Duan Yi glanced at the light dust, saw that the expression on her face softened, and continued to work aggrieved,

"You say yes, I'm nothing better than others, but it's reasonable for you to be angry, after all, I don't have the right to take care of your business, and I can only eat vinegar and make trouble."

Seeing that Qingchen didn't speak, he sighed, "I'm sorry, I shouldn't have done this, I'm not qualified, I know it, don't be angry, you, if you see me annoying, I'll leave now, and promise not to appear in front of you when I enter the house, and I will protect you silently in the future." ”

Qingchen moved his mouth, and after a few snorts, Duan Yi had already opened the car door, and one foot had already gone out.

"Don't..." she stopped Duan Yi, he looked back, his eyes burned, and Qingchen lowered his head a little embarrassed.

"It's all in the past, don't talk about it anymore, don't mind, I've already rejected him explicitly. And, there's nothing bad about you. The more Qingchen spoke, the quieter his voice became, and seeing that Duan Yi hadn't come back yet, he hurriedly added a few words.

"You are very good, you don't have to compare with others, in my heart you are better than him."

Qingchen pursed his lips, "That's your home, no matter what, it shouldn't be that you don't show up, and you don't have the right to care about me, no matter what, you are still my brother like Zhang Yi, and I don't have any other relatives besides you." ”

After the last sentence was spoken, the surroundings fell silent, and this sentence hit the two of them a little. Indeed, no matter what happened to the two, no matter what the two had before, or what the relationship was now, the only people Qingchen could get close to in this world were him and Zhang Yi.

He turned back to the driver's seat, and as the door closed, the reading lights went out and fell silent again.

"Xiao Chen'er, it's good that you can think like this, no matter what, Zhang Yi and I are still your relatives, aren't I the same, except for you and Zhang Yi, how can I have any relatives."

She snorted, listening to a little crying.

"Don't cry."

Qingchen sobbed, didn't reply, and only spoke after a while, "I want to drink." ”

Duan Yi still had a dozen beers in the refrigerator at home, but he felt that it was not enough, so he ordered another takeout and ordered a dozen beers and a few snacks. There was a balcony in his house, and Qingchen wanted to drink there, but Duan Yi couldn't say a word.

"Do you want to go to the gastroenterology department and go to the emergency room tomorrow?"

Drinking until he vomited, and then contracted the wind chill again, Qingchen shrank and shook his head, but still obediently sat down on the sofa in the living room, reading that he had a stomach problem, Qingchen persuaded him a few words.

"You better drink less, didn't you drink until you were hospitalized in the hotel last time."

He opened two cans of beer, "Last time it was just an accident, so many of them drank one of me, and I didn't go to the hospital." ”

They are talking about the last time they were in Lincheng, at Zhang Yi's wedding, Duan Yi drank so much that he was hospitalized.

The first sip of wine was full of foam, Qingchen reluctantly swallowed it, and quickly drank the second sip, "Zhang Yi said that you drank the wine because of me?" ”

Duan Yi pinched the hand of the jar and snorted.

"Why?"

"What, why?"

"Why care what they say, why drink for me."

If it weren't for Zhang Yi's marriage, she would never go back, and she would probably be able to guess what the people at the table said. The three of them become tigers, she is public opinion in her own right, and when she is placed in a group of people, not to mention how others will open their mouths to come.

"There's no why, just drink it if you want to."

"You don't have to."

"Do you not have to pay attention to what they say, or do you not have to do it for you?" He looked directly at her.

Qingchen dodged, "You don't have to. ”

"It's not that you don't know what kind of people they are, what good words can come out of their mouths, I knew there would be such a scene the moment I went back, so you don't have to do this, hurt yourself, and it's not good for your reputation."

He chuckled, "Do you think I still care about fame?" She drank very quickly, and by the time Qingchen was halfway through his drink, he had finished drinking, and the can was clattered by him.

Qingchen was silent, she was used to other people's comments about her since she was a child, she could stay out of it, but Duan Yi couldn't, he didn't do anything wrong, just because he was friends with himself, he had to bear some infamy and discussion that he shouldn't have bore, he could become his own salvation, Qingchen was already very satisfied, she didn't want him to bear some extra things.

"You can't care, even if it's for your grandmother."

Qingchen didn't want to mention it, and always felt that this was an unspeakable topic between the two, but at this moment, it was easy to bring it up.

With a "clang", the can was thrown into the trash, and the light dust shook slightly, Duan Yi had no expression on his face, and reopened a can of beer with one hand, and he took a sip.

