Regarding the change in Zhen Chun's attitude, Gou Shun was a little unexpected, but he could feel that Zhen Chun must not be very satisfied with her father, because Zhen Chun only talked about her mother before, and did not mention her father.

"Did your dad do anything to be sorry for you?" Gou Shun asked tentatively.

I saw Zhen Chun thinking about it and said, "Do you know why my dad took my mom to elope?" ”

"Maybe it's because your dad likes your mom a lot, right?"

"Bullshit, my dad is just a bastard, he took my mom out of the hospital and went to Xigang City, my mom lost her job and only had a little savings in her hand, and my dad, he fooled around all day long, he didn't know what to do, and he never brought a penny back home. One day my mother followed him curiously, and found out that he was involved with a young lady in a dance hall, my mother reasoned with him, he beat my mother hard, and almost beat her to a miscarriage, and he also said that he went to the hospital to rob my mother, but he couldn't swallow that breath, and felt that it was very shameless to be looked down upon by my grandfather's family, and finally he asked my mother to get out. ”

"It's too much, how can he do this, and what about later?" Gou Shun was very angry when he heard Zhen Chun's story.

However, Zhen Chun seemed to be much calmer, and saw her continue: "My mother can't see hope in my father, and she has such a big belly and no face to go home, so she came to Nanchuan alone, found some work, and earned some money." ”

Gou Shun didn't expect such an irresponsible man, looked at Zhen Chun and asked, "You must be very ruthless to your father, right?"

However, Zhen Chun shook his head and said: "I don't hate him, why should I be cruel to him, I haven't even seen his face, I don't feel it at all, I can't talk about love, where can I hate?" ”

"However, he did not take on the responsibility of taking care of your mother and daughter."

"Then I can only blame my mother for being blind, and I can't see people, if you want to say hate, I actually only hate my mother?"

After hearing this, Gou Shun became even more puzzled, so he said again: "Your mother worked hard to raise you, why do you hate her?" ”

I saw Zhen Chun sigh and said: "It's because she gave birth to me that I hate her, when I was young, I often thought that if my father didn't go to the hospital to rob someone and let my mother have an abortion, or if he hit my mother that time and hit me again, it would be great to have a miscarriage." ”

"Why? Why do you have this thought, if that's the case, then there won't be you? Gou Shun became more and more unaware of what Zhen Chun thought.

A wry smile suddenly appeared on Zhen Chun's face, and he said lightly: "That's good, my birth was originally a bargaining chip, since the chips are useless, what are you going to do with them?" When I was younger, no one hurt, no one loved, and I had to be alone at home every day, do you know how terrible that feeling was? ”

After hearing this, Gou Shun shook his head, and I asked again, "What about your mother?" ”

"After my mother took me to Nanchuan, I was frugal, but I still had a dime on me when I was less than 100 days, and my mother, who had not eaten for three days, carried me to Nanjiang Park, and she planned to take me to the river."

"I think your mother must have been desperate, right?"

Zhen Chun nodded and continued: "That's right, my mother said later that as long as there was a glimmer of hope at that time, she would not do that. ”

"But she didn't do that." Gou Shun said.

"Maybe it's the endless road, my mother said that she was standing on the edge of the Nanjiang River with me in her arms, every time she was just about to jump, I would cry when she cried, she softened, and began to hesitate when she was soft-hearted, and this was repeated several times, and when she plucked up her courage, she heard someone shouting for help not far away."

Speaking of this, Zhen Chun paused, parked the car on the side of the road, and said, "I'm a little tired of driving, let's take a rest." ”

Neither of them got out of the car, and when they saw Gou Shun looking at themselves, Zhen Chun continued: "Out of the instinct of a nurse, my mother ran over, and she saw an old man fainting, so she put me aside and gave the old man heartbeat resuscitation, maybe the old man should not have died and woke up." ”

"And then?"

"Then things are like TV dramas, the old man is a local tyrant, he saw that my mother knew medical knowledge, so he asked my mother to go to his house to be a nanny, and then, I never ate again."

"Why is that?"

"Because the old man has a grandson, who is a few months older than me, his mother has no milk, and he usually eats milk powder, but they heard that breast milk is good, and my mother became his wet nurse, so I can only eat leftovers."

