Chapter 1: Regret

Silver Cloud Frost,

The sky is boundless.

Static wave Baguio mirror,

Killing a stone with a thousand waves.

The world is helpless,

Hugh blames Xiao Lang.

In front of me was the golden sun, that faint gold. Qiu Se felt that in just a split second, the sun had risen. She squinted her eyes and looked at the old man exercising in the square in the morning, with a circle of gold edges on her body. I don't know if the sun is dazzling or the north wind is blind, she feels that her eyes are blurry, looking at the morning glory climbing out of the railing in the roadside community, it seems that through the ground glass, only a piece of purple and green can be seen. Turning a street corner, she smiled, in June, where did the north wind come from. This smile, a tear slipped down, and it became clear in front of me, it was still that familiar street, and when I turned around, I couldn't see the way behind me.

Qiu Se opened her eyes suddenly, her forehead and neck were covered with a thin layer of sweat, looking at the familiar clock on the wall, she didn't know how many times she had woken up from this dream. People are like this, the same dream, no matter how many times it appears, is the first time in the dream, and the joy, panic, love, and hatred in the dream are all true for the person in the dream. Qiu Se sighed, looking commonplace but helpless. She brushed her hair, lifted the quilt, stepped on the floor with one foot, and gently reached out to open the curtain a small slit, a golden sunlight poured in, that faint gold, like in a dream.

At 9 o'clock, Qiu Se's mobile phone rang on time - a message from Xiao Ge: "Come down, I'm here." Qiu Se saw the news as soon as she could, and she sat still. That dream in the morning made her a little distracted, and she was caught off guard. She even felt that at this time, it was very immoral for her to have such a dream. After all, that was a long time ago. After all, now she was going to try on the wedding dress with the man who was waiting for her downstairs. After all, the past should be in the past. I don't know if the new beginning made her nervous unconsciously, she tried to comfort herself like this.

Some things are unforgettable because of regret.

The last time I saw Jingxuan was three years ago. When saying goodbye, Qiu Se said, "I'm leaving tomorrow, don't come to see me off." Jing Xuan lowered his head, "Hmm." Bon voyage. The hair on his forehead hung down, blocking his eyes, and Qiu Se couldn't see his expression clearly. In the voice, there is no joy or sorrow.

Coming out of Jing Xuan's house, Qiu Se walked very slowly. She hoped that Jing Xuan could see her back from the window. However, she did not dare to look back, for fear that when she looked back and saw him, she would cry uncontrollably; I'm also afraid, when I look back, I see an empty window.

Walking out of the gate of the community, there were few cars on the road, and the sun was lazily hiding behind the fog, refusing to show its true face for a long time. She was reluctant to walk too fast, along the central west road, she walked slowly, not to mention losing her soul, but after all, she seemed lonely.

The situation of last night unconsciously came to mind, as if he could still feel the temperature from Jing Xuan's fingertips, his hands were not very hot, he gently lifted the long hair around Qiu Se's ears, his fingertips touched Qiu Se's ears, warm and a little damp, the two soft lips gently attached to Qiu Se's lips, and quietly sent the red wine to her mouth, between his lips and teeth, tossing and turning. The cool breeze of Xi Xi swept across his back, and a pair of strong arms wrapped around Qiu Se's waist......

Qiu Se didn't dare to let her memories wander any longer, she raised her head, looked at the misty sky and sighed.

In the past, I walked this road by car, but it was the first time I walked like I did today. For the first time, she found that there were many morning glories growing in the railing of this community on the way, and the dew was lying on the leaves the size of a child's palm, reflecting the blurred purple of the flowers, romantic and ambiguous.

The sudden sound of music interrupted Qiu Se's distraction, looking for prestige, there were uncles and aunts in the square in the morning exercise, it seemed that in an instant, the sun rose, the old man's body was trimmed with gold, Qiu Se envied these twilight people for the first time, life and death are in this city.

Later, Qiu Se did not know how long he had walked back to his residence. She only knew that the next day, when the senior sister sent her to the train station, she unexpectedly saw Jing Xuan. It's hard to describe what it was like, but it's still fresh in my memory even after many years. Although Jing Xuan's attitude was lukewarm that morning when she said not to send her, she still vaguely felt that he would come. Now that he's here, she thinks it's really unnecessary. After all, he will not leave Cheng Xin, let alone keep himself. She remembered that Jing Xuan hugged herself at that time, and her body was hard. She refused Jing Xuan to send her off, because she thought that she would be reluctant to Jing Xuan and shed tears, but at this moment, she only felt that she and Jing Xuan were so ridiculous. Even saying goodbye seems polite. She said goodbye to her younger sister, and she also said goodbye to Jing Xuan. Then, she pulled her suitcase up the escalator, knowing that they were all watching her from behind, and she didn't look back, let alone cry. Watching the train leave the city that made her worry, make her happy, make her helpless, and make her cry far behind, Qiu Se took out his mobile phone, opened the address book, and put Jingxuan's phone number and QQ number ...... All contact information is deleted, and the action is fast and neat, in one go...... She thought at the time that without contact information, there would be no other possibility. She remembers that day was July 27, 2010.

However, for more than three years, more than a thousand days and nights, that familiar street appeared in Qiu Se's dreams I don't know how many times, every time, she thought it was true, that feeling, it was like real, but the road in the dream, although the direction was right, could not go where she wanted to go.

Every time he woke up, Qiu Se smiled in frustration and self-deprecation, you see, even dreams torture people with such regrets. It's just a relationship that doesn't have to be responsible for each other, what's worth remembering? The road is facing the sky, let's be at peace!