Chapter 239: Self

"It's quite fateful. Yu Zhen smiled bitterly, ignored the ridicule of others, and turned around silently, she didn't understand why Fu Heng agreed to take that girl out without hesitation. Before leaving, he didn't even look at her, didn't he care about her feelings?

But Fu Heng is so good to her, shouldn't he change his mind easily? I think there are other reasons, I'll ask him later.

comforted herself like this, she didn't take it seriously, went to the side and sat with the fourth sister-in-law, the seventh sister-in-law, and Xiao He, and listened to the play, it was almost noon, and the weather was hot today, so she wanted to go back to the room and change her clothes.

After turning a corner, Fang Luo suddenly grabbed her and whispered, "Madam, look, the ninth master and that girl are here." ”

looked sideways in the direction she pointed, but saw Fu Heng and Lin Xue walking side by side, and the two walked towards the opera garden with a smile.

That was the first time she saw Fu Heng and the other women looking at each other and smiling.

Under the scorching sun, Yu Zhen actually felt that the mangs were piercing his back, and he was uncomfortable! Shouldn't he be very resistant to this girl? Why did he talk and laugh after seeing each other for a while?

Did you discover that girl's talent? A girl like a flower, who doesn't like it? Thinking of this, Yuzhen's heart suddenly twisted in one place, not daring to think deeply, the more I thought about it, the more difficult it became.

Fang Luo couldn't see that the ninth master was good to other people's women, but he couldn't complain openly, for fear that the master would feel uncomfortable, so he could only persuade his wife, "Maybe they are discussing something! ”

She didn't want to ask, if he was willing to say, he would take the initiative to inform, and if she didn't want to say, she didn't want to force inquiring. Mu Ran went back to the room to change his clothes, and sat in the house for a long time and didn't want to go out.

"Let's just say I'm not comfortable, don't go!" Ming'er is Mrs. Tai's birthday, today is just a gathering of her relatives, she is embarrassed when she thinks of that scene, Yu Zhen doesn't want to face it anymore, but Fang Luo can't help but go,

"How many pairs of eyes are staring! If Madame doesn't go, they'll say that you don't have a problem with that girl, so you don't attend the luncheon." ”

Why is life so tiring, obviously what you don't want to do, you have to take into account the feelings of others, reluctantly hold on, and face it.

She is not afraid of the sarcasm of several sisters-in-law, that is because in Yu Zhen's eyes, they are harlequins, they don't need to care at all, and they are not opponents, but this Lin Xue is different, she is the girl that the Queen Mother likes, fortunately, Fu Heng has always refused to take concubines, although Yu Zhen is worried, he is relieved of him after all,

However, when we met today, it was such a scene, which made her have to think crankily, doubts were secretly born, one day, if he really changed his mind, the accusation was useless, what changed was human nature, and what remained unchanged was the legend, and Fu Heng, is it the legend of her life, or a man who loved her?

Knowing that it was impossible, she still looked forward to the only one, but she was afraid that her good wishes would be disappointed, just because Fu Heng's smile when she faced Lin Xue made her linger, even if it was just to take Lin Xue out for the sake of perfunctory Mrs. Tai, then why did he smile at her when there was no one?

was confused, but there was no answer, at the luncheon, Fu Heng and his brothers drank and talked happily, and they had no time to talk to her, and at Yuzhen's table, several sisters-in-law took special care of Linxue, in order to embarrass Yuzhen,

The third lady also deliberately found fault and asked Lin Xue to toast Yu Zhen, "Soon it will be a family, and it is also appropriate to toast your sister." ”

"This ......" Lin Xue was a little hesitant, not knowing if it was appropriate to do this, but someone suggested that if she didn't do it, it seemed a little disrespectful, the maid poured the wine, Lin Xue was just about to salute, but Yu Zhen said:

"Girl, forgive me, I'm not feeling well today, I am infected with the cold, and the doctor said that it is not appropriate to drink. ”

"Oh, it's okay," Lin Xue Fu sat down again, "Mrs. Nine take care of yourself, if there is a chance in the future, Lin Xue will respect you again before it is too late." ”

"Look at you two, what's polite? E-Niang is still asking you to let you in next month! Sisters and sisters are commensurate and affectionate, what kind of girl is it, Mrs., it's too outward!"

No matter what they said, Yu Zhen was pale and didn't answer, and after the banquet, the others were still drinking tea, so she excused herself to go back to the room under the pretext that she was unwell, and the seventh lady's child had been coughing badly recently, and she didn't delay, and went out of the front hall with Yu Zhen to go back to the room.

Actually, the seventh lady persuaded her to think about it, "This kind of thing, there will be something eventually, just get used to it, when your seventh brother took a concubine, I was also sad for a long time, but he was still the same with me later, and occasionally had conflicts with the concubine, he was also towards me, and I couldn't say anything about him,

Men are different from us women, body and mind can be separated, he can love you, but he will still sleep with other women, if you care, you are asking for hardships, look down, and your troubles will disappear naturally. ”

Nodding in response, Yu Zhen's heart was extremely bitter, and on the day she entered the door, a concubine entered the house with her, and she didn't feel any sadness at that time, just because the heart still belonged to herself, no matter how Fu Heng was, she couldn't stimulate her, but now it's different, once the heart is given out, it is no longer stable, it is always hanging, he cares, it is warm, he hangs aside, it is cold, she can't take it back, she can't control it.

