Engineering for Life

Volume I

Chapter Forty-Seven: Midnight Dreams

No matter how many grievances there are, how uncomfortable they are, the only one who can heal themselves in the end is themselves.

Sad, sad, wronged, sick, we sometimes go around talking and praying for care like crazy, but it doesn't help.

People who are willing to warm us are always there.

Those who do not want to warm us pray that they will not come.

The only thing that warms us the most is ourselves!

Don't write your grief on your face, don't let the pain come to your mouth, don't hide your frustration in your mind, don't let melancholy fill your heart.

Everyone has a story with twists and turns, everyone recites difficult scriptures, everyone walks through bumpy roads, and everyone is born with a weak heart.

None of this is an excuse for us to pray for comfort and care, much less a reason to give up on being strong.

Let the story become a memory, turn the ups and downs into a smooth road, the difficult scriptures will always be familiar, and the weak will eventually become strong.

In this world, there is no cure for the disease, only people with super self-healing ability are worthy of all the end, and can win life with a smile and pride.

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It takes a few hours to give birth to a person, and the longest is even settled on a daily basis, which is the situation of the mother giving life.

It usually only takes a second to die a person, and if you can't get up in one breath, you will die.

Or like a little security guard, who was forced to have some kind of deformation in an instant by a steel formwork weighing several tons, I don't know if such a thing is painful, because none of us dare or want to experience it.

Life is priceless, and that's for the living.

Life also has a clear price, at certain times.

Everything in this world has such and such standards to quantify, but the quantified life loses the meaning of life, and the quantified person has become a dazzling symbol until it is forgotten by everyone.

At present, everyone will not forget this matter, Lin Yun, who was lying on the bed after dinner, couldn't fall asleep over and over again, Chen Lei asked about this matter three times, Lin Yun just replied a few words, and Lin Yun didn't want to describe the scene in detail.

The details of the scene really made people who saw it unable to eat or sleep, so no one who had been to the scene at noon had eaten.

In the evening, Lin Yun didn't eat much, including Zhang Ping and Boss Zeng, who didn't eat at noon, but they all came to the canteen, but they did lose their appetite as soon as they were served, but Lin Yun, who got off the table, felt a little hungry again.

Forget it, when it comes to losing weight!

Lin Yun was thinking endlessly in his mind, these people at the management site plus Zhang Ping had just won the advanced individual of the year, this is simply a great irony, this has just finished taking the advanced individual There is such a thing, if the time can be reversed, this Lao Shizi annual advanced individual is not good, maybe there will be no such thing.

Since October, Lin Yun and Dr. Ma have met less and less, and now they have only met four times in the past three months, and the last two times have not even met Lin Yun.

It also made Lin Yun a little depressed, could it be that this woman has begun to dislike and get tired of herself?

She didn't say it, Lin Yun didn't ask, it was still a message and chatting when the two of them each remembered it, and Dr. Ma when chatting was much more enthusiastic than Dr. Ma when they met recently.

Maybe women are weird, for men, most of them don't know much about women's hearts, life and work have long been complicated, a mess, lack of energy has become an excuse for all men to shirk.

"Are you on duty today?"

"No, I just went to the mall."

"Bought something?"

"I didn't buy anything, I just went shopping."

Like these, is the biggest difference between women and men, when men are fine, what they like most is to find friends to drink and brag, this kind of purposeless shopping will not, I would rather sleep at home with my head covered than go shopping, and the body structure may also determine the thought, which is about true.

"If you don't buy anything, what's there to go about."

"It's okay not to buy it, I went to the children's clothing area just now, I like those little girls' clothes so much, it's so beautiful."

Lin Yun saw that Dr. Ma said this, and he had already spelled out the answer, but after thinking about it, he deleted it and re-edited it, and if there were some words, he really couldn't say nonsense.

"Then why don't you buy it?"

"I won't buy it for the time being, but I will definitely buy it in the future."

"Let's talk about the future!"

