181 Am I really wrong?
It was Xue Jiaying who dragged me to the front, and we didn't have a car with Jiang Feiyi and them.
Xue Jiaying drove closely behind, it was the first time I saw Jiang Feiyi's car driving so fast.
When I arrived at the hospital, I suddenly didn't dare to go in, the hospital is not a good place, my grandmother walked from here, and my child disappeared from here.
"Fu Yao?"
Xue Jiaying pulled me, obviously letting me go in.
But I looked up at the doorway, and my steps seemed to have taken root: "I, I'm not going in."
"What do you think about at this time, let me in!"
I forgot that Xue Jiaying was tough, and I had no way to resist.
I was directly dragged into the hospital by him, Jiang Jingying entered the emergency room, Lin Zhaofeng sat on the chair outside and waited, glanced at me, but didn't come up and chatter like before.
Jiang Feiyi was standing on the side, the whole person was cold, and Xue Jiaying walked up to hold his hand.
I stood in the midst of them, and it was the first time I had suffered so much.
I didn't expect it to be like this, I just didn't want to enter the genealogy of the Jiang family, I just didn't want to fulfill Jiang Haosheng's wish.
It's really strange in this world, it seems that all the things in a person's life after death should be forgiven, but no one has ever thought that those who are alive can forget the harm he has done.
Everyone said that I was willful, but who would have thought that if Jiang Haosheng hadn't concealed the fact that he was married, and Jiang Feiyi's mother hadn't killed my mother like that, my mother wouldn't have to be forced to return to such a dilapidated small village at all, crazy all day long, even her own daughter and biological mother didn't recognize her, and finally ended up committing suicide by throwing herself into the river when she was delirious.
I was born and grew up with the gossip of "the daughter of the junior", and I lived until I was admitted to college and walked out of that place, and no one asked me how I got through those eighteen years.
But now because I have the blood of the Jiang family in my body, I have to admit that I am a member of the Jiang family.
Is bloodline really that important?
If that's the case, then my mother, my grandmother, and I, can we just go through that way?
This is no longer a matter of the grievances of the previous generation, because these are real in my life, and they have carved traces that there is no way to forget.
I don't know how long it took, the door of the emergency room was finally pushed open, and the doctor came out of it, "The patient has passed the dangerous period, her blood pressure index is much higher, and she should pay attention in the future." ”
Lin Zhaofeng breathed a sigh of relief, but at this time, Jiang Feiyi suddenly walked towards me, "Come out with me." ”
He didn't call me, but I knew he was saying it to me.
When he said this, he didn't have half of the emotion, and his eyes didn't stop at me.
I know, I really annoyed Jiang Feiyi.
"Fu Yao, your brother asked you to go out."
It was Xue Jiaying, I glanced sideways at her, but I didn't dare to go out at all.
I think Jiang Feiyi might want to kill me.
She nudged me, "Quick, go out and see him."
Lin Zhaofeng also looked at me, although he didn't say anything, but I knew that he was blaming me, if I hadn't just said run away like this, Jiang Jingying wouldn't have gone to the hospital.
I pursed my lips and finally walked out.
It was so cold outside at night that people shivered, and Jiang Feiyi stood in the snow, holding a cigarette in his hand.
I have known Jiang Feiyi for so long, and in my memory, he basically doesn't smoke, and occasionally he has met once or twice.
Now seeing him smoking, I don't know how to describe how I feel now, it's messy and annoying.
I don't know if I'm doing something wrong, but I can't figure out what I'm doing wrong.
My grandmother and my mother are gone, and I am the only one in the world who remembers the abuse and spurning they received.
"Satisfied?"
He took a drag on his cigarette and looked at me frowning tightly.
I watched as his face froze, and the hand at his side kept tightening: "You shouldn't have forced me back in the first place."
Jiang Feiyi's face suddenly stiffened, and after half a ring, he directly threw away the cigarette in his hand: "Whatever you want, if you don't want to attend, forget it, I won't cancel the dinner on the 14th, and I won't continue to hide the fact that the Jiang family has a daughter."
As he spoke, he paused, and his gaze fell on me: "As for you, if you are so unwilling, then you will continue to be your Fu Yao."
After he finished speaking, he didn't say anything more, turned around and walked back into the hospital.
I looked at his back in a daze, and I didn't know where the grievances came from, I just felt that my eyes were hot and painful, and my throat was so tight that it was as if someone had cut me with a knife.
"Why do you want me to forgive you so calmly, everything I have endured for so many years is given by your Jiang family, Jiang Feiyi, the whole world can accuse me, but you can't! If it weren't for your mother forcing my mother to be like that in the performance hall, my mother wouldn't have been delirious and would not have committed suicide! ”
"I never thought of asking your Jiang family for a penny, and my mother didn't think about it either, but why do you think that I will be rare to you!"
