Then Cheng Meng and I walked to Ning Xi's side, Ning Xi looked at me and Cheng Meng and said, "You two, go play with boys again!" ”

I waited a long time for this next time, and I never saw that man again, that man who was like a spirit, and he disappeared from my life for two years.

When I saw him again, it was two years later, my freshman year.

I got into a good university, the kind of worldly one.

After I was admitted to university, I met Cheng Meng, Ning Xi, and Hu Xiaoying.

I remember saying that in the spring of that year, they were both in love, but I didn't, but that night I had a dream, a very strange but very real dream.

In my dream, I dreamed that I had secretly become a beautiful Internet celebrity, but I was extremely ugly in real life.

He has buckteeth, black hair all over his body, and a face as big as his buttocks.

But my fans have risen from one or two to 100,000, 200,000, and 300,000.

I was panicked, I was afraid that they would see the real me, so I stopped appearing in the camera, but the number of my fans suddenly dropped from 300,000 at the beginning to 10,000 or 20,000, I panicked and began to be afraid.

So I started standing in front of the camera again, scratching my head and posing, and cheating.

Looking at the fans on the screen constantly praising me, I began to think that this is the real me, and I am living in the camera.

"Her pictures are so beautiful!"

"She's very good at styling!"

"When she's dressed well!"

"She's sure her family is rich!"

Everyone started complimenting me, and I started to believe that this is who I am, that I am what I am.

But later, my true situation was finally exposed, exposed to the public's eyeballs, everyone stood in front of me, looking thin and white, and I finally recognized myself, I was not me in that lens.

I don't know what this dream tells me, but I do know what it wants to tell me.

But I don't believe it.

"Sister Ningxi together!" Cheng Meng said.

"Don't! Go yourselves! Sister Ningxi looked at me and Cheng Meng and said.

"Sister Ningxi, I found out that you are old now! Why are you not interested in anything! Cheng Meng looked at Sister Ningxi and said.

"Maybe it's true, I want to have a cup of tea right now, and then see Guo Degang!" Sister Ning Xi said.

"Say, are we all old?" Cheng Meng said, then picked up the soft China he had placed on the table and took out one and lit it for himself.

Cheng Meng is such a girl, sometimes she is crazy, once someone next to her gets serious, she can get serious immediately, and then penetrate the same emotions as others.

If it sounds good, it is adaptable, but if it is bad, it is called wall grass.

"I don't think we're old, we're a little cowardly!" I looked at Sister Ningxi and Cheng Meng and said.

"What do you mean?" Cheng Meng looked at me and said.

"It's that we are afraid of what we do, we have concerns about everything, and without the desperate spirit we had before, we are no longer so enthusiastic, and we are no longer so second-class!" I looked at Sister Ningxi and Cheng Meng and said.

"It seems that this is really the case, I really didn't expect that one day I would think about the consequences!" Cheng Meng began to echo my words and said.

"Actually, this may be growth!" Sister Ning Xi said.

"But what is growth?" Cheng Meng said.

"The so-called growth is probably to accept yourself as you are and face him!" I spoke.

"Sister Ningxi, what do you think?" I turned to Sister Ningxi and asked.

"I think you're right!" Sister Ning Xi looked at me and said with a slight smile.

"I think you're right, too!" Cheng Meng also looked at me and said with a smile.

In fact, the so-called growth may be the process of muting the cry, receiving emotions from where others can't see, and learning to be strong.

Growing up is actually a long road, this road is full of thorns and loneliness, but the same road is also full of treasures waiting for us to harvest.

For each of us, this road is full of footprints, we do not ask for joy and sweetness after every footprint falls, but we ask for every footprint to fall without regrets.

Growing up is a kind of understanding, allowing us to grow from a naïve child babbling and singing a little song to an adult who can understand the charm of life.

"Love." The boy replied with a gasp of breath.

And at the moment, I am next door, as if I have just experienced a wave or even a tsunami, and I keep thinking about what happened just now.

It was as if something was going to end again, but it was as if everything was calm and nothing had happened.

That night, when I was 20 years old, I was lying in bed, looking at the moon outside, listening to Amy's voice next door, and suddenly I learned to comfort myself.

I looked out at the moonlit and starry night, and my hands were constantly moving, as if I was looking at myself.

I opened my mind and let my desires keep coming, and then when they arrived in front of me, they were crushed by my own hands.

That night, it was as if I had suddenly found an outlet for my troubled life, and I began to frantically comfort myself.

I comforted myself while counting the stars, and while comforting myself, I asked myself, is there a source of desire? Lust has a fucking source.

Like is life interesting?

Life has a fucking meaning!

It's like a person who lives alive and fucking dies.

I remember that I almost became an Internet celebrity once before, it was really not a dream, but in the end I felt too superficial, so I didn't continue.

Now I regret it, if I hadn't blamed the superficial at the time, I would have been quite rich by now! Comparing money is what everyone likes.

I clicked on the Weibo homepage of the beauty Internet celebrity again, and enlarged her photos one by one, her eyes are like that, her nose is like that, and her mouth is like that, it doesn't seem to be a natural beauty of beauty, but she is good at clothing matching and looking for a good place to take pictures, most of the photos are full-body photos, and the full-body photos look more advanced than selfie headshots, and her homepage is all browsed, and it is difficult not to have the impression of a beauty on her, a high-end, fashionable, rich beauty.

