I didn't look back, just paused slightly, and then quickly, I reached out and unscrewed the doorknob, and walked out with my legs up.

When I was leaving, I closed the door by the way, and there was a loud sound behind me, it was the sound of Han Mo throwing things.

I couldn't see his expression anymore, but I knew he must be in a state of rage. But even if it's a rage, I'm not in the mood to turn back.

The moment I walked out of the hotel, I finally couldn't help it, tears fell, the cold winter wind blew, scraping away my tears, but because of the tears, scraped on my face, like ice blades.

I raised my hand to wipe my tears, trying to wipe them away, but I found that I couldn't control them at all, like beads with broken threads, falling one by one, and I couldn't catch them.

There were people on the street corners, but none of them knew what I had been through last night.

I finally couldn't help myself, bent down to hold myself tightly, and buried my head in my knees.

No one can see my face, no one knows who I am.

The cold wind kept blowing, but I knew that I was the only one who could hold myself for warmth.

The honking of the car kept coming, and I didn't know how long it was, but I knew that the tears never flowed again, so I got up and stood up.

But my legs, which had been standing for a long time, stood up so suddenly, as if someone had suddenly knocked on my knee, and as soon as I became weak, I fell down directly.

One of the girls reached out and helped me, and she looked at me with some sympathy in her eyes, and cautiously asked me what was wrong.

I smiled and shook my head to say I was fine.

The girl looked at my face and opened her mouth, obviously hesitant.

I knew my own face must be embarrassed now, but the girl was kind enough to ignore it and smiled at me: "Okay, pay attention to your body, don't fall again." ”

I nodded and turned to leave.

A stranger can still have enough respect and sympathy for me.

I don't know whether I should laugh or cry, because it at least proves that the world is not as horrible and cold as I thought, despite what I experienced last night.

It was probably time to go to work, and I looked at the pedestrians coming and going on the road, but none of them I knew.

I didn't eat breakfast, I was tossed by Han Mo for so long last night, and my whole stomach was already empty.

After looking around, I finally chose a fast food restaurant with fewer people.

But not long after I sat down, two women came in and asked me if there was anyone in front of my desk, I shook my head, and they just sat down.

There was talk and laughter, but I was the only one sitting there.

I didn't mean to eavesdrop on them, but they were right in front of me, and they were talking so loudly that I could hear them clearly as I sat there.

"My aunt hasn't come this month, I'm dying!"

"Have you tested it, you can't be so accidentally shot, right?"

I thought of myself, and I stiffened, and I couldn't even bother to eat takeout, so I rushed out to find a pharmacy.

But after I walked a few steps, I didn't dare to continue walking, and I knew Zhao Miao and Zhao Miao very well in the area around here. The two of them usually have a headache and fever, they all go to the pharmacy to catch medicine and eat, and the proprietress of the pharmacy already knows me and Zhao Miao.

I don't want to tell Zhao Miao about this, it's good that I'm uncomfortable alone, so why make things so big, I have to make Zhao Miao uncomfortable with me.

I calmed down a little bit and finally decided to take the bus to a farther place to buy medicine.

On the bus at noon, students from nearby schools went home for lunch, and some white-collar workers were also going home for lunch, which was crowded with people.

I didn't die last night, so why should I die today?

I haven't found a famous cigarette to settle this account, even if I want to die, I have to find a famous cigarette to settle this account first.

I don't know how long the bus has been running, but I saw a street in front of me and got off the bus directly.

The waiters in the pharmacy were all having lunch, and they were very cold when they saw me.

Usually Zhao Miao and I would walk into the pharmacy and they would come up to me enthusiastically and ask me what I needed. But at that time, we all had a goal, and we just ran over and got it ourselves.

But I didn't expect that when I really needed to be consulted, no one paid attention to me.

I don't want to get pregnant, and I'd rather lose face ten times than getting pregnant.

In the end, I finally stepped forward and asked a waiter, "I want to buy 24-hour contraceptives, which one is better?" ”

A waiter glanced at me, reluctantly put down the lunch box in his hand, got up and found me a box of medicine: "Sixteen yuan." ”

I didn't speak, I just gave the money.

Although I was not satisfied with this person's service attitude, I didn't want to embarrass myself.

There is a manual on it, so I don't have to bite the bullet and keep asking.

