It was late, so Shao Beicheng and Rong Yu did not officially meet the stewards and grandmothers that night, Shao Beicheng exchanged a few words with everyone, and Rong Yu only took a look and went to the upper room to freshen up and go to bed.

Although this upper room is in the Zhuangzi, because the main family is coming, two days in advance, a subordinate person came first and settled down.

Therefore, after Rong Yu went to bed, he did not feel any discomfort.

But maybe it was in an unfamiliar environment, or maybe it was the first time in two lives that he slept in Zhuangzi, although the bedding was used to it, and the pillow was also a familiar person, Rong Yu couldn't sleep for a long time.

Shao Beicheng patiently caressed her back.

It took Rong Yu a long time to figure out the difference here.

Kyoto City is the most prosperous capital of the Great Zhou Dynasty and even the four seas, Yanyun City is also a famous city in the northwest, and there are few times when everything is silent at night, and there are always mixed with the sound of fighting, the sound of horses' hooves returning late, and the drunken words of drunkards......

It's the countryside and the nights are very quiet.

Rong Yu couldn't help but think of some things from the past.

When she was young, she had no heart and lungs, and she always slept very deeply, in the words of Xiao Shen's joke, "thunder can't wake up".

In her previous life, she experienced twists and turns when she grew up, everything went wrong, and the people close to her gradually separated, and gradually it was difficult to sleep, and she often had to get drunk to sleep in the middle of the night.

In those light sleeps, she had many bizarre dreams, and those dreams were not very good, and she often woke up from dreams with tears in the corners of her eyes, but she dreamed without a trace, and what kind of dreams she had in those years was now impossible to remember.

The only clear dream was that she knelt beside a young general full of remorse, who was born very pure, and the black gold armor on his body was also very imposing, but he was full of arrows, and his eyes were always closed, and his apology could not be heard.

He's dead.

In her previous life, she acted willfully, harmed others and hurt herself, and after careful calculation, she really owed many people, but the only person who was unjust and innocent to her but still hurt by her was him.

So this time, although she didn't do the ridiculous things in her previous life, and although she saved his life later, she always couldn't let go of the guilt she felt for him in her heart.

If you have done something bad, and it has been covered up by fate, and no one knows what you have done, then can you be at peace and as if nothing had happened?

Rong Yu felt that no.

Especially, after she knew that the Firefox cloak was given to her by him, the guilt in her heart deepened.

In her previous life, after King Duan gave Rong Ying a white fox cloak, she was envious and chattered for a winter, but she didn't know how much the people in Rongfu laughed at because of those chatters.

It's nothing more than laughing at her for not being self-aware and delusional......

This time, King Duan still gave Rong Ying the cloak, and she never said a word of inappropriate words in front of people, but just like other people in Rong Mansion, she praised the cloak a few words decently, and then praised a few words about King Duan's heart, the second sister's good fortune and so on.

At that time, she didn't know what her future path was in this life, she thought about becoming a monk, and she also thought about staying in Rongfu and helping her mother, but she never thought that she could have a wishful marriage.

In her previous life, she had a dream of wishful marriage for most of her life, and finally ended up desolate, which shows that it is unreliable to pin the second half of her life on wishful marriage.

Although the reason is clear......

However, when she was lonely on a cold night, she couldn't help but sigh in her heart.

She doesn't envy her second sister, but she just feels a little bit of a disparity in life......

She also comforted herself, although the second sister had the white fox cloak given by King Duan, but she also had the rarer and rarer firefox cloak given by the eldest sister.

This time, the eldest sister originally married into the Shao Mansion to celebrate the festival, and she never showed her admiration for the white fox cloak, so she thought that she would definitely not be able to receive the fire fox cloak in this life.

A cloak is not tight, and no matter how rare a cloak is, it can't compare to the heart of the person who gave her the cloak.

But in this life, she still received a firefox cloak.

On her birthday four years ago, Shao Beicheng solemnly held a brocade box and gave it to her, saying: "The Shao family owes Miss Rong, I asked Miss Rong what she could do to compensate for it, and Miss Rong said......"

"She said that her biological mother died young, her father was healthy, her stepmother was generous, and her brother was smart.

"There is only one third sister, who is ignorant and childlike, which really reassures her."

"She also said that after she left the cabinet, I am afraid that no one in the Rong Mansion will indulge that little girl, and that little girl will have to suffer some hardships, and she will not ask me to take care of that little girl for a lifetime, which will embarrass me, just ask me, if that little girl has any wishes, help her achieve one or two, and if she suffers any grievances in the future, help her come out......"

Rong Yu still remembers Shao Beicheng's deep voice at that time, like a huqin with excellent timbre, he said, "Yu'er, Miss Rong is good in everything, but she is too gentleman......

"She should ask me to take care of you for the rest of your life."

"When I was young, my grandfather taught me and my brothers that generals died in a hundred battles, and strong men returned to ...... in ten years"

"The Shao family has no sons who are greedy for life and afraid of death!"

"I'm not afraid of death, but I can't bear to let you ......"

"You've always had good eyes on me, if you can't be with me for the rest of your life......"

"That's it, don't talk about this, continue to talk about this cloak, one year Xiao Ge said you want a firefox cloak, I agreed with a swimmer to agree on one, and then a few years that the wandering merchant has no news, I never thought that this year suddenly sent this cloak, the road is a firefox skin is rare, he finally gathered enough skin."

In the end, he said contentedly, "I'm glad I didn't miss your birthday." ”

Rong Yu slowly opened the brocade box, and the fire fox cloak in the box was scorching, bright as fire.

She knew that in her previous life, it was also like this.

The young man who wore heavy filial piety and carried the burden of his family and country went to the northwest border alone, but the straw bag lady in the back house of the Hou Mansion who did not know the suffering of the world was hot with a fox fur cloak.

This time, at the age of nine, she once asked him, "Loyal and good yellow sand buries bones, and traitors are added to the rank of knight...... General, even if it is such a court and such a person, are you willing to sacrifice your life to protect it? ”

What was his state of mind at that time?

In his last life, the bones of his father and brother by the Koharu River are still there, and when he was alone in the city, he learned that the noblewoman in Kyoto City was only thinking about a piece of clothing, what was his state of mind?

But for two lifetimes, he didn't say anything, didn't accuse, didn't get discouraged, just silently guarded the side.

even, spent a lot of money to order a cloak for the ignorant little girl......

In her previous life, the cloak was delivered to the little girl many years later, and it became the last beautiful thought in her dead life......

Rong Yu, who had insomnia, was lying in the quiet countryside, not knowing how she thought of it, but thinking about it, she felt that her heart was about to break.

She suddenly became more serious.

He said she had always been kind to him.

Was it because she was stunned when she first saw him? Or her words of unclear meaning several times?

In short, it has been a long time since he had such a misunderstanding.

However, she didn't have a blue eye for him out of her own right......

She's just, self-deed...... Shame on him......

Very, ashamed of him.

If she continues to be so vague, she will only feel more and more ashamed of him......

Thinking of this, Rong Yu turned his heart sideways, hugged Shao Beicheng tightly and said, "Husband, ......"

"Northside ......"

"Actually, I didn't have a ...... for you since I came to you."

"I'm not as good as you think, I can't afford your love, and I can't afford to be taken care of by my grandmother."

Tears fell silently, and Rong Yu said the confession buried in his heart: "Beicheng, I'm sorry for you. ”