Unfortunately, I got sick......

My cheeks were so high that my teacher moved me to the last row, but I was the only one in the last row.

I leaned against the blackboard in the back, and at first I thought it was cool, but I was complacent about it, and I felt like I was being treated specially. My mom took a mask to cover my bulging cheeks, and I was watched by my peers like a sick child in a TV series.

Gradually, I felt that their eyes were a little uncomfortable, and I think Xiaoqiu must have been stared at by these people like this, because once something different, she will be stared at like this.

But my mom told me it was contagious, so I couldn't talk to my friends and had to stay away from them. But they thought I was different, and they would still be close to me, and the teacher said it many times to no avail.

In the end, I was asked to go home after class......

I came back thinking it was great, but within a few days I was very uncomfortable. Xiaoqiu and a few friends would also come downstairs to my house to wave to me, but I felt that it was unsafe to take such a detour, so I asked my mother to help me talk, and they never came.

Later, the depression made me uncomfortable, and I used to lie on the table and think about a lot of things, thinking about the past, thinking about the present, and thinking about the future.

I like to stare at the fish in the glass case, watching them swim around, the soft tails are almost transparent, and I will occasionally knock on the glass door in the right place to see how panicked they look. Later, I got tired of it, and I would read books, and I also used Olympiad books to ponder.

I was particularly impressed by that three-and-a-half afternoon, Thursday in August.

Before I could wake up, I heard a vague conversation, but I didn't pay attention to it. It wasn't until someone wrapped my hand that I could clearly feel something sharp piercing the back of my hand.

I opened my eyes and saw that the figure in front of me overlapped with the figure I had missed every day.

"Dad, Dad?!" I broke free and pulled my hand out of him.

I wanted to pretend to be calm and even expressionless, but when I lowered my head, tears came out of my eyes unpleasantly, and I bit my lower lip hard, but I still couldn't control the movement of my shoulders shaking.

My nose was so sore that I couldn't breathe, and my dad grabbed my shoulder, and I threw it to the side and cried out in a very unproductive voice.

Dad held me in his arms, and I struggled and couldn't escape.

"I'm sorry, baby! I'm really sorry! Daddy apologizes to you! Dad's voice was small, as if he had been swallowed by something.

I couldn't hold back my crying anymore, I covered my eyes and tried desperately to stop the tears, but it just leaked out between my fingers!!

Mom came in and asked Dad to go out first, Mom she hugged me and she patted me on the back.

"Baby, don't cry, pay attention to your cheeks can't cry so much, don't cry, don't cry, Dad will not leave when he comes back, I have planned to reconcile with my father, and I will grow up with you in the future!" Because you are sick, your mother can't take good care of you at work, your grandparents are also old, and they can't trouble the two old people, and there are no conditions in the countryside to help you see a doctor......" Mom's eyes were also red, and she spoke one by one, holding back tears.

I got a lot better under my mother's reassurance, but I was still very unaccustomed to treating a strange, intimate person I hadn't seen in years.

"Uh-huh, I know Mom"

Mom helped me put on my shoes and took my hand and walked to the room, I saw my dad smoking at the window, looking at his back and feeling a little vicissitudes, my dad saw me come out and immediately put out the cigarette.

He walked in towards me, and I subconsciously hid behind my mother's back, and my father paused, and now that I think about it, it must have hurt his heart a little.

Mom pulled me out and I looked at my dad, he used to have a little bit of stubble to prick my face, he didn't look the same and there was a lot of change.

My mother told me that I was going to the hospital today to hang water and get injections, and I was quite scared, but seeing my father inexplicably increased my sense of security.

We were speechless all the way, because my father talked to me and I didn't respond to him very enthusiastically, and then I pretended to be very tired and lay on my mother's lap and meditated with my eyes closed.

Later, when I came to the hospital, my father went to register and I sat with my mother, and my mother took out my favorite chocolate from her bag, and I was not interested.

The nurse pushed the cart up to me and called my name, and my mom rolled up my sleeve. Dad held my other hand, and I didn't dare to move it for fear that the needle would twist and it would lead to something else, and until now I suspect that my dad was right.

The nurse picked up a blister on my arm, and the whole family stared at the pinhole, and I could clearly feel the distress and discomfort of the two parents around me.

Mom was frowning and her mouth kept pumping, and Dad was holding my hand very hard, which made me feel nothing~ fearless.

Mom and Dad had a lot of conversations, and I could tell that they had reconciled, and I was grateful for the disease.

