That dusty home, the home I haven't been back to for two years, that home, not even a home.

I know that Zhao Miao knows what I say, and she will always be the person who knows me in the world.

"I'll be with you."

As I said, she knows me best.

She may not know what I want to do, but she will always support me to do what I want to do.

Whether it was when he walked into the abyss of Han Mo, or now, he went back to that remote and remote town.

I let go of my hand and distanced the two of them: "I'm going back now." ”

Zhao Miao looked at me, her face was a little hesitant and tangled, as if she didn't know whether to promise me or not, but in the end, she still spoke: "Okay." ”

"Let's go back and get our clothes first."

Where I thought I would never go back, I now have to go back again.

It's not that I don't want to face the poverty and backwardness there, I just don't want my grandmother to face those unnecessary points and abuse.

But now, everything doesn't matter.

"What are you doing?!"

When I just got out of bed, Han Mo happened to walk in, and he looked at me with some stunned and suppressed anger.

I continued to wear slippers, hugged the clothes brought by Zhao Miao and went into the bathroom to change my clothes.

Han Mo was still standing there when he came out, but Zhao Miao also came back, I didn't look at Han Mo, my eyes fell directly on Zhao Miao's body: "Let's go." ”

The voice is still hoarse, but much better than just now.

Zhao Miao glanced at Han Mo before his gaze fell on me, raised his legs and walked over step by step.

I understood what she was worried about, but she didn't have to worry anymore because my grandmother was gone, and there was nothing anyone could do for me to bow my head.

"Did you bring the key?"

I nodded, the key was always in the wallet, and when Zhao Miao helped me bring the clothes, he also helped me bring the wallet over, and the documents were also there.

Just now, Zhao Miao went to help me go through the procedures for discharge surgery, I don't want to delay it any longer, and my grandmother will be cremated in a few days.

"Then let's go."

I pursed my lips and walked out with her.

"Fu Yao!"

Han Mo stretched out his hand to stop me, and the green tendons on his forehead were everywhere.

I raised my hand and pushed his hand away: "Don't stop me. ”

He pursed his lips, but didn't reach out again to stop me.

Zhao Miao didn't dare to speak, and after more than seven hours of long-distance bus, I slept and woke up and fell asleep, disturbing dreams one after another, as if my grandmother had not left me.

After bringing the bouquet of flowers back, I began to arrange for my grandmother's cremation, and many people came on the day of the burial, really a lot of people, Jiang Feiyi, Jiang Jingying, Lin Zhaofeng, Han Mo, Xu Ran.

I held my grandmother's ashes and looked at the person who suddenly appeared, not knowing how to describe my feelings.

But today is the day of my grandmother's burial, and she is buried in the ground, and she is buried in the earth.

I could only say hello one by one, without saying anything, and continued to walk forward with my grandmother's ashes.

I don't have enough money for the tombstone, but Zhao Miao helped me make it up, and it was the first time I lived so badly.

But so what, this is the last time, my grandmother has left me, and even if I am embarrassed, it doesn't matter anymore.

"Condolences."

"Condolences."

They all told me to mourn, but I didn't know how to mourn.

"Zhao Miao."

The person who called me was Jiang Jingying, I really didn't expect him and Jiang Feiyi to come over, and I didn't expect her to cry.

She called out to me, her voice choked as if it was worse than mine.

My grandmother is sixty-five years old, because my mother has long since cut off contact with her former relatives, and now that the lights are out, I am the only granddaughter by my side.

Seeing Jiang Jingying, I was really moved in my heart.

Lin Zhaofeng, who had always been chattering, followed behind Jiang Jingying without saying a word, and when I looked back at them, his gaze was sluggish.

I tried to laugh a little: "Sister Xiaoying." ”

"Yaoyao, find me if you have any difficulties."

She hugged me, and I was stunned for a moment, only to feel as if my eyes were burned by fire.

I didn't expect her to hug me at all, really, at a time like this, a hug from hers was really a little more practical and warm than anything else.

I can't cry, really, some people say that the old man should not cry at the end of his departure, because that would make her walk uneasy.

I'm not superstitious, but it's the last thing I can do for my grandmother.

In fact, there weren't many people coming, Xu Ran and Han Mo just laid wreaths and left.

Jiang Jingying was walking with Lin Zhaofeng, I thought Jiang Feiyi was also gone, but I didn't expect him to be standing there.

He was looking at me, and as soon as I turned around, I met his gaze.

Jiang Feiyi and Jiang Jingying were able to come over today, I never expected it.

"Fu Yao."

