Qiu Se habitually turned his head out of the car window, looking out at the fields and mountains that were rapidly receding, as if time had rushed out of life.

Yuan Ningqiu left, on the fifth day after being admitted to the hospital. She left her computer with Qiu Se, which contained her unfinished novels.

After attending Yuan Ningqiu's funeral, Qiu Se asked for a week's leave from the unit, which was the first time she had taken a leave of absence in the three years she had been working. Yuan Ningqiu left suddenly, Qiu Se always felt that Yuan Ningqiu was just out of the door and would come back in a few days. But she clearly remembered that Yuan Ningqiu was lying on the hospital bed, with a bandage on her head, a drip on her hand, and talking to her weakly; clearly remembers that she leaned on Xiao Ge's body to attend Yuan Ningqiu's funeral; remembers Yuan Ningqiu's father's old tears......

She couldn't get back to work as if nothing had happened.

For the first time in more than three years, Qiu Se willfully asked for leave and willfully did what he wanted to do.

She didn't tell anyone that she bought a ticket back to Fuzhou.

That morning, it was a little cold, Qiu Se took simple luggage and Yuan Ningqiu's laptop, called a taxi, and boarded the train to Fuzhou alone. In her concept, if she goes to Fuzhou, she should call it back to Fuzhou. So, with the mood of going home, she went to Fuzhou.

Sitting in the seat, Qiu Se didn't have much emotion, she thought she would have a lot of thoughts, but she was very calm, to be precise, Mu Ne. She looked out the window, thinking of nothing, and even, the more than three years of time, for her at this moment, was too much, at this moment, she was the same as every time she returned home to school many years ago.

After more than 4 hours of driving, Qiu Se once again stood on the land of Fuzhou. Instead of taking the No. 29 bus bound for Chuanda as before, she raised her hand and stopped a taxi: "Master, go to the O2 Hotel." Before saying this, she was drumming in her heart, and she was worried about the taxi driver telling her that the hotel was no longer there. However, the driver's master said: "Okay! "I started in the direction of the O2 Hotel.

That's where I used to go with Jing Xuan. Although, she did not contact Jing Xuan.

Settling her belongings, she went out.

Walking out of the hotel, outside is Fenghai Avenue, Qiu Se walked in the direction of Chuanda with a familiar car, her steps were very large, and she walked very fast. At that time, autumn was deep and the wind was very strong. Qiu Se is still Qiu Se, but he is no longer Qiu Se in jeans and sneakers...

At that time, Qiu Se, with bangs, straight black hair, and sneakers on her feet were not expensive but always white as new, walking on Fenghai Avenue, the wind blew the bangs in front of her forehead, and she strode forward, sometimes with her hands in her jacket pockets, sometimes throwing them high on both sides of her body, walking and maybe jumping a few steps, like a lively rabbit.

Today's Qiu Se, with a smooth forehead, slightly curly brown hair hanging from the top of his forehead along his cheeks to his shoulders, and when the wind blows, his long hair sways in the wind, like a light brown streamer. The leather shoes on his feet clicked rhythmically with his steps on the road, and the back hem of his trench coat reflected the flying hair in the wind. Her hands were still in her pockets, but they were no longer stretched out and flung high.

This road seems to be longer than I remember, I don't know how long I walked, Qiu Se finally came to Chuanda, she looked at the familiar gate, looked in, and a little strange - the first teaching building was rebuilt. She didn't bother to take a closer look at the new and more majestic new teaching building, but only quickened her pace, and walked along the road of thinking and learning that she used to walk to her former dormitory building.

On campus, as in those years, young faces, vivid gestures, talking and laughing, in groups, or leisurely, or in a hurry, walked past her, but no one was familiar with greeting and waving hands.

Finally, she came to the fifth dormitory building, the red five-story building, the place that contained the fantasies, sorrows, struggles, embarrassments, apprehensions, and beauty of her youth. She stood outside the white iron fence and looked at the floor-to-ceiling window balcony on the third floor, which was the bedroom where she lived back then, with Xue Mengzhu, Mo Jia and Song Xiangjue in it, Lin Yang and Qi Pan at the door, and Deng Junhan and Jing Xuan on the corridor downstairs...

Qiu Se stood silently, looking at the window, as if he saw Qiu Se and Xue Mengzhu, who met for the first time in 304, introducing themselves to each other and drinking fruit oranges; On the night before the exam, Mo Jia secretly turned on the night light to endorse; Song Xiangjue was covered with a quilt and called her boyfriend; Lin Yang and Qi Pan came to chat with a few of them in pajamas, discussing how to earn some "extra money"... She seemed to see Deng Junhan and Jing Xuan staggering from the road, and said to her and Xue Mengzhu, "Let's go, let's eat!" ”

Everything is like yesterday.

Yuan Ningqiu's death made Qiu Se really doubt life, she really didn't know, accident or tomorrow, which came first. Ning Qiu walked so suddenly, and suddenly Qiu Se was very scared, she was afraid that she would miss all these years, neglect, regret, and never have a chance to make up for it.

Looking at that window, she became more aware that over the years, she may be getting farther and farther away from "herself".

The wind was stronger, blowing her hair, and she raised her hand to brush her hair, gently wiping the tears from her face by the way. She took out her mobile phone, lowered her head and searched for a name in the WeChat address book, and then took a small video and sent it to the other party. I am back. This is our dormitory," she turned slowly, "the way to the hot water room," and slowly turned around, "We often dry our quilts in the little gazebo," and then turned around, "the convenience store that often buys sanitary napkins." In this way, Qiu Se successfully turned around in place and clicked "send". Immediately afterward, she sent another voice message: "I always wanted to come back, but I never thought I would come back." I miss you guys. ”

Soon, Qiu Se received a reply: "Huh? Are you back at school? Now?! Xue Mengzhu's voice was a little exaggerated because of his excitement. This was followed by another: "Who are you with?" Jing Xuan? ”

Qiu Se smiled, she thought about contacting Jing Xuan, but she didn't think it was good, so she didn't tell him that she was back. "Myself." She replied to Xue Mengzhu. Then he added: "I'm sad that a very good friend of mine is gone." ”

"Who? Do I know each other? Let's go? What do you mean? ”

"Yuan Ningqiu, I don't know if you have any impressions, I should have mentioned it to you. Esophageal cancer, passed away. When Qiu Se said this, there was regret in his tone, but he was also calm.

"Esophageal cancer? So young? Xue Mengzhu was very surprised, just like Qiu Se who had just gotten the news.

"Yes, things are impermanent, so I decided not to worry about it so much and do whatever I want. Originally, Yancheng was not very far from Fuzhou, so he came back as soon as he gritted his teeth. But she still used "gritted teeth".

Qiu Se walked into the small pavilion behind him and sat down.

"Don't be upset." Xue Mengzhu's voice was soft, and his tone was full of comfort and helplessness.

"Don't worry, you can't come back to life, I understand. I don't have many friends. ”

"Why don't you just come to me."

"Think about it. I'll take some school videos for you later! ”

"Okay, I'll wait for you."

The friendship between friends does not need to be elaborated, but the distance in time and space is always helpless. Like now, if they face each other, Xue Mengzhu would give Qiu Se a warm hug, but now, she can only persuade Qiu Se not to be sad.

At this time, some students looked at Qiu Se, after all, it was cold, and it was a little cloudy today, and a woman with a raw face sat in the pavilion downstairs from them, looking a little eye-catching. So, Qiu Se got up and tidied up the hem of his clothes, and walked back to the campus.