"Qingchen, you are really thinking about others, my grandmother used to always say that you are a soft-hearted child, and you can remember what others say for a lifetime, but I didn't expect you to really remember it now."

Yes, Duan Yi's grandmother didn't agree that the two were together because Qingchen had a bad reputation and a bad reputation on Chunxi Road, and she was afraid that it would affect his future life, she still remembered what the old man said,

"You are a good boy, but you are not suitable for Duan Yi, he has lived a hard life since he was a child, I have no ability, I hope he can be smooth in the future, no matter what he does, as long as he lives happily. But now I know that he is with you, if you are an ordinary girl, it is fine, but the bad is that you are not, if Duan Yi marries you in the future, what do others think of him? ”

The old man glanced at her meaningfully, "Pick up broken shoes?" ”

One sentence made the light dust like falling into an ice cave, she almost trembled out of Duan Yi's house, she began to wonder what she could bring to Duan Yi, whether it was gossip or happiness, she didn't know.

"You can remember what others said until now, what I was good to you, what I said to you, you can forget it when you turn your head, I sometimes wonder if you really care about me?"

Qingchen was speechless when she asked in one sentence, if she said that she cared, she must care, but after the two of them went through this experience, she didn't understand, she used to have dark thoughts, and always thought that if Duan Yi was willing, she would pull him into it together, no matter what worldly he was, it didn't matter.

But she forgot that Duan Yi was not her, not careless, and there was an old man in his family who cared about him.

Even if it is not her fault, in the eyes of outsiders, she is not innocent, she was raised by a wild man with money, and she was "sold" by her mother to survive, and she inherited that favor, and scolding is also essential.

"If I don't care about you, how can I break up with you?"

"In the past five years, you are not the only one who has missed me, I am the same, I spread out and tell you today. You know why I broke up with you, I don't ask you to understand me, but you should at least look at the problem from the perspective of your grandmother's consideration, you have followed your grandmother since you were a child, it is not easy for her to raise you, I just want you to live happily and marry a girl from a good family, not a ...... like me"

Halfway through the conversation, she didn't say anything more, and the rest of the words didn't matter, they both understood each other.

"What's like you?" He forced her, "Say, what are you like that?" Is it a person like you who has an unclean background and is poked and scolded in the back all day long? ”

What he said was heavy, but Qingchen didn't refute it, what he said was not wrong, isn't this what others see in their eyes?

"Heh, you're really thoughtful."

Seeing that Qingchen didn't speak, he mocked.

"You took care of everyone, you just didn't think about me, did you?"

"Why didn't I think about you?"

Another can was thrown into the trash, and with a "click", he opened another can of beer.

"What do you think of me?"

"I'm thinking about your future, thinking about your reputation, I hope you marry a better girl, and you don't have to be scolded by others, isn't it for you?" Qingchen's eyes were red.

"Then you are so great, I think so much, according to what you say, should you find me a girlfriend directly again, stuff it next to me, or directly arrange my wedding, in the future, do you want you to help me name the child I born, and you will come to see me off when I am old?"

The can in her hand was also pinched, "Duan Yi, don't go too far." ”

How could she be willing to do this, just breaking up already cost her half her life, how could she still find a partner for him, watch him get married, have children, and even die.

"Am I excessive? Lin Qingchen, it's really easy for you to do this kind of thing. ”

"Saying that he was thinking about me and didn't listen to my opinion, he just listened to other people's one-sided words, which broke off our relationship. Say think about me, never ask me what I really want, don't ask if I'm willing to part with you, don't ask if I'm willing to be poked in the back with you. ”

"Does fame really matter? It's important enough to give up on me. ”

In the last sentence, his voice was extremely low, so low that Qingchen couldn't hear it clearly, but she still heard it clearly, her heart tugged up, her eyes were dry and painful, and she couldn't shed a single tear, she thought she was also wronged, but she seemed to ignore it, in fact, Duan Yi's suffering was not less than hers.

"Do you think I don't know what you're thinking? You also want to pull me into the mire together, you suffer and I suffer, but because I went in, your pain can be divided in half, why do you think I willingly fell into it with you, do you think I don't know? ”

"If I don't want to, no one can pull me down, Qingchen, what you think is not what you think, you have to see if the person you want to suffer half of the pain is willing or not."

At this point, it is already clear.

What Qingchen thought was not what Duan Yi thought, Qingchen felt that she was doing it for his good, but she didn't understand, Duan Yi was willing to go to hell with her.

broke up without a sound at the beginning, but now the two of them are talking, everything is just from a self-righteousness between the two, and those illusions in their minds do not exist.