Lin Yun couldn't hold back, and if he didn't say anything, maybe it was because of today's confusion, Lin Yun felt that his brain seemed to be blocked by something, his thoughts were not so active, and he was also not interested in chatting with Dr. Ma.

"One person was stoned to death at our construction site today, a young man in his twenties."

"Ah, the dead worker who was pulled back to our hospital today, and then pulled away after a while was from your construction site?"

"Well, don't take it and talk about it everywhere, we won't let it go out."

Although Lin Yun knew Dr. Ma's character and would not talk everywhere, he still gave an instruction, and blamed himself, why didn't he hold back from saying it, maybe in Lin Yun's heart, this woman is trustworthy, as if apart from her, there is no one who can be trusted in this place.

Many times people are so sad, they smile at everyone at work and in life, and greet each other politely and warmly, but they are always superficial.

It's not that the people around us are not trustworthy, but that they don't have a full understanding of the people around them, not to find people who can't be trusted, but because of the usual negligence, there is a situation for a while, and we really don't know who to talk to, we can't take the initiative to choose, and the person who involuntarily jumps out of our hearts at this time is about the person we are most trustworthy.

And at this moment, what jumped out of Lin Yun's heart was Doctor Ma, Chen Lei, who was already snoring like thunder around him, did not count, this kid is the best material to be a friend and brother, but this person cannot become the object of Lin Yun's confiding, many times the inner choice is so wonderful.

After a long time, Dr. Ma replied with a message.

"You find me a personal photo that you think is the best, and I'll be useful."

"I don't have it on my phone now, I'll find it on my computer tomorrow and send it to you."

"Hmm."

"I want to sleep, you should rest early."

"Hmm."

Lin Yun, who ended chatting with Dr. Ma, exited the WeChat chat interface, it was only ten o'clock, in fact, he said that he wanted to sleep, not really wanted to sleep, but the brain needed to rest, not the kind of rest that sleeps, but simply wanted to be quiet.

Turning off the light and returning to the bed, with Chen Lei's snoring from time to time, Lin Yun began to wander into the Eight Desolations.

This is about the feeling of Zhuangzi's "Getaway", muddy but clear.

……

After two days of this incident, Lin Yun's mood has been relieved to a certain extent, Jiang Dayong and Zhong Fatzi have returned, the little security guard has been buried, the total compensation amount is more than 1.3 million, and the elderly in the countryside have not made excessive requests, and there are also some jobs done by Boss Zhang and her wife of the bridge team, after all, they are relatives, I heard that Boss Zhang of the bridge team also took 120,000 yuan to the old couple in private.

Boss Zhang should also do this, but this made everyone in the project department look down on Boss Zhang.

After the matter was dealt with, Boss Zhang asked everyone to go to the county seat for a meal, the person in charge of each office went, everyone didn't drink much, during the banquet Lin Yun also specifically asked Boss Zhang how old he was, Lao Zhang said that it was almost 48, Lin Yun pinched his fingers and counted, I will go, the year of my birth.

Taking advantage of the opportunity to toast alone, Lin Yun asked Lao Zhang to find a place to ask God and Buddha to worship, anywhere, anyway, whatever mountain you go to, you can burn any incense, and seek a little ethereal blessing!

The people who are engaged in engineering more or less believe in this thing, and Boss Zhang nodded and said okay, just go in a few days.

After eating, Lao Zhang of the bridge team dragged Boss Zeng and Jiang Dayong to play cards with the soft-shelled turtle of the machine material department, and Chen Huayong in the laboratory took Luo Bing and Lu Buqun to watch a movie.

Lin Yun, Chen Li, Zhang Ping and Li Bo were left behind, and they were going to go back, Lin Yun asked Zhang Ping, didn't you agree to a treat, just today, you invite us to sing.

Zhang Ping agreed, so a few people went to sing, Zhang Ping was still dressed up, a well-fitting black dress dress, the lower part of the neck and sleeves were transparent, coffee-colored stockings, Lin Yun liked Zhang Ping who was dressed like this, capable and feminine.

