Zhang Yanran probably understood at this time that Lu Bai was determined to clear up the relationship with her, and the two of them had just met for a short time, not to mention that Lu Bai was in a state of amnesia now.

Maybe this matter is insignificant to Lu Bai, but for Zhang Yanran's surprisingly cruel all the time, this kind of cruelty is simply carved into the bone marrow.

A man she loves so deeply tells her bluntly not to appear in his world again, this feeling is really very uncomfortable.

"That's true, you don't have any so-called opportunities right now. Even if you can choose to accept it, you can see it in the current situation. I don't want to say anything more, but the reality is so cruel. If you break the rules, you will be kicked out. ”

Fang Yanzhi can be regarded as saying very straightforwardly, and they have nothing to say before now. Zhang Yanran can only say that she did it herself, whoever asked her to move it was not good, so she had to move Ningshu.

If you have to hold on to Lu Bai's weakness, in this case, who can allow her to do whatever she wants? Lu Bai is still very clear.

"Let me tell you a story."

Zhang Yanran: When I wrote this sentence, I seemed to think of the vague middle school days, when she was just a girl who was not good-looking.

Sometimes she is always disliked by others, and if it is not the feeling of being blamed, it is really a little uncomfortable, so she has always been careful and cautious in doing things.

"There was an ugly girl who had just started school, and everyone hated her very much, because she was poor, so she wore very tattered clothes, and because the living conditions in her family were not particularly good, so she was ridiculed. She has always felt that her living conditions are not very good, so she should be scolded. ”

As far as this story is concerned, Zhang Yanran has never mentioned it to others, and as soon as she talks about this story, she feels as if she has returned to her memory vaguely.

It's a very uncomfortable feeling, like the nightmare you've been running away from, when you've never run away from it.

"I've always been uncomfortable in my heart, and I've never said anything to outsiders. Until one day, a boy took the initiative to stand up when she was being bullied. Defend him and protect him, and the girl remembers him from then on. ”

When Zhang Yanran told this story, she smiled a few times, as if she felt very fortunate to meet him, which was the happiest thing in her girlhood.

"This boy taught this girl how to do things, that all people are born equal and should be respected. If you are bullied, you must stand up, if you are not good enough, you must become better, only then can you be respected. ”

That memory is almost engraved in the bone marrow, and there is really no way to forget it, but unfortunately some people have long forgotten that heavy dream.

But just because some people forget doesn't mean that the story didn't happen.

Some people mention it for the rest of their lives once they remember it, and they can't put it down again.

The girl gradually fell in love with the boy and collected information about the boy everywhere. Later, I learned that the boy had a prominent family and excelled in his studies. Later, after entering high school, they never saw each other again, and after inquiring, they learned that the boy had gone to a famous aristocratic school. ”

"So then that girl worked hard, wanting to be a human being, no matter what method she used, she had to be the best, and she had to be the best in order to be worthy of the boy in her mind."

What Zhang Yanran has experienced, everyone may not be able to think about it, but she used all her efforts during that time.

Not everyone in the world can be that good. Some people have already stood at the end of the line when they were born, while some people have worked hard until they have achieved nothing.

Life is always like this, especially cruel, and I handed you a complaint and told you to stop dreaming, there are some things you really can't fight.

It's a really uncomfortable feeling, and sometimes you keep asking yourself and you get nowhere.

"Girls study hard to become better, so that they can get into excellent schools and get scholarships. In order to be able to get a place for an exchange student abroad, female students began to apply for professors. The girl has always thought that she will be able to get grades if she works so hard, after all, a student with all A's should be able to be appreciated by the professor. ””

When Zhang Yanran wrote this sentence again, the smile on her face became a little bitter, you can feel this change in details, and that story seems to be a humiliation for her.

But no, the professor told him that if he wanted it, he had to pay, and so it happened, and the girl never thought about it. The girl was violated by the professor and was in despair and wanted to call the police. The professor gave a place for exchange students abroad, and the girl treacherously gave up calling the police and chose a place for exchange students. ”

"In order to get a full scholarship, I worked hard just to be able to get a place. Even if you are often bullied by gringos, you can achieve your wishes as long as your beliefs remain the same. ”

Everyone has experienced something that is not as glamorous as it seems, and it is not dirty from the beginning.

"I thought that I would be able to find a very good job when I went back, so that I could be worthy of my efforts. But she didn't get what she wanted, the girl was still too naïve, and society gave the girl a heavy blow. The harassment of the boss and the conversation in the wine hall made her feel extremely unbearable. The boy was so good that he was in the newspaper every day to report on the prominence of their family, and then suddenly he realized that they were too far away. It's like tens of thousands of light-years in the Milky Way. ”

Zhang Yanran picked up the coffee and shook it at this moment, suddenly thinking that it would be good if there was wine, so that she would feel that life would not be so bitter.

"The biggest shortcut is to accept the harassment of the boss and do everything you can to please a boss who makes you disgusting. Doing what he liked was to marry him and gain his status of wealth. Every girl who was with him felt incredibly disgusting, but there was nothing they could do. But as long as the belief in my heart remains the same, it seems that everything is not important. In those dark times, boys were the only belief she sustained. ”

Lu Bai is her salvation, and no one knows her paranoia.