Who am I? I do not know!

I was standing in the backyard of the sect's workshop, my feet were very cold, the shoes that Mama gave me were too big, they fell off when I was chased by a dog yesterday, but Mama died, and no one gave me shoes anymore.

When it was time for lunch, I had to run over early, or they would take all the steamed buns.

They said that I have less snacks, half a steamed bun is enough to eat for a day, and I won't be hungry, but I'm hungry, very hungry, I said I'm hungry and they don't believe it, so I won't say it, every time I go early, but sometimes I still can't grab it, those people will kick me, and I was kicked under the table yesterday.

They also said that I didn't have a child, that I had seen other people's, that I was different from them. They say that I am a descendant of sinners, and it is good to be alive.

I know sinners, and sinners are sinful people.

I ran to get the steamed buns, the older brother snatched my steamed buns again, I had a bamboo wire in my finger today, I pricked his leg when he kicked over, and I ran away when he retracted his leg in pain.

It would be nice if Mama was here, but Mama is dead, just like my father, right?

"I'm so hungry!" I was covered in a quilt, the quilt was too thin, and the quilt that my grandmother left me was thick, but it was taken away. The kitchen should be warm, right? I went to the kitchen, and it shouldn't be cold if there is a spark.

I crouched on the edge of the stove and looked at the man who pushed the door in, I was not afraid, I told him that I was cold, and I went back after the fire, begging him not to hit me.

The man hugged me and told me that he was my uncle and grandfather, his name was Kang Qingdu, and he said that my name was Kang Yuan, and that my grandfather had given me the name himself.

My uncle and grandfather said he was going to take me out of here and tell me to keep quiet.

My uncle and grandfather hugged me and covered up my brothers who bullied me during the day, I was actually a little scared, but I didn't dare to shout, I was afraid that my uncle and grandfather would also cover me to death.

My uncle and grandfather took me on horseback, and at night I leaned into my uncle's arms and slept very well.

When I woke up, we stayed in a yard with a mama and a gentleman taking care of me. My grandmother was very good to me and made me meat to eat every day, but my husband was very fierce to me and forced me to endorse every day.

It's so difficult to endorse, but if you can't carry it, Mr. will punish me for kneeling on the stone, the stone is very hard, I can't walk after kneeling for a while, Mr. doesn't believe me and shouts pain, and says that next time I can't carry it well, let me kneel for a day, I don't dare to kneel for a day, so I just desperately memorize it, and I can't finish it during the day, and I will carry it at night.

And the gentleman praised me for being clever.

My husband followed us all the time, and we moved a lot, as if we lived in one place for a summer or half a winter, and then we changed places.

My uncle and grandfather didn't come back much, and I knew he was killing people because he said he was going to kill many, many people, and he wanted revenge.

He said that I want to kill when I grow up, but don't kill with a knife, kill with a pen. I was a little scared, but I couldn't let my uncle and grandfather know!

Today I am six years old, my uncle and grandfather said, I was born in the New Year, on the first day of the new year, so it is called "yuan", today my grandmother cooked dumplings for me, I like to eat dumplings, but my uncle and grandfather did not come back.

In the spring, we moved again, I entered the school, and the gentleman in the school liked me very much, saying that I was smart, and that I could memorize all books at a young age, and that the characters and paintings were very good, and I was secretly relieved, and the gentlemen would definitely not punish me for kneeling on the slate.

My classmates said that I was very famous, and everyone in Baoding knew that I was a prodigy, but my classmates didn't like to play with me, because their mothers always said that they were not as good as me. I envy them for having a mother...... What my mother looks like, I don't know, so I secretly followed a classmate to his yard to peek, and when I saw him playing with a muddy body, his mother chased him with a broom, and I was quite happy, I felt that my mother was not very good, and my uncle and grandfather and gentlemen were the same, but after his mother beat him, she helped him wash his face and change clothes, and pinched his face and stuffed a candy into his mouth, and the classmate cried and cried and laughed.

He laughed because the candy was sweet, right?

I also wanted to eat candy, and when I got home, my mother gave me one, and I didn't think it was that sweet, but I didn't laugh anyway.

I was eleven years old, and my uncle and grandfather came back, and he said that a man surnamed Song would come and let me follow the man, and he said that only by looking for an opportunity to go to the front of the person could I have a chance to take revenge.