Singing and drinking, there will be people who get drunk, this time it is Zhang Ping who is drunk, and some people are drunk, so everyone can only go back.

The drunk woman was very troublesome, and when Lin Yun and Chen Li helped Zhang Ping downstairs, the woman was clamoring not to go back, and shouted why Lin Yun pinched her last time she sang......

Lin Yun looked at the strange eyes of everyone who had discovered a new continent, and he couldn't wait to find a crack in the ground to get into.

The scene switched, in a hotel, Lin Yun helped Zhang Ping to open a room alone, went upstairs, sent the woman to the room, helped her to lie on the bed, and was about to turn around and go downstairs to meet the people who were soaking their feet downstairs and relaxing.

One hand grabbed Lin Yun tightly, and his mouth was mumbled.

"Why did you pinch my ...... last time"

Is it unbearable or unbearable lin yun who has not been comforted by doctor ma for too long listened to this at the moment, and then turned around and saw someone's somewhat messy skirt on the bed, as well as the exposed quilt. Socks wrapped tightly around the legs......

Desire spurred the restless person with a whip, and finally pounced on Zhang Ping's body, the moment he felt that he was pressed and gagged, Zhang Ping's eyes widened, and he pushed two hard, and completely gave up resistance without pushing, closed his eyes, and hugged Lin Yun's neck tightly in turn.

The restless heart stirs the restless man, the restless hand is wantonly invading and searching every inch of territory, with a frenzy and unquestionable, familiar and strange feeling makes the excitement even more exciting......

Meteors streaked across the night sky and eventually rushed to the earth, and the hot meteorite burrowed deep into it like a red-hot knife cutting into butter.

The frightened wild horses galloped freely on the grassland with an untamed attitude, the chaotic sound of horses' hooves was dense and tight, like thunder rolling, and like the dense drumbeat smashing on people's chests and ears one by one, and the unknown birds in the distance seemed to be crying, far and near, high and low......

In this dark night, all things in the restless grassland are boiling at this moment, and they are ...... for a long time

The tired wild horses slowly stopped running, and the birds gradually forgot to chirp.

The inseparable restlessness is still tightly hugging and intercourse. Wrap.

Another meteor streaked across the night sky, and the wild horses, resting for a while, drove the grassland again, repeating the ...... until the night sky and the earth returned to true silence.

The door opened, Lin Yun, who could hear the sound of the door, quickly turned around, and there was a tearful Dr. Ma standing at the door, holding a beautiful and lovely little girl in his arms, with a sense of déjà vu between his eyebrows.

Dr. Ma with the child in his arms just stood at the door, looking at the dresses and discarded shoes, and the coffee-colored silk that was littered beside the bed. Socks, with sobs turned and left.

Lin Yun put on his clothes and shoes in a panic, got up and chased out, and caught up with Dr. Ma in a few steps, Lin Yun grabbed Dr. Ma's shoulders with his hand, trying to turn her around.

The person in front stopped, slowly turned around, a bloody face, where is this Doctor Ma, this is clearly the little security guard who was crushed to death by the template, Lin Yun retracted his hand, and when he saw that his hands were full of blood, he turned around and ran, and the people behind him followed closely erratically, Lin Yun wanted to shout, but found that he couldn't make any sound.

"Ah~"

Finally shouted out, and then woke up from the dream, it took Lin Yun a full five minutes to remember where he was, the dead face in the dream was so real that it made people's hearts palpitate.

Sweat soaked the back and the sheets that had just been laid out for a few days, and the underwear was also soaked with sweat, but there were some unspeakable reasons besides sweat.

It was only three o'clock in the morning, and it was only a few hours after such a long and real dream.

Quietly got up, didn't wear a coat, went to the bathroom and took a quick shower, changed out the underwear that was stained by the thing that had not been released for a long time, and quickly washed it off.