"No, it's just that I'm angry when I think about it." Amy said calmly.

"No, you can't do that, did I mention the past to you? I've never pressed you about the past, have I, but what about you? You're going to break up with me with something from the past! The boy shouted as he looked at Amy.

"Why not, didn't you ask me about the past two months ago? Didn't you fight with me because of my past? Why can't I mention the breakup! Amy asked aggressively as she looked at the boy.

"You ......" the boy was speechless when questioned.

"Also, when you chase me, didn't you say that you would always love me? Then you apologize to me! You coax me! You don't want to either! Amy said as she looked at the boy.

I thought, at this point, they should be finished, the boy rushed over and hugged Amy, and then Amy symbolically scolded him, and then the two of them smiled apologetically at me, and got back together!

But it didn't......

The boy still roared and said to Amy, "I don't want you to be satisfied, what do you want me to do?" ”

"Hehe, since you asked, then I will tell you that if you love someone, you must do it until he is satisfied! Do you understand? Amy looked at the boy and said with a sneer.

"Really? Is this how you understand the expression of love? I don't think so! The boy also sneered and said.

"Yes, that's me, I've always been like this, don't you know? I'm so selfish! Amy said as she looked at the boy.

"Yes, you're just selfish, that's why I can't bear it." The boy said.

Each of us has had countless dreams on the way to growth, and these dreams have existed in our hearts for a long time.

But we all know that this is not just a thought, but also a mark of our growth, a beacon of growth, we move forward with it, we run after it.

"No! Why do you ask! He looked at me with some confusion and said.

"You...... Looks like a friend of mine! I said.

"It's often said!" He looked at me and said.

"No, that's not what I meant!" I said.

"And what do you mean?" He asked, looking at me.

"That's it...... It's just that you really look a lot like a friend of mine! I said.

"Really?" That said.

"Then tell me about that friend of yours!" He looked at me and said.

"We met in Tibet, and he saved me!" I looked at the man and said.

"Do heroes save beauty? I'm interested, you can talk about it! The man looked at me and said.

"When I was thirteen years old, I followed my father to Tibet to do business, and I got lost unexpectedly, and I met him immediately!" I looked at the man and said.

"And then? Go on! The man looked at me and said.

"That day was the 18th day of May in the year of Jichou, just after noon, I was in Namco, Tibet, thirteen years old, soaking wet, like a homeless stray cat, wandering on Zhengyang Street, altitude sickness and majestic rain, so that I was already delicate, almost fainted." I looked at the man and said.

"Well, that's pretty pathetic!" The man looked at me and said.

"Just when I felt that I was about to die, a black car, facing the heavy rain, stopped beside me, and a middle-aged uncle in Tibetan clothes stepped out of the car, looked at me and asked in Tibetan: "वावा, तुम किसके बच्चे हो"

After hearing him mutter, I couldn't understand what he was saying at all, looking at his fat body, coupled with his bearded face, I was even more scared, and I cried out "wow" when I lost my voice. I looked at the man and continued.

At this moment, the traffic light was already time, and he listened to me as he drove quickly forward.

Finally, as my crying became louder and louder, the middle-aged man seemed to understand that I was not a Tibetan, so he looked at me and said in Chinese again: "Doll, don't cry, uncle is a good person, whose child are you, are you lost, uncle send you home!" ”

Hearing the uncle say this, I, who was young at the time, instantly believed it, stopped crying, and looked at him and nodded. I looked at his side face and continued to talk nonchalantly.

"Even if you are now, you are still as simple as before!" He looked back and said lightly.

I don't know when it started, I began to lose faith in the world, at first I thought I was the only one, but finally I gradually began to find that the Internet suppressed the cloud appeared around me.

Then I was surrounded by mourning stuff.

But life shouldn't be like this, is it?

Although life may not always be so satisfactory, everyone who has experienced it should have a deep experience.

Life is like this, full of apprehension but at the same time full of surprises.

Each of us has come all the way with blood on that thorny road, why can't we be if others can?

All of us should learn to grow in the thorns and be nourished in the blood, so that we can grow up and mature slowly.

Don't say anything about the world is not worth it!

Life on earth is really short, and we should learn to cherish every day, and of course these words seem like nonsense.

But cherish the people around you who love you and the people you love, although this sentence is nonsense, it is full of truth.

So, friends, even if you are negative today, you should learn to face life optimistically, as the saying goes, troubles are also over, happiness is also over, why live so tired.

"Really? I don't think so! I said stubbornly.

"And then? What happened? He seemed interested.

Later, the uncle opened the car door and let me get into the car, and when I got into the car, I found that there were three men in the car, and the driver in front was a tall and thin man, who was driving the car at the moment, smoking at the same time, and in the co-pilot next to him, there was a man in a black hoodie, and at the moment the man was wearing a hat, and I didn't see his face clearly, but I felt that his aura was very cold.

We are not afraid of wind and rain, we move forward bravely!

So promise me, from today onwards, live every day of your life happily, and really feel every love from around you, okay?

Even if the world is sinister, your life should bloom beautiful flowers from thorns!

We can't predict the future, so we don't know what will happen after growing up, and we don't know when the dream in our hearts will come true, but it is this unknown blank that lays the foundation for our brave steps.

We can draw a blueprint for our future on this blank space, and we can arbitrarily construct our life structure on this blank space, which belongs to our future and our growth.

We are not afraid of wind and rain, we move forward bravely!

We move forward!