Chapter 11: The Scales
Su Yue couldn't think about it anymore...
She couldn't think through the ins and outs of the matter. At this moment, her mind was a mess, and her rational thoughts had long since vanished.
She just wanted to get out of here, out of this place where her heart would be silent forever.
Su Yue stood up and walked out, at this moment she couldn't take care of Chu Yixin behind her, and she couldn't think about whether she could see the panic and uneasiness in her heart.
"Su Yue! Why are you here? As soon as she walked out of the door of the bar, Su Yue was blocked by an oncoming figure.
This familiar sound... It's Mu Yao.
"It's okay, I'm here to find Chu Yixin. She's inside, you go ahead. Su Yue forcibly suppressed the uneasy emotions in her heart, and pretended to be calm and pointed to the bar behind her.
"What are you looking for her? It's so late, it's not safe here. And this is not the place for you. Let's go, I'll send you back. After speaking, Mu Yao stepped forward and took Su Yue's hand.
With a "snap", Su Yue shook off Mu Yao's hand forcefully. Mu Yao stood in place in a daze, his slender and elegant hand staying in mid-air.
"What's wrong with you?" Mu Yao looked at Su Yue puzzled.
"It's nothing, I'm not a child, you don't have to worry about me." Su Yue didn't look at him, lowered her head and muttered to herself.
"How can I leave you alone? Is there something unhappy? You can tell me, after all, we..."Mu Yao looked a little embarrassed, he cleared his throat, and then continued with a sincere gaze:
"After all, we really like each other."
Hearing Mu Yao say this, Su Yue's heart couldn't help but "chuckle".
All along, how much I wanted to hear this, and how much I expected Mu Yao's affirmation. His heart full of affection can't help but want to respond to him at the moment, and want to say it out loud to let him know:
"Yes, I really like you too, all the time!"
But this sentence that I have always wanted to say, at this moment, like the sunset that gradually disappeared into the afterglow, finally failed to speak.
Instead, Chu Yixin's voice was like an old movie playing on a loop, lingering in Su Yue's mind, pushing Su Yue to express her stubbornness against her will.
"There's nothing between us..."Su Yue silently spit out these words from her mouth.
The air seemed to condense together for a moment, and a silent silence tugged back and forth between the two...
"What did you say?" Mu Yao asked in a slightly trembling voice.
"I said... There's nothing between us either. Su Yue repeated indifferently like a robot.
Mu Yao seemed to be pinned to the spot by something all of a sudden, and he stared at Su Yue motionlessly: "You mean, everything that happened between us, now you have to deny it?" ”
Su Yue felt that her brain was blank at the moment, and she couldn't continue to think, so she could only keep her head down and be silent...
"Or... You've never really liked me? Mu Yao's expression looked a little distorted, like a person who was trapped in a swamp but still wanted to struggle desperately.
"I think so." Su Yue knew that she had said something against her will.
There was another silent silence, and the noise around seemed to be all silent for a moment.
The world was so quiet that you could hear the rustle of leaves in the dark night as the wind blew, and two beating wounded hearts weeping in low voices.
"Don't take me for an idiot..."Mu Yao's deep voice broke the silence of the moment.
Su Yue saw Mu Yao's red eyes for the first time, and after he said this in an almost hysterical voice, he left without looking back.
Su Yue stood in place stunned, at this moment she felt that her heart was also suffering, as if she was pressed by some heavy object.
The balance in her heart is constantly shaking from side to side, with unspeakable suspicion and loss at one end, and nostalgia and reluctance that can't be let go of at the other end.
No matter which direction the balance tilts, it will be going to the unknown darkness, and it will not be possible to return to the original equilibrium point.
I have to admit that Chu Yixin's words did shake Su Yue's heart.
But what really shook her heart was really just a word that could not be found by others? Or is it the self that doesn't know enough about the person you love deep down? The tilted balance is your own heart...