Lin Yun, who returned to the bed again, felt refreshed, and when he saw that the time was still not yet four o'clock, he felt a little cold, pulled the quilt and wrapped it, and began to ponder this strange dream.

It's not accurate to say that I think about it day and night, it's not accurate, I really think that I have never had that indecent thought about Zhang Ping, just because I accidentally touched the indecent don't move, so I remembered it?

No, no, this subconsciously I may really have some unspeakable emotions towards Zhang Ping, from the bottom of my heart, I may really have the idea of kissing Fangze, just because there is no end to men's desire to explore!

This woman is something I don't hate, and the gossip and gossip of those boring people in my ear may have deepened this idea of finding out.

People are really strange creatures, they have never suppressed some bad thoughts, and they have never been infected with someone in one way or another. refers to the idea, but this beautiful person just appeared in his dream in this way, chasing together. Cloud. Chase. Rain, hug together. Embrace. Flip over. Get out and welcome together. Combine. Delivery. Wrap......

The people in the dream are really evocative, and the meaning is still unfinished, as if the warm fragrance is still lingering in the fingertips.

Well, the scene in this dream is so real, as if it is right in front of you, as if it has just happened, the skin that can be broken by blowing, the soft and warm body, the lingering and lingering are still rolling in the brain, and the shallow song is still in the ear.

This person, this dream, is strange, except for the last Dr. Ma and the little security guard who broke the illusion, everything else is so clearly visible.

The chaos caused by being frightened when I woke up in a dream has never been encountered in so many years, and it takes several minutes to remember where I am, which is probably the result of a strange dream with a weak heart.

All the details of the dream seemed to be engraved in his mind, lingering, and I don't know how long it took for Lin Yun to fall asleep again.

"Lin Yun, Lin Yun."

"What."

"It's seven-forty, and you haven't gotten up yet."

Chen Lei, who had already gotten up and finished breakfast, stood at the head of Lin Yun's bed with dishes and chopsticks, Lin Yun tried hard to get up, but he felt sore, weak and dizzy.

Seeing Lin Yun's appearance, coupled with the wrong face, Chen Lei put down the dishes and chopsticks and touched Lin Yun's forehead.

"You have a fever, you lie down, I'll go and ask you for leave first, and then buy you some medicine and come back."

"Well, thank you."

Chen Lei went out of the room and closed the door and left, Lin Yun entered that state of confusion and nightmare not long after, the faces of Doctor Ma, Zhang Ping, and the little security guard flashed quickly in his mind alternately, and slowly eliminated Doctor Ma, leaving only the faces of Zhang Ping and the little security guard flashing alternately, until in the end, only the little security guard's bloody and weird white face remained, staring at Lin Yun deadly, as if he was talking to himself, and as if he was calling......

"Lin Yun, Lin Yun."

"Hmm."

"The medicine is bought back, you eat and sleep again, I asked you for leave, I will go to Liangchang immediately, Xiao Luo is still waiting for me above, oh, by the way, there is bread in the cardboard box under my bed, if you are hungry, take it yourself."

After Chen Lei finished instructing, he went out again, Lin Yun waited for a few minutes and struggled to get up, there was no hot water, he found half a bottle of mineral water under the bed, took the medicine, read the instructions and quickly took the medicine, and then returned to the bed.

Lin Yun, who was tightly wrapped in the quilt, still felt a little cold, and struggled his weak body to get up again, and turned out a thick blanket in the simple wardrobe.

Lin Yun, who was wrapped in a quilt and a thick blanket, may have come up with the strength of the medicine, and fell asleep again.

"Don't come to me."

"Why?"

"Because I'm pregnant."

"Who's?"

"Whose do you say it is?"

"Then why can't I come to you?"

"I don't want to tell you why, you should be able to guess if you're so smart."

"But are you sure you really want to do that?"

"I'm sure, it's my dream and I don't want to wake up."

"But dreams have to wake up after all!"

