Is it just because of this that you have to give up your efforts for so long?

Su Yue felt unwilling, she felt that it was not her problem. But events always seem to be unfavorable to women, and men's problems are collectively referred to as "driven by nature".

Back in her seat, Su Yue looked at the computer and prepared to continue today's work, she wanted to leave what she had just done behind for the time being.

At this time, the Weibo interface on the computer shows an unread message. Su Yue immediately clicked on the dialog box with some anticipation, and sure enough, as she thought, it was the Pisces Uncle Deer who left a message to herself:

"Su Yue, good afternoon, have you had lunch? I've been busy just now, so I couldn't reply to your message in time. In fact, like you, I don't like a noisy environment, but I usually encounter some social occasions that are difficult to refuse. If I want to say that I don't fit in with this world, I feel this way, haha.

But this reminds me of a sentence written in a book by Osamu Dazai:

[Only by doing our best to be self-contained will we not go mad.] ］

I think life is like being in love, in addition to being full of sincere emotions for it, it also teaches us to rely on our willpower to control our every move so that we don't become paranoid. Haha, after all that, I'm about to forget the most important thing.

Su Yue, how could I be so stingy to tell you my name? My name is Lu Ze, and I'm glad I can talk to you so much. Because of the work environment, I don't usually have the opportunity to communicate with people, but thank you for showing up, making me feel that there is still a corner of the world where I can open my heart.

PS. Actually, I think Scorpio girls have a cool personality and will definitely make the right choice! ”

Luze?

No wonder his screen name is "Uncle Deer", which turns out to mean so.

Su Yue thought for a moment, and then changed Uncle Lu's remarks to "Distant Lu Ze".

Although this person was separated from him by a computer screen, and Su Yue didn't know which city he lived in. But it was precisely because of such a long distance between them that Su Yue felt more relaxed and comfortable chatting with him.

Such a distance is just enough to balance Su Yue's wariness of men, and Lu Ze's way of speaking can always relieve the anxiety in his heart just right.

So Su Yue tried to confide in a stranger about the troubles she had buried in her heart for a long time:

"Lu Ze, good afternoon. Although I don't know what city you live in or what you usually do, what you just said makes me think that you must be a person with a lot of experience. My heart has calmed down a lot because of your words, thank you.

I remember that sentence from Osamu Dazai's "Human Disqualification", right? I also love this book, although the protagonist has been constantly self-exiling and even self-destructive step by step since he was a young man in order to escape from reality. But I can still catch a glimmer of hope in these dark and sad stories.

Lu Ze, I think you are a very sincere and passionate person who treats life and love. To be honest, I envy you because I can't do it. Maybe now I am like the protagonist in the book, Ye Zang, who is lost in this strange city and lives carefully every day. Sometimes I feel like a coward, afraid to open up to anyone, not to meet any new friends, and not to expect any beautiful love.

[Cowards are afraid of even happiness, hurt when they touch cotton, and sometimes hurt by happiness.] ］

This is who I am now, haha, do you also think that this kind of me is a little unreasonable, even ridiculous? ”

After saying this, Su Yue felt an indescribable sense of relief in her heart. This is the first time I have confessed my heart to a stranger, and this feeling of speaking freely is really amazing. It doesn't put any constraints on itself, and you don't have to think about what to say and which not to say.

In less than twenty minutes, Su Yue received Lu Ze's reply:

"Su Yue, your words did surprise me a little. I don't know what you've been through, but it's clear that you're losing faith in life and love right now. But I will never laugh at you, nor will I find you unreasonable because of it. Because I have lived in this world in pain and confusion like you now, and now I want to tell you my story.

I grew up in a small coastal town in the north, and I grew up with a happy family. At first, although our family's life was not easy, we also had the most ordinary happiness in the world. Later, my parents began to work their own business, and gradually their career improved, and our family finally lived a relatively prosperous life.

But just as it was all about to come to a conclusion, my father died of illness in my junior year. This was a great blow to our whole family, and my mother was in tears every day. And I didn't even have time to grieve, because I had to immediately support my father's inheritance.

So from that day on, I kept telling myself in my heart that I didn't have time to be sad or cry, all I could do was do my best to take over all my father's work as quickly as possible to live up to his years of dedication. Fortunately, everything has stabilized now, the company is gradually on track, and my mother's mood seems to have returned to normal.

Su Yue, I have said so much, I just want to tell you from my own personal experience. No matter what difficulties you are facing right now, don't give up your passion for life and love, which is the magic weapon that can overcome suffering. ”

After reading Lu Ze's message, Su Yue stared at the computer screen in a daze.

She didn't expect that this boy of the same age as herself would actually experience such a huge family change. But even though it was so difficult, he still faced everything calmly and sunny. He even did not hesitate to uncover his old scars to help him regain his confidence.

And what he has experienced seems to be nothing compared to him. In fact, in the final analysis, as long as the family is neat and happy, everything else is less important.

And for Lu Ze, he doesn't have any choice. Faced with the sudden death of his family, he could only shoulder the burden on his shoulders alone, without time to hesitate, nor the slightest respite, there was no way back for him.

Thinking of this, Su Yue couldn't help but feel a heartfelt empathy and appreciation for Lu Ze.

So driven by this heart-touching touch, Su Yue also decided to reveal her experience to Lu Ze.

So with some excitement, she quickly typed this paragraph on the keyboard:

"Luze, thank you for being willing to open up to me and tell me your story. I deeply regret the passing of your father. But I have to admit that I now admire your perseverance and enthusiasm for life from the bottom of my heart. Compared to your experience, perhaps my story is not worth mentioning at all. But I still want to pluck up the courage to tell you everything.

I live in a city in the south, and my parents have taken great care of me since I was a child, and I have never been away from them like I am now. But it all started with a harassment incident I experienced in junior high school..."