I saw my light in the abyss, dazzling, dazzling, and bewildered.

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It was a night of the first snow, and the winter night at night was especially charming.

Shao Yuan sat on the front of the beautiful modified car, supporting himself with both hands, stepping on the license plate number with one foot, and holding a half-smoked cigarette in his right hand.

I don't know what kind of car it is, it's not the one he often drives anyway.

The early autumn night was very cool, he wore a black leather jacket, slim jeans of the same color wrapped around his slender legs, and he also wore a pair of brown men's boots.

He was talking and laughing with a young man with curly yellow hair in front of the car, and when he heard my movement, he turned his head to look at me, and his movements were lazy. The diamond stud ear in his right ear flashed under the street lamp as it turned, and disappeared into the night in an instant.

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Shao Yuan sent the yellow-haired young man away, took off his cigarette, took two steps towards me, and hooked his hand at me with an open smile. His voice was as clear and nice as it had been when I first saw it. I heard him say to me:

"Savannah, come here."

It was also early autumn when I met Shao Yuan. I was fifteen years old, and he was like a light that shone into my life, throughout my youth.

As if to wash away the blood stains and sins of that night, it rained heavily in Cloud City on the night my dad was imprisoned, and the siren sounded in my ears for the night.

I didn't feel sad, on the contrary, I just felt that the shackles that had bound me for more than ten years had been untied, and I felt more relaxed than ever.

He was sentenced to life imprisonment for intentional homicide, and I personally reported it to the police, and the person who died was my mother.

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I still remember the woman lying in a pool of blood that night and the man sitting on the couch expressionless. It was obviously an extraordinarily bloody scene, but my heart was inexplicably calm.

It's cold-blooded, I thought.

I called the police in front of him when I entered the house, and he didn't try to stop me, just sneered.

"Grass, a really fucking SB woman, dare to steal people behind Lao Tzu's back."

I don't know if he said this to me or to himself, I didn't answer him.

All I know is that the only thing he did like a father for as long as I can remember was that he didn't let me lie down with my mom that night.

The kitchen knife on the coffee table seemed to have been soaked in blood, shining with a strange blood light.

The blood stains splashed on the glass glass filled with water, which was unexpectedly beautiful under the sparkle of the water, as amazing as the red lotus blooming in the water.

I couldn't hide the malice in my heart, so I picked up my phone and took a photo. The photo freezes the kitchen knife that killed my mother and the water cup on the coffee table, as if it freezes the more than ten years I have lived in this home.

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I was placed in an orphanage when I came out of the police station, when I was fifteen years old, and there were no relatives who wanted to adopt me.

Most of the children in the orphanage are under the age of 10, but there are also many minors my age, but most of them are disabled and a few have strange personalities.

After all, not many people want to adopt a child who is physically and mentally unsound, are they?

I'm lucky to be able to go to school.

Because of my excellent grades and family reasons, the school exempted me from tuition and miscellaneous fees, and I didn't even have to worry about living expenses, and the scholarship was a lot of income.

But I forgot that my so-called father was in prison, and his creditors would definitely come to me.

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They didn't know that I was in an orphanage, and the place where I used to live was rented, and they couldn't find me, so they blocked me outside the school.

It was a holiday day, and I stood upstairs from a distance and saw the familiar faces at the school gate, who should have seen me too, and pointed at me with a warning meaning.

I didn't plan to go back to the orphanage, but I just called the director to report it, and she seemed worried about me, and I don't remember how I was feeling at the time.

Normally, I never cared if I was home, and I didn't know why I called the dean.

Until I hung up the phone, I could hear my own heartbeat, like a blank piece of paper suddenly dyed with a thick ink, and in an instant it became a flower with the fragrance of ink.

Maybe it was because on the day I entered the orphanage, I heard the group of children who were laughing happily despite their physical disabilities calling her mother in a cheerful voice.

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Dean's mother.

I could hear the faint call from the bottom of my heart.

Because the fanfare of the group attracted the attention of the school, several security guards also began to wander around the school gate, and they did not blatantly come to me when I left the school.

After I left the school, I walked around the neighborhood for a long time, but they didn't come back. Twilight had fallen, and I didn't know how long I had been circling, and even when I thought they were gone, I was suddenly pulled into the alley.

The moment I fainted, I laughed at myself in my heart. Yes, where is it that easy.

If I hadn't met Shao Yuan that night, I'm afraid I would have been buried in the hands of those people for the rest of my life.

But it is precisely because of Shao Yuan that I am destined to be tied to him for the rest of my life.

When I woke up, I saw my father's creditor, and as expected, I wasn't surprised. He didn't seem satisfied with my reaction and touched my face with his big rough hands.

I felt a wave of nausea in my stomach, and I just looked at him coldly because of the constraints on my hands and feet.