Dozens of minutes passed, and the blisters on my arms disappeared.

The nurse had just put a needle in the back of my hand, and when it was all done, I knew my dad was going to have a long talk to me.

Dad sat next to me and Mom hugged me.

"Baby, I hope you can forgive Dad, Dad really did something wrong this time, Dad is coming back now to get forgiveness from you and Mom, it doesn't matter if you don't forgive now, it's a long time coming!" Dad was still holding my hand.

As I listened, I hid my tears in my mother's arms......

"Then shake hands......" I said in a whispered voice that they could all hear.

This is how my parents taught me to make peace with others when I had a conflict with my classmates.

"Baby~" I turned my head to see their hands holding together, but I knew that my mother still had a problem in her heart, but I still smiled, because I didn't want my mother to worry, the adult world, I have begun to prepare for contact.

Mom kissed me on the top of the head, I didn't want my mom to feel reluctant to part their hands naturally, although the relationship was saved, but it still won't be the same as before.

"Where have you been? Did you go back to your grandmother's house? ”

"Yes, I got a decent job there, and Dad actually came back to see you a few times."

"Huh?! I don't believe ......"

"Really!" Mom chimed in.

"Okay then" I chose to believe when I heard my mom say this.

"Then will you kiss your father?" Mom looked at me, and I saw the eagerness in her eyes, and I saw my father's eyes brighten.

I shook my head, after all, I am a very grudgeful person, and this explanation did not eliminate the discomfort in my heart.

Now I am very grateful for that illness, which rekindled the hope of my family, the scar will not go away, but it will be repaired with a lot of love, and I wish every family happiness.

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I'm lucky to be your sister, and it's the most sudden thing I feel about happiness coming from. It was you who came to this world quietly, and I felt that the beauty of the world was blooming in front of me, so within reach.

Sixth grade, around 5.40pm on Thursday, I was watching the finale of Balala Little Demon Fairy.

Mom and Dad told me to stop playing, and I did as I wondered.

Dad looked into my eyes and stopped talking, Dad kept looking at Mom, Mom poured a glass of water from the coffee table and held it in her hand, which was a habitual action that Mom was a little overwhelmed about.

I broke the ice, "What's the matter, looks like there's something to say."

"Yes baby, we do have something to tell you." Daddy spoke up

"Mom now has a little life in her belly."

"Ahhhh!!h Are you sure?! That's great!!! "I'm incoherent like a madman!!

"But baby, we can't have two girls in our family right now......" Mom said softly with a sip of water, and then let out a long sigh.

If it's a very light sentence, I find it hard to believe! Until now, in 2020, I still can't accept this fact......

Why would it be?! How could it be?!

I didn't speak, I couldn't speak, everyone was silent and melancholy, fixed like a heavy plaster cast in a small field of vision.

My parents didn't take me to an amusement park, they didn't go to a zoo, they didn't go on a tour, and they didn't do a craft together.

I didn't complain, but I felt that my childhood was indeed regrettable, so I didn't want anyone to have a regretful childhood with me, let alone my brother or sister, who were all my treasures.

"What then?" I didn't cry, I was just cold and helpless.

"Then let's watch first, and if it's a boy, keep it."

Mom lowered her head and choked up, I knew that I didn't have any right to accuse one of them, it was also Mom and Dad's own flesh and blood, if it wasn't for the last resort, how could they think so.

Our family runs a store, and it seems to me that the income is quite surplus, but I don't know that this is just a superficial imagination.

So I started praying every day as a younger brother, and I prayed during class and after class.

The last prayer was the result of accompanying my mother to do ultrasound and so on, and it wasn't until my mother tearfully announced that it was a younger brother, and I was relieved.

I stepped forward and hugged my mother, touched her slightly bulging belly, and kissed my precious brother in an almost sacred position.

Every day when I get home from school, my mother's stomach is bulging day by day, and my mother once grabbed my hand and wanted to put my hand on her belly, I was nervous and overwhelmed.

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Later, something that impressed him once.

My friend whispered to me that there was a pair of CPs in her class

I feel like it's going to show up, something.

Then she pointed it out to me and told me that they were soon together and that they didn't have each other's contact details. Jin Siyi looked at me in disbelief, but I felt that they were all strangers anyway, so I didn't pay attention to it.

Now recalling this incident, 10,000 XXX horses galloped by!

And then until my junior year of high school, I didn't have any interest in him.

Later, the third year of high school once on New Year's Day, ohmygod.

