But when I think about it, it's not quite right to always have no name, and I'm thinking about it.

Meng Yao said, "You can give it a name." ”

"Then it's called Shandan!"

"Why?" Meng Yao frowned.

"You really want to hear it?" His cold breath.

Meng Yao nodded.

"Let's make it clear, Shan, that is, the meaning of loneliness, the first thing you gave birth to was a girl, let her be lonely forever. I hope you are the second one, and you won't be a girl anymore, please! ”

"Mocking a name?" Meng Yao muttered quietly.

Fortunately, no one heard clearly.

Then she drank the porridge and was silent, her black eyelashes covering her eyelids, her teeth biting her lower lip gently, she was trying to restrain herself from being unable to control her mouth, and poured out all her heart. She is soft-spoken, and when she gives birth to a girl, she has no status at home, and she is alone here, and her mother's home is so far away, she has no support, she was secretly cleaned up to death, and there is no mess in the family, and it is very easy to shake the pot.

After all, far water can't quench the thirst of the near, no matter how stupid you are, the only one who suffers in the end is yourself.

thought that her mother-in-law could be a mother; I thought that if I found an old man, I could be a husband, a father or a brother. But...... His current situation is like autumn leaf duckweed, lonely and helpless.

But when you think about it, what about your own brother and parents?

It's not as my mother-in-law said.

The mother's family only had to sacrifice her to get enough money to favor her younger brother, dig out her mind for her brother's big things, and work hard on her to find gaps and endless calculations. But when I thought of my mother's begging and helpless eyes, I felt less hostile in my heart.

However, the mother is not full of love and selflessness in her heart, between her brother and her, she will always be a pawn to be sacrificed in the eyes of her mother.

Ay.

Who made his life miserable, who made himself a girl? She is a daughter and deserves to be unlucky, and it is even more unlucky to give birth to a baby girl. The mother did not hesitate to use her whole life as a bargaining chip to maximize the interests of the family.

It can be the other way around.

Loach introduced this family business, couldn't it be okay to look at it at the time?

Who knew what would happen later?

Hey, the marriage of a girl is actually a gamble. A game, who knows whether to win or lose in the end? Maybe there are good marriages, but I am blind to marry. Why did you marry blind? Most of them may be unsatisfactory, but to a different extent.

Whether Mengyao is awake or in a dream, whether it is drinking porridge or breastfeeding, after thinking about it, his heart is extremely impactful. But the silk windings in the world, as unfathomable as the silk holes, and the trivial twists and turns of idleness, how can she, a 19-year-old woman, be able to understand it?

Because he has a child, Erxi didn't go to work with Daxi this year, but just guarded his home.

In the blink of an eye, the spring of the next year has arrived, and the little swallows in the past have come to the outhouse of Erxi's house again, but they have never found the old nest. The old swallow had to work hard again to build the nest again, and this time, the nest was built under the eaves.

The weather is warm, and the farm work in the field is busy.

The old woman no longer went to the field, she ordered Meng Yao and Erxi to go to the fields to work together.

"The girls in our hometown don't go to farm work, they stay at home forever." Dream Haruka timidly resisted.

"Your mother's family, your mother's family, your mother's family at every turn, I see you are suffocating again, marry a chicken with a chicken, marry a dog with a dog, marry a flat shoulder and carry it away, you can go wherever you go! Erxi, take her away, she looks so big, like a donkey, it's too bad not to work! The old woman picked up the broom and shook it, and forced her to work in the fields.

As soon as she turned around, she saw the old woman angrily scolding, "Don't forget to take care of the children yourself, I'm old, I can't get this little nuisance." ”

An hour later, I came to the vegetable patch.

She carried her child to work in the fields, loosening the soil for the cucumber seedlings that had not yet climbed the vines, and chopping the seedlings near the roots with an artemisia knife...... Seeing the purslane plantain and lara seedlings, they also fell to the ground with the sound.

As soon as she went to work in the field for a month, she was tanned, her hair was long, and she had already been cut off by Erxi, and she was simply cut short to expose her ears.

This is the three heads created by the women of the village.

Not only does it look like a woman, but it doesn't delay work, it can be simple and trouble-free, and it is impossible to confuse people's hearts, because if you don't look carefully, you can't distinguish between men and women. Although on the night when his hair was cut, Meng Yao cried for a long time for no reason, but he was lonely and had nowhere to talk when he was in a bad mood.

Who cares, who cares about the mood of a woman from out of town?

In the end, there was no hair to cover it, and the peach blossoms on the ears and temples were already about the same color as the cheeks, and when the people in the village saw it, they didn't think that Mengyao had been beautiful in the past. I think she is a tall woman who often hunches over and carries a child on her back. I think that the old woman is very capable of rough work, and she is also very angry at home.

Because she couldn't move, she kicked her frightened and helpless eyes, and was humiliated and reprimanded by her husband in the fields. So even if I saw her before, I gradually forgot about her beauty, and let everything become a legend.

In the field, I heard the two of them arguing again.

Erxi scolded her: "You dead old girl, don't you look at Miao when you walk?" ”

scolded Mengyao in a hurry, and she occasionally resisted: "I'm 20 years old, I'm not old." You're old! ”

"You and then say one, you say another? Be careful to smash your mouth! Anyone who cheated me and raised a child, I will call her a dead old woman and a stinky yellow-faced woman, what's wrong? You have the ability to give birth to a son for me, as long as you give birth to a son, no matter how old or young you are, I will call you a little princess. I really have that ability, I kneel and call you ancestors. Cut! ”

Meng Yao listened and blinked helplessly.

Someday.

The mother-in-law came to the field with half big feet to check if she was lazy, and at a glance she saw Mengyao in a long skirt.

