Chen Mo said: "Yi Zecheng looked for you everywhere like crazy, and even found my house." Jiayi, I don't know what is going on with you and him, but I don't think things are as bad as you think. ”

It sucks, she's dying, how can it not be bad?

Lu Jiayi asked: "What did Yi Zecheng say, why do you pay so much attention to color and light friends every time?" ”

He said: "Yi Zecheng didn't say anything, just asked about your whereabouts. I said I didn't know, and he was disappointed. ”

Lu Jiayi didn't speak, and Chen Mo suddenly said, "Jiayi, have you seriously thought about it and have a good talk with Yi Zecheng?" ”

Lu Jiayi was taken aback, and Chen Mo said: "I have loved people, so I know what it is like to love someone." Jiayi, if I'm not mistaken, Yi Zecheng loves you. ”

Lu Jiayi was taken aback by this sentence, and Chen Mo said: "Just by the way he looked for you, I knew that he should love you." I said I don't know where you are, and I looked at the light in his eyes, and it dimmed little by little, as if my heart was discouraged. ”

She laughed dryly, "My dear, you are suddenly so literary, I think it's so jelly." ”

Chen Mo said: "Why don't you give yourself a chance and let Yi Zecheng make it clear to you?" ”

What else is there to say, he said he loved her, she knew it, it was because she was pitiful, she was just as pitiful as his sister, so he said he loved her.

He said: "Jiayi, you can't run away when something happens, it's not right for you to do this." ”

Yes, she is cowardly, she is incompetent, she is afraid, she is afraid of death, she is afraid of death, she is afraid of trembling, she wants to run away when something happens...... But she really didn't have the courage to face Yi Zecheng again, she didn't dare to look him in the eyes, she didn't dare to think about the future, because she didn't know how long she could live.

If she really wants to die, let her die far away alone.

So Lu Jiayi continued to laugh dryly, "Chen Mo, you don't understand......"

"What don't I understand?" Chen Mo suddenly turned his head and stared straight into her eyes, "Lu Jiayi, I have always treated you as a friend, so I don't want to see you take a detour, I don't want you to lose the best thing." You obviously love him, and he loves you too, why do you want to run away? ”

Lu Jiayi lowered her head and held the bag of money, and it took a long, long time before she heard her voice: "Chen Mo, I don't dare." You know, I really don't dare, he said he said he loved me, and then, you said the same. But I couldn't believe it. It's like when I was a child, my teacher kept saying that I was stupid, and my sister said that stupid birds fly first, as long as you work hard, you can always get the first. So I worked very hard and finally scored 100 points, but the teacher said that I must have copied the answers of my peers. Because my table mates also scored 100 points. Only I know that I didn't copy it, but no one believes it...... Everyone said I copied it, and at the end of the day, I didn't believe that I made it myself......"

"When I was a kid, my mom was the best for me, but she's gone. When I was very young, I loved the moon, and one night it was full of clouds and I couldn't see the moon, and I cried to find out the moon. In the end, I annoyed my dad and slapped me, and I didn't dare to cry. My sister secretly told me that the moon is still there, but you can't see it, it's behind the clouds, and you know it's behind the clouds. My sister is good to me, she will coax me, she will make me coquettish, but my sister is gone......"

"I like Yi Zecheng, but I don't dare to ask for it."

Lu Jiayi raised her face, her vision was hazy, maybe she was crying again, I don't know why, she has been crying so much recently, I sniffed, "He's a hundred points, I don't believe I can do it myself." He is the moon behind the clouds, no matter how much I cry and clamore, maybe it will really come out, but maybe it will come out behind the clouds, and it will never come out again. And if you cry so much that others are annoyed, you will hate me even more. ”

"I know a lot of people hate me, and I'm always more fierce than him. Hmph, I don't like you anyway. But sometimes I feel really scared. My sister said that the moon was still there, and it was behind the clouds...... But I couldn't see the moon all the time, and sometimes I wondered, is the moon really still there...... Will it have gone away......"

Chen Mo didn't say anything, he just stretched out his arm to hug her.

Lu Jiayi cried tiredly, "Chen Mo, I want to leave here and go to a place where no one knows me." I've held on for so long, I can't hold it anymore, I've been holding on, but I really can't hold on......"

Chen Mo didn't say anything, he was like a sister, gently patting her vest, like patting a child.

When she was very young, Lu Jiayi was not a child, because she had no mother, she had to take care of herself like an adult and not let her sister worry.

After her sister left, she was not a child, she had to be brave, she had to be strong, and she didn't want to be looked down upon.

Even if she knows that she has a little yellow bean in her head, she can't be weak, because she still has a little yellow bean in her stomach, fate forced her to give it up, she struggled, she didn't want to, she wanted a child, it was her own child.

No matter what others think, she still has to hold on.

Hold on so hard, so tired, and no one will share it for her.

I watched Kuang Kuang's "Sometimes There Are Women" a long time ago, and the last paragraph is:

All my life, I want to be collected, properly placed, and carefully preserved. Save me from being frightened, from suffering, from being displaced, from having no branches to rely on.

But the man, I knew, I always knew, that he would never come.

