February 27, 2020 01:43 AM

Tanta, Western Province, Egypt

I returned to the small town after a long absence, and walked and walked for some reason in front of the building where I had started a business, pushed open the door and entered, and it was crowded with people. There was a person in a small partition in a corner who was particularly attracted to me, from the time I entered the door to look around, he had not put down the phone in his hand for so long, and deliberately approached to listen, it turned out that he was the boss here, because there was a special shortage of employees, he called around to ask people to help him find better employees. Glancing sideways at a piece of paper on his desk, it was a leaflet for a training institution, and the name on it was "Ningnan Education", I suddenly realized, it turned out that this building has been continuing to open a training institution since I left, and the person in front of me is the boss of this training institution, and the name of this training institution is also the name of my institution before.

I don't know why there was a little heaviness in my heart, I raised my head and squeezed over to another group of people in the room, listening to what they were saying, "It's too difficult to be named in the Ningnan Education Newspaper", "This institution is very full of people, and they don't accept students anymore", "But I just want my children to study in this institution", "The quality of education in this institution is incomparable to other opportunities", "I want to ask someone to go through the back door and report my children to this institution"............

After hearing this, I suddenly felt stunned, so many years have passed, the boss here rented this building after I left to continue my agency name, did my old job, and even the decoration inside is exactly the same without moving, the only thing that has changed is that there are more people here than before, and the business is much better than before. Yes, this training institution used to be done by me and Bing, but at that time, no matter what we did, it was just not as good as others. I remember that at that time, Bing and I advocated a humane treatment of all, for those who have no parents and poor families to give free or even re-subsidized policies, our philosophy is to focus on the main psychological communication between the parents and children, so as to cultivate children's interest in learning and parental relationship, not to instill cultural knowledge in children, because at that time we knew very well that most of the children in the training class had a weak foundation, and instilling knowledge would only make children backfire. After working in the same training institution for several years, the two of us have maintained a dime a dime for three years, although the price of the same course is many times higher than ours, but for some reason, the methods of our peers are higher than ours, and the number of students they have is far more than ours. At that time, when Bing and I watched a few colleagues set up dozens of small classes, and when there were forty or fifty people in a small class, we were very suspicious of what we had done wrong, or what was wrong with our starting point? Our dream was to open a training class in this small town that could be attended by ordinary families and even poor families, but in the end we went out of business, and we began to doubt our dreams.

And now this place has been taken over by others after being run vividly, I still feel a little more sad, sighing "Hey, our dream was finally taken by others to come true", and then turned around and walked out of the door of this training institution, as soon as I went out, I found a familiar figure standing behind the big tree in the distance, and took a closer look and was pleasantly surprised to find that it was a soldier, he seemed to be arguing with a middle-aged woman about something, so I quietly approached them, leaning on the side of the tree and secretly listening to their conversation:

"If you ask you to leave my daughter if you do training again, I will never marry my daughter to you, and you two are ready to get out of the marriage":

"Mom, I like Kiki, it's true that the two of us have been together for so many years, and the training institution is my dream, I will definitely do it well again, and I will definitely give Kiki happiness":

"Are you safe and stable now that you have taken the civil service exam? If you have to toss a training institution again, won't your previous failures make you remember it for a long time? Anyway, I firmly disagree, unless you and Kiki don't get married, you two are completely cut off, you can do whatever you want":

At this time, the soldier lowered his head and said nothing, it turned out that he was admitted to the civil service after we went out of business, and every day when he went to the unit from home, he would pass by the training institution we did together, he watched day after day that our own organization was done by others, he was a little unwilling, so he wanted to quit his job and start over and start over in the training institution, and get back what he had lost and what he wanted. But the problem is that now he is preparing to marry his girlfriend who has grown up since he was a child, and when he has the idea of opening a training institution, he is opposed by the whole family.

I don't know why I was very supportive of the soldier coming again, and hearing him do it all over again seemed to me to feel much more comfortable and down-to-earth. I wanted to go up and help him convince his family, but I found that I couldn't take a step at all, yes, I didn't have the face to face the soldiers again, and I didn't have the right to appear in front of him again. Frustrated by his incompetence, but still trying to help him, he hurriedly got into the car and drove in the direction of his house......

Bing's family lives on a slightly undulating prairie with a particularly clean asphalt road. At a glance, there is a green grass pot in the middle of the asphalt road, which is very patterned, the grass is unusually green and bright, and the soldier's family lives less than a kilometer away from the asphalt road, where only their family lives. I drove along the asphalt road for about 15 minutes, then turned around at a small intersection and walked for five minutes to the door of the soldier's house. Yes, I want to do work privately for the soldier's family, so that they can support and allow the soldier to do it again.

Almost half an hour later, Bing's family returned, and as I had hoped and expected, Bing did not come back with his family. After watching Bing's family enter the house, I got out of the car and walked in. After entering the house, the soldier's mother-in-law was lying on a rocking chair, and when she saw me coming in, she glanced sideways at me and rolled her eyes, then turned her head and said to me, "Go and turn on the TV for me, I want to watch the news", I walked over to help her turn on the TV, she stared at the TV and said to me, "You go, I don't want to see you, no matter what you do today, I can't tell you, it's not good or bad, our family doesn't want to have anything to do with you, please leave". Bing's mother-in-law didn't speak loudly, but every word she said was enough to stab me like a knife and shut me up so that I couldn't lift my head again.

I felt that my steps were very heavy, and my heart was full of guilt. I tried to lift my feet and leave the soldier's house, but for some reason, I couldn't lift it......

Suddenly, my eyes went dark, and my heart was very heavy, it turned out that it was a dream......

This dream is very real, my training institution and the soldier have closed down, we do have the same kind concept as before, but we do lose and are not as good as others. Later, the main reason was that the training institution went bankrupt, I think the soldier is still disappointed and complaining about me, I really don't have the face and no courage to face him again, just a few days ago he posted a circle of friends to say that he was going to get married, and wanted to ask, but in the end I still didn't have the courage to send him a message. Maybe I had a weak heart, if I could have persevered, if I hadn't been negligent at that time, if I had been brave at that time, if I hadn't been careless at that time, if I hadn't been so selfish at that time. Maybe now I'll succeed with Binghui, and we'll still be very good buddies with all the talk. But I really regret that I can't go back.

I know that until now, I owe an apology to dreams and an apology to soldiers. It was I who betrayed all this.

I'm sorry......

It's going to be another long, sleepless night......