"In contrast, we are lucky enough that we don't need to worry about making a living, and we enjoy a life that others may not be able to achieve for many years, and naturally we have to bear more than others."

"So sometimes the ordinary happiness in other people's mouths is not necessarily bad, although that kind of life is ordinary, but at least everyone works hard for their goals, even small achievements are worth rejoicing for a long time, this kind of life, is not bad."

"But we are already in such an environment, we have to adapt to the environment, maybe you think you can change the environment, but this environment is not so simple, say change will change."

"Your grandfather was also young and frivolous, thinking that he was the one who could change the environment, and he also put in a lot of effort for this, but in the end he was defeated by reality, once a person grows up, there are some things, even if you don't like it anymore, you know in your heart that it is something you have to do, whether you like it or not."

Shen Qingyan helped Grandma Shen, looked ahead and said, "Grandma, I understand, I just understand, but I still feel unwilling." ”

Grandma Shen smiled and patted Shen Qingyan's hand, "Young people, it's a good thing to have momentum, you are all still young, and you have infinite possibilities, what I said is just the past, what is the future, you still have to go by yourself." ”

"Young people, you just have to be more aggressive."

Shen Qingyan looked at Grandma Shen, "Grandma, what do you mean?" ”

Grandma Shen smiled, "Child, do whatever you want, don't worry, you have the strongest backing in the world, do what you want to do." ”

Hearing this, Shen Qingyan's nose suddenly became sore, and tears almost fell, she was not a child anymore, so it was impossible for her not to understand the meaning of Grandma Shen's words.

To do what they want to do means that all the responsibilities have to be borne by them, they are all old, but they are still willing to hold up for their dear children.

The sky was very blue that day, the clouds were very high, the wind was very light, and even the sun was very soft, Shen Qingyan's surroundings seemed to be quiet all of a sudden, and she could only hear her own pounding heartbeat.

Many years later, Shen Qingyan still remembers that afternoon, remembers that his elderly grandparents let them do it, remembers the sky of that day, the clouds of that day, the sun of that day, and the ...... of that day The sound of a heartbeat.

At the same time, on the other side, Tang Xiuli handed over all the affairs of the Shen family to Tang Qi to deal with, of course, when encountering big things, they still have to be approved by Tang Xiuli before they can be implemented.

Tang Xiuli wants to go back to Beijing, and every year in July, Tang Xiuli will go back to Beijing to live for a period of time, because July 12 is his mother's death day.

Tang Xiuli's mother committed suicide because of depression.

The reason for depression is, of course, inseparable from Tang Chengtai, Tang Chengtai is too desperate to do things, and it is because of this that it finally led to such irreparable results.

Originally, Tang Xiuli's mother had mild depression before, but after being with Tang Chengtai, that mild depression was magnified infinitely.

In the end, she couldn't hold it anymore, and she chose to end it completely.

Sometimes life is too painful, and death becomes the greatest relief.

So his mother chose to get rid of it, and what is even more special is that July 12 is Tang Xiuli's birthday, and his mother chose to end her life on his birthday.

However, Tang Xiuli never denied his mother's love for him, because most of the time, she was a gentle and rational mother, and she gave Tang Xiuli a good enough education.

She made Tang Xiuli a very good person, in fact, before she died, she left a letter for Tang Xiuli, and Tang Xiuli only saw it a long time later.

At that time, the letter wrote, "Xiuli, when you read this letter, your mother should have been gone.

Mom actually knows, you actually rely on me a lot, because your dad is that kind of person, and I also know that in fact, I should be with you, but Mom is really tired.

You know, a person starts to feel pain every day when he opens his eyes, and that's how I am, every day when I open my eyes, I am surrounded by overwhelming despair and depression.

Even, I feel like even the air around me is tearing at my body, and I have a smile on my face every day when I see you.

But do you know how much pain I have?

I don't want to laugh at all, I feel like I'm alive and it's a torment, I don't want to do anything every day, I don't want to see anyone, and sometimes, I even think about how nice it would be if it were me, just go back to sleep and never wake up!

But I know you need me, and for more than ten years, I have only seen you every day that I feel that life is not so painful.

But now I can't hold on, you know, Mom's mom and dad have left this world.

Mom has nothing to rely on in this world.

Sometimes I even think, why can't you grow faster, and when you grow up, I can let go.

But I can't wait for you to grow up.

Mom has no relatives in this world anymore, and Mom also wants someone to care about and love Mom.

But the person my mother cherishes the most is no longer in this world. I know I'm cruel to you, but I can't hold on.

How many times in the middle of the night I dreamed that I held a fruit knife to my wrist, but I didn't cut it at all.

Because of you, what if I leave and leave you alone, and I am bullied?

It's a pity that mom can't protect you anymore in the future. Mom really can't hold on, I'm sorry.

Today is your birthday, mom is here to wish you a happy birthday, mom hopes that you can grow up to be a man who stands up to the sky in the future, but mom doesn't want you to be too kind, if the world is all sin, mom doesn't want you to maintain your own share of white.

What my mother wants is very simple, my mother hopes that no matter when and where, you must remember to be a strong person, not afraid of the hardships and dangers ahead, and don't have anything to do with the Tang family anymore.

Child, don't hate me, I chose to leave you today, not because I don't love you, but because, with your existence, even death, I will no longer be afraid.

Xiuli, goodbye, you have to take care of yourself, your mother can't take care of you anymore. ”

This is the end of the letter, and then on Tang Xiuli's birthday, his mother died from eating too many sleeping pills.

She left peacefully, without the slightest pain.