"Why don't you go, why don't you go..."Liu Guifang couldn't help but raise her head and question Zhang Zexi, her face was covered with rain or tears, "Why don't you go..."

If you were Eleven, you would understand me, and you would have left my dignity, right?

"Xiao Liu," Zhang Zexi squatted down again, stretched out one hand to Liu Guifang's face, and straightened the messy hair on her face, "Get up first, let's have a good talk." ”

Let's talk...

What to talk about...

Liu Guifang's nose was very sore, she held Zhang Zexi's arm and stood up awkwardly, it was so cold...

It seems to be colder than just now, why is the December evening breeze so cold?

"Don't move." Zhang Zexi took off his coat and draped it on Liu Guifang's body, and he knew that she was going to subconsciously block and refuse.

Liu Guifang never dared to look at Zhang Zexi, obviously at this moment she felt that Zhang Zexi was doing something wrong, and she wanted to reprimand him, but she didn't have the courage to refute, because she couldn't look at him at all.

"Xiao Liu, look at me," Zhang Zexi raised Liu Guifang's head and faced him, "Look at me." ”

"How... What's wrong..."

Although he bent down to look at her, he was still so tall, he bent over and stared at her carefully, speaking in his gentle tone as always, if he replaced himself with Yu Xiwen, then this scene is very similar to the plot of an idol drama, right?

Zehi, if I were prettier, I wouldn't be dodging the gaze I look at you...

It's a pity that I really...

"I want to tell you, you fell, fell in the mud puddle, the first thing you have to do is not to cover your face in the mud puddle and wait for all the people around you to see you fall away, and then get up and hide back in your own world, you should stand up, and then walk home like a nobody, wash up and change your clothes, so that this matter can pass quickly, you know?"

Zhang Zexi's voice was very loud, as if it was about to overshadow the sound of the rain, and it slammed into Liu Guifang's heart like a thunderbolt.

"I..."

"Why is the first reaction when you encounter a problem is to run away and always run away, you should solve it first, dodging is not the way, you have to face this problem sooner or later, since you have to face it, sooner or later you have to face it, then why do you always have to force yourself until there is no way to retreat?"

These words seemed to have been held back in Zhang Zexi's heart for a long time, he asked suspiciously, asked incomprehensibly, looked at Liu Guifang's eyes and asked word by word.

"Because you are Zhang Zexi, I am Liu Guifang," it turned out that he also felt that he was cowardly and felt that he was hypocritical, Liu Guifang simply raised his head and looked directly into Zhang Zexi's eyes, "Why do you become Zhang Zexi I will become Liu Guifang, because we are different, we are not the same person, you have not experienced my experience, you have not experienced my life, you naturally have no way to know how difficult and tired my life is, don't stand in your world and accuse me openly, Do you know that no matter what you do or say is a wrong feeling in the eyes of your family, I say a sentence and they refute it, and when I do one thing they accuse, do you know what it feels like to be denied and relegated to the dust? Do you know what it's like to be surrounded by the ridicule of your friends no matter what you do, or what you say, and do you want to say something more and do something? Will you still have the courage? I know I'm cowardly, I know I'm ugly, but I won't let myself hurt anyone, no matter how bad I am, it's my business, I can only live by hiding in my own world, I didn't hurt others, why should I be exposed and hurt by others, what, do you have to pull me out to see the light? You know, sunlight kills a lot of dirty and dark things, and I'm one of them. Liu Guifang was a little emotional, but she was able to stand up straight and speak, because she finally said what she didn't really think.

"Dirty, dark, cowardly, unbearable," Zhang Zexi waved his hand helplessly, his mood was also very uncalm, "Who are you, the little baby born in October by your mother's hard work, their beloved relatives, do you think of yourself like this, are you dirty and dark or cowardly?" ”

"Mom? Baby? Liu Guifang smiled mockingly and shook her head, "What about my mother, my mother doesn't love me, why, can't I live a good life alone without someone who loves me in this world?" ”

"There is no one who loves you," Zhang Zexi leaned closer to Liu Guifang's face, he didn't know how to make her completely get rid of those things, "How long do you want to deny yourself like this?" What the hell do you want, didn't you decide to live, why don't you live well, why do you live so awkwardly? ”

"Because," maybe choked for too long, Liu Guifang's voice became a little hoarse, "Because I am a person, I am alone, no matter what kind of life I live, as long as I don't hurt others, I don't touch the interests of others, that's living well, I'm really bad, so I just let myself not feel inferior and have done my best, I can't help it, I can't be happy, I can't find the motivation to be happy, I'm very awkward, especially awkward because I'm not confident, I can't live calmly like other people, Their wanton expressions are all expressing their own thoughts, and I am just showing my ugliness, I can only breathe a little more smoothly if I am quiet, a little more restrained, and keep myself away from the public's field of vision, you ask me why I always run away from problems, why I don't want to solve them, because I don't have the ability, I don't have the ability to solve it, do you think I want to do this, do you think..."

"Are you going to keep going like this, running away forever?"

"Otherwise," Liu Guifang shrugged, "Alas, it's raining so hard, you should go back quickly, we are just classmates, my parents didn't care about me, why do you waste time and energy to reason with a stubborn person like me here, go back quickly." ”

"I'm saving you." Zhang Zexi looked at Liu Guifang and said.

"It's okay to kill me, I..."

Save me?

I'm a person in the abyss, you actually want to save me?

You can't save me, you'll only be pulled into the abyss by me.

"I'm your friend, Xiaowen and Quan Yanyi, how long do you want them to worry about you? Let's think about how we feel, okay? Don't torture yourself so much, you feel fat, you feel ugly, fat and ugly are just a form, this is not a shortcoming, it is not a stain that makes you unable to lift your head, there are many fat and ugly people in this world They also live very happily, if you are really unhappy, then you lose weight, nothing can not be solved. ”

"So, don't worry about me in the future, I'm not worth your worries." Liu Guifang didn't know if she could do what Zhang Zexi said, but she made others worry that she was really wrong.

"Maybe we're not qualified enough to make you better, we don't deserve to be friends with you better, right, no one loves you in this world, so Xiaowen's love for you is not even love in you, right, maybe you never counted them in your world, you didn't come out in the previous world, and you have to deny the world in front of you at the moment, and also deny them, I feel a little chill for them." Seeing that there was no effect for a long time, Zhang Zexi simply used Liu Guifang's thinking to talk to her.

"No, it's not that you don't deserve it, it's that I don't deserve it..."Liu Guifang almost cried out again, "It's that I'm not worthy, I'm not worth your time wasting here." ”

"Even if we don't deserve it," Zhang Zexi paused, "What about Eleven?" ”

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