Even if he was in his heart, Zhou Xize didn't bother to pay attention to it, none of this was important now.

Zhou Xize was only thinking about how he should tell Yi Shengge about these pasts.

"But it turns out that good things can only happen at night. When people have fallen into a deep sleep, when that time comes, it is just enough to let these unreachable things happen in their dreams. So every night, I always go to bed early. I have forgotten what the immortal on the top of the mountain said, and I don't know what I still remember. ”

"He told me that as long as I am dedicated to goodness, I can wander slowly and wander in this world. Someday, I'll be able to find my little hair, and that's what he told me at the time. That's all I can remember. Wandering and wandering became my will to live, deeply etched in my mind, and now I am fulfilling what he told me every day. ”

"It's just that what I didn't expect was the change that the old man brought to my body at that time. Now I unconsciously have some disgust with my body. I'm no longer what I used to be, I'm no longer as pure as I used to be. The troubles of the world have disturbed my mind. I felt like I had lived for many years, and I felt like I had only lived for those years. ”

"Master Yi, I don't know why I'm here now, and I don't know what led me here. For me, Fanyin City is more like the end of my last life. At this moment, it seems to have become the end of my next life, and all of this is the end. I can't imagine where the next life will be. ”

"I can't see the direction of life clearly, I'm a little lost, I don't know how to persevere. For this small hair, I don't know how many years of youth I have exhausted. In those countless moments, there were only hopes and disappointments, and the two were intertwined. They accompany me, in the ordinary life, only the ups and downs of the psychology can add a little color to life. ”

The more Zhou Xize talked, the more he couldn't stop, and the more he talked, the more sad he became, these are all things that really happened to him.

It's just that Zhou Xize has never mentioned it to outsiders, and he squeezes all these pains in his heart.

But as long as it is an individual, the backlog of bad things for a long time will reach the limit of psychological endurance.

After all, it is impossible for Zhou Xize not to tell anyone about these things, and really bring them all to the grave.

As long as you meet the right person at the right time, at the right time, and have the right topic.

Zhou Xize couldn't help it after all, he wanted to explain it clearly, and wanted others to know what pain he had experienced.

"After talking about it for so long, you probably don't know what I'm trying to say, it's hard to find the point. In fact, when you understand my inner monologue, you will feel very simple. I've been looking for someone for so many years, and I've always been convinced that I'm going to find him, and finally it became an obsession. This obsession is the reason why I live. ”

"I don't know where or when this idea came from. If you follow the words of you, Lord Ido, to put it mildly, if you open the fragments of my memory, you can find the time before. It must have been from the mountain, from the side of the immortal, it seems to have started at that time. I can't be sure for sure, except to say that it probably started at that time. ”

"I've been carrying this obsession for many years, and I've never changed a bit. It's like it's buried deep inside me, and even if I touch it, it won't change in the slightest. That's what I think is the problem, I don't want to be like this all the time, I don't want to live like this. I want to find the meaning of my life, and that shouldn't be wrong. ”

"But it's good now, it's gone, that's gone, there's nothing. I have to say that even if the bamboo basket is empty, I don't have a few moments to be as relaxed as now. I don't have to talk about it anymore, I don't have to hold on to my memories and don't let go, I'm like a person who lives freely again. No longer bound by obsessions, no longer influenced by other people. ”

"All these changes are in a place that is invisible to the naked eye. But now, I don't have the same impulsiveness and madness as before, and I won't follow my small footprints anymore. I believe that one day, if fate comes, he and I will definitely meet again, without the help of external forces. That encounter must be very natural and real. ”

"So now, I think that at your age, this identity, and this experience. I don't know exactly what happened to you, but I don't think even if you say it, it won't do you any good. This is, after all, my own private matter, to say it or not to say it, although only in a thought. But I still hope that you don't get too involved and want to snoop. ”

"After saying such a long sentence, I don't know what I said. Hahaha, Master Yitang, please forgive me. Today's words are purely the feelings of an idle person, so don't take them to heart. I've been holding back too long, so I'll talk to you. But I'm still the same sentence, my small name, it's really not that important, you don't have to think about it anymore. ”

"Even if I tell you at the end, I'm sure it won't really have any good impact on your life. Curiosity often kills cats, and if you want to know too many secrets about others, you can be dangerous to others. All this, it is better not to know. It's nice to live a simpler, but I'm not going to tell you about it today. ”

"By the way, Hall Master Yi, you just said it for so long, don't you want to ask me a second question? Okay, now I've said all I have to say. The right to speak is handed back to you, no matter what you ask, I will answer what I can answer. Thank you for not interrupting me at all during the long time I was talking. It's so much more comfortable to say it. ”

In the end, Zhou Xize finally breathed a sigh of relief, this kind of relaxation is really a whole-body relaxation.

changed his secret, changed his name, changed his way, and found someone who didn't know much about each other to tell it.

Zhou Xize never thought that he would say so many irrelevant words in front of an outsider.

I've been depressed for too long, and I've forgotten how to get along with people and how to keep a distance between ordinary friends.