The man came, his name was Song Yanxu, he was a squire, he had a son, let me go and study with him, he would raise me as if I was his own son, but on the condition that I stay in the Song Mansion for thirty years.

My uncle and grandfather said that it didn't matter if it was thirty or sixty years, and when the opportunity came, he would kill his whole family, so I agreed.

Song Yanxu's son is called Song Shi'an, he is four years younger than me, he is really naughty, there is nothing in this world that he doesn't dare to do, he doesn't dare to scold, but he can't beat others.

Almost every time I go out with him, I have to fight.

But in fact, others are not bad, his heart is very kind and clever, but I have to say that he is not smart, when he is studying, he can't remember such a simple question, no matter how he explains it, but he can match the names and faces of more than 500 people in four green buildings. He will also observe words and looks, but it is useless to look at them, he doesn't care, he was beaten by Wei Qing today and will go to Wei Qing for trouble tomorrow.

Today, my uncle and grandfather got me another test question for the imperial examination, and asked me to write it for Song Shi'an to memorize.

I don't know how my uncle and grandfather got it, but he was able to get all the questions from the previous exams anyway. I wrote it as before and asked Song Shi'an to recite it, and he memorized it very well.

Song Shi'an was named the champion, and he became the laughing stock of the whole process and said that he cheated, but after checking for a long time, he didn't find out how he cheated.

Song Shi'an doesn't care, the champion is just a ladder for him to enter the officialdom. If you want to be a high-ranking official, you don't rely on good reading, these are all imaginary, there are dozens of founding chiefs and assistants, which one is from the top student?

When an official is seven points by luck, three points by brain, and cleverness is the most important.

Not to mention, Song Shi'an is very liked by the saint and the prince. Especially the prince, he often called Song Shi'an to go fishing, talk about Fengyue, and chant poetry......

I don't like the prince, his gaze when he looks at people is mixed with other emotions.

Later, one day Song Shi'an didn't go either, and he said that the prince was sick. Not only is the neck crooked, but the brain is also crooked.

I asked deeply, but he only said that he was disgusting and wanted to go to the Qinglou for brainwashing.

I vaguely felt a little bit but I didn't think it would, I secretly observed for a long time, and asked my uncle and grandfather to check, my uncle and grandfather were already injured at that time, and he could only answer me in writing, he said that I thought too much, the prince is not the person I thought.

The prince is benevolent and insightful, and he will definitely be a wise man in the future.

I didn't think much of it.

Song Shi'an asked to go to the peace talks, and the saint and the prince both praised him and let him go. I sometimes admire Song Shi'an, he has no bottom in his heart, he doesn't even know what peace talks are, and he dares to take this official position.

Song Shi'an said that if he didn't leave the capital, his life would be in danger.

The peace talks failed, but Song Shi'an also ran away. I know he ran, but I don't know why he ran.

He left me a letter, saying that he wanted to save his life, and he couldn't even have a chance to visit the Qinglou in the future.

I was very angry, I used to discuss everything big and small, but this time I didn't say anything.

Such a big thing, once it spreads out at the border, what should the Song Mansion do?

I wanted to protect myself, so I broke my leg, and sure enough, the news of Song Shi'an's disappearance spread the next day, and everyone protected themselves...... You can only protect yourself.

If the peace talks succeed, it will be fine, just if he is greedy to go out to play, but if the peace talks fail, the responsibility for the matter will inevitably be pushed to him as soon as he leaves.

Call him stupid, he's really stupid.

I returned to the capital to live in Yangzhuang to recuperate from my injuries, and the saint died, and I heard the death knell, and my uncle must have been very sad, because he had not yet taken revenge...... I was also desperate, and suddenly I had no direction.

Because my uncle and grandfather said that our greatest enemy was the saint, and because the saint listened to the slander and killed our whole family.

Now the Holy One is dead.

On this day, some bandits came and kidnapped me, leaving me lying on a bed in a dark room without food or drink. I'm actually okay...... I should have died a long time ago, when I was two years old.

But here she came, and stood in the doorway, looking at me and looking at me...... Her face was exactly the same as Song Shi'an's, and I remembered that the descendants of the Song Mansion said that Song Shi'an had a younger sister.

That's it, Song Shining, right?

She was very imposing, she didn't have the shyness of her daughter's family when she looked at me, she asked me if I was going to call my brother, when she said this, her eyes were cold and there was no temperature at all, I didn't think she really thought I was my brother.