Now this passage is popular on the Internet, and it can be seen on almost any BBS, and it has been quoted again and again by literary and artistic young women.

No one knew that in the summer of 2003, she saw this passage on the Sina forum, and Lu Jiayi read it over and over again, and every word seemed to be engraved on her heart.

She knew, she knew he would never come.

From her mouth to the bottom of her heart, she knows it deeply.

Lu Jiayi closed the webpage and memorized thick English words.

She tried her best to get into graduate school, but her father didn't smile at her.

She tried her best to marry Yi Zecheng, but he didn't love her after all.

No matter how hard she tried, it was in vain.

No matter how much she pleaded, fate would never give her blue eyes.

She just, she couldn't hold on.

Chen Mo said: "If you go out to rest for a while, you should take a holiday." After a slight pause, he added, "If you have any difficulties, call me." ”

Having a best friend like Chen Mo in this life is Lu Jiayi's greatest blessing.

Lu Jiayi didn't think too much about it, and went straight to the train station after breaking up with Chen Mo.

The plane asked for an ID card, so she wasn't so stupid.

Who can find out where she's going by train?

Until the express train left the platform, her heart was still tense, because she didn't want to think about it at all, what was she going to do, what was she going to do with the little yellow beans in her stomach, Lu Jiayi was simply unwilling to stay, stay to face Yi Zecheng, face everything, face the choice she had to want, so she ran away.

She can't do it, but she can hide in the city, so her destination is Shanghai, China's largest city. Fishing her out of tens of millions of people, she estimates that no matter how young she is, she doesn't have the ability to do it.

The ticket Lu Jiayi bought was the upper berth, there was no way, I bought a ticket temporarily, only the upper berth.

In the past, she might have gone up with a big swagger, but now that she has a little yellow bean in her stomach and a time bomb small yellow bean in her brain, she is also pessimistic, and she is hesitant for a while, thinking about how to climb the safest.

Fortunately, the lower bunk was an aunt in her early fifties, and she was a little stunned when she saw Lu Jiayi standing there, so she asked her, "Girl, what's wrong?" ”

Lu Jiayi cheekily told her: "I have a baby, so I'm thinking about how to climb safely." ”

"Ouch! How can you still climb up! The aunt was very enthusiastic, "Look at you like this, it's not been three months, it's not stable at this time, you are crawling, I'll go to sleep, you can sleep with me." ”

Lu Jiayi was very grateful, the aunt was already as light as a swallow, went up, turned around and smiled at her, "You two have big bellies, just sleep together." ”

The lower bunk opposite is also a pregnant woman, but judging by her pot-bellied appearance, she should have been seven or eight months pregnant.

She lay there and smiled softly at Lu Jiayi, the way she smiled was so beautiful, maybe it was the so-called brilliance of motherhood.

Lu Jiayi also smiled at her, and then lay down.

This direct express is a morning departure, without stopping at any stops along the way, and you can get to Shanghai tomorrow morning.

In the middle of the night, Lu Jiayi slept soundly, and was suddenly awakened by the sound of moaning. She rubbed her eyes in a daze, and her aunt was also woken up, poking her head out and asking, "What's wrong?" ”

The pregnant woman on the other side couldn't even speak, "My stomach hurts." ”

Lu Jiayi was startled, and she didn't even feel sleepy.

Watching the TV news, I always see a pregnant woman in a situation on the train, and I never dreamed that such a bloody thing could really be encountered. The aunt said "ouch", she got up and put on her shoes, and went to the conductor.

By the time she called the conductor, the aunt was already holding a cup and wanted to feed the pregnant woman water.

But the pregnant woman was sweating profusely in pain, and she couldn't even drink water.

The aunt has given birth to a child in the end, has experience, and said: "The amniotic water is broken, I'm afraid I'm going to give birth, right?" ”

The conductor also panicked when he saw this, first turned on the lights of the entire train, and then called the conductor.

The conductor was also anxious, "We are a direct express, and all stations along the way do not stop, and now we are temporarily applying to the dispatcher, but I am afraid that it will be too late." ”

He went to arrange a radio to find a doctor, and everyone was woken up, and when they heard that this was the case, they were all very enthusiastic, some got up to look for milk, some looked for blankets, but there was no doctor in the whole carriage.

The radio was broadcast several more times, and finally a man came from the other section of the carriage.

Everyone thought he was a doctor, but he said guiltily, "I'm a veterinarian......"

The conductor was so anxious that he was about to roll his eyes, and the man said: "I used to be a veterinarian at the Wolong Panda Base, specializing in giant pandas, and I have delivered many giant panda cubs, but I have never delivered ...... to anyone."

"Rolling"...... It's a mesmerizing "rolling...... It turns out that he is the legendary panda doctor.

Lu Jiayi looked at this doctor who specializes in treating national treasures with infinite reverence.

She had been yearning for his profession for a long time, but she didn't expect to meet someone who did this kind of work.

"It's burning eyebrows! There are no other doctors! The conductor was so anxious that he said, "If you can show it to the national treasure, you can show it to people, this person should be similar to a giant panda, anyway, they are all mammals!" ”