34 Looking back and looking forward to it

Let's go back one night in early November 1802, when Heidi, after a day's work, returned to her room in the fortress, where she insisted on living in as modest as possible, despite the better dwelling that Count Lee had prepared for her, and the kind maiden did not seek material superiority, and she felt happy as long as she had her beloved company.

It was still early, and Heidi was not in a hurry to rest, she took out a quill and ink, smoothed the parchment on the table, and began to write. As soon as she wrote a word, she looked at the oil lamp in the house, and in the flames, the person she loved was on his way to Fengxing Town, and the road might be full of wind and snow, and he had to sleep in the open, and the girl couldn't help but worry about whether he would really be able to arrive on time?

"Dear Milo, if you read this letter, it means that I am dead." Heidi wrote, "I know you must be sad, and I hope this letter will lessen your pain." The girl sighed, her eyes began to redden, she did not know how many times she had written such letters, as if every time the two of them were temporarily separated, she would prepare a similar suicide note, each time the wording was different, but the beginning was the same.

The one in the flames seemed to be hurrying at night, and was rushing over at full speed to meet her again.

"Earl Li, Viscount, and everyone in Fengxing Town, they are all very kind to me, don't blame them for my departure, they have also lost too much in this war, just like I lost my family, you must also understand that feeling. So, I hope you can protect them well, just as you did when you guarded me in Tum City, so that they also have a sufficient sense of security, and if you can do what I ask, my heavenly spirit will be able to rest in peace. Outside, there were a few neighing of war horses, and the militia who were on patrol returned as if to remind her that the war was going on and that the night was still restless. I wonder if he will be able to survive this night safely while he is on the way?

Heidi looked at the letter in front of her with a daze, and the words seemed to jump, turning into soldiers and djinns, in a fierce confrontation, inseparable...... "So you have to live well, don't think about it, don't forget so many promises we made before." Of course, you don't think that conventions are meant to limit you, conventions are meant to make you remember me. I beg you again, don't do anything stupid! If you die too, I definitely won't be so easy to look at. The girl's tears splashed on the placket of her clothes, and she did not wipe them, allowing the tears to draw a desolate arc on her face.

"I believe that if you leave, I will also be strong to continue to live, because I will always have you in my heart and will never forget you. So, you have to be strong, you can continue to find your happiness, and I can live in your memory, it is enough. ”

The girl felt that it was time to end this "suicide note", and saying too much might be counterproductive, so she finally wrote: "As long as you always remember me, I will be very happy." ”

The girl picked up the parchment, checked its contents twice, and then muttered, as if regretting that she had not written properly, that the origin of her acquaintance with Milo was the exchange of letters, so she attached great importance to the matter of writing letters.

Heidi didn't dare to put the letter in an obvious position, so she put it in the dark room, and if the two of them could survive this crisis, the letter would be destroyed and never seen by Milo - he would worry about himself.

As Mello finished reading the letter, tears wet the corner of the table, and he slumped back in his chair, remembering once again the promise he had made to Heidi about the stars. The oil lamp in the room dimmed, and he opened the letter again and read it again, as if trying to remember every word, every detail, every punctuation......

He fell asleep when the oil lamp went out...... I had a dream of reuniting with a young girl......

Early in the morning, when the new day beckoned, Milo carefully put the letter back into the dark room, closed the secret door, pushed it open and walked out. As he was about to close the door, he turned back again and gazed into the room with the most reverent gaze......

Melo and Heidi could have had a good and happy life, but they were burned by the flames of war. The two of them continue to sharpen and grow in the war and escape, Heidi has developed a strong fraternity, and Milo has learned to hide and forbear, but the cruel reality and serendipitous coincidences have exposed these characteristics to the extreme, causing the tragedy of the two......

Milo was not grateful to the wind chimes, he did not know that the wind chimes had given him hallucinogens instead of poisons, and he still insisted that the white space was the border between life and death, where he chose to face it, temporarily abandoned the escape, and finally reborn.

He had felt that Heidi was already a part of his life, and that her departure meant the end of his life, so he had to cut off his own life...... Until he began to slowly accept reality.

As Heidi said: conventions are not for limitations, but for memories.

Finally, he was relieved, and as Heidi said in the letter, maybe one day he would fall in love with someone else, and he would be able to pursue his own happiness...... But hell always remember Heidi.

The door closed softly, like a grain of sand falling into the dust, like a drop of water falling into a lake, softly, without a sound. Only the girl's former voice and smile are forever engraved in his heart.

Returning to the town, Milo continues to dilute his thoughts and sorrows with his labor and work—it works, and he has the opportunity to listen to the anecdotes of merchants from all over the world: for example, several small countries in the south are in military conflict with the Splett Empire, mysterious sandstorms are occurring near many cities, and Duke Risen has come out of his tour to prepare for a potential threat......

The full communication soothed the once wounded heart, and Milo's angina never appeared again. Time was like flowing water, slowly washing away the regrets in his heart...... At the same time, there are also those prophecies and legends that upset him.

Yet one day, a merchant's words awakened many of the names that had long been pressed into Milo's memory.

"Hey! We met the soothsayer Domi...... "A merchant excitedly showed off to everyone, and many people immediately gathered around him, scrambling to listen......

Suddenly, the words "new crisis", "curse of the stars", "misty jungle" burst through Milo's brain, as if they had been agreed, and appeared at the same time, causing him to feel dizzy...... He also remembered the seemingly fantastical promise with Heidi to protect people from being killed by the stars......

However, Melo soon stopped thinking about it - he thought that he was able to face it alone, and that the time would come sooner or later, as long as he faced it bravely. In what way will the Curse of the Stars appear in front of him? How long before a new crisis comes? How to resolve it? …… When the time comes, as long as you are willing to face it, there will always be a way to solve it.

As long as you dare to face it, you will become strong.

Melo still needs to grow, and maybe by then, he can be ready and await the future he has to face.