This near-death feeling really doesn't want to try it a second time.

"Because I hate this face!" I shouted out the voice that was hidden in my heart.

He was stunned, and the strength in his hand loosened, and I took the opportunity to push him away.

"I don't want to see you anymore, get out!"

He was so angry with me that I hid in the bedroom and locked the bedroom door.

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I pulled open the bedside cabinet, which was full of sleeping pills, I hadn't had a good night's sleep in a long time.

I picked one up and swallowed it, I was sorry for my life, I was afraid of death.

I covered myself with the quilt and waited for sleepiness to come.

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When I woke up again, it was eight o'clock the next morning.

It was the first time I had slept so soundly, and I sat up and stared blankly at the clock.

After staring at me for half an hour, my mother knocked on my door. "Miss Nan Yu, the eldest young master is out, you come out to eat something, you haven't eaten for a day."

I opened the door and saw my mother and .......... He.

I used to trust my mother the most, but now the last trace of trust has been worn out by her.

He dragged me downstairs and walked very slowly, as if he was afraid that I would fall, but in fact, he was even more afraid of this face falling.

"Something?"

I sat on the couch with a pillow in my hand. "Nan Yu, you sign this contract."

He handed me the so-called contract.

I looked at the contract carefully, and the last clause in it actually said to protect your face and not hurt yourself.

I tore up the contract and went upstairs.

"Why did Miss Nan Yu become like this?"

"Leave him alone."

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I don't want to live anymore, I want to die, and the preface says I'm afraid of death is false.

I've been thinking about death for a long time, who will save me.........

I stared blankly at the sleeping pills in my hand, the door had been quietly opened, and he saw my drawer full of sleeping pills.

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He threw away all the medicine in it, I couldn't die, I didn't understand, he obviously hated me the most.

"I warn you Nan Yu, if you have this kind of thought again, I will let your family be buried with you."

His eyes are very sharp, and he is most afraid of me committing suicide, because his lover also commits suicide.

I hooked my lips and smiled, laughing loudly, and he looked at me like a madman.

"So what do you think I can do? Can you save me? Can anyone in this world save me? ”

My last words came out of the shout.

I buried my head and cried, I couldn't hide the scarlet and despair in my eyes, who could save me?

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I was tired from crying, and he lulled me to sleep. My dreams were in a never-ending darkness, and I ran and ran there when I saw a glimmer of light.

I'll never be able to catch up with that glimmer of light, and I'm more interested in who brought it.

I woke up, and he had torn down all the sticks, as if he was not afraid that I would run away.

I sat on the balcony and watched the view in the distance.

The sunset smeared half of the sky, the autumn breeze slapped on my face, and my heart was not so calm in a long time.

I fell to the ground with a bang, and he rushed over when he heard the sound, and when he saw me, he couldn't hide the worry in his eyes.

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He called in the personal doctor, and I was well aware of my body.

I also had a medical check-up before I came here, and they said that I had an advanced heart attack and that I would not live long, and they said that I should be kept in the hospital for observation, but I refused.

At the time I was just trying to be a little closer, a little closer, and when he offered to let me move in with him, I was so happy that I put my illness aside.

What I didn't know at the time was that I was greeted by a nightmare.

"Young Master Yu, Miss Nan Yu, she ........

The doctor grimaced.

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"I'm just too tired."

I've been escaping reality and I want to keep my feelings for him in the back of my heart.

"Next time you feel unwell, call the doctor directly, don't make such a big move."

He grabbed his suit and went out.

"Miss Nan Yu, are you really not telling him?"

"No, find a good place to bury me then, I'll give you this suicide note, please help me give it to him."

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Half a month later, I was buried in the place I liked.

There were a lot of people standing in front of me, and the person I had never dared to say "I love you" to him in my life.

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I escaped the light that the gods sprinkled on the earth.

Like you, that's all, that's all.

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"I won't accompany you on the road in the future, you have to take care of yourself, my kindness to you is true, not everyone is me, if you can't find me, please go to the next person, and then don't meet."

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Whose love do you think you are receiving, the love of a god who betrays all the gods to love you, to endure all the pain for you, and to bring you joy.

Big Fish and Begonia

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