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He was satisfied, and lifted my chin in what he thought was sultry.

"Fan Jingguo, this scumbag is not very good, but the daughter he gave birth to is beautiful, bright and white, and it hurts."

"What's the matter, your father owes me the money, I'm afraid you won't be able to pay it back in your life, as long as you follow me, I not only don't need you to pay back the money, but also ensure that you eat and drink spicy food."

He had a mouthful of yellow teeth in his open mouth, and the smell of bad breath and saliva sprayed on my face, almost fainting me.

I pressed my tongue against the socket of my back teeth, laughed wryly, and slapped it in his face.

“SB。”

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He was instantly annoyed and angry, and I just watched him laugh and inexplicably got the pleasure of revenge.

It's just that before he could make the next move, he was kicked out.

I heard the man ask me softly in a clear, nice voice, with a little caution.

"Is it Meijuan?"

The lights in the deep alley were dim, and he stood with his backlight, and I couldn't see his face clearly, but I felt that he was more dazzling than the light.

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I suddenly felt as if my heart had been hit by something, like a lake that had been calm for more than ten years suddenly being broken by a heavy rock. It was beating vigorously, as if it was about to jump out of the heart, and even its breathing was inexplicably tight.

He didn't say anything more, and turned to clean up the group.

He was followed by a group of people who untied me and helped me to my feet, and my eyes were always on the man who saved me.

It wasn't until he stood in front of me again that I suddenly reacted and wiped my face hard.

Only then did I see his appearance clearly, a height of more than one meter and eight, and he looked better than a star. He looked at me with scrutiny, and I looked back at him without evasion.

"You know me?"

"I don't know you."

"But you just called me Ah Shen."

He was stunned when he heard my words, then rubbed my head and said to me with a smile.

"Because I've seen you, I've been paying attention to you a long time ago."

I didn't expect such an answer, so I naturally blurted it out subconsciously.

"So you followed me before this? Want to come up with a hero to save the beauty? ”

After I finished saying this, I was stunned, and it was self-evident which beauty was being saved. For the first time in my life, I felt shame, and my ears warmed up.

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He let out a low chuckle in his throat and suddenly hooked his arms around my neck and took my lips in his mouth.

I didn't feel the slightest rejection, on the contrary, I thought that the saliva that the dog had sprayed on my face just now still smelled, and the kiss didn't seem to be beautiful.

He kissed me in the dim light of the deep alley.

He whispered to me in my ear.

"Yes, I fell in love with you at first sight a long time ago, so do you want to eat my trick?"

So I was caught off guard and was knocked into a dream called youth.

It's just that I didn't hear it clearly at that time, the name he called before saving me was Ah Shen, and I, my name was Zhou Shen.

I don't remember how I got back to the orphanage, I didn't see him for a long time, I didn't even ask his name. If it weren't for the debt collectors who never appeared in my life since, I almost regarded Shao Yuan's appearance as a dream.

My life has been peaceful ever since, my mother has been very kind to me, and the children in the orphanage have loved me. My school life is still every day, but I give lectures to the children in the orphanage during the holidays.

They don't have the opportunity to go to school, but everyone is hungry for it.

I often go around that alley, but I never see him.

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If it weren't for him reappearing in my life, my life might have been quiet forever.

But where did he come from, he suddenly burst into my world, and suddenly left, and suddenly appeared in my life when I thought he would never appear again.

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I met him when I was fifteen, I knew him when I was sixteen, and for a long time afterwards I always thought that he really loved me and only me.

The next time I saw him, it was also a holiday, and he stood at the school gate and waved at me, as dazzling as ever.

We would meet in that alley a lot, and he would kiss me like he had done that night, and he would take me by the hand and take me back to the orphanage, but he would never touch me.

If it weren't for the fact that night I saw him unload another man's hand with a blank face, I wouldn't have seen his little-known side.

He still had blood on his hands, but he came over and touched my face with a smile and asked me if I was afraid. The smell of blood lingered between my noses, familiar, fishy, and I didn't feel afraid.

I took the dagger from his hand, approached the man from whom he had removed one hand, stabbed his other hand with a knife, and nailed his hand into the plank.

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The screams rang out in the alley, echoing in my ears.

I didn't feel scared, and I even felt a wave of pleasure rush through my body.

It doesn't matter to me what kind of person Shao Yuan is, I just need to know that he is good to me, even if I become the same person as him, or if I am the same person as him.

I love him and I don't feel scared.

I was eighteen that year, and I was eighteen that day. He hugged me, kissed me, and fell into the abyss of lust with me over and over again in that deep alley.

If I hadn't seen the picture on his phone later, I might have believed him for the rest of my life, listening to him say that he loved me.

That person looked like me, and even when I first saw the picture, I thought it was me.

I walked over and hugged him, burying my face in his neck.

"I heard it's going to rain tonight, okay?"