She saved me.

She is completely different from Song Shi'an, she is rampage like a calf covered in thorns, she is not afraid of losing and has never lost, she became a pusher and asked me to be her paperwork.

I found my goal again, I regarded her as my general, she said: "Song and Yuan Dynasty, you are responsible for reading these documents and summarizing the meaning to me, I am a person who wants to do great things, it is not suitable to read documents, and you must also reflect your own value." ”

I gladly agreed, so why shouldn't I?

She went to dissect and squeezed me by the shoulder: "You let it go, while standing to maintain discipline, you are not needed here!" ”

She thinks I'm weak and I'm afraid I'll feel disgusting.

I was indeed too weak compared to her, she stood there glowing, I couldn't take my eyes off her, even if the prince was in the way, I couldn't ......

I can control a lot of things, I don't eat, drink, I don't hurt, I don't talk or cry, but I can't control myself to see her and miss her.

I should control it, I don't deserve to have her, I don't deserve to like her.

The prince is more suitable for her, they are a good match.

When she said today that she would no longer call me Song Yuan, she wanted to call me Mr. Yuan, and she took a stack of silver tickets for me in the room of the Jinan Mansion Torture Hall: "This money will be kept by Mr. Yuan, and Mr. Yuan will agree to use the money in the future." ”

I looked at her when she spoke, and she raised her eyebrows at me and made me laugh, like knocking Lu Miaomiao's head, but I didn't want to think like that, I thought she was different to me!

I laughed, and I smiled at her for a long time, and I laughed in my dreams at night.

It's very good when she is there, she is in the room, the room is full, she is in the yard, the yard is full, she is in the court, the court is full, she passes by the door, the fragrance of flowers follows her all the way, she pushes the door open, in the dim room, it is bright in an instant, so bright......

Sitting by the stove, I roasted sweet potatoes and chestnuts for her, peeled them for her and handed them to her, she stuffed one in my mouth with her backhand, and when I bit the one it was bad, she slapped the table and laughed, saying that I was stupid!

I chewed the chestnut and swallowed it, and she told me to spit it out, saying I was stupid.

She didn't know that it was not bad, it was very sweet, and it was the sweetest and sweetest chestnut I had ever tasted.

I want to be by her side forever, but I know that as long as I am here, the prince will be sad, the prince is so kind, he knows my business, and he tolerates me by her side...... The prince is guilty, he shouldn't be guilty, my tragedy is not his fault.

My uncle and grandfather suddenly found out the truth of what happened back then, and my uncle and grandfather said that they wanted to take revenge and seek revenge on the current saint.

He said that he would cut off Zhao Chi's head and bury it in front of the Kang family's grave.

I created the Eternal Life Cult and slowly grew stronger.

But the prince decided to fight for her, this is a good opportunity, and it is much easier than killing Zhao Chi ourselves. Moreover, if we stand in the way, the prince will not have to bear the charge of killing the king.

All the so-called sins are borne by us, and we don't care.

The prince can be the emperor well and cleanly, and he deserves and has the ability to be a good emperor.

Today is their wedding, I stood on the side of the road, and saw the prince and her sedan chair passing by, ten miles of red makeup festive and lively, the prince smiled like a child.

She lifted the sedan curtain and looked at the prince, her eyes were full of happiness.

I remembered that once when it was raining, I went to give her an umbrella, and I went a little late, and she and the prince shared an umbrella and walked noisily in front...... I was thinking that love must not only be possession, but also blessing and fulfillment.

Her happiness, no matter who gave it to her, as long as she had it, it was enough!

I'm gone, I may be miserable in this life, like that broken chestnut, but in fact I am not bitter, only I know how sweet it is.

This sweetness is enough to sustain me for the rest of my life, and every melancholy will be melted away by the aftertaste it leaves between my lips and teeth.

When I arrived in Langzhong, I stayed in Lu Miaomiao's house, and I ran a private school, and they all called me Mr. Yuan.

It's like she called me.

"Mr. Yuan, go home, go home!"

"Mr. Yuan, you save this money and marry a daughter-in-law in the future!"

"You have to love me, I am Lord Song, Lord Qingtian who is selfless for the country and the people, you must love me."

I smiled and said in my heart, "He who loves, will always love until I die......"

Be happy, you, and you.