She straightened up, and didn't tie the drooping cucumber seedlings to the cucumber rack at all. Let the cucumber seedlings more than one meter long crawl on the soil under the soles of the feet, this will immediately grow cucumbers, will the cucumbers be messed up all over the ground?

And in the heat, standing under the corn stalks, shady and lazy.

Hehe.

actually pulled up the side of the skirt and tried to fan the wind to cool down, revealing half of his calf, but he didn't know it.

When the old woman saw it, she became a nameless fire.

Immediately jumped in front of Erxi, "You're useless, don't you see this broom star seducing wild men?" The goblin who specializes in green people, you don't have any other skills, you eat my house and drink my house, and you actually have the heart of a thief who steals people, it's really suffocating! Two joys! What else are you watching? Are you dead? Why don't you beat her to death! ”

Seeing this, Erxi was stunned for a few seconds.

It's true that Mengyao has been fanning there for a long time, and he does show his legs. He looked up again, and then looked at the fields around him, and hey, sure enough, he saw two peasants in the field, resting shirtless under a big willow tree. And his eyes are slippery, and he peeks here from time to time.

This convinced him even more that what he said was true, so he listened to his mother's words, and against the scorching sun, he stepped forward and overthrew her to the ground, and fell firmly on the ridge. Suddenly, several corn stalks were broken, and as they rolled back and forth, a large number of them fell.

Erxi didn't bother to ride her to fight, just kicked and kicked dozens of times until she was out of breath.

Mengyao was covered in mud, and her head was covered with fresh cornflowers, and she looked at the red hand that was kicked, and she breathed hot air on her lips, but there was no relief.

After Erxi kicked it, he also scolded, "Dare to green me, stinky bitch." ”

When the old woman saw that her son was really majestic, she turned her head and walked towards the village proudly.

Mengyao lay on the ground.

Turning his face, the rough clods of dirt hurt his cheeks, and in an instant, the clods of dirt became soft because of the wetting of tears. On a few corn seedlings, there are a few Lala seedlings wrapped in climbing, and next to the small leaves, there are pale pink flowers, like small trumpets. At the stamens, a few ants are constantly busy coming in and out.

She didn't get up right away.

Instead, he turned his face back to look at the sky, and the white clouds moved, changing shapes, drifting, not knowing where they were going. The sparrows and swallows that happened to pass by, and the ants on the flowers of Lala seedlings, made her realize the freedom and carefree of all things, and she was the only one......

She was eager to ask the little ants if they had a mother? Do you have a home? They have been out for a long time, do they miss it very much, do they miss their mother?

She really wanted to ask Lala Miao, you are so beautiful, do you have a husband? Will your husband treat you all year round?

The corners of her mouth trembled, and there were only tears in the helpless silence, and she took a few breaths, but she couldn't ask anything.

The summer breeze was cool, shaking the ears of corn, and the yellow and red flowers were scattered, dyed on the Lala seedling flowers, and covered with an ant, but the ants had long been used to it, and walked away in two squeezes, heading towards the goal, without caring at all...... If they are weak, they may not have time to scruple at all, after all, they don't have much time to survive in this world.

Kilometers away.

Under the willow tree at the head of the Zhang family's cemetery, the two unrelated resting men who were sitting had already left, because they didn't know what was going on here.

Maybe they didn't know there were people in the land.

After all, a few acres of land with cucumber racks planted in the ditch ridges, as high as corn stalks. Besides, they're all tired, who would be amorous and care about so many other people's gossip?

Seeing that the atmosphere was not right, there was a fight, and the child, who had long been hiding in the cucumber rack, climbed out and pulled the lying mother, "Babbling." No matter how he couldn't pull it up, he just cried and crawled to Erxi's feet, and continued to "babble, babble." ”

Looks like a pray.

As soon as she shook her legs in disgust, the child fell into the ditch with a grunt, so she tried to climb up again in "babbling".

Less than a month later.

Cucumber seedlings have been spread all over the shelves, the palm-sized cucumber leaves are green and green, and they have already trembled with the breeze with the meaning of life, and the flowering period is in a blink of an eye, and the wind butterflies are entangled, and the cucumber flowers are fragrant.

The ground is already covered with cucumbers, and they have to be picked carefully every day.

I often see her beating and scolding her on the ground, because he found the bottom of the seedlings, the small tender melon that Mengyao dropped when he picked it yesterday.

Unexpectedly, the small melon that was dropped quickly became a pound-heavy old cucumber seed overnight. If you eat old, the color is yellow, and you can't sell it, it's equivalent to waste. And also compete with other small melons for the nutrition of seedlings.

As long as Erxi finds an old cucumber, he will beat Mengyao once, and he seems to have become a full supervisor who doesn't pick a single cucumber.

Mengyao got up early and greedy for darkness, rode a dilapidated bicycle, hung two large baskets of cucumbers behind him, and went to the pickling factory in the market town.

Every time I hand over cucumbers, it is two or three hundred catties.

Because it involved handing over cucumbers, the child stopped following her for the time being. Every time he got home, Erxi had already finished his lunch break, smoked dry cigarettes, and spread his hands...... Meng Yao was about to hand over the bills and cash, and he couldn't get any worse.

And so on and so forth.

In the blink of an eye, it was May 1985, the season of pomegranate blossoms.

Dream Yao greeted the morning light, carried the sunset, day and night, running and working in the fields.

This is divided into a vegetable area, and the fields near the road must be planted with vegetables, so last year's Zhangjiafen field, this year, cucumber seedlings are crawling all over the shelves.

Still repeating last year's work, it is a big iron cage, it is still a big iron donkey, Mengyao swayed and carried them to the pickling factory every day, she gritted her teeth, and kicked forward against the poisonous sun.

One day, when I was returning home with an empty car, I suddenly vomited halfway through the road and vomited until I got home.