CHAPTER XLIV

"Anya, what's the matter? Zhao Feng asked politely, this man's voice was very magnetic and very gentle.

But instead of referring to Anya as Miss Anya or Miss Ann, he called her by her first name, which shows that they may have been close to each other in their childhood.

Anya looked carefully at the man who spoke, although they had spoken together last time, she did not carefully observe the man's appearance.

I saw the fair skin of the man in front of him, a pair of dazzling black eyes seemed to be able to see through everything in the world, his eyes were like the first moon when he smiled, and his eyes looked like cold stars in the night sky when he was calm. The nose is straight and the lips are bright. When you laugh, you are as sweet as sugar, and when you are silent, you are as cold as ice. The silhouette of the side is as sharp and angular as if cut with a knife, but it is not overly tough and lacks the softness it should have.

Although this man is not as cold as Yi Lingsheng, he does have a bit of gentle charm, and his appearance is also somewhat similar to Bai Yan, no wonder Yi Ling is jealous when he sees it.

Anya was a little fascinated by it, but then reacted.

"A cappuccino, sweetened, thank you." Anya was also unceremonious, and after ordering coffee, she smiled and watched the waiter leave.

Zhao Feng stared at Anya sitting opposite him and felt very curious, and couldn't believe that Anya at this moment had really forgotten many things back then.

Anya was a little uncomfortable being stared at by Zhao Feng, so she went straight to the point, and asked why she met Bai Yan when she was a child, Zhao Feng pondered for a while, looked a little depressed, and sighed with emotion:

"Miss Anya, you're Sister Bai Yan's best friend."

"Now you want to ask me this, it's really impermanent."

Hearing Zhao Feng say this, Anya's doubts in her heart became bigger and bigger, not only about Bai Yan's background and acquaintance experience, but even Anya recalled in her mind that Bai Yan was Yi An's adoptive mother identity in the novel, if all this is inextricably linked to the Bai family and the An family, is it because of the relationship between the two families?

The thoughts drifted farther and farther away, and before she completely fell into contemplation, she was pulled back to reality by Zhao Feng's words, Zhao Feng told Anya that she was very stupid when she was young, and the family did not discipline her very much, and in the face of such a daughter who couldn't do it, the An family gradually became powerless, and later gave up disciplining her, and only favored this little daughter An Yao.

These are things that Anya has already learned through novels and her own personal experiences. So she wasn't surprised, but nodded and urged him to continue.

Zhao Feng saw that he was so interested, so he continued to talk endlessly.

When they were young, Zhao Feng, Anya, and Bai Yan were playmates who played together, and the reason why the three of them got together was quite sad, in the final analysis, because they were unwilling to contact with someone with them, Anya was stupid, Bai Yan was an illegitimate daughter, and Zhao Feng's situation was special.

He doesn't have any reason to be excluded by others, it's just that because of the Zhao family's great cause and many heirs, he is just an inconspicuous grandchild, his mother is the youngest daughter of the Zhao family, because it is not like the eldest son and eldest daughter who has the political need for family marriage, so she just married an ordinary person she loves, and she herself is also free and easy, and she is engaged in art in Europe, and has no interest in participating in family affairs at all.

The child she gave birth to is naturally not valued in the family, and there are even rumors that the child was adopted by Zhao's mother.

So as a marginal child of a big family, he can naturally choose who to be friends with, he met Bai Yan not long after she was taken home, and the two unexpectedly had a lot of fun, and it took less than an afternoon to become good friends.

As for Anya and Bai Yan, it was at a chance party, the stupid Anya happened to meet Bai Yan, she is the daughter of the Bai family, and the party was full of upper-class people, what a famous daughter, a wealthy young master, and the prestige chairman and boss of the family all gathered here, so it was not lively, including Bai Yan was also here.

But at that time, Bai Yan had just been taken back to the Bai family, and the rumors circulated for a while before slowly dissipating, and Bai Yan was helpless, because the rumor that she was an illegitimate daughter made her suffer a lot of criticism and guidance behind her back.

At that time, Mrs. Bai and Master Bai were still young, and they were determined to have a son and a half daughter, so she was not valued by the Bai family, although Mrs. Bai and Master Bai did not make her feel bad, but they treated her coldly, and they never let her feel the warmth of their family. She struggled to survive in this disdainful and indifferent gaze, swallowing her anger and having no friends.

But Anya was different, she gave Bai Yan warmth when they first met, held her hand affectionately, gave her a great hug, and gave Bai Yan the hairpin on her head, Bai Yan was pleasantly surprised, she never thought that anyone would be willing to make friends with her, and give her this extremely warm treatment and love. Although Anya is demented, Bai Yan feels very happy to have such a kind friend.

Although Anya was ignorant in the face of the world at that time, she had the most intimate care for Bai Yan and regarded her as her best friend.

Bai Yan often speaks to Anya, looking at Anya's demented expression, sometimes laughing happily, making stupid but taciturn, silent, as if there is something on her mind, and even like a different person, he generally has no reaction, only knows that he sits dementedly.

This is Bai Yan is always very worried, even a little scared, such Anya is more like a doll or other soulless thing than a human being.

Once Anya suddenly sobered up, looked at Bai Yan's face, and told her that she was depressed in her heart, that the world was too pale and powerless for herself, helpless and fearful, desperate and painful, and that she was like a pile of rotten food and garbage, which had been abandoned.

Struggling in the swamp, desperate in despair, dead wood is not necessarily spring, light does not illuminate the body, darkness swallows up itself endlessly, the end of the road is not found, if you can, it is excellent to change the world, and this pain will disappear.

Bai Yan gently stroked Anya's head, comforted this wounded heart, and carefully held it, maybe the fate of the two of them, this common loneliness, made them close to each other before.

In this way, they have been accompanying each other, communicating with each other, growing together, and as time goes by, the two gradually grow up, and Anya's dementia does not necessarily get better, but becomes more and more serious.