If Tasha hadn't told me about her past, I wouldn't have remembered such a beautiful woman and such an unbearable past. This may also be a human weakness, if a person makes us look up, and suddenly one day you know that the person you look up to is also unsatisfactory in this way and that, does your heart have some balance? Even if you know it's not good, can you stop yourself from thinking about it?

"Dunzi, when you come back this time, I found that you are a little different from before. You used to be like a little kid, but when you come back this time, I feel like you've grown up a little. Originally, I thought you changed after you had a girlfriend, but you also said that you were not with your girlfriend. I didn't feel happy when I came back this time, you are not the same as before. Tasha said as she searched for a cigarette.

"Aunt Tasha, smoking is bad for your heart." I advised Tasha not to smoke.

"I know it's bad, but I still want to smoke!" Tasha looked at me with a smile that I couldn't refuse.

I brought her a cigarette, and Tasha lit it, took a puff, and handed it to me.

"I'll come by myself, I'll come by myself." As I spoke, I took out a cigarette and lit it for myself.

"There are some things that we know are bad, but we can't help but do them. Dunzi, you've listened to me so much, and I want to hear about you, too! We can't sleep any of us now! Tasha withdrew her hand that was hanging in mid-air with a cigarette.

"I, I really have something, but, I don't know if I can say it. I mean, there are some things I can't say, but I feel a little uncomfortable in my heart. ”

In fact, I also want to find someone to talk to, children who don't have parents by their side, of course, have to bear things by themselves. Without the guidance of parents, it is possible to make a person independent quickly. However, I always feel a little unbearable when I don't have someone to share with you.

"Well, if you think it's your privacy, I don't ask you." Tasha smoked a cigarette and gracefully exhaled a smoke ring.

"No, I can't say anything!" I was a little competitive, "I'm just afraid that if I say it, you'll think I'm ,,,."

"Haha, you're just a kid in my eyes, what can I think of you!" Tasha's smile was tinged with a hint of sarcasm.

"Okay, I also want to find someone to talk about what is in my heart, but I said don't laugh at me, you have to tell me if there is something wrong." I made up my mind and decided to voice some of my doubts.

"Don't think so much about it, I'm not qualified to judge others. Don't expect too much from me. Tasha didn't laugh this time, she said it seriously.

"yes, I see. I'll start with that, the Guo Degui who once violated you! ”

"What? You know him, do you have any going? "When Tasha saw that I talked about Guo Degui, she immediately came to her senses.

"I don't have anything to do with Guo Degui, it's just that I have some ,,, with his girlfriend at the time, who is now Aunt Zhang

My Aunt Zhang's name is Shi Xiucui, and the first time I saw her was when I was in elementary school, when I ,,,, "I told me about Shi Xiucui, and I don't know if Tasha understands it."

"Dunzi, that woman is very immoral, she deceived you." Tasha calmed down and said.

"But I don't think she cheated on me! At that time, she also had her own difficulties. ”

"You were a child, but she was already a mother of a child, she was an adult. Dunzi, she deceived you. Even if you don't admit it, she cheated you out of that money. Tasha said with some anger.

"Aunt Tasha, don't you think I did something wrong? I mean, I shouldn't be with Shi Xiucui! Now it's a little difficult for me to face my Uncle Zhang. ”

"Dunzi, those things are not your fault, that woman took advantage of you." Tasha said categorically.

"I don't know what's wrong, as soon as I went to Uncle Zhang's house, I felt a little unnatural when I saw Aunt Zhang as a child."

"I can't say anything about this. I still think that woman cheated on you. Tasha looked angry, "Dunzi, people like that don't deserve it." Your girlfriend, I mean, what happened to the girl you chased? You give me the impression that you like her very much, why do you suddenly stop pursuing others? ”

"Alas! Why don't I chase it? Now I'm not qualified to chase her! I couldn't help but light another cigarette.

"Not qualified? Or did you give up on your own initiative? Don't be like my old skating buddies! Maybe that girl is waiting for you, but you gave up on others, don't tell those unqualified lies. Tasha seemed to think of the handsome Soviet guy who didn't have the guts to chase her.

"I have to start from the beginning, wasn't I abducted when I was a child! Later, it was the one named Zhang Weihong, the one I now call Uncle Zhang, who rescued me. The Shi Xiucui I just talked about is his current wife, and they gave birth to another son, whose name is Zhang Facai.

