I'm almost done with the book, and there are about seventy or eighty thousand words, and the ending has been thought of, but seriously, I didn't expect it to be this ending.

What is it, let's read it when it is written, there are only tens of thousands of words left, and there is no need for spoilers. Actually, today's mood is quite complicated, it should have something to do with the ending of the whole story, right? Want to talk about it......

Before we talk, I have to apologize and admit one thing.

Actually, I don't have an outline.

Never.

From the original "Hundred Ghost Taboo" to today's "Worm Sheng: Desperate Journey", I wrote wherever I thought of it.

Occasionally, there will be some parts that seem to have been foreshadowed before, purely following the feelings, and things that appear naturally. It's as if I'm constantly finding my lost memories. I'm really good at it, and I always write about memory and personality.

It's been five or six years, and today I apologize to all readers, I am an irresponsible author.

Let's talk about the mood again, in fact, it is because of Du Youlan. A role that means a lot to me. Worm is the beginning of all stories, and it is also her last story. From now on, she will disappear from my book. I was very sad because I finally couldn't keep her in my heart forever......

I liked a girl in high school, I liked it for a long time, and after a long time, I finally had a chance to be with her.

But just as I pushed open the crack in the door, I closed it again.

At first, I felt like I had made the right choice.

It's a pity that time always knows you better than you do.

So, I had a Du Youlan in my book.

The first time she appeared was in "Hundred Ghost Taboo", at that time, she was a villain. But in the end, everyone understood that "Bai Wuji" was the betrayer, but he was also quite innocent, he didn't know anything, and he was responsible for Wei Heng and me. I didn't think it was right, so in the end I asked him to separate from Wei Heng.

Then there is the strange talk restaurant, I can't bear to be alone, and I don't want to be by her side. Therefore, there is Ye Yan again. Compared to Bai Wuji, he is more like a pure fool, or is he stupid? Well, that's right. Stupid people can be fearless, just like myself when I was young, I knew that I didn't deserve it at all, but as long as I liked it, I dared to ...... So as soon as I write about Ye Yan, I can always think of the love letter I wrote to her that year, which was later circulated by her class. But in this way, you don't think I am too self-conscious, I have to talk about my weight, I was a big fat man of 200 pounds that year.

But it may be that I think Wei Heng is too stupid and too unworthy of her. What to do? "Gods and Ghosts Gamble", Wei Heng has become a hell of hatred. But admittedly, that book should be considered the most unsuccessful, because ......

Hatred of hell is not worthy.

Besides, Du Youlan's attachment to Wei Heng, in fact, of course she will not have any attachment to a traitor like me, I believe this, she is a gentle and strong person, but she will definitely not be a fool. And Du Youlan, after all, I created it, so although I thought she was writing, it also incorporated my regrets, so that persistence was not Du Youlan to Wei Heng, but me to her. I always want to change the past, but I have to keep telling myself in the book that there is no time going back, what you change is just another time and space (in the novel), and the past and present of reality are already doomed.

Occasionally, I want to pin my hopes for the future. So I added the story of "The Ruins of Xiangliu", in that story, because of Yu Yue's two choices, Du Youlan has two endings.

Actually, it's just a different ending I want.

Because I did get in touch with her again, albeit in her words, "friends who don't have a good relationship".

Finally, it is "worm life", why is it called worm life? In fact, when I was the editor, I refused to let me use these two words, and I didn't think it was very good, but I insisted on this, not really changing the title of the book to irritation, but just a little selfishness. I want to correspond to the homonym of the name, rebirth. I thought it was an opportunity to connect with her again, but I found that she was strong before, but now she is stronger. I thought I was going to change, but I forgot that other people were growing up. I still can't keep up with her speed, I'll never be worthy, not to mention, I'm still a betrayer. I always want to start all over again, I want to find a reason for Zuo Le (Wei Heng), or just an excuse for myself, but in fact, the reality is always not as beautiful as the story, the reason can't hide the truth, the betrayer, the betrayer, always the betrayer.

So he finally couldn't be with Du Youlan, separated by different timelines and space lines, and there was no possibility of seeing each other forever (because the time I set was relatively passing, the meeting between Zuo Le and Ye Yan hinted at this, maybe time will eventually let Zuo Le see another 'Du Youlan', but that 'Du Youlan' is no longer what he once cared about in his heart, at most it is a bit similar, and Du Youlan corresponding to Zuo Le, in the end, still walked to a time and space line with Ye Yan), just like in reality, the time difference and distance between us.

I seem to have spoiled it, but it's not a big problem, after all, the emotional line is not all there is to the book.

Sometimes, I can't tell the difference between her and my role, and I don't know how I will feel when I actually write the last chapter of the book and say goodbye to her.

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Well, that's the end of the chat.

If someone reads it, it's my luck, thank you.

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