When the last autumn wind on the earth becomes fierce, winter comes.

This is the coldest winter I've ever had, and except for my father, who came once or twice once or twice, only my fourth brother came to see me. I don't know if it's getting older or what, the fourth brother rarely yells at me anymore, and sometimes he brings me some delicious food, even Pei'er feels like he is a different person.

Since that night, I haven't seen Yujing again, it's not that he hasn't been to the mansion, it's just that every time I come to look for the fifth sister, I only know from other people's conversations that he has been here.

I always have to get used to it, I pat my face with cold water to cheer myself up. Taking advantage of the fact that everyone is lazy these days, I quietly took out two books and hid them in the corner to read.

Others think I'm an idiot, but I can't really make myself an idiot, if I just want to live, just live as I am, just go through the mess of my current life, but I don't want to, if one day the opportunity is put in front of my eyes, I still hope that I can have the ability to grasp it.

I pried out a piece of wood on the side of the corner, and dug a hole under it that was not big or small enough to hold four or five books, usually covered with a wooden board, and no one would pay attention, I only need to pay a little attention to the situation outside, and just listen to the movement and stuff it in, and others will naturally not ask me what I am doing, even if I ask, I will answer or not to answer depending on my mood, and no one will doubt.

But the hole I dug has never come in handy, and sometimes I wonder if someone has already found out, why every time I secretly read a book, no one ever finds out, and the calm is a little unpredictable.

It gets cold quickly, and the sleeves of the previous year's padded clothes are now a little shorter. The fifth sister's new clothes had already been made, but mine had to wait a few more days, so Pei'er sewed a warm sleeve on the sleeve, and I felt more comfortable than the original.

The streets became more and more lively, and Chen was afraid that I would cause trouble everywhere, so every time I went out, I had to ask her for instructions first, and the servants at the door would let me out only if I was allowed to do so.

It's just a grounding in disguise, I never take the initiative to talk to her, and even if I go, she won't let me out.

It's almost the New Year, and the public mansion, which has been cold for half a year, is gradually returning to its previous liveliness. My sisters sent a lot of things, and the second sister also prepared a separate one for me, half of which was winter clothes, and the inside was all made of animal fur, which was very thick, and half of it was a small gadget with exquisite workmanship, so that I could play for a while.

On Chinese New Year's Eve, my father set a Chinese New Year's Eve dinner as usual at the house we frequented, my grandmother was too old to go out, and my eldest brother still had official business in Yangzhou and could not return. In the past, there was a lively family, but now there are only the fourth brother, the fifth sister and my three children, of course, I can not be counted.

The father came, and after entering the table, he simply said a few words of concern and began to eat, Chen wanted the fourth brother and the fifth sister to say more, but the father was lazy and did not respond, and only the sound of dishes and chopsticks remained on the table.

The meal was only halfway through, someone came to the palace, summoned my father into the palace, and after my father left, the banquet ended hastily.

The servant who sent me was very young and young, and he had just entered the mansion, and he was either looking at the stalls on both sides along the way, or complaining that he was unlucky, and that he was doing such a chore.

This year's fireworks are still so beautiful, but I don't have the mood to chase the fireworks anymore, when I went to sleep, Peier stuffed a red purse under my pillow, embroidered with gold thread with the word "Fu", she said that it can bring me good luck, and the new year will be smooth every day, everything will be good.

After coaxing me to sleep, Pell took some money as a reward for the servants who served me, and when the vigil got permission, they sat down together and played cards, and the lights went off, and everyone laughed, and the long night seemed to be comforted.

After the year, when I went to the Buddhist temple to make a vow, Chen and the fifth sister went in first, and I walked around the courtyard a few times.

When I was a child, the corners of the puppet given to me by the beggar who lived in our house were a little worn, and while Chen and my fifth sister were chanting, I asked the little monk who was cleaning in the yard to help me repair it.

I know the little monks, and when I came with my father before, they played with me. The little monk was very skilled, not only repairing the damaged parts, but also sewing the clothes on the puppet again.

As we were leaving, Master Kong Hui came over, and after a few words to Chen, he turned around and asked me how I was doing. I didn't know how to answer, so I pretended to be ignorant and nodded, and the master turned the Buddha bead in his hand and smiled compassionately and said, "Everything has a way, like a dream bubble, like dew and electricity, and it should be viewed as such." ”

As he spoke, the little monk behind him sent a tray covered with yellow satin, and when he opened it, inside was a polished round and smooth Bodhi fruit hand.

Master Konghui is a monk who has attained the Tao, ordinary people can be blessed to be enlightened, but I can get the Bodhi handi, but it is not creation, it is the master's mercy on me.

Not everyone will have pity on me, at least not Chen.