She understands the truth of what the seventh sister-in-law said, and she is still heartbroken. If he had doted on Yun Shu from the beginning, he would not have come to provoke her, and it was expected that now, she would not care so much about whether he accepted concubines or how many concubines.

After returning to the room, she sat alone, the little Fu Ling'an shrugged and ran over, crawled into her arms, called Eniang, black eyes kept staring at her, and raised her little finger, dotted the tears on her face, curious what this was, Yu Zhen hugged him, more and more sad, obviously wanted to laugh, but couldn't help but burst into tears,

Mama saw that the situation was not right, and hurriedly took the child away, Yu Zhen entered the account and said that it was a lunch break, and she couldn't sleep when she closed her eyes, Fang Luo persuaded her, but she couldn't listen to a word. No matter how nice it sounds, it's just a guess, Fang Luo understands that what the master wants to hear most is that the ninth master personally explains to her.

So Fang Luo quietly sent the little maid to the front hall to invite the ninth master back, "Just say that the lady is not feeling well, and the ninth master will naturally come over." ”

The little maid took the order and left, and after a while, people returned, Fu Heng hurriedly entered the house, sat in front of the bed and touched her forehead, "But you have a fever?"

She was awake, but pretending to be asleep, not wanting to say anything, Fang fell back and said, "Madame has a headache." Knowing that the master was arrogant and unwilling to take the initiative to ask, Fang Luo deliberately asked,

"Ninth Master, the girl you saw at noon is the one we met during the Lantern Festival last time, is she the daughter of Lord Ne?"

Speaking of this Lin Xue, I have something important to say to Yu Zhen, but she has a headache, let her sleep for a while, there is a Mongolian prince in the palace to enter Beijing to face the saint, the emperor called me to accompany me, I still have to enter the palace, come back and say," then instructed Fang Luo,

"You asked the doctor to come over and show your wife, I can't stay with her because of the emperor's order, and you take good care of it. ”

Then Fu Heng immediately changed into court clothes, and before leaving, he came to her side again, and stroked her cheek, "Zhen'er, I'm sorry, I can't accompany you when you're sick, sleep well, and I'll come back as soon as I'm done." ”

She didn't respond, he only thought she was uncomfortable, so he didn't want to speak, and he didn't care, so he left in a hurry and entered the palace to meet him.

After the person left, Yu Zhen was even more uneasy, what important things did he have to say about that girl? Did he change his mind and prepare to take a concubine?

If she can't change it, what's the use of her futile sadness here?

Unable to sleep, she simply got up, she had to find something to do for herself, otherwise she would be cranky and fall into a dead end.

Then Yu Zhen tidied up her appearance and went out of the house to find Liang Rui, at that time Liang Rui was practicing calligraphy, Yu Zhen was very surprised when she saw this, "It's rare! Don't you hate learning words the most? Why are you willing to learn now?"

"It's really annoying, Yaofeng is brilliant, but I don't know a single big word, he was going to teach me to write when I first got married, you know, I only love to dance with a knife and a sword, I don't like to dance with ink, so I don't want to learn.

Later, one of his cousins came here as a guest, and he recited poems against him, and I heard that I was envious and jealous, after all, I didn't understand! Since then, I have had a sense of crisis, afraid that he will think I am boring, and I have nothing to talk to, so I began to let him teach me how to learn words!

I took the initiative to learn, and he was very surprised, I didn't expect that learning calligraphy was quite fun!"

Looking at her shy and smiling appearance, as if she remembered something happy, Yu Zhen could probably guess it, "But the hand-in-hand teaching? If he stands beside you under the candle fire on a snowy night, holds your hand, teaches you to write, and warmly starts and enters the heart, these two look at each other, with affection, and simply don't even write, just enter the account?"

"Oops!" Unexpectedly, Mrs. Nine would suddenly change the conversation, Liang Rui couldn't catch the stubble for a while, and covered her face with shame, "Why did you suddenly say this, I am serious about learning words!"

When drilling the tip of the horns, no matter how much she pulls it back, she suddenly became enlightened but in a thought, looking at Liang Rui's positive efforts, Yu Zhen suddenly felt that she was too pessimistic before, always thinking that if Fu Heng changed her mind and took a concubine, she would become an abandoned woman, as if she couldn't live, and completely forgot how confident and free she was when she used to be.

What attracted Fu Heng at the beginning should have been this pride, but now he is trapped in love and can't extricate himself, treating him as the only one, what's the use of Gu Ying's self-pity? When I didn't meet him before, didn't I live well? If I lose my love and lose myself, then I really have nothing.

She should really find herself, don't let her heart be swayed by others, because he is happy, because he is worried, such days are too monotonous, and tired, she should be like Liang Rui, find a hobby, live optimistically, over time, Liang Yaofeng will be impressed by her, the married life is more beautiful, she can also read and study by herself, and enrich her life!

The heart is unhindered, everything is bright, and the smile is sincere. chatted with Liang Rui all afternoon, and in the evening, Yu Zhen returned home. After dinner, she didn't wait for him, silently wrote the "Dizang Sutra", and fell asleep early.

Fang Luo didn't know that the master had already wanted to open it, and was still looking forward to the ninth master being able to return soon, and explain clearly what was going on between him and that Linxue girl.