On the wall outside the ward, there was a bunch of roses in the corner, Ling Yun opened his eyes, everything around him was still white, the instrument made a "drip-drip-drip" sound, and the breathing sound was very heavy and heavy.

"Awake?" The nurse who accompanied the bed was called Lin Shen, and when she saw Ling Yun waking up, she stood up and helped him tuck the corners of the quilt, the water hanging next to her was already warm, Ling Yun opened her mouth and couldn't make a sound, and pulled the tape that fixed the intubation, "Want to drink water?" ”

Ling Yun nodded, Ling Yun's parents came last night, took their younger brother, screaming in the ward, running around and jumping around, and kept trying to touch the instrument placed next to the bed.

The doctors and nurses really have no way to take Ling Yun's younger brother, obviously he is not young, but he has to do something that he can't understand, when the doctor changes Ling Yun's clothes, Ling Yun's younger brother looks at the buttons on the instrument, which arouses the motivation of senior fans of the game, and presses a few buttons.

Ling Yun coughed violently, the intubation inserted in his mouth was broken free, and he vomited blood out of his mouth, the emergency bell kept ringing, the doctor was confused, and called a few nurses to send Ling Yun to the emergency room, and when he came out, it was already half past three in the morning.

"Slow down, does it hurt?" Lin Shen took the thermometer out of the medicine box, unbuttoned his collar, and when he came out of the emergency room in the morning, his body temperature was a little high, "It's clipped, I don't know if the fever has subsided." ”

"It hurts..."Ling Yun looked at Lin Shen, and after being intubated for a long time, he wanted to gag a little, and pulled a sound out of his throat.

"Well, I'll pull it out later, what do you want to eat at noon?" Lin Shen pulled out the thermometer, the fever had not subsided, and it was better than this morning.

"Xiaolin, don't let that kid come in the future last night, hurry up and notify the family to deal with it, clean trouble, it's not easy for the indicators to stabilize, last night was so troublesome, it's a blessing that no one is in trouble." The head nurse knocked on the door of the ward, spoke in a somewhat hurried tone, walked to the bedside, and sat down on a chair.

"What kind of family do you say this, they are all brought out of the mother's womb, how can it be so different, I see that other children are hospitalized, and they have to surround a few family members for a little cold, which is distressing." The head nurse turned her head to look at Lin Shen, Ling Yun closed her eyes, tears slid down her cheeks, how could she be disgusted?

"Family reasons, this kid is quite bearable, I'm going to buy lunch, do you want to bring it for you?" Lin Shen glanced at Ling Yun and motioned to the head nurse to help accompany her.

"No, let's go ahead and buy something lighter, I guess I don't really want to eat it at this time." The head nurse's name is Wang Xi, and she has been conscientious in her post, and her family members and patients like her very much, mainly because of her strong professional knowledge and ability, and she also loves to talk.

"I'll be right back, and I can extubate later, right?" Lin Shen turned back step by step, "Or now?" ”

"Go ahead, I'll help him pull it out, what? Not sure? Wang Xi smiled, went to the disinfection station to wash his hands, and pushed the cart in, but Lin Shen hadn't left yet.

"No, I'm afraid he will hurt..."Wang Xi put on plastic gloves and motioned for Ling Yun to relax, Lin Shen held Ling Yun's hand, "Relax, don't be nervous, be light." ”

"Gross... It's so uncomfortable..."Ling Yun covered her mouth with tears in the corners of her eyes, "I want to vomit ......"

Lin Shen gave the plastic bucket to Ling Yun, his stomach churned, and he vomited until there was nothing left but bitter water, and he almost vomited all the bile.

"Let's go shopping, I'm going to have chemotherapy, did you tell him?" Wang Xi patted Lin Shen, and his eyes hinted out and said.

"I told him implicitly before, and he refused." Lin Shen ordered takeout, there is a porridge shop downstairs that tastes good, shrimp and scallop porridge, and I often gave Ling Yu some before.

"Let's say it again, we can't delay it any longer, and if we delay it any longer, we will lose." Wang Xi squeezed his eyes and let Lin Shen in.

Ling Yun was lying on the hospital bed, feeling empty for a moment, Lin Shen sat on the chair, his fingertips swirling in his palm, which could be regarded as soothing his emotions.

"Baby, can you start scheduling chemotherapy today?" After Lin Shen said this, his heart hurt violently, he brought the cup to Ling Yun's mouth, and put a straw, "Drink some water, I really can't rely on you this time." ”

"It's useless, they gave up too, didn't they?" Ling Yun shook his head, a drop of water crossed the corner of his mouth, and turned his head to look at Lin Shen, "They won't come again." ”

"You want my brother to come? Still missing Mom and Dad? Lin Shen coughed a few times, suggesting that Wang Xi hurry up and prepare.

"No, I'm tired of it, if it weren't for me, maybe... It wouldn't be like this. ”

"How come, when we're ready, we can do what we want to do and go where we want to go, right? Isn't it a loss to give up on yourself now? ”

"I can't help this, it's come to this, wouldn't it be better if I didn't find out this?"

"Wouldn't it be better if it was cured?"

I was speechless by this sentence, pulled the corners of my mouth and smiled, the nurse was convinced, Ling Yun looked at Lin Shen and nodded.

"They didn't keep the money, it means that they have lost me, my scholarship is in the bank card, and I just hold on until the day I can't hold on." Ling Yun moved her body and took the bank card out of her bag.