"I'll talk about it when I wake up, thank you, goodbye, or never again."

“……”

The people in the dream drifted farther and farther, and their lead-like legs couldn't move a bit, so they could only watch the people go away.

Some people are sad, some people are crying in a low voice, tears blur their eyes, and a fire is brewing in their hearts until they spread to their whole body.

It's so hot, it's so hot, it's so hot, it seems like a pair of cold hands caressing the hot chest in a daze, it's Zhang Ping, Lin Yun can't help but hug the person in front of him tightly, hoping to use this cold to reduce his heat, the person in his arms slowly brushes every inch of this hot skin with cold hands, like cold raindrops falling on the dry and cracked earth, and the place where he passes is cool.

Slowly no longer feeling hot, slowly Lin Yun woke up, a little thirsty, and Lin Yun, who got up, drank the remaining water in the mineral water bottle.

I feel that my body is no longer sore, but I sweat so much, I am much more relaxed, I don't take a bath, it's too cold this day, don't aggravate the condition.

Come back in the evening to change out the sheets, I don't want to do this right now.

This fever is a bit evil, most likely because I woke up from a dream last night and sweated and went to take a shower and came back from a cold.

Lin Yun prides himself on being in good health, and it is rare to get sick once, but people are not made of steel after all, they are all meat. No matter how strong a person is, there are times when he can't bear it, and the upset work during this time and the relationship with Dr. Ma, coupled with the accident of the little security guard, finally crushed the camel.

Lin Yun was dressed neatly, looked in the mirror, his face was a little sickly pale, but he felt much better, and when he saw that the time was less than half past eleven, and he was a little hungry, Lin Yun still decided to go to the office to have a look first, and then wait for lunch.

This person is iron, his rice is steel, and he is hungry and panicked if he doesn't eat a meal, and he hasn't eaten well for several meals.

When I came to the office, Luo Bing was there, I was sloppy, I was looking at stocks with my mobile phone, and I was a little inexplicably complacent.

"Aren't you sick?"

The questioning Luo Bing was like the old Si Kou sitting in the hall, serious and businesslike, there was no emotional fluctuation in his words, he just glanced up at Lin Yun and turned to the computer screen again.

This animal, if you are obviously concerned, you have to say it so coldly, fuck your uncle, Lin Yun smiled bitterly in his heart.

"Isn't this still dead, come to the office and have a look."

Two poles are two poles, this Lin Yun is half dead, and he has to stop showing signs on his mouth.

Luo Bing raised his head again rarely, and gave Lin Yun a roll of his eyes when he raised his head.

"Don't worry, the work is not done, and no one will approve you if you want to die."

“……”

Did this rabbit cub take advantage of my illness to start killing me, it's not the style of talking usually, it's rare, it's really rare.

Suddenly, Lin Yun didn't want to quarrel with Luo Bing, who am I, I can fulfill your kid's wishes, if you want to quarrel with me, I just don't care about you.

Hmph, pretending to be a grandson is also good for someone in Lin.

Back in his seat, Lin Yun lit a cigarette, took a deep breath, and let the nicotine soak into his lungs that had not been nourished by cigarettes for a long time with the smoke, this was a long time and a night without smoking.

"cough ~ cough ~ cough cough ~ cough cough cough ~ cough ......"

This lung did not give the owner the slightest face, and then a violent cough seemed to want to excrete all the nicotine that had already infiltrated the lungs.

"Smoke less, and don't smoke when you're not feeling well."

MD, you don't smoke, is that cigarette on your table for soaking in water? Lin Yun, who had made up his mind that he couldn't disobey Luo Bing's wishes, still ignored Luo Bing, but couldn't help but slander in his heart.

But a few seconds later, Lin Yun still reluctantly extinguished the cigarette in the ashtray, this body is Lao Tzu's own, I can't do it with you for the sake of other signs, besides, I, Lin someone, am not the bar spirit who does not distinguish between four and six.