Ben to invite you in, Lan Xin, I haven't seen you for a few days, and you are getting bolder."

This sounded a bit blaming, but Lan Xin looked at the relaxed smile on the corner of Li Qinghuan's mouth, and knew that she was just joking with herself.

But what these sounds like makes Lan Xin's heart uncomfortable.

If it weren't for herself, I'm afraid that during this time, the eldest lady wouldn't have to go out of the house, recuperate at home, and she wouldn't be able to go anywhere, and she wouldn't even be able to see her favorite flowers.

What would the eldest lady think if she knew that she had done all this by herself? Will you still face yourself with such a smile? Will you still joke with yourself and make fun of yourself? Will you try all the delicious food yourself?

Lan Xin's mind flashed with all kinds of thoughts, she had already planned what she was going to say the moment she saw Li Qinghuan.

But when she really faced her, Lan Xin's mind flashed with chaotic thoughts, but she couldn't say a word.

"I ......"

Lan Xin only said one word, and choked in his throat.

Li Qinghuan looked at Lan Xin's complicated and tangled expression, all kinds of looks passed in front of her eyes, how could Li Qinghuan not feel her emotions at the moment?

She didn't say anything, but let go of her body, snorted at Lan Xin, and said, "Come in first, don't stand stupidly at the door, or do you want to stay at Miss Ben's door all day?" Li Qinghuan raised his eyebrows.

Lan Xin subconsciously shook his head.

"No, Lan Xin doesn't have this plan......"

"Then come in quickly."

Lan Xin could only nod obediently, opened her legs, and stepped into Li Qinghuan's door. The reddish-brown door closed slowly behind her.

Lan Xin never felt for a moment that she was so depressed and overwhelmed in this room where she was waiting for Li Qinghuan on weekdays, she didn't know how to speak.

Li Qinghuan slowly paced back to the table, sat down, and even stretched out his hand to pour a cup of tea for Lan Xin himself, motioning for her to sit down opposite him.

Lan Xin obediently complied, but she didn't reach out for the tea, where did she have the heart to drink tea at this time?

Li Qinghuan took a sip of tea by himself, looked at Lan Xin indifferent, and looked a little helpless, and pointed to a plate of delicate dim sum on the table.

"This is your favorite mung bean cake, why don't you eat it?"

Lan Xin subconsciously shook her head and refused: "Lan Xin doesn't eat it, thank you for the kindness of the eldest lady." ”

"How many days have I not seen you, and you are so unfamiliar with Miss Ben? Or are you already looking down on Miss Ben's pastries? Li Qinghuan's eyebrows raised again.

"No, no, that's not what Lan Xin meant."

Lan Xin waved her hand again and again, and the look of helplessness in her eyes was even worse.