"No, as long as you are willing to cooperate, the hospital will bear the cost." Lin Shen pressed Ling Yun's hand into the quilt, Wang Xi walked into the ward with several nurses, and after an evaluation and examination, he was sent to the chemotherapy room.

Lin Shen has been following behind, Ling Yun has never thought of accepting these from the beginning, thinking that he will be left to fend for himself in the hospital, if he touches it, okay, he will be angry with them when he goes out, if he doesn't touch it, he will leave, and after he goes out, it will be an urn.

"I don't want to... Don't want to do it... No... No... Please, I really don't know what to do, did it... It won't be good......" Ling Yun grabbed the guardrail, the whole person was a little excited, and after being hoarse, he was tired and cried on the hospital bed.

The doctor pressed Ling Yun's body and injected a sedative, "Restraint belt." ”

"No, I'll accompany him, don't use a restraint belt." Lin Shen ran to the side of the bed and held Ling Yun's hand tightly, the effect of the sedative couldn't withstand Ling Yun's collapse at this moment, and it was ridiculous to keep a person who gave up on himself?

Once the mood collapsed, the limbs were uncontrollable, Ling Yun choked on tears, looked at the people around the bed, and his hands and feet began to go numb.

"Don't be emotional, after it drags on, the plan will be messed up, the more it drags on, the more serious it gets, do you want to see him be so decadent all the time?" Wang Xi pulled Lin Shen away, and the atmosphere was a little stiff, "Restraint belt." ”

Ling Yun pinched the railing with his hands, his hands were trembling, his feet kept staring at the guardrail cushion at the foot of the bed, the expression on his face was very hideous, although Lin Shen was not a parent, but since he was a child, under the murmuring teachings of his mother, he knew how to be benevolent, no matter what kind of person he was, he had the right to cherish his life.

Hysterical shouting, the doctor tied Ling Yun's hands and feet to the hospital bed, and kept struggling, Wang Xi did not have a rut, increased the dose of tranquilizers, and took two injections, Ling Yun slowly quieted down, turned his head, and looked very low.

"Hurry up." The attending doctor untied Ling Yun's clothes, connected the transparent hose for inputting the potion, and several nurses prepared the medicine beside him, "It's a little uncomfortable to do it for the first time, just endure it and pass." ”

After it was over, Ling Yun probably felt ashamed, and after lying on the bed and relieving for a while, he sat up and got out of bed, his feet became soft as soon as he touched the ground, anyway, now he doesn't know how to do it, his whole body hurts, and he doesn't bother to care about it when it hurts so badly.

"How does it feel? Well? "Doctors are still packing up used medical equipment.

"I don't feel anything other than pain, I'm going back, thank you." Ling Yun refused anyone's support, and walked back to the ward alone, and a beam of light came in the empty room.

Gently closed the door, squatting beside the bed and tears flowed uncontrollably, for no other reason, it was too painful, the nurse pushed open the door of the ward, and was so frightened that she quickly picked up Ling Yun, "Why are you squatting here?" Hurry up and lie down in bed. ”

"Lie down, squat for a while." Ling Yun tilted his head, and his nasal voice was very heavy, "Leave me alone, you go and get busy, you don't have to spend all your time on me... Vomit..."

Before Ling Yun finished speaking, he leaned over and threw up, "Fuck... Can you stop torturing me... Vomit..."

"It's normal, do you still want to throw up?" The nurse stroked Ling Yun's back, "It's very uncomfortable, isn't it?" There is a little girl in the pediatric department who is also undergoing chemotherapy today, and she is also very strong. ”

"Well, come on." Ling Yun raised the corners of her mouth and smiled, stood up on the bed, and the nurse went to the bathroom to get a rag and a mop to deal with the vomit, "I'm sorry for the trouble." ”

"It's okay, just lie down." The nurse smiled too, "You must get better, you're only a teenager, and there's still a lot to do." ”

As soon as the nurse finished speaking, the door of the ward was violently pushed open.

"Ling Yun!"

Ling Yun raised his head and looked at Ling's mother's domineering face, "Mom, brother, why are you here?" ”

"I can't come, let me tell you, our family's money is not blown by the wind, how much does this chemotherapy cost, don't waste it on me, your brother still needs money." The woman pointed at Ling Yun, her face hideous like a monster.

"If you don't have money, you'll die, and I'm a burden to live anyway, isn't it? How good my brother is, his academic performance is good, he doesn't fight, he doesn't scold, he doesn't talk back, and he is obedient to you. Ling Yun lowered his head, "I don't want to treat it either, it's too painful, it's too uncomfortable." ”

"You're not allowed to talk to your mother like that." The little boy slammed into Ling Yun, Ling Yun felt his body shake twice, stretched out his hand to support his body, and didn't say a word.

Anyway, the current Ling Yun can't get used to herself, like a glass doll, she can't touch or touch, "Mom, I beg you, leave me alone, okay?" I'm gone, I don't need your money, don't come, you're a good mother, whether I'm a good mother or a good mother, I won't blame you, and you don't have a burden on your mind. ”

"Isn't it chemotherapy? Didn't your grandmother do it too, delicate. The woman pulled Ling Yun's collar, "What's the matter, it's like I'm going to die, I don't want you now, haven't you spent more than ten years of money in vain?" ”

"That's because you didn't get this disease, you don't understand."

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