The topic is a bit far, at that time, I had a senior brother, Gu Changfeng, he is now the abbot of the provincial capital Xuanqing Palace, the Xuanqing Palace we once went to. My other senior sister Gu Wenxiu is also in Xuanqing Palace, and my senior sister has an apprentice named Fan, who is my current girlfriend, in fact, we are already together. ........................ "It took me a long time to tell Tasha about me and the mortal.

"Dunzi, do you plan to marry that girl named Fan in the future?" Tasha asked, after listening to what I said.

"Of course I have to get married to someone, didn't I say it all, we're all together, we've been together for many days." As I spoke, I blushed in front of Tasha.

"You know. I used to be with that little Uncle Guo of yours, and I didn't think about marrying him. Even if he proposed to me, I wouldn't say yes. Because I know that the relationship between us is not the kind of relationship that we want to get married, can you understand this? ”

"Why don't you marry Uncle Guo! Aren't you my Aunt Guo in that case? "I really hope that Tasha will marry Guo Deguang!

"When we were together, I knew he had a girlfriend, and we weren't together for the purpose of getting married." Tasha's words confused me even more.

"Dunzi, what I want to tell you is that sex and love are not the same. It's not that if you're with someone else, you have to marry that person.

You're with this girlfriend of yours, I think you have more pity for her! I'm not saying it's okay, I just think you're a pretty good person.

However, I don't think mercy is love. Who you marry in the future is your personal matter, probably in China, you have to take into account the opinion of your parents, which is better in our Soviet Union, and the opinions of your parents can also not be listened to.

I want to say that I feel sorry for the girl you like! It's all your fault, and you make me look down on this matter! Tasha said it bluntly.

"I, I'm like this, how can I pursue people anymore!" I bowed my head in shame at Tasha's words.

"It's your fault, you're not a brave man, it's your fault!" Tasha said with excitement.

"Don't, don't get excited. Aunt Tasha, your legs, watch your legs. "I saw Tasha on the bed waving her arms as she spoke, worried that she would hurt herself again.

"You ugly boy, I don't approve of what you're doing. You know, sex doesn't mean everything, and it's not an excuse for you to marry that poor child. Not only will you be unfairly affected by doing this, but it will also be unfair to that child! And you also hurt the girl who likes you more! "Tasha didn't calm down because of what I said.

"I see, Aunt Tasha! But now it's like this, what do you want me to do! "I was embarrassed by Tasha's words.

"It's your own business to do it, I'm just telling you not to lie to others, what you like is not that fan, you know this very well in your own heart. Since you don't love others, don't continue to hurt her. "Tasha didn't mean to comfort me.

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As he spoke, it was already dawn outside. The night passed without even noticing. After that, Tasha and I didn't speak, and we just smoked the cigarettes in our hands in silence.

"You ugly boy, you're me off! I'm hungry and I want to have breakfast! ”

Tasha looked at me with her head hanging and didn't speak, and reminded me that I was hungry. I guess this is also a means for her to relieve my embarrassment!

I went out and microwaved the things I packed yesterday in turn. By the time Tasha came out of the house on crutches, I had already taken care of everything.

"Aunt Tasha, why did you come out on your own! Don't hurt your legs again. ”

"Wasn't I alone when you weren't here?

The noodle soup you made me yesterday was delicious, the best meal I've ever had in China. It's also the best meal besides the food my mother cooked for me.

"What's the best, it's just that I'm afraid that you won't be able to digest it with stomach pain, so I made a bowl of noodle soup with the packed dumpling skin." As I spoke, I pointed to the dumplings that I had peeled.

"Anyway, I enjoyed yesterday's noodle soup. It's a pity that there is no wine for such a good dish today! Tasha ate unceremoniously.

"Tasha! Have you drunk too much again, where did you get the wine! Look at the smell of smoke in this room. How many cigarettes do you have to smoke! ”

With the voice, Qin Xiangyun opened the door from the outside and came in, she was holding a lunch box in her hand, which should be a meal prepared for Tasha.

"Qin! He drank the wine and smoked the cigarettes. Tasha shouted at Qin Xiangyun without raising her head.

"Aunt Qin, it's me, not Aunt Tasha!" I stood up and took the lunch box in Qin Xiangyun's hand.

The two women looked at me and laughed in unison.