There are not many boys in the school who admire Su Yue, and many of them are outstanding in appearance and talent, but Su Yue feels that they lack a unique temperament.

Whenever they wanted to get close to her, she would unconsciously have a sense of disgust, so much so that she treated them coldly, and finally fell into the title of "iceberg beauty". But this has attracted more boys who want to find out.

Su Yue never felt proud and happy that she was admired by the boys, but felt more and more bored, lest she avoid it. However, the moment she met Mu Yao, she felt that Mu Yao was different from them.

He does not have the restlessness and impatience of a boy of that age, but has a gentle temperament that makes people feel comfortable and reassuring.

At that time, Su Yue didn't realize that her persistent yearning for Mu Yao was not the flame that could burn forever. It's from the past, the blank in my heart.

Before graduating from junior high school, her mother chose a well-known English tutoring class outside the school for Su Yue. I chose this tutoring class because I heard that the English teachers here are very famous, the average progress rate of the classes is high, and the people are kind and patient, which is very popular with the students.

The tutorial class is set up in a large classroom that can accommodate close to 50 people. The rows of dark wood-colored tables and chairs looked a little oppressive in the not-so-bright lighting, and in front of the seats was a dark green blackboard that was not too large.

One day a week after Su Yue went to cram school, the teacher moved Su Yue to the front row near the middle aisle, saying that always sitting in the back row and reading the blackboard would affect her eyesight.

For the teacher's concern, Su Yue remembered that on weekdays, his classmates commented that he was gentle and kind, so she gladly accepted the teacher's kindness.

Every week, cram school students have to dictate the English words they memorized last week, and today is no exception. Whenever the students lowered their heads and wrote dictally, the fat and kind male teacher would always pace back and forth in the aisle in the middle of the classroom while reading the next word to be dictated.

His small, round eyes were constantly turning around, constantly watching to see who wasn't sitting properly enough, if anyone was writing cheat sheets or something. The rustling sound of the patent leather shoes against the concrete floor made a somewhat abrupt sound in the extraordinarily quiet classroom at this moment.

The clicking sound stopped next to Su Yue's seat. For a short moment, Su Yue lowered her head and saw a huge wet palm appear in front of her. It slowly approached its body, then gently pressed back from the front.

The teacher said in a slightly stern voice, "Keep your back straight and sit upright!" ”

Su Yue's back was cold, she immediately straightened her back back, and immediately distanced herself from those big hands in a panic. The teacher slowly withdrew his big hands back to the textbook, and then calmly continued to take steps, and showed a gentleman-like smile: "Not bad! Now this is the right way to sit! ”

She wanted to stand up immediately and shout at him, tear off the mask of this hypocrite on the spot, and let all the students see the true face of their proud teacher.

But then a strong sense of shame followed, making her dizzy, crushing her anger and resentment to pieces almost instantly.

Su Yue was at a loss, tears were already rolling back and forth in her eyes, and she felt her shoulders tremble uncontrollably driven by anger and humiliation.

She quickly lowered her head with tears in her eyes, gritted her teeth and desperately forced her body to stop shaking, she didn't want her classmates around her to find out what was wrong, and she didn't want this hypocrite to see her jokes.

After a while, she succeeded. Tears rushed home before the embankment burst, and the body obeyed the order and gradually regained its calm. But in the following time, although the classroom was filled with passionate lectures, Su Yue didn't listen to a word.

Since then, this has made Su Yue feel both desperate and helpless.

Every time she entered the classroom, she shrank in the last row, crowded between her classmates, and kept her head down and didn't dare to make a sound. But I could always hear that person's voice asking, "Is Su Yue here?" ”

After that, she skipped class, and her mother blamed her in confusion. Complaining about where to find such a good teacher, Su Yue had to explain with a wry smile that her English foundation was too poor and she really couldn't understand the class. In the end, her mother couldn't resist her, so she had to give up.

Su Yue didn't have the courage to tell her parents the real reason why she skipped class. This was her first physical contact with someone of the opposite sex, and feelings of helplessness and anger were the only feelings she felt, and she was tormented by a strong sense of shame alone.

Su Yue's immature mind at that time decided that all the men in this world were bad people, and they were all devils who could harm themselves.

Even once when crossing the street with her father, her father grabbed her hand like when he was a child, but she threw her away. Then she said viciously to her father, "Don't touch me! He rushed across the road in a rage, leaving his father standing stunned.

After returning home, her father angrily asked her why she suddenly lost her temper, and Su Yue just lowered her head and remained silent, and in the end, the matter was over, and it was regarded as a rebellious act of the child's adolescence.

Looking back now, this was a long time ago, and Su Yue's heart was gradually relieved. But every time a boy wants to get close to him, this disgust that arises spontaneously from the depths of his heart gives birth to this unbearable experience in her memory.

Unable to move forward, she wrapped herself stiffly, like a hermit crab guarding its hard shell, protecting itself from harm.

Until Su Yue met Mu Yao, this boy whose smile made her feel warm. Little by little, she realized that her hard shell was peeling off.

She wasn't so scared anymore, she felt that he was pure and special, like a comfortable and soft sponge, carefully wiping her rusty heart.