He looked at me, his dark black eyes fixed on me.

I was stunned for a moment, looked at him and nodded: "Mr. Jiang? ”

It's just that he didn't speak anymore, just looked at me like this, and I don't know how long he watched it, he turned his gaze away slightly, and his voice was indifferent and cold: "Festival mourning." ”

I pursed my lips and nodded, "Thank you." ”

He looked at me for a few more seconds before he lifted his leg and left.

Only Zhao Miao and I were left in front of the tombstone, and the sun was fierce in August.

My grandmother didn't leave any photos before she died, and all I had on my phone were photos with her two years ago.

In the end, the photo that was put on the tombstone was the photo I put out from the past, and I took out the photo of my grandmother when she was young.

"Fu Yao."

Zhao Miao opened her mouth and called me, I looked at her sideways and choked up: "What's wrong?" ”

She didn't speak, just raised her hand and took my hand.

Her palms were hot and sweaty, and the sweat was sticky on my fingers.

I couldn't help but tighten, at this time, Zhao Miao was my only support.

The sun was very strong at noon, and Zhao Miao held an umbrella on my side, but didn't say a word.

I turned my head to look at her, her lips were a little purple from the sun.

Life and death see confidants.

I raised my hand and took the umbrella: "Let's go." ”

I couldn't accompany my grandmother before I was alive, and there was no need to be so obsessed with it after my death.

The scenery outside the car window changed little by little, and my vision was so messy that I was a little sleepy.

In the end, I couldn't hold back and fell asleep with my eyes closed.

"Nannan, you have to be happy, Nannan."

It seems to have been a dream, but it doesn't seem to be, and my grandmother's voice is in my ears, word by word, repeating it constantly.

"Yaoyao."

When I was woken up by Zhao Miao, I realized that I was asleep, the car had stopped, and we had already arrived downstairs.

She had already gotten out of the car, and the door on my side was pulling me.

I lifted my leg and got out of the car with her, and went upstairs step by step.

People always have to go through a lot of life and death, and I don't know how others have survived such a painful period of time.

I just know that I still got through it, just like this hot August, I still got through it.

When the new semester arrives, it also means one thing, Zhao Miao and I are already seniors and will graduate soon.

Many of my classmates are already looking for jobs, and I don't know what they're anxious about.

I still work in the training class, but I used to go every day to go four days a week, Monday, Friday and Saturday and Sunday, and I quit my job at the bar.

Now, I don't have to think about anything except I owe Zhao Miao more than 100,000 yuan.

It seems that all of a sudden I don't know how I should go on, and I see that the people around me are busy, and I am idle as if I am an idler who has nothing to do.

The movie starring Su Zheyuan is ready to be released, and Jiang Lili heard that the first album is also being prepared.

A script written by Zhao Miao before was taken by a director, although the price was only 60,000 yuan, but it was also a hopeful and eager thing.

Unlike me, I don't know what I'm supposed to do.

I used to skip class all day and night, and I became one of the few people in the class, and all the subject teachers' attitudes towards me began to change little by little, and I even went out to eat with some of the teachers.

I didn't know what I wanted to do, I just knew that I should get my diploma.

Zhao Miao said that she would invite me to dinner tonight and go to the newly opened Michelin restaurant, because her script was finally sold, 120,000 words, and sold for 150,000 yuan.

What she wanted finally came true little by little, I looked at my account, and the salary of a month in the training class was more than 5,000, and I transferred it directly from Alipay.

The end of September in City A was a bit dry, and with the sunshine, I was particularly annoying.

After class at six o'clock, the road was still very bright, surrounded by people in a hurry, and no one knew where they were coming from or where they were going.

It was inconvenient to not have a mobile phone, so I finally bought a mobile phone, more than a thousand, and used it.

As soon as I walked to the library, I received a call from Zhao Miao, asking where I was, and she was already queuing.

The new restaurant is always crowded, but it's still Friday.

I could only trot up and tell her I would be there in about half an hour, if there were no accidents.

The so-called accident is, of course, a traffic jam, after all, the traffic in City A is indeed very worrying.

The accident still happened in the end, but it wasn't a traffic jam.

As soon as I arrived at the school gate, I found two men looking at me, they were holding cigarettes in their hands, wearing baseball uniforms, they were twenty-seven or eighteen, and when they saw me, they threw away the cigarette butts.

I always felt that something was wrong, but I couldn't say it, until I walked to a distance of about three or four meters from them, and they suddenly stepped forward to look at me and said, "Hello Miss, I want to ask if you know Zhao Miao?" ”