Chapter 8: What is a Crush? A crush is something that is hidden in the heart
Beautiful melodies are always unforgettable, and melodious singing voices always echo in the ears.
"Walking Through the Coffee House" is the most memorable melody of these depressing years, and it is a song of youth.
The college entrance examination is getting closer and closer, and the college entrance examination information filling is also in progress.
Li Xiao got the information sheet sent and felt uneasy.
While filling in the information, the students did not forget to take pictures. One day during class, classmate Liu came over to ask Li Xiao if he had a personal photo, and Li Xiao shook his head embarrassedly. Liu and another classmate surnamed Yi in the class took turns to sit in the top one or two in the village. It is said that the school wanted to send him to Zhejiang University, but he refused, hearing that his target was Tsinghua University. Li Xiao didn't expect Liu to pay attention to herself, and her heart moved. Being noticed by such an excellent classmate, it must be fake if you are not impressed, and you still can't relax in your studies.
My uncle called again to ask if he would go back to take the college entrance examination. Li Xiao felt that she should stay in Qingsong County No. 2 Middle School, after all, she had worked hard here for a year, hoping to be admitted to university here.
The college entrance examination is approaching, and the weather is gradually getting hotter.
One day after dinner, Jiang Xiao said to Li Xiao, "Let's go out for a walk."
"Hmm."
Exit the school gate and turn onto the road on the right. The road went ahead and led to a pond. When Li Xiao is in a bad mood, he often runs over alone or with Jiang Xiao. Pick up rocks by the pond and float in the water. Playing water rafting also requires skill, and when it is done well, the stone can float on the water five or six times and then fall into the water. But today, Li Xiao hit several times, but he floated two or three times and sank into the water. Jiang Xiao's situation is similar. Usually, Jiang Xiaoke is better than Li Xiao, and it is okay to drift seven or eight times.
"What's wrong with you today?" Li Xiao saw that Jiang Xiao was not in the situation and asked.
"I'm in a bad mood." Jiang Xiaoxiao said wryly.
"Who you off again?"
"Hey, why is it so hard to like someone?"
"Hey, it's almost time to take the college entrance examination, why are you still thinking about it, how are the results of this monthly exam?"
"It's always the same, you can't break through, and your grades can't go up."
"Me too. It feels like it's hard to take a step forward. Those fresh graduates with good grades are easy to do, why do I feel so difficult? ”
"At a critical point, you have to use some brute force to break through."
"Brute force, you think it's a fight, whoever has the most strength will win."
"That's pretty much the same thing."
"Tell me, what's going on today." Li Xiao remembered that Jiang Xiaoxiao had already gone to the classroom to review at this time, so how could he have the leisure to talk nonsense with her here.
"Why is it so difficult to like someone," Jiang Xiao said again.
"Old question?"
"Hmm."
"The last time I wrote to him, he didn't reply. Then every time I went to see him, he avoided him. ”
"You're just having a crush on him. What a crush is, it is hidden in the heart, and there is no need to let the other party know that you can be the ladder of progress. Duan Bin is currently very good in your opinion, and when you are admitted to college, there will be a lot of excellent boys, so why trap yourself now. ”
"But I just can't control myself. I don't think it's right, I don't think it's forgivable, but when people are impulsive, everything is over, you know? The only thought I have now is that I'm done, I'm doomed, I'm dead. Jiang Xiao said a little broken.
"You're crying in pain, does he know? You're sad and sad, does he understand? He didn't know he didn't understand. Got it? It's okay to like someone, but the heart has to be given to someone who also likes you. This kind of love is worth it and meaningful. ”
"You don't know, the reason why I have made so much progress this semester is because I take "him" as my life goal to pursue, so I have exceeded my level and made rapid progress. ”
"That's a good thing. But your mood swings are too great, and that's not good. Li Xiao always felt that Jiang Xiao was not good like this, but she couldn't say a better word to comfort her, after all, experience limited her thinking, and it was indeed difficult to say convincing truths with her limited life experience.
Jiang Xiao didn't say anything more. The two fought a few more times and went back.
Li Xiao is not much better than Jiang Xiaobi. She is not as bold as Jiang Xiao. When Jiang Xiaoxiao was in high school, he dared to send greeting cards to the boys he liked, and dared to write letters to Duan Bin to express his feelings. Li Xiao didn't dare. Li Xiao is introverted, cautious, not smiling, and likes to hide everything in his heart and bear it silently.
In the new class, he was even more depressed and controlled, he didn't dare to show his heart, he didn't dare to show his joys, sorrows, and sorrows, and he didn't even dare to say a simple confession. The continuous review has tossed her into a robot with no emotion, no soul, and can only do problems mechanically.
In the dead of night, he occasionally weeps and sheds tears. Which teenager is not in love, which girl is not pregnant. After all, she is in her prime.
The registration information form should have been handed in a long time ago, and she didn't know how to fill it out? Inserted in the graduating class, is it considered a fresh graduate or a repeat student? Li Xiao was a little lucky in his heart. I heard that in order to take care of fresh graduates, from this year, repeat students will be admitted with extra points. Li Xiao and Jiang Xiao, who had little hope, started a new round of anxiety and worry.
Li Xiao asked Jiang Xiao, how did you fill in the registration information form? "Current or past?" Jiang Xinshu, the head teacher said that you will fill in whatever situation you are. They are transferred to the fresh class, and the treatment they enjoy is also the treatment of fresh graduates, and for a moment, they are in a trance, feeling that they have become fresh graduates and can easily go into battle. She felt that she and Jiang Xiao were aggrieved. Inserted in the fresh class, they can't enjoy the treatment of the repeater class, but they have to compete with the repeaters. She is an outlier, different from fresh graduates and different from repeaters.
But the reality is cruel, no matter how you change your face, the facts are the truth. Knowing this, Li Xiao calmed down a lot. I have enjoyed what the fresh graduates are enjoying now, and I am relieved to let go of it after I figure it out.
She didn't participate in the group photo in the class, and she felt embarrassed, but she still paid for the group photo.
As the college entrance examination approaches, the weather is getting hotter.