Hearing this, Gou Shun couldn't help but sigh, he didn't expect Zhen Chun to have such an unfortunate encounter.

And Zhen Chun's expression was still very calm, and said: "This is not bad, because my mother has to go to the old man's house every day to do things, and I have no one to take care of it, my mother thought of a way, take a strip of cloth to tie my arms and legs to the bed, and then wait for the grandson to finish eating, and then take the time to come back and feed me." ”

Zhen Chun said, pulling up her trouser legs, and Gou Shun saw that there was a circle of sinking marks on her ankles.

"After all these years, the strangulation marks have not disappeared." Zhen Chun said, put down his trouser legs, and continued: "You can't imagine that for almost a whole year, all I have been with is a worn-out rattle, or a toy that my grandson doesn't want. ”

"Why a year? Did your mom quit later? ”

Zhen Chun shook his head and said: "Maybe the sky has eyes, the old man doesn't know if he offended people or what, his grandson was run away, the old man fell ill in a fit of anger, he asked my mother to take care of him, but at least, I can eat enough." ”

"Weren't you scared then?"

"Scared, of course scared, for as long as I can remember, my biggest fear is loneliness, so I started drinking at the age of fourteen, because that would make me feel not lonely, but there are all kinds of scum in that environment, so I was deceived by a boy when I was sixteen, but it doesn't matter, after all, my birth was a mistake."

"You must not think like that." Gou Shun said on the side.

Zhen Chun listened, smiled and said, "Okay, you don't have to comfort me, you are not a person who can comfort people, don't force yourself." ”

"I'm sorry, I know I'm stupid."

"Do you know why I'm afraid of thunder?"

Gou Shun shook his head.

"That was when I first remembered, probably four or five years old, that day was similar to the situation just now, and there was a strong wind, my mother went to take care of the old man, and I still remember clearly that the thunder that day seemed to overturn the house, the wind blew the things outside, the rain crackled on the glass of the window, I felt in the dark, as if a wild beast was staring at me, it could rush out and eat me at any moment, I covered my head with the quilt, and curled up tightly in the corner, I didn't dare to move, I didn't know how I carried it, and I didn't know when my mother came back. ”

Gou Shun had always felt that his childhood was pitiful, but now it seems that Zhen Chun is even more pitiful than him, just from the appearance, he can't see that Zhen Chun will have such an experience.

After all, Zhen Chun now looks cheerful, and his life is not bad.

Zhen Chun seemed to see through Gou Shun's thoughts, and only heard her speak: "Maybe it's a long-term relationship, my mother takes care of the old man every day, and finally the two of them have an indescribable relationship, five years later, the old man didn't hold up and left, but he still has a conscience, and he left a lot of money for my mother in the will." ”

"Later, your mother used the money to open a hospital?"

"Yes, later my mother found a lot of connections and opened this hospital, but at this time, she couldn't manage me anymore, I was much more rebellious than other classmates, and she couldn't do anything about me, probably because she felt that she owed me too much, so later I had any requests, she would agree, and even if I scolded her, she wouldn't fight back."

Zhen Chun paused, and said: "But she still has a conscience, although she runs a women's hospital, as long as she has the opportunity, she will persuade those girls who have gone astray, but this time Xia Rushi asked me to do it for me." ”

Gou Shun didn't speak, she thought that Zhen Chun was like that because she was inappropriate, but things didn't seem to be so simple, as a listener, he felt very sad, but in this way, she didn't want Zhen Chun to be like that.

"I think your mother was forced to support you at that time." Gou Shun said.

"Then she can not give birth to me at all, what did she give birth to me?" Zhen Chun didn't seem to buy it.

I saw Gou Shun looking at Zhen Chun, and said with some seriousness: "Yes, why did she give birth to you, have you ever thought about it, your father left her at that time, why did she still choose to give birth to you?" ”

"I don't know." Zhen Chun didn't seem to want to think about it.

"Because you are her flesh and blood, because she is reluctant to give up on you, because she loves you."

Zhen Chun listened, didn't speak again, and turned his gaze to the sunset that was about to set in the distance.

The two were silent for a few minutes, only to see Gou Shun sigh and say, "Let's make a call." ”

"What?" Zhen Chun didn't seem to understand it a little.

"Make a phone call to your mom."