This person added me, I just wanted to match him and Jin Siyi at that time, and then I agreed to it, if it weren't for Jin Siyi, I wouldn't agree with him, because I don't like to have too much involvement with boys, especially people who don't know each other well and don't have a good impression. Hahaha~

He said that he asked him to teach Cantonese, but at the beginning he asked a few words about Cantonese, and then everything else was about other things, and then I found that this person was very talkative and talked a lot.

At that time, I had made an appointment to celebrate New Year's Eve together, but I fell asleep at that time. Haha~ It's a pity......

Then I went back to school after the holidays, and I went...

This person's Internet is so different from reality, that is, you can pretend to turn a blind eye, I was still wondering if it was him who was chatting with me at that time?

Then at that time, he gave me the impression that he was still in a flowery heart, talking a lot, and the reality was in great contrast.

Huaxin is because he got along with his girlfriend for a few months and then broke up, and at that time I used the scum to describe this boy.

Hahaha~

Then after a long time, I forgot what we were talking about. Because this man didn't interest me much anyway, I almost forgot a lot about him. It seems that it was a few days before the art examination results came out, because at that time, when the art examination results came out, it should have been the first time I spoke. He asked me how much I scored.

At that time, I thought this person was sick. Why are you asking me about my grades for no reason...

But out of politeness I told him ...

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It's time to take graduation photos

The first time I took a group photo, I went to ,,, this person really took a death angle, and his good looks couldn't resist this~

Finally, I adjusted it manually, hehe~

At that time, oh my God~Why are you a little uncomfortable~

Probably because their ambiguous eyes are drifting around us.

Then something more embarrassing happened.

There's a girl who likes him and asks me if he likes you? Although I don't know how to answer at the time, I mean we were friends. Then the girl asked me why did he do this to you?

It was a little awkward at the time, because I didn't know why he was doing this.

I feel like I'm really friends with him, but I haven't reached the level of being good friends, so I encourage girls to confess to him.

Then the girl told me that one day at noon she sent him a long text, which must be regarded as her doubt.

Later, they seemed to have a conflict, and I don't know much about it.

The girl told me he was fine. If you're really together, maybe it's good.

I just smiled because I felt unlikely.

Long before the comparatively long ago. A tablemate matched me and him. But I felt sick at my tablemate.

At that time, I was also a little confused, and I was also a little curious about how he felt about me.

But I didn't dig any deeper.

Later, the college entrance examination was over, and I thought I had no intersection with him.

I didn't expect this person to be on the 11th...

Hahaha~

I promised him just to get rid of a man's entanglement.

Didn't like him at that time.

If it's the details, I don't know if it's a coincidence or what. Even when I was in school, I got up very early, but I was able to say hello to him. I don't think he should have gotten up so early at work at that time.

I didn't ask him either.

Since then, I've been in a good place, and this person is OK.

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I remember the first time ...

At that time, he was on vacation, and then we made an appointment in Sihong.

It was really embarrassing at that time, very special and very embarrassing.

Because I don't really have any kind of liking for him between men and women.

Then I asked Yue Duoyun for help, but this person knew that he was gloating and said that this was your love

I remember it was the first day a week later. But this person didn't even mention to me about that feeling for a week.

I'm too embarrassed to mention it, because we're about to meet, and I don't want to be embarrassed like this.

I also dressed up a little bit before I went out. Forehead... Dress up more seriously.

Then when I got to the station he rode to pick me up, and I carefully grabbed his clothes. Then just talk about it. I couldn't find anything good to talk about, and when he parked the car, I thought he was walking fast, and then he turned around and grabbed my hand, and I was surprised, and I shook his hand away in an instant, and the air was filled with embarrassment.

Then when I got to the place where I was eating, the man complimented me on being prettier than before. Hahahaha~

I'm really shy...

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Happy breakup, but no happiness at all

It was meant to be

How can a girl take such an initiative

And he really doesn't talk about it, I've told him everything, I want to share something with me!

The result......

Still no words, so sad......

In fact, I don't ask for much, you take the initiative to say four or five words to me every day, and I am very satisfied.

But it didn't ...

I really like you, but I don't want to take the initiative every time.

That's why I proposed to be friends, but I know that I won't be friends with you.

We're going to be more and more estranged, because I'm going to have a hard time being friends with you. I like you, not like you.

I like you more and more, and I'm afraid that I'll sink too deep and cry endlessly.

It's better to say it earlier.

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