"I want my mom to stay with me until now, can you give it back to me?"
"Fu Yao—"
"Don't talk about Fu Yao, your brother doesn't mean that, Fu Yao."
Xue Jiaying ran over and hugged me, she wouldn't let me say, but I didn't want to bear it at all: "What did my mother do wrong?" My mother just didn't have the eyes to see people and was deceived by Jiang Haosheng! It's your mother who is wrong, Mrs. Jiang made a big fuss on the stage, the whole city knows it, and the whole of China knows it! Jiang Haosheng ruined my mother, and your mother ruined my mother's dream! ”
"Your Jiang family ruined one person, no, ruined three people, but now you are still standing here so comfortably accusing me, why, Jiang Feiyi, tell me why!"
"No, just because I'm your brother!"
He suddenly looked back at me, his face that had never had mood swings was tightly wrinkled, he looked very hideous, and his words were out of proportion as usual, and they also made me lose their sense of proportion.
Standing there, staring at him in amazement, not believing that the words would come out of his mouth.
He relieved his breath for a while, the expression on his face had become habitual, and he looked at me and said word by word: "Fu Yao, if you are not my sister, you don't know how many times you have died."
"Jiang Feiyi!"
Xue Jiaying let go of me and stopped Jiang Feiyi from leaving.
I froze there, watching the two of them drift away.
"Sister Yao."
It was Lin Zhaofeng, he reached out and touched me, a man of more than one meter and eight meters, looking at me cautiously.
I looked up at him blankly, "Lin Zhaofeng, am I, really wrong?" ”
He looked at me and reached out to wipe the tears from my face: "My mom woke up and wanted to see you."
I was stunned: "I-"
I don't know how to face Jiang Jingying, and I don't understand, I hate the Jiang family, but the degree of hatred is a level.
For example, Lin Zhaofeng, I consoled myself that he was not the real Jiang family, so it didn't matter; For example, Jiang Jingying, she is already married, I hate her, and I don't hate her very much; And all the bad emotions have been transferred to Jiang Feiyi.
Jiang Jingying: Because I entered the hospital today, I don't know how to face her at all.
But Lin Zhaofeng had already pulled me step by step to the ward, the door was open, he raised his hand to help me push it open, and then pushed me behind him: "Go in."
I looked back at him, but Lin Zhaofeng had already closed the door.
"Yaoyao."
Jiang Jingying is calling me, from the first time we met, she called me Yaoyao, nickname, so kind that it was uncomfortable.
I raised my hand to wipe the corner of my eye before I raised my leg and walked over: "You, are you okay?"
"Why are you crying? Did Feiyi hit you? ”
She took my hand and didn't scold me.
I shook my head, feeling that my eyes were getting shallower, and I couldn't hold back a little tears.
"I'm fine, I'm getting older, my blood pressure is a little out of control. Don't listen to your brother, he's a dead duck with a hard mouth, and if you really run out, he'll have to go out in the middle of the night to get you back. ”
I kept my head down, not daring to look at her.
Probably seeing that I didn't speak, she patted my hand: "Don't worry, if you don't want to, I'll tell Feiyi, it's okay, these names are all false anyway."
"Okay, let's talk a lot, go back and rest, it's not too early, I'm fine, I'll be discharged from the hospital tomorrow after a check-up."
I don't know how I got out of the ward, Lin Zhaofeng stood at the door and didn't leave, he was stunned for a moment when he saw me, probably the tears on my face scared him.
He's always been hippie and smiling, but he didn't smile much tonight, and I wasn't used to looking at me with a solemn expression.
"My mother won't let us keep vigil, she's fine, go back, Sister Yao."
As he spoke, he handed me a tissue.
I took the tissue and nodded, wiping my face: "Let's go back."
No one expected that something like this would happen tonight, and I didn't expect that there would be such a quarrel between me and Jiang Feiyi.
It's not what I imagined, it's not happy.
"Sister Yao, do you hate your uncle very much?"
I didn't speak, my attitude towards Jiang Feiyi can be seen by anyone.
"I know you hate your uncle, but your uncle doesn't hate you at all, when he told me that you were my aunt, I still remember his expression, the corners of his mouth slightly hooked smile, and his eyebrows and eyes are like a spring breeze. You know, my uncle doesn't laugh much, but he told me that he finally found you, he has been looking for you for more than ten years, and he had a quarrel like this with his aunt because Ye Zhiqiu was like you. ”
I don't even know where Lin Zhaofeng, a science man, came from so many adjectives, and what spring breeze is blowing, and the emotions are so exaggerated that people can't ignore them.
I didn't speak, I raised my hand to cover my face and let the tears fall.