I just didn't expect to be able to meet Su Zheyuan when I went out.

He was obviously a little surprised when he saw me, and I subconsciously stuffed the pill into my pocket and hid it.

"Fu Yao?"

He was the one who called me first, and I wanted to pretend that I couldn't see anything and keep going, but he had already called me, so I could only say, "What a coincidence." ”

Probably because I cried more than an hour ago and haven't eaten yet, so my voice is hoarse now.

He glanced behind me, "What are you doing at the pharmacy?" Got a cold? ”

I stiffened, nodded, and didn't dare to talk too much: "Yes, I'll go back first." ”

Su Zheyuan and I don't have any possibilities, but this is the first boy I like, he is like the spring and snow, I can't be with him, but I also hope that I will always be a good Fu Yao in front of him, not an unbearable Fu Yao.

With that, I turned around and left.

I thought that I gave him a cold face again and again, and an arrogant person like Su Zheyuan would definitely get tired of and even hate me.

So I wouldn't have thought that he reached out and pulled me, and he was so strong that the box of contraceptives that I had taken in my hand and stuffed into my pocket fell out and fell straight at his feet.

I felt like the whole world was spinning, and I watched him stiffly as he bent down to pick up the box of contraceptives, and then watched it for a few seconds.

In the end, Su Zheyuan returned the box of contraceptive pills to me, "I'll send you back." ”

There was no expression on his face, as if what he had just picked up was not a box of birth control pills, just a box of simple cold medicine.

I stood there, my feet like they had been glued to the ground with something, and I couldn't move.

Su Zheyuan pulled me and moved: "I'll send you back." ”

I looked at him in a daze, and only then spoke, "No—"

He had completely ignored my opinion and pulled me straight into the car.

Unlike Han Mo, Su Zheyuan drove a lot more steadily, but when I sat there, it was unprecedentedly uncomfortable.

There's probably nothing worse in this world, something that bad happened to me last night, and now, I just want to buy a birth control pill, and something even worse happens.

The world is really not gentle with me at all, it seems that I will never fall, and everything is constantly pressing.

But I think I'm going crazy, I'm going to go crazy.

My eyes kept heating up, but as long as I thought of Su Zheyuan sitting beside me, I knew that I couldn't cry, I couldn't cry.

The hand holding the pill kept tightening, and the box was completely deformed in my hand.

I looked down and a tear fell directly on the back of my hand.

Su Zheyuan on the side didn't look at me, I quickly raised my hand to wipe away my tears, gritted my teeth and looked out the window.

The silence in the carriage was like a silent torture that tore at my heart.

When the car stopped, Su Zheyuan glanced sideways at me.

I don't think I'll ever forget the way he looked at me at this moment, desperate and heartbroken.

"Fu Yao."

He opened his mouth and called me, and the hoarse voice made me extremely uncomfortable.

I gasped slightly and answered him, "Hmm." ”

He didn't look at me, I followed his line of sight and realized that he had been looking at the birth control pill I was holding all the time.

My heart tightened, I only felt incomparably painful, raised my hand and pushed the car door open, not even daring to look at him: "I'll go first, thank you!" ”

I can't face him anymore, I think I'm going to really break down, I'm going to go crazy.

But he still grabbed me, and I turned around and crashed into his red eyes, and finally I couldn't hold back my tears.

"I beg you Su Zheyuan, don't ask me, okay?"

Don't ask me, give me the final bottom line; Don't ask me, give me the last dignity; Don't ask me, give me the last self-deception.

The hand on my arm loosened little by little, I lowered my head, tears kept falling on my arm, and I could only grit my teeth to keep myself from breaking.

"Fu Yao."

I just didn't expect him to hold me.

Such a warm embrace, he is at my fingertips, I just need to reach out, I can hold him, maybe as long as I stretch out my hand, everything I have always wanted but dare not get, I can get.

I looked up at him, tears blurred my vision, I raised my hand to wipe my eyes, his face clearly imprinted into my vision.

The pain that suddenly magnified on my face was like a pair of scissors, constantly cutting through my heart.

I still didn't raise my hand to hug him, and I knew that even if I did, it would never be possible for us.

I raised my hand and pushed him away, looking up at him: "Su Zheyuan, you let me go." ”

It was the first time